[Guomin] Heart signal

The writer sister who went to get the fruit knife brought the knife after washing it, and kindly helped them cut it into a long crescent shape. The remaining half was wrapped in plastic wrap and placed in the middle of the stone circle that was only slightly soaked in water, saying I will cut it later when Taehyung and Jungkook come back and save it for them.

After the two thanked each other, the writer sister went to chat with other people. The best shaded place by the stream was reserved for Min Yoongi and Park Jimin.

The ice-cold watermelon juice is rich, and the sweet taste of taking a bite all goes down the esophagus and enters the stomach.The gurgling stream, the boulders under the shade of the willows that are constantly being hit by the stream, and the sweet and delicious watermelon, Park Jimin is now completely peaceful.

Min Yoongi took two bites, then made a sudden noise after a long silence.Because in the past, it was Park Jimin who took the initiative to talk about the topic, but not today, he was worried that Park Jimin would still be entangled with that incident on the Internet.

"Jimin. Don't worry." He felt that he was actually not very good at comforting people, and he couldn't say many nice words.

"Ah...I'm fine, Brother Yoongi." Park Jimin lowered his head and gnawed on the watermelon whole.

Seeing this situation, Min Yoongi somehow felt that Park Jimin was indeed in better condition than in the morning.

"There is no program recording now, can you talk to me about your affairs? Or if you want to know about my affairs, I can tell you, but it needs to be kept secret."

Min Yoongi himself doesn't know why he wants to get to know Park Jimin, maybe it's because he has been with him for a long time, and even he himself didn't realize it, maybe he likes this younger brother a little bit.

"Brother, do you think that if you like someone for ten years, is it a stubborn and reckless fool, or is it persistent and sincere?" Park Jimin wiped the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand, put the leftover watermelon rind aside, and looked at Min Yoongi calmly. , so asked.

The calmer he seemed, the more turbulent and complicated his thoughts became.There are too many things he doesn't understand, he can't see himself clearly, and he doesn't know how to see the people around him clearly.

"Both." Min Yoongi's voice was a little deep and magnetic, and every word caught his ear.

"Whether it's a stubborn fool or a persistent sincerity, you love each other unreservedly, don't you? Because you have expectations, you never stop chasing. That's a sincere passion."

"You didn't force it, did you?" Min Yoongi was very sure, Park Jimin was too soft and kind, he would never embarrass the person he liked.

"Does she know you like her?" Min Yoongi asked after thinking about it.

"Yeah." Park Jimin hummed softly.

Then without reservation, he poured out all the unrequited love of those ten years to Min Yoongi, and the other party made him feel trust and dependence, and it was different from the kind between friends of the same age as Kim Taehyung, but the kind to his brother.

"It's a matter of course to accept your liking, and to sort out your relationship as a friend, right?" Min Yoongi suddenly felt a little headache, he and Park Jimin are very similar, but they are different.

"Jimin, ten years can make you see many things clearly, including your likes. People often say the seven-year itch, which means that the throbbing mood of likes gradually calms down. In short, it is dopamine and adrenal glands. Suspicion doesn’t work much anymore. When that feeling is no longer surging and throbbing, like and love can no longer be called like and love, it’s just a habit, your habit and sense of responsibility.”

"For example, two people in a marriage, after throbbing, return to calm. Many are no longer love, but there is still love between the two. It is a love that has transformed into friendship and family affection."

"If you think about it, you didn't delay the other party, and you didn't even have the slightest responsibility. So for a long time, your persistence, the so-called 'like', isn't it because you are used to 'liking' the other party?"

Ha Eun Hee has never said that he likes Park Jimin, and even explicitly rejected Park Jimin's confession many times.But she still accepted Park Jimin's kindness to her with peace of mind, and never faced up to Park Jimin's sincerity, allowing it to hurt and heal itself.It seemed that Park Jimin was determined not to leave her, like a fool that he couldn't live without her in this life.

"When you see her now, your heart still beats faster and throbbing, do you feel extremely happy? It still feels peaceful and flat, like an old friend for many years." Min Yoongi looked at Park Jimin's thoughtful look, and added, " You don't have to answer now."

He changed the description again, "If you see her at this moment, maybe it's not as good as when you recall the time when you liked her the most in the early years, the joy brought by those voices and smiles?"

"You're just used to it, not still in love."

Park Jimin lowered his eyes, the sourness surging from every corner of his body filled his world at this moment, as if full of grievances passed through like a hurricane, sweeping every inch of his emotions.

