[Guomin] Heart signal

Min Yoongi has been in love with Jung Ho-seok for ten years, from two stunned young men in college to their respective careers.This love has passed through a long time and has never diminished.After experiencing countless times of disappointment, despair and unwillingness to give up, he stood like a towering tree with green vines.

He once heard Zheng Haoxi say that in the future, he would marry a virtuous wife and have several lovely children, so as to form a happy family.Therefore, when I want to break the barrier and take a step forward countless times, I will suddenly become timid because of this thought.He was afraid of destroying the relationship with his ten-year best friend, afraid that after he moved forward, instead of breaking through the barrier, he would destroy the entire city.

He is afraid.So he was silent.

When Min's mother came to Zheng Haoxi's house, it was unexpected for Zheng Haoxi.After the gossip, Mother Min seemed to be hesitating a bit, not knowing how to start to say the purpose of her trip.

"Auntie..." Zheng Haoxi pulled the corner of his mouth and smiled stiffly, "If you have anything to say, just say it."

It's like intuition that those vague things hidden in the dark, near or far, are about to be revealed and pierced.

"Hoseok. I really regard you as half my son. You know that." Mother Min's expression at this time is also completely different from what she used to show in front of the children.

"Auntie has something to do to you. She hid it for many years, reflected on it for many years, and felt guilty for many years. I hope we, Huxi, don't blame my aunt for those narrow-minded thoughts back then."

So Min's mother began to tell that in the first two years, when the relationship between Min Yoongi and Zheng Haoxi was getting stronger and closer, it was normal for two young souls to collide and have mutual affection.It's just that they still don't understand what kind of feeling the love for each other is like.

The more ambiguous and intimate behavior and the more intense joy in the eyes made her feel more and more uneasy as a mother who hoped that her child would become a success.

So forced and tempted, his son Min Yoongi said those words in front of him, of course he wanted to marry a wife and have children to form a happy family.He deliberately let Zheng Haoxi outside the door hear him clearly, and deliberately asked his son, who was only ignorant of his feelings, if he liked boys.

At that time, Min Yoongi didn't want to get so much, but suddenly he was asked by his mother, he panicked, and naturally he hastily denied it.He himself has not been able to determine what kind of situation those throbbing and ambiguity are in his heart.

"How is it possible, of course I like girls." He was afraid that his mother would not believe him, so he added, "I must only like girls!"

After a period of time passed, he realized that he not only liked girls, but also boys, and that boy was his best friend - Zheng Haoxi.

Zheng Haoxi fell in love with Min Yoongi earlier than Min Yoonqi fell in love with Zheng Haoxi, and much earlier.Long before Min Yoongi failed to clearly recognize that unknown emotion, Jung Ho Suk already understood his hidden love.

Can't tell, dare not tell.I am afraid that it is not true, and I am afraid that it will change its quality when I say it.

Jung Hoseok was also afraid, so he was silent at first.

So he heard what Min Yoongi said to his mother himself, and he no longer dared to think about relationships other than close friends.

Mother Min is such a smart person. She could spot the clues early on and kill that dangerous relationship in the cradle in advance.How could it be impossible to see Min Yoongi's attitude towards Tang Qi now, and whether the relationship between the two is true or not.

"Although I wasn't sure at the time, I was afraid that my son would really like a man. The society at that time was not as open and tolerant as it is in the past two years. There are so many white eyes and public opinions. I don't want him and you to bear that kind of pressure."

"I always knew you were a good boy, gentle and kind. So I took advantage of your gentleness and kindness."

But Zheng Haoxi also knew that that was the most gentle reaction that Min's mother could make at that time.He can understand each other completely.

Men like men?And one of them might be his own son. In the eyes of Min's mother at that time, it might really be a bolt from the blue.She just used the most obscure and simplest way to protect the two young boys, to make one of them take a step back, to the position of just a friend.So she really succeeded.

Even later, Zheng Haoxi seriously stated that he wanted to marry a wife and have children to form a happy family, but he used the same method to suppress his feelings and deceive himself.

He is used to and is good at staying by Min Yoongi's side as a close friend. He doesn't need to ask for more. He is even willing to watch him marry a wife and have a complete and happy family for Min Yoongi. .

Including Tang Qi's appearance, including Min's mother's liking for Tang Qi, and including Min Yoongi's choice of Tang Qi in the end, Zheng Haoxi can accept it.He just needed a buffer time, a space for self-healing, so he escaped for a while.

But he was recaptured in that bloody reality, and no matter how superb his acting skills were, he couldn't perfectly cover his shaking mind and gradually crumbling city fortress.So he ran away again, and even fled in despair.

