easy to be a man

Zhou Liming is dreaming.

He turned into a five-year-old child, and the surrounding scenes were not very clear.Zhou Liming noticed something strange in his heart, but because his mind was not very clear when he was dreaming, he didn't go into it.He just felt that he was very happy. His parents were about to celebrate his birthday. There was a big cake on the dining table, there were many decorations around, and many gifts were prepared.Zhou Liming wore a small birthday crown, a small red cape, and a toy truck in his hand. He was busy running around, making all kinds of ping-pong-pong sounds in excitement.Zhou Liming's mother still looked very young. She put her hands on the back of the seat and looked at him with a smile, "Run slowly every year, and be careful not to fall!" Zhou's father also had a smile on his face, talking to the side Said: "It's normal for a boy to be crazy, you just let him run away."

Although Zhou's father smiled and spoke for himself, Zhou Liming felt a little resistance in his heart when he saw him. He ran to the other side and played with Sister Wang who was cooking.Sister Wang was tidying the sofa, when she saw Zhou Liming running over, she smiled and patted his head.

In the midst of this joy, the doorbell rang.

Sister Wang said strangely: "Who is here at this time." She went to the entrance and opened the door, and saw a young woman standing outside the door.Sister Wang looked a little strange, but she still asked politely, "Who are you looking for?"

Seeing this woman smiling sweetly, with a hint of coquettish charm, she opened her mouth and said, "I'm looking for He Xue, this is his home. He's been looking for me for a few days, I'm worried about him so I came to see .”

When she heard this, Sister Wang's complexion suddenly turned dark, she was stunned and didn't know what to do.But Zhou Liming, who had been hiding behind and watching, also followed out the door, looking at the woman vigilantly.

Seeing Zhou Liming's smile became sweeter, the woman said to him gently: "You are He Xue's son, you are very handsome. When you grow up, you will be as attractive as your father." Only Zhou Liming got this "compliment" If so, he couldn't help but took a step back.In his heart, he felt that this woman was a little scary. Although she smiled sweetly, there was a sticky coldness in her eyes. When she looked at her, it was like being stared at by a poisonous snake.

Zhou Liming didn't know if he had really turned into a five-year-old child, and his mind was not very sound. He just had a face-to-face meeting with this woman, and he was frightened to cry. Sister Wang hurriedly hugged Zhou Liming when she heard the crying.And Zhou's mother, who was attracted by Zhou Liming's crying, immediately turned pale with joy after seeing the woman.Mother Zhou took a deep breath with an ugly face, but she still didn't forget to tell Sister Wang: "You take Niannian to the study first."

"Okay." Sister Wang hurriedly agreed. She looked at Zhou's mother worriedly, but she didn't say anything after all. She carried Zhou Liming, who was still crying, into the study.

Sure enough, Zhou Liming's mood stabilized a little in the study, and he stopped crying, but he still had a lot of uneasiness in his heart.Zhou Liming didn't know how Zhou's mother solved that woman, but after a while, he heard Zhou's mother and Zhou's father arguing in the living room.

"Zhou Hexue, didn't you say that you were clean before marriage? Who is that at the door! I only know now that you are not clean at all, you have never been clean at all!"

"Zhihan, don't get excited, don't be angry. I was wrong. I was soft-hearted and didn't send her away immediately. I won't let her appear in front of you again. You know I don't have any feelings for her. , It was just a novelty at the time. Who knew she would be so entangled! There will never be such a thing again. Zhihan, I promise you!"

"I don't believe you anymore, you must be lying to me again..." Mother Zhou whimpered, but gradually calmed down.Obviously, Zhou's father still coaxed Zhou's mother slowly.

Zhou Liming leaned on the big swivel chair, with an unstoppable hatred bubbling out of his heart, and a voice in his heart shouted: He lied to you again, and he doesn't know how many people are outside, don't believe him!But on the surface he was just a five-year-old child, so he turned to Sister Wang and said, "Auntie, I'm hungry."

Sister Wang had been looking in the direction of the door worriedly, and when she heard the other party's voice, she turned her head in embarrassment and said to Zhou Liming: "Niannian, wait a little longer, bear with it first."

"Yeah." Zhou Liming nodded, then lowered his head and obediently played with the pickup truck.But this time he was far less happy playing than before. He just mechanically pushed the truck over there and then backed it up, pushed it over and backed it up again.

After a murmur outside the door, Zhou's mother's voice came again, "Nian Nian has seen her, what should I do? At that time, Nian Nian cried in fright!"

"It's okay, what does the child remember. After Niannian comes out, we will pretend that nothing happened, and he will soon forget it."

Sister Wang looked at Zhou Liming with affection in her eyes. She took out a tissue and wiped Zhou Liming's face again, then patted his head.

Zhou Liming looked at Sister Wang, but his heart gradually turned cold.He deeply remembered this memory, and felt that he was no longer a five-year-old child.The picture blurred into a ball with his induction, and the surrounding materials merged again, but it turned into another scene.

Zhou Liming stood at the dimly lit staircase, listening to Zhou's father and mother's conversation on the sofa in the living room.