"I know, Brother Yoongi...I know." Park Jimin closed his eyes, without the light in front of his eyes, as if he could speak freely.

"I understand everything." He smiled self-deprecatingly, "But those beautiful things were too good back then, and I was really happy and happy in those years when I liked her. I couldn't bear it, so I refused to give up."

"Except for the first few years, my stubborn pursuit later seems to be no longer because I simply like her, but seems to be all about competing with myself. Because I have never gotten it, I always feel that it is the best."

"I probably just liked me too much at the time when I didn't look back and simply liked her. Instead of pretending to be a victim like now, self-pity and self-pity... self-inflicted." Park Jimin lowered his head dejectedly , "I'm really... so despicable."

He raised his head and looked at the originally gloomy sky in the morning, with a halo shining under the half-covered state of the clouds.There were orange-red leaves in the mountains in the distance, and he remembered that it was autumn.

"How can such a despicable me deserve love?"

Min Yoongi lowered his eyelids and let out a long breath, "You don't have to take all the faults and responsibilities on yourself."

He didn't know how to comfort the other party, his situation was not much better than Park Jimin's, so he could only tell Park Jimin that in that unrequited love, it was not his fault, but the other party always gave him hope, making him think that he could I got a response, so I was reluctant to give up.It's not all the responsibility of Park Jimin, the other party should also bear more than half of the responsibility.

"Jimin, look forward, someone loves you."

Then Min Yoongi began to narrate flatly, "I also have someone I've liked for a long time."

"I used to think that he liked me too, but later I found out that he didn't, so I couldn't even muster up the courage to ask him what he wanted. To this day, I haven't been able to ask what I want to ask, and I haven't been able to express my love to him. To convey my heart to the other party. Compared with you, I seem to be more cowardly."

"It's not even an unrequited love, it's a secret love at most. You see, Jimin... even if he doesn't know what I like, as long as I can look at him and stay by his side, I will It’s also a pleasure.”

"You are different from me. You at least have the chance to be rejected and know how the other party thinks about your liking. I don't even have those opportunities, because I dare not say the phrase 'I like you' out of my mouth. "

Min Yoongi calmed down completely, and continued to take a bite of the watermelon he still had left.

"You just made a mistake in not being able to recognize your own heart, and confining yourself in an unrequited love that should have ended long ago. And what about me? Even if I was wrong at the beginning, I can only continue to make mistakes. Who told me Cowardly."

Park Jimin stared carefully at Min Yoongi's expression, then smiled, "Brother Yoongi, the person you like must also like you. For sure."

"Nonsense and irresponsible?" Min Yoongi reprimanded him funny.

"Intuition, bro...my intuition." Park Jimin said with certainty and conviction.

It made Min Yoongi raise his eyebrows, and said nonchalantly, "I would like to borrow your good words."

Min Yoongi also wavered, he loved Zheng Ho-seok for ten years, he never saw only Zheng Ho-seok in his eyes, and he was willing to stay by his side as a friend.His vacillation also came from Zheng Haoxi, not others, nor any other external factors.

He had two dates with An Zhihui when he was recording a program before. On the second time, the other party told him, "You are like a star shining in the sky. Although you are similar to thousands of stars, you are still unique. One, the place will never be replaced."

"If someone keeps staring at you, a star, pouring out love. Will you fall as a shooting star for her and fulfill her wish?"

This question made him wonder, do you want to stop?or continue?

He found that he couldn't stop, because that person was Jung Hoseok, the object of his never-ending love.As long as that person is Jung Hoseok, his heart will keep beating for him and will never stop.

But Zheng Haoxi is different from him. He likes Zheng Haoxi, who happens to be a man.But Zheng Haoxi doesn't like men, he knows it well.

So he hesitated, whether he should let go and let Zheng Haoxi live a normal and happy life of marrying a wife and having children.

Instead of using the bondage of a close friend to hinder the other party, let the other party delay in getting married because they need to take care of themselves or worry about themselves.

Min Yoongi felt that he could actually bear it, as long as he could stay by his side and watch him, even if he had to hide that fiery love forever in the deepest part of his heart.

When he got married, he was also dressed in a suit as his best man, and called the good-looking and gentle woman next to him, his siblings, watching him have a child in the future and reunite with his family.And he was alone all his life, outside that happy and happy family, watched from a distance like an outsider.

But at this moment, he felt unbearable, just thinking about such a scene, he was about to go crazy.