[Tutor] Lick the dog until nothing is left
Chapter 37 The Last Love Song
There are rumors in the mafia world that there are no more than three illusionists in this world who can fool the Avengers, but I never thought that Fran would be one of them.
I have always known that I have an innate talent in illusion, but at this moment I realized that in front of a real genius, I am just a mortal with some qualifications.
"Genius or something... I don't want to be compared with senior idiots." Fran extinguished the flame on the ring, patted the dirt on the frog's hat expressionlessly, and pointed to a screen in the room, "This I'd better give this title to Master, after all, they are all of that vicious type."
"...Don't push yourself too far."
I glanced at him speechlessly, stood up from the chair, threw this well-behaved brat here, and walked towards the back of the screen first.
There is only a lonely bed in this temporary foothold, and Liu Dao Mu is lying on it at this time.The long dark blue hair was spread out on the snow-white sheets, and the thin tube of the hanging needle was hidden between the raised veins on the back of the hand.
This man who has been imprisoned in the water prison for a full ten years still has a trace of paleness on his face, but when he sensed my arrival, he raised his eyes slightly. Those strange-colored eyes were like glaciers mixed with blood. Guo Juanpan's eyelashes and feathers are facing me.
"Long time no see, Mukuro. Ah, no...it seems like I just saw you a few days ago."
I stood where I was, bending my eyes at him.
The dog and Qianzhong at the side helped him up in a hurry, and Liu Daokuo sat on the head of the bed leisurely, his gaze fell on my hand.
After a barely checked meal, he laughed lowly: "Oh...you can do this, I really didn't expect it."
I subconsciously covered my left hand, and my palm touched the cold ring, but I couldn't block the weird voice in my head.
"Meet him, go see him."
"You will meet again in that world."
It's like the undead returning from hell calling their followers. From the day I wore it in my hand, it echoed in my heart over and over again.
"It's better to throw away such a dangerous toy me as soon as possible. Otherwise, it may be your life that will be thrown away."
Fran's voice suddenly sounded from behind. He walked behind me at some point, and was looking at me quietly with those jade-like inorganic eyes, neither sad nor happy, as if he was watching a person approaching the end. prisoner.
really.I am a prisoner.
A sinner trapped in a prison called love, a nostalgic addicted to the tender past.
Is a sick person for whom there is no cure.
The hell ring is good at prying into the owner's heart. It knows that I want to see him, so it seduces me every day and night.
In my mind, in my heart, when I open and close my eyes, there are all whispers from the undead.
I do miss him.
I really want to ask him, would he be happier in a world without me?
But if it was him, he would definitely not want me to do this.
"I don't know if that guy has guessed what you look like now."
Liu Daoku raised his lips slightly, his voice was low and soft, and when he half lowered his eyes to look at a person, the fine eyelashes would cover most of his pupils, his gaze was as gentle as looking at a lover.
But I know that this is just his usual disguise.
Most of the people born in this world live with a false mask, and they will never be able to reveal their true selves to their peers.
I am one of them.
Even Gangji is the same.
As adults, everyone wears similar faces and speaks similar things.
When it hurts, say it doesn’t hurt; when you cry, say you didn’t cry; when you’re wronged, say it’s okay; when you’re so sad that you’re going to die, tell the person who hugged you, I’m fine.
Laughing when crying; crying when laughing.When you see through their vain masks, ask them, and they will smile and tell you that you are wrong.
In this world, there is a kind of white lie.In the name of goodwill, people tell lies to those around them day after day.
In the end, everyone just believed it, believed that he really didn't hurt, believed that he really didn't cry, believed that it didn't matter, believed that he was fine.
But only I know it's all fake.
Because I am also so good at lying, I easily deceived him and myself.
Finally, I smiled and shook my head.
"Who knows."
Can he guess what I look like now.
Who knows?
Maybe it's impossible to guess.After all, in the past ten years, until the last days, we have not really seen each other clearly.