He is not as young as five years old now, about ten years old, but he still remembers the hatred he had when he was young, which made him frown when he heard Father Zhou's voice.

At this time, Zhou's father's voice is still very charming: "Zhihan, I don't care about those people outside. In fact, I only have you in my heart for so many years."

But I heard Zhou's mother sneer, "I'm the only one in your heart who can sleep so many people, it's really hard for you. Do you think I will still believe your words? I have changed my mind about you a long time ago."

Hearing this, Zhou's father was a little angry, "Changed your mind? You and that assistant Xiao Zhang are really not that simple! How could you do this? Don't you worry that your son will find out!"

When Zhou Liming was mentioned, Zhou's mother's voice changed from indifference to anger, "Don't mention my son to me, you are the least qualified to mention it. With your jewels in front of me, I am nothing. You are worried that you will still do something in these years. These things?"

Father Zhou said as a matter of course: "Of course I'm worried about Niannian, so I never made a child outside, just for Niannian. After all, it's our two children."

Zhou's mother said with a cold face: "Then you really have a heart, don't worry, I will pay attention to it."

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The following words gradually became hard to hear, Zhou Liming clenched his fists tightly, his palms were caught by nails, and there was a dull pain.He thought of the little Uncle Zhang he had met before, who was Zhou's mother's assistant. He looked very kind, but unexpectedly he was his mother's lover.Zhou Liming felt a little disgusted in his heart, but he understood that Zhou's mother should not be blamed for this matter. After his father betrayed the family, it was only natural for his mother to make such a choice.But that kind of painful emotion surged, submerging his not-so-high body in it.Zhou Liming slowly sat on the steps of the stairs, buried his head in his knees.His eyes were hot for a while, but he felt a sudden indifference in his heart.He suddenly realized that he should not be a ten-year-old child anymore.

The surrounding scenes gradually blurred again, and after the environment was reorganized again, Zhou Liming felt that he had become taller.This seems to have happened not too long ago, and he seems to be still in high school.At the end of evening self-study, Zhou Liming walked into the house with his schoolbag on his back, and saw his father Zhou, who was not much at home, slumped on the sofa, seemingly drunk.

Zhou Liming glanced there and turned a blind eye. He planned to go upstairs, but Zhou's father stopped him, "Come here every year, I have something to say to you."

The drunk Father Zhou didn't look as majestic as he was when he was sober. His tie was crumpled on his shoulders, which looked a little funny, but his eyes looked clear, as if he didn't seem to be really drunk.

Zhou Liming glanced at Father Zhou, didn't speak, just stayed where he was and looked at him.And Zhou's father was probably really drunk, and he didn't care whether Zhou Liming was listening, so he said to himself: "Niannian, Dad knows that you don't like me, and Dad also knows that I'm sorry for you. But in fact, I I don’t want to be like this. When I first got together with your mother, I also wanted to live a good life with her, but I just couldn’t control myself. When I was your age, I used to complain about your grandpa for being promiscuous outside Your grandma is sad, but who would have thought that I would become like that too." Father Zhou tilted his head and smiled, even though he was in such a mess, the corners of his mouth still had a charming arc, he raised his head, his eyes were focused, he looked at Zhou Liming shouted: "Niannian, no matter what you will become in the future, Dad hopes that you will be happy."

Zhou Liming had already walked up the stairs at this moment, but after hearing this, his footsteps still paused.Zhou Liming sneered, feeling that there was really no fluctuation in his heart...

When Zhou Liming woke up, his face was calm.He closed his eyes and took a deep breath, feeling a little tired.He raised his hand and touched the corner of his eye, then simply put his hand on his forehead and closed his eyes for a while.It's been a long time since he had this kind of memory dream. It's still such a series of memories. I have to say that it's really tiring to go through that kind of thing again.

Thinking of this, Zhou Liming couldn't help laughing at himself.Many times, I think I don't care anymore, but this kind of past wounds will come out from the corners to remind myself that they still exist here, like a curse that can only be imprisoned but cannot be broken.

Zhou Liming opened his eyes and stopped thinking about it. He got up and poured himself a glass of water, then began to wash and dress.

There is class this morning, so there is no room for dawdling.

From the apartment to the school, and into the classroom again, Zhou Liming sat in the second row as usual, and Wang Zhiduo still sat next to him with no winks, his mouth could not stop gossip, full of fireworks.Zhou Liming ignored him, but his eyes kept drifting to the door, and after a while he saw Liang Shu walking in from the door.

Liang Shu glanced at Zhou Liming and nodded at him, then looked at Wang Zhiduo who was next to him, hesitated for a moment, then ran back in a hurry.Zhou Liming looked at Liang Shu's back and smiled, feeling a little better.

Wang Zhiduo's wicked laughter came from behind Zhou Liming, "Hey, you and Liang Shu are just short of getting a marriage certificate in our school now, let me interview you, when do you plan to marry Liang Shu hahahaha "

Zhou Liming paused for a moment, some scenes from last night's dream flashed through his mind, his expression changed immediately, he turned his head and said to Wang Zhiduo, "None of your business."