"After so many years, I realized that I was really wrong." Mother Min said slowly.

"You have always been so kind to him. You have taken care of him and accompanied him with all your heart. You have supported and comforted each other along the way and have become each other's strength. You have long been inseparable. Even in our family, you have long been regarded as a family. , I said that you are my half son, it is definitely not a hypocritical lie."

"Watching that show, Jimin and Jungkook, they embraced each other bravely and aboveboard. I realized that I was really wrong and outrageous, and made my children suffer for decades."

Min's mother couldn't hold back her tears in the end, and Zheng Haoxi passed the tissue over.

His heart was twisting and aching as if being grabbed by someone's hands, and the pain was so painful that his whole body was like densely packed bees stinging.

"That night, I saw that you still love Yoongi. And I also know that Yoongi and Tang Qi are just pretending to be in front of me. You are the one he loves. Hoseok, you have always been It's you."

A certain thread in Zheng Haoxi's body tensed instantly, and he felt as if he had heard something terrible.Those words began to buzz and vibrate from the moment they entered his ears, disrupting all his thoughts and turning his entire world upside down.

He raised his eyes and looked at Mother Min in a daze, his eyes turned red instantly, as if he had endured the great pain with all his strength.

Seeing him like this, Min's mother was very distressed, and hurriedly hugged him, stroking his head and his back.

"Good boy, it's true. I'm his mother and no one knows my son better than I do. You love him and he loves you."

Zheng Haoxi's tears finally burst when he heard the phrase "you love him, and he loves you too".

Min Yoongi and Jung Hoseok know each other so well that they are clearly the closest people, but they are the most able to rationalize each other's slightly different behaviors, so they can't correctly understand each other's intentions .

Just like the darkness under the lamp, the authorities are confused.

They are all self-deceived and deceitful, acting as best friends to each other, because the love was hidden too deep at the beginning, and they dare not take a step forward to break through the fog.

This collection lasted for ten years.

They have been silent with each other for ten years.

How many ten years can there be in life?

Afterwards, the relationship between the two returned to the original state, and everything was the same as before, but he didn't immediately seek confirmation. This was Zheng Haoxi's timidity and hesitation over the years.

He couldn't face such a clear relationship all at once, and he wasn't even sure that what Min's mother said was that Min Yoongi also loved him.

He was afraid that if he really believed it, even his fingers would start to tremble.

Zheng Haoxi thought, even if Min Yoongi really loves him, after so many years, will that love not diminish?Won't it gradually get lost in time?He doesn't have confidence in himself, he doesn't have enough confidence in himself that Min Yoongi is said to love him.

The real turning point for Min Yoongi and Jung Hoseok occurred on the day of Park Jimin and Jungkook's wedding.

After the wedding, the two returned home on the same road as before. When the car drove to Zheng Haoxi's downstairs, Min Yoongi proposed to go for a walk in the park not far away.

During this period, he lit a cigarette and stopped to lean against the trunk of a big tree beside the park path.

Jung Ho-seok looked at him, waiting for Min Yoongi to finish smoking that cigarette and speak.

"Hoseok—" Min Yoongi crushed the cigarette butt and threw it into the trash can, then turned around and said, "Do you want to..."

"Try to marry me?"

"No, will you marry me?"

"I want to marry you."

"I want to be with you... like Jungkook and Jimin..."

Min Yoongi looked in a hurry, and the theme of every sentence was to say: I want to marry you, let's get married.

"I love you, I want... to be with you, for one lifetime, two lifetimes, three lifetimes, four lifetimes, five lifetimes... Countless lifetimes, lifetimes."

This was Min Yoongi's flustered confession. He nervously looked at Zheng Ho-seok in front of him, afraid that the other party would look at him with a strange expression and disgusted eyes.

"Okay. Let's get married." Zheng Haoxi replied seriously.

Every word has been carefully ironed by his heart, and it is full of love that he has accumulated for a long time and cannot express.

On the contrary, Min Yoongi was stunned for a while, it was completely different from what he thought.

The best situation in his fantasy seems to be that Zheng Haoxi will think that he is joking, so he will also expose it as a joke.

Even he has already made the worst plan, that is, Zheng Haoxi has no deep taboo about this, and he may have to pay a heavy price for his impulsive recklessness at this time.

To a large extent, Min Yoongi was stimulated by Jungkook and Park Jimin, so he made the most courageous decision in his life.Then his decision brought him the most perfect and happiest result in his life.

good.Let's get married.

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