And in the future, there will be no chance to know each other again.
"If that's the case, you don't have to do anything." Liudao Mukuo said, "Or is it that you standing here are already a walking dead whose soul was taken away by the ring of hell?"
"……Do not."
I closed my eyes.
"I made this decision of my own will."
I still have things I want to do.
So, I'm going to keep going.
After a short rest, our group rushed to Japan as fast as possible.But even so, it seemed to be a step too late. After arriving at the familiar forest, the underground base originally established there had long been destroyed, and everyone was missing.
Liu Dao Mu contacted Collom through Mu Xiao, and learned about Peng Lie's current situation from her. Fran had already been called back by Balian, and he went to the battlefield faster than me.
I said goodbye to Mukuro, and he chuckled and said, "Culom will come here soon with the ring, won't you say goodbye to her? She seems to like you very much."
"...No need." I lowered my eyes and thought for a while before I said, "When you see her, please tell her for me—'If there is a destiny, we will meet again.'"
If everything can really end like Yuni said... In that distant time and space that belongs to them, maybe there will be another Miyagi Shari waiting to meet them.
"So, I won't say goodbye."
"Just say 'thank you' to her for me... just fine."
After parting from Muku and others, I walked alone on the path in the forest, walking straight forward like this, towards the agreed place in my memory.
In the luxuriant depths where the branches and leaves intertwined, Bai Lan had been waiting there for a long time.He sat cross-legged on a high-backed chair made of white stone, and a huge white device was attached to the back of the chair. When he saw me coming, he bowed his eyes and greeted me.
"It's so slow, Shirley-chan~"
Bingsheng in October is sunny and cloudless.The head is clearly the sunshine of early autumn, but it has a brilliant and bright light that is not inferior to that of late spring.
These lights are scattered and projected through the gaps between the treetops, like quicksand falling between the fingers.
Sitting in this light, Bai Lan's raised eyebrows were as bright as ever.His whole body was covered with a faint soft light, and his lazy and leisurely posture seemed to be a god of mercy to the world.
The sun fell on his snow-white top, and the white was so bright that it was almost dazzling, but I still walked over without moving my eyes.
I walked forward step by step, as if walking through a snowy long street, as if walking towards a coffin filled with lilies, and as if walking towards a future shrouded in strong light.
I saw my shadow changing with the light and shadow, and saw my shadow clinging to Bai Lan's body bit by bit.
I watched as the god he saw from afar gradually turned into a wingless man.
I stopped, and stopped opposite Bai Lan, only half a meter away.
As I approached, the smile on Bai Lan's face gradually faded.In the end, his face no longer had such a bright and false smile, but turned into a cold and ruthless smile just like him.
The smile seemed to hang on his face, becoming a mask that followed everywhere.
He opened his eyes, his violet-toned pupils were sharp and cold, even his voice was mixed with chill, it was no longer as sweet and soft as before.
"Is the ring of hell that I gave you still useful? Shirley ちゃん."
I tilted my head and didn't respond to his question.
Seeing that I didn't speak, Bai Lan looked at me for a while, and laughed as if suddenly remembering something: "Ah, yes... Xia Li-chan seems to have something to ask me."
I looked into his deep-toned eyes, and for some reason recalled a certain afternoon I once spent, Tsuna Kichi once stood in the mottled tree shadow and asked me a question.
He asked me, is the protagonist of the novel who thinks he has lost his qualifications as a human being a human being or a god?
How did I answer him at that time?
I said, he is a person with a godhead.
Isn't this very similar to today's Bai Lan?
He plays with the world in applause, and decides the life and death of human beings at will. He is like an omniscient god, looking down on everyone.
It was Bai Lan who killed him.In world after world.
"I do have something to ask you. Because your ability...is very special."
I thought of the first time I met Bai Lan, he had never seen me before, but he called out my name at a glance.
At that time, I thought he had overheard my conversation with Yoni and thus learned my identity, but in retrospect, he may have seen me long ago—in those parallel worlds that I can't touch.
"Haha, it really has something to do with Tsunayoshi-kun~ But if Shirley-chan wants to know, it's okay to tell you. Well, let me think about it..."
Bai Lan laughed and tapped the fingertips of one hand on the armrest, as if thinking seriously.
"Ah, I remembered."
"In other worlds, Shirley-chan seems to like Tsunayoshi-kun very much^^"
I was slightly taken aback: "...what?"
"It means that as long as you meet Tsunayoshi-kun in the world, Shirley-chan will fall in love with him. Hmm... There will always be various reasons, because he died^^"
Bai Lan seemed to have thought of something funny, and bent his eyes again. He leaned lazily towards the side of the seat, resting his hand on his jaw, and stared at me leisurely. Snooping malice: "But it's a pity, no matter what choices Xiali ちゃん made in those worlds, Tsunayoshi-kun doesn't seem to know. It seems that the fate between you is not enough, there is always a little bit of difference ^^”
"But I still admire Shirley-chan~"
"After all, repeating the same mistakes again and again, and always dying stupidly for the same reason, always makes me suspect that Shirley ちゃん itself exists for 'love'."
I froze in place.
……yes?
……Is that so?
I don't know why, but after hearing Bai Lan's words, I didn't feel any sadness in my heart, and it was more as if I was suddenly so stunned.
When I was young, I once read a sentence, which said that everyone in this world is a different seed, waiting for the right person to pick them, take care of them like a half body, and water them with love and tenderness until they bloom the most beautiful flowers.
It turned out that in every similar but different world, I was trying to find that flower, that unique flower named you.
I'm so glad I found him.No matter where I am, I never give up on him.
Do what you want to do.
Tell the person you like, I like it.
Perhaps the joys and sorrows of human beings are not interlinked, and only oneself is touched by the deep emotions of each section.
But love itself is like this, the opposite of sweetness is sadness, and the opposite of meeting is parting, like honey dripping on the blade of a knife, it is so painful to taste, but it is hard to let go.
I have been tracing the source of my pain, is it from me?Or is it from Gangji?Not even thinking about it now.
Because loving someone truly is painful in itself.
You cut open your own chest, welcomed him in the warm blood flow, and opened up a resting place for him in the narrow heart.
You hide him deep in your heart, feel his pulse every moment, your emotions follow him, and it is the first time that you can clearly feel the joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys of another person.
You will live a life that can only carry one person into two people.
Isn't it painful?
But even so, at the moment of being hugged by him, you will still laugh.
During the time with him, there will always be a moment when you will feel that all the sacrifices are worthwhile, right?
I am such a paranoid person.
Paranoid enough to want to be with him no matter what.
I am such a greedy person.
Greedy enough to let him live well no matter where he is.
From the moment he learned of his death, nothing mattered anymore.There is only one longing desire in my heart, and that is that I want him to live.
No matter what will become between us, no matter how far the relationship can go, I just hope he lives.
Like all the time that has passed, I can't hold the wind across my fingertips, I can't put together the cracked and broken flowers, and I can't find him who was once alive.
I have found the answer.
The answer buried in the bottom of my heart.
boom--!
Accompanied by a loud bang, a thick smoke from the explosion rose from the heights of the forest not far away.
I subconsciously looked towards the source of the sound, but my sight was blocked by cascading trees, so I couldn't see clearly what happened there.
"Ah, it seems that it has already begun." Bai Lan's voice came to his ears, as soft and sweet as ever, "But compared to that, in order to respect Xia Li-chan like this, I chose to die for you and fulfill you Love to Tsunayoshi-kun."
As soon as the words were finished, the spherical device behind Bai Lan suddenly trembled, and I saw a person walking out of it.A man glowing with light and wrapped in green flames.
"'He' is GHOST." Bai Lan introduced to me kindly, "He is the strongest Lei among the six hanging flowers."
The person named GHOST has long golden hair, and his skin is as cold as gray as the dead. Through the surging thunder, I saw the same inverted thorn tattoo in front of his eyes as Bai Lan.
He is naked. He looks like a human being, but there is a strange inhumanity everywhere.
I cautiously distanced myself from them, but suddenly found that indigo mist began to emerge from my fingertips, then my palms, arms, and half of my body.
In this familiar mist, my body began to dissipate bit by bit, and watched as the components that made up my body were sucked in the same direction like light smoke.
"GHOST's ability is very special—Charlie-chan can no longer maintain illusion^^"
As soon as the words fell, 'I' suddenly disappeared.
Even after the flame was extinguished, the fire of death energy continued to flow from the ring.In a way, this is a fire that burns life to release, and if left alone, I may die.
I took a deep breath, suppressed the dizziness caused by the loss of flames, gritted my teeth and ran towards the direction of the explosion.
Bai Lan is right, GHOST is indeed very special. 'He' may not be a human being, but a 'tool' capable of powerfully absorbing all the flames of death.
I had to go and tell them—
In the next second, my eyes went dark, and I fell to the ground suddenly.
A steady stream of flames of dead energy flowed out of my body, and I lost all my strength in just a few minutes.I tightened my fingers desperately, but I couldn't stand up again.
I felt something in my body go away from me.The originally clear vision gradually became blurred. I opened my mouth wide to breathe, but I couldn't resist the suffocation of dying.
"It's almost time to clear the place."
There was a faint shadow covering the top of my head, and someone walked up to me with brisk steps, bent down and put down a snow-white anemone in front of my eyes.
"Good night, Shirley-chan~"
After doing all this, Bai Lan straightened up, straddled my arm and left.
……
I seem to be dying.
After all, I underestimated Bai Lan, and I never thought that the last Liu Diao Hua would have such strength.
Bai Lan has already gone to the battlefield.
In this final battle, will Ah Gang and the others win?
I can't seem to see the end.
I half-opened one eye, and saw the ring on my finger in the gradually out-of-focus sight. The screaming grimace of the bone image seemed to be roaring at me. This time, the voice that appeared in my mind became extremely loud, Almost shattered my nerves.
"Pray—please give me your soul."
"In this way, you can survive and meet him again in that world!"
... deceitful.
Such an obvious lie, I heard it the first time.
If I sell my soul to the undead in hell, I can indeed survive, just like the phantom knight once did.
But if that's the case... then I'll never be able to see the warm light in my heart again.
As I have always believed.The place where he is must be full of light.
The eyelids became heavier and heavier, and I tried my best to turn over, but in the end only the eye feathers trembled slightly.
I saw the sun above my head, and the crimson orange fire rising in the distance, even under such a brilliant glare, the light still illuminated half of the sky.
In a trance, I recalled many memory fragments that had been lost in the long river with time, recalling the Sawada Tsunayoshi that belonged to me.
That was the face that would hurt my heart when I saw it in my dreams, and all the time I spent with him in the past, smiling, crying, happy, and sad, all disappeared at this moment.I only remember that in the sunset surrounded by the afterglow of Qian, he stretched out his hand to me with a gentle smile in his eyes.
"I'm so happy, Charlie."
I am also very happy that you chose me under such circumstances and let me spend the last life with you as the most important person.
It seems like two months have passed since you left my world.
how are you over there
I'm fine, I just miss you a little bit.
Are you still waiting for me?
I seem to have a lot to say to you, but you should know all of them, right?
I really miss you.
I want to see you, I want to hug you, I want to see your face and say I love you again.
I want to... find you.
Consciousness gradually blurred, and the moment my eyelids closed, my world fell into a silent darkness.
All light is gone from me.
It turned out that at the very end...
I still haven't been able to go to the world with you.
The author has something to say: Thank you for the cute island mine, thank Xiaotong for the two mines, and thank you for the cute deep-water torpedo I will have a cat.
The BGM of this chapter: Ayaka Hirano - "Love Not Delivered", you can go and listen to it.
Anemone Baidu Encyclopedia: Not all love is so beautiful.Not all love is sweet.Maybe, your love is so bleak, maybe, the person you love loves not you but someone else, if this is really the case, then you can send anemones to her or him or to yourself.
That's all for now, see you later.
I have always known that I have an innate talent in illusion, but at this moment I realized that in front of a real genius, I am just a mortal with some qualifications.
"Genius or something... I don't want to be compared with senior idiots." Fran extinguished the flame on the ring, patted the dirt on the frog's hat expressionlessly, and pointed to a screen in the room, "This I'd better give this title to Master, after all, they are all of that vicious type."
"...Don't push yourself too far."
I glanced at him speechlessly, stood up from the chair, threw this well-behaved brat here, and walked towards the back of the screen first.
There is only a lonely bed in this temporary foothold, and Liu Dao Mu is lying on it at this time.The long dark blue hair was spread out on the snow-white sheets, and the thin tube of the hanging needle was hidden between the raised veins on the back of the hand.
This man who has been imprisoned in the water prison for a full ten years still has a trace of paleness on his face, but when he sensed my arrival, he raised his eyes slightly. Those strange-colored eyes were like glaciers mixed with blood. Guo Juanpan's eyelashes and feathers are facing me.
"Long time no see, Mukuro. Ah, no...it seems like I just saw you a few days ago."
I stood where I was, bending my eyes at him.
The dog and Qianzhong at the side helped him up in a hurry, and Liu Daokuo sat on the head of the bed leisurely, his gaze fell on my hand.
After a barely checked meal, he laughed lowly: "Oh...you can do this, I really didn't expect it."
I subconsciously covered my left hand, and my palm touched the cold ring, but I couldn't block the weird voice in my head.
"Meet him, go see him."
"You will meet again in that world."
It's like the undead returning from hell calling their followers. From the day I wore it in my hand, it echoed in my heart over and over again.
"It's better to throw away such a dangerous toy me as soon as possible. Otherwise, it may be your life that will be thrown away."
Fran's voice suddenly sounded from behind. He walked behind me at some point, and was looking at me quietly with those jade-like inorganic eyes, neither sad nor happy, as if he was watching a person approaching the end. prisoner.
really.I am a prisoner.
A sinner trapped in a prison called love, a nostalgic addicted to the tender past.
Is a sick person for whom there is no cure.
The hell ring is good at prying into the owner's heart. It knows that I want to see him, so it seduces me every day and night.
In my mind, in my heart, when I open and close my eyes, there are all whispers from the undead.
I do miss him.
I really want to ask him, would he be happier in a world without me?
But if it was him, he would definitely not want me to do this.
"I don't know if that guy has guessed what you look like now."
Liu Daoku raised his lips slightly, his voice was low and soft, and when he half lowered his eyes to look at a person, the fine eyelashes would cover most of his pupils, his gaze was as gentle as looking at a lover.
But I know that this is just his usual disguise.
Most of the people born in this world live with a false mask, and they will never be able to reveal their true selves to their peers.
I am one of them.
Even Gangji is the same.
As adults, everyone wears similar faces and speaks similar things.
When it hurts, say it doesn’t hurt; when you cry, say you didn’t cry; when you’re wronged, say it’s okay; when you’re so sad that you’re going to die, tell the person who hugged you, I’m fine.
Laughing when crying; crying when laughing.When you see through their vain masks, ask them, and they will smile and tell you that you are wrong.
In this world, there is a kind of white lie.In the name of goodwill, people tell lies to those around them day after day.
In the end, everyone just believed it, believed that he really didn't hurt, believed that he really didn't cry, believed that it didn't matter, believed that he was fine.
But only I know it's all fake.
Because I am also so good at lying, I easily deceived him and myself.
Finally, I smiled and shook my head.
"Who knows."
Can he guess what I look like now.
Who knows?
Maybe it's impossible to guess.After all, in the past ten years, until the last days, we have not really seen each other clearly.
And in the future, there will be no chance to know each other again.
"If that's the case, you don't have to do anything." Liudao Mukuo said, "Or is it that you standing here are already a walking dead whose soul was taken away by the ring of hell?"
"……Do not."
I closed my eyes.
"I made this decision of my own will."
I still have things I want to do.
So, I'm going to keep going.
After a short rest, our group rushed to Japan as fast as possible.But even so, it seemed to be a step too late. After arriving at the familiar forest, the underground base originally established there had long been destroyed, and everyone was missing.
Liu Dao Mu contacted Collom through Mu Xiao, and learned about Peng Lie's current situation from her. Fran had already been called back by Balian, and he went to the battlefield faster than me.
I said goodbye to Mukuro, and he chuckled and said, "Culom will come here soon with the ring, won't you say goodbye to her? She seems to like you very much."
"...No need." I lowered my eyes and thought for a while before I said, "When you see her, please tell her for me—'If there is a destiny, we will meet again.'"
If everything can really end like Yuni said... In that distant time and space that belongs to them, maybe there will be another Miyagi Shari waiting to meet them.
"So, I won't say goodbye."
"Just say 'thank you' to her for me... just fine."
After parting from Muku and others, I walked alone on the path in the forest, walking straight forward like this, towards the agreed place in my memory.
In the luxuriant depths where the branches and leaves intertwined, Bai Lan had been waiting there for a long time.He sat cross-legged on a high-backed chair made of white stone, and a huge white device was attached to the back of the chair. When he saw me coming, he bowed his eyes and greeted me.
"It's so slow, Shirley-chan~"
Bingsheng in October is sunny and cloudless.The head is clearly the sunshine of early autumn, but it has a brilliant and bright light that is not inferior to that of late spring.
These lights are scattered and projected through the gaps between the treetops, like quicksand falling between the fingers.
Sitting in this light, Bai Lan's raised eyebrows were as bright as ever.His whole body was covered with a faint soft light, and his lazy and leisurely posture seemed to be a god of mercy to the world.
The sun fell on his snow-white top, and the white was so bright that it was almost dazzling, but I still walked over without moving my eyes.
I walked forward step by step, as if walking through a snowy long street, as if walking towards a coffin filled with lilies, and as if walking towards a future shrouded in strong light.
I saw my shadow changing with the light and shadow, and saw my shadow clinging to Bai Lan's body bit by bit.
I watched as the god he saw from afar gradually turned into a wingless man.
I stopped, and stopped opposite Bai Lan, only half a meter away.
As I approached, the smile on Bai Lan's face gradually faded.In the end, his face no longer had such a bright and false smile, but turned into a cold and ruthless smile just like him.
The smile seemed to hang on his face, becoming a mask that followed everywhere.
He opened his eyes, his violet-toned pupils were sharp and cold, even his voice was mixed with chill, it was no longer as sweet and soft as before.
"Is the ring of hell that I gave you still useful? Shirley ちゃん."
I tilted my head and didn't respond to his question.
Seeing that I didn't speak, Bai Lan looked at me for a while, and laughed as if suddenly remembering something: "Ah, yes... Xia Li-chan seems to have something to ask me."
I looked into his deep-toned eyes, and for some reason recalled a certain afternoon I once spent, Tsuna Kichi once stood in the mottled tree shadow and asked me a question.
He asked me, is the protagonist of the novel who thinks he has lost his qualifications as a human being a human being or a god?
How did I answer him at that time?
I said, he is a person with a godhead.
Isn't this very similar to today's Bai Lan?
He plays with the world in applause, and decides the life and death of human beings at will. He is like an omniscient god, looking down on everyone.
It was Bai Lan who killed him.In world after world.
"I do have something to ask you. Because your ability...is very special."
I thought of the first time I met Bai Lan, he had never seen me before, but he called out my name at a glance.
At that time, I thought he had overheard my conversation with Yoni and thus learned my identity, but in retrospect, he may have seen me long ago—in those parallel worlds that I can't touch.
"Haha, it really has something to do with Tsunayoshi-kun~ But if Shirley-chan wants to know, it's okay to tell you. Well, let me think about it..."
Bai Lan laughed and tapped the fingertips of one hand on the armrest, as if thinking seriously.
"Ah, I remembered."
"In other worlds, Shirley-chan seems to like Tsunayoshi-kun very much^^"
I was slightly taken aback: "...what?"
"It means that as long as you meet Tsunayoshi-kun in the world, Shirley-chan will fall in love with him. Hmm... There will always be various reasons, because he died^^"
Bai Lan seemed to have thought of something funny, and bent his eyes again. He leaned lazily towards the side of the seat, resting his hand on his jaw, and stared at me leisurely. Snooping malice: "But it's a pity, no matter what choices Xiali ちゃん made in those worlds, Tsunayoshi-kun doesn't seem to know. It seems that the fate between you is not enough, there is always a little bit of difference ^^”
"But I still admire Shirley-chan~"
"After all, repeating the same mistakes again and again, and always dying stupidly for the same reason, always makes me suspect that Shirley ちゃん itself exists for 'love'."
I froze in place.
……yes?
……Is that so?
I don't know why, but after hearing Bai Lan's words, I didn't feel any sadness in my heart, and it was more as if I was suddenly so stunned.
When I was young, I once read a sentence, which said that everyone in this world is a different seed, waiting for the right person to pick them, take care of them like a half body, and water them with love and tenderness until they bloom the most beautiful flowers.
It turned out that in every similar but different world, I was trying to find that flower, that unique flower named you.
I'm so glad I found him.No matter where I am, I never give up on him.
Do what you want to do.
Tell the person you like, I like it.
Perhaps the joys and sorrows of human beings are not interlinked, and only oneself is touched by the deep emotions of each section.
But love itself is like this, the opposite of sweetness is sadness, and the opposite of meeting is parting, like honey dripping on the blade of a knife, it is so painful to taste, but it is hard to let go.
I have been tracing the source of my pain, is it from me?Or is it from Gangji?Not even thinking about it now.
Because loving someone truly is painful in itself.
You cut open your own chest, welcomed him in the warm blood flow, and opened up a resting place for him in the narrow heart.
You hide him deep in your heart, feel his pulse every moment, your emotions follow him, and it is the first time that you can clearly feel the joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys of another person.
You will live a life that can only carry one person into two people.
Isn't it painful?
But even so, at the moment of being hugged by him, you will still laugh.
During the time with him, there will always be a moment when you will feel that all the sacrifices are worthwhile, right?
I am such a paranoid person.
Paranoid enough to want to be with him no matter what.
I am such a greedy person.
Greedy enough to let him live well no matter where he is.
From the moment he learned of his death, nothing mattered anymore.There is only one longing desire in my heart, and that is that I want him to live.
No matter what will become between us, no matter how far the relationship can go, I just hope he lives.
Like all the time that has passed, I can't hold the wind across my fingertips, I can't put together the cracked and broken flowers, and I can't find him who was once alive.
I have found the answer.
The answer buried in the bottom of my heart.
boom--!
Accompanied by a loud bang, a thick smoke from the explosion rose from the heights of the forest not far away.
I subconsciously looked towards the source of the sound, but my sight was blocked by cascading trees, so I couldn't see clearly what happened there.
"Ah, it seems that it has already begun." Bai Lan's voice came to his ears, as soft and sweet as ever, "But compared to that, in order to respect Xia Li-chan like this, I chose to die for you and fulfill you Love to Tsunayoshi-kun."
As soon as the words were finished, the spherical device behind Bai Lan suddