[Comprehensive] In the name of secret love

"What's the matter? Why are you stunned?" Because he was worried that the child would be too uncomfortable and unable to express clearly, Youyi quickly sat beside the child and held his skinny hand tightly, "Is it uncomfortable? Don't Scared, tell me slowly, okay?"

Not a cold gaze, not a disgusted look...

She moved her lips slightly, and the long and narrow eyes gradually filled with water vapor.As if the long-term patience had reached the limit, the child suddenly pulled out the hands held by Yuyi, and buried his body firmly in Yuyi's arms.

His body trembled slightly, his tightly clenched fists showed little veins, and Youyi, who sensed that the child was afraid and sad, patted the child's thin shoulder lightly.After feeling that the shirt he was wearing was gradually becoming damp, Youyi, who felt more distressed, gently rubbed the child's white hair with warm hands, hoping to bring him some comfort.

What has this child experienced?Why is it so suppressed even when crying, without making a sound?

"Little brother, can you tell me your name?" Seeing that the child's breath gradually calmed down, Youyi said softly, "I'm here, don't worry."

She moved her head and changed to a more comfortable position.Feeling nostalgic for the child in Youyi's warm embrace, he didn't give Youyi any answer, but greedily inhaled the refreshing fragrance of flowers all over Youyi, and a touch of nostalgia flashed through his long and narrow eyes.

Such a familiar embrace... like mother's embrace...but like mother but not like mother...

His name is Bailan Jesso, and he is the most shady illegitimate son of the Jesso family.

In his earliest memories, he lived a poor but happy life.In a small family, although he does not have a broad-minded father who plays with him like other children, he has a mother who thinks of him all the time and does his best to give him the best life.

His mother is a gentle woman, no matter how hard life is, he has no impression of her crying.His mother, who is not only good at cooking, but also very good at making female red clothes, often finds time out of her busy schedule to make new clothes for him. Before he was 4 years old, all his clothes were made by his mother herself.

At that time, when he was young, he thought that having a mother meant having a family.Although sometimes he envies those friends who are accompanied by his father, but in order not to make his mother sad, subconsciously, he will not ask his mother about his father.I only remember one time, because he was slandered by a child during the day, saying that he was an unwanted wild child, he was lying on the bedside sad and wronged, and asked his mother cautiously.

"Mom, am I an unwanted wild child?"

Although children are pure and innocent, without distracting thoughts, they are unexpectedly the most sensitive people.Although he tells himself all the time, he has a mother and a warm home.But sometimes, he can always find an incomprehensible complexity in the eyes of his mother looking at him tenderly.

"...how come?" As if overwhelmed by his question, his mother immediately pulled him into her arms after recovering, and the refreshing fragrance overwhelmed him in an instant, "You have to remember, Bai Lan, You will always be my pride and I will always love you dearly, my child."

What was he thinking at that time?By the way, it is an unspeakable sadness.Although he was hugged tightly by his mother, but for some reason, at that moment, he felt his mother was crying silently.I always feel that his problems hurt his mother deeply.

Since then, no words about papa or wild child have come out of his mouth.The days when he was with his mother were full of joy and laughter all the time.But this joy and laughter changed dramatically half a year after his fourth birthday.Completely destroyed by a man named Muir Jesso.

He deeply remembered that after playing around with his friends all day, he rushed home on time.But when he entered the house, what greeted him was not his mother's gentle smiling face and fragrant food, but his mother's pale and hopeless tearful face and a white-haired man with an unusually cold expression that he had never seen before.

"You are Bai Lan?" The man's long and narrow eyes did not contain any emotion, and the cold light seemed to cut him. "I am Muir Jesso, your father, come with me."

There were no extra words, no hugging and lifting him up like other children's fathers, only orders.At that time, he only felt cold from head to toe.But after noticing his mother's look of complete recovery, an indescribable courage surged from his body.

"Then mother..."

"You will have a new mother in the future."

Quickly cutting off his words, the man who claimed to be his biological father had eyes full of contempt when he mentioned his mother.

"Please, please, this child is all I have! Don't take him away, please, Muir, because of our many years of friendship..."

His mother was crying so hard that she knelt on the ground and begged the man who didn't even bother to look at her, trembling all over.But the expression on the face of the man named Muir Jesso suddenly changed, and the originally cold and expressionless face was instantly filled with murderous intent.

That's right, it's killing intent.Although he had never seen anyone with such a terrifying expression at that time, there was a voice in his heart that kept telling him.At this moment, this man really wanted his mother's life.Moreover, he can take it without hesitation and without mercy.

"Friendship? There is no friendship between us. When you conceived a child but didn't kill it, but escaped my sight and gave birth to him secretly, the poor friendship between us has disappeared."

He casually left such a sentence, his biological father never talked to his mother again.Afterwards, regardless of his wailing and his mother's pleading, the man directly took him away from that warm home, sent him to a luxuriously decorated mansion, and ordered someone to serve him.

Life has become very rich, and he has servants to accompany him wherever he goes.He had a new brother and mother, but he didn't feel a little happy.

It was fine when his biological father was around, but once his biological father was gone, his new mother and elder brother would immediately change their faces.Insults and punishments, he could and must grit his teeth and endure the treatment at the beginning.Because his new mother imprisoned his mother without his biological father knowing it.

But gradually, as if she was insatiable, in the absence of her biological father, insults and punishments seemed not enough for her to vent her anger.He began to be beaten, and the strikers were extremely experienced, who often made him roll on the ground in pain, but there were hardly any scars on his body.And when he was enduring the pain and twitching all over, he could vaguely notice the distorted pleasure on his new mother's face.

It's okay, it's okay, I can bear it for my mother...just like my mother protected me back then...

At that time, after being beaten and locked in a small black room, he hugged his small body to comfort himself like this.That person said, the main thing is that he can endure the pain, and his mother will be fine!He has grown up and is an upright man who can support his mother.

The days went on like this day by day, and gradually, he was able to endure this level of torture.But because Jesso's company grew step by step, in order to better develop, his biological father changed from going home two days a week to going home two days a week for several months.Since then, he has been subjected to even more brutal abuse.

If pinching him doesn't solve the hatred, change to scalding him, and if scalding him can't relieve the hatred, change to whipping him.In order to vent the distortion and hatred buried in his heart for many years, his new mother used various methods.The room with the big soft and warm bed has also become a dark and damp attic.Because of his weakness, at the very beginning, he often had a high fever all night long. Only when he was dying, the family doctor at home would treat his wounds.

What should I do, Mom, I can hardly hold on anymore, it hurts so much, it hurts so much...

Lie down on the ground limply, the pain from the wound stimulated his nerves all the time.Just when he thought that maybe he was going to be tortured to death, suddenly something big happened in this cold family.His nominal elder brother died of a rare disease.

When he heard the news, deep in his heart, he felt a little bit sorry for his brother.But more, it is an indescribable pleasure.He thought, he understood a little bit why that person abused him so much.On the contrary, he also felt sad, as if unconsciously, his heart was not as pure as before.

"It's all you! It's all you dirty bastard! Your mother, that bitch, robbed my husband, and you bastard killed my son! Unforgivable! Unforgivable! You think you killed my only one Will your son inherit the Jesso Company in the future? Don’t even think about it! You’re dreaming! You’re going to die!”

Because of the loss of his son, his new mother was disheveled and ran up to the attic with a face full of madness. Regardless of the servant's stop, she strangled his neck tightly.At that time, he knew that this woman, who had always been full of distortion, pain, and hatred in her heart, was finally overwhelmed by the death of her child, her only hope in the world that could bring her light, and she went completely crazy.But he did not have the expected happiness, only relief.When he was in a coma, he always missed his mother's gentle smiling face and the loving paradise that his mother told him.

But who knows, when he woke up, he didn't go to heaven, but came to a strange place.But this strange woman in front of him brought him familiar warmth, but how would he tell her his dirty name?He, who has always been ashamed of his surname Jesso, also became a shackle when his mother was imprisoned because of the name Bai Lan.

"I...my name is Jielan..." He hid his real name as if he was injured while playing outside, in order not to make his mother worry and sad.Perhaps because he hadn't drank water or talked for a long time, his voice was indescribably hoarse, "Big sister, can you tell me your name?"

"Jielan, you can't get out of bed at will! The wound on your body is still serious!" At noon the next day, Youyi, who was serving porridge in the kitchen, felt a little helpless when she felt arms hugging her right leg tightly. Sighing, "How can you not listen to your sister?"

"I'm fine." Shaking her little white head, Bai Lan said solemnly, "I just..." just want to stay by your side.

Hearing the hidden words in Bailan's words, Youyi bent down and rubbed his hair pitifully, "Even so, you have to be patient! Otherwise, I will be very worried when your wounds get worse. Jielan doesn't want to I'm sad, right?"

It may be related to the bad treatment he received before. Although the child didn't say anything, Youyi could feel the sensitivity and care in the child's heart.It was a feeling of nostalgia, distress, and complicated feelings gathered together.Since the child woke up yesterday, he has been following her, not wanting to be separated.And in the depths of his eyes, there is a trace of stubbornness and... madness that is not easy to detect.It was a feeling that couldn't even be described by clothes.

Although at the beginning, Yui was surprised at how this child appeared in her home, and what secrets he was hiding.But after nearly a day of getting along, all her doubts and concerns about this child were forgotten by her. What she wants to do most now is to give this child as much warmth as possible.Tacitly don't ask anything, tacitly accompany this child, tacitly live an ordinary day like ordinary siblings.This is what Yu Yi can give, and it is also the life Bai Lan hopes to live.

Had a big lunch and a new round of medicines for all the wounds.After completing these matters, the time has pointed to two o'clock in the afternoon.

Compared with the dying state yesterday evening, Bai Lan's current physical condition is first-class.Although she is only five years old, Bai Lan's body is thinner than her peers, but her resilience and resistance are several times or even ten times that of her peers because she has been in a state of self-healing from injuries for a long time.

The long and narrow eyes scanned every corner of the apartment over and over again, and the little Bai Lan felt extremely soft inside.Although he likes this "home" that is still relatively unfamiliar to him and Nanami Yui who gives him infinite warmth, he has a feeling that he is not far away from leaving.

Rather than saying that it is the ability of the prophet, it is better to say that it is a kind of subconsciousness deep in his heart.Although he would feel very lonely leaving here, he understood that for him, there was one more important thing that he had to work hard for, and that was his mother.

The lady who has gone crazy said something very wrong. In his impression, he is the only boy in the current Jesso family.According to the tradition of the Jesso family, the heirs of the company and the family must be men.Although he is the illegitimate son of Muir Jesso who can't see the light, but when he has no choice, even Muir Jesso has to bow his head to reality.Otherwise, Muir Jesso's hard work in the mall for many years will be handed over to others.And once he becomes stronger, he can save his poor mother.

Just like the rich man game he played with his friends before he came to the Jesso family in the future, the winner can enjoy the glory and wealth, and the loser will be forever lost.

"Jielan, I'm going out to buy some groceries first, you stay at home with Mimi obediently, understand?" Youyi's voice interrupted Bailan's thoughts, "I'll be back in a while, don't worry."

Yuyi actually didn't want to leave home, after all, there was an injured child who needed to be taken care of.But the reality is, if she doesn't go shopping, she, Jaylan and the cat will all be hungry tonight.

Symbolically comforting the cat, You Yi knelt down to say goodbye to Bai Lan amidst the cat's grinning dissatisfaction.Just about to stand up, in the next second, Bailan's thin arms wrapped around Yuyi's neck, and she was hugged tightly in his arms.

"Thank you." Little Bai Lan's voice was as clear as a spring, "Thank you very much."

Gently patted Bailan's soft body, Youyi stood up, waved to Bailan, and left the house.Waving back, Bai Lan smiled brightly.He didn't stop his movements until Youyi left the house.

I am really grateful that he will never forget in this life. When he was in the most pain and helplessness and needed warmth the most, she, who was completely unfamiliar with everything about him, extended a helping hand to him without hesitation.Thank you very much, Nanami Yui.

Mifen red smoke spread around him again, and with a strange sound, Bai Lan's small figure was no longer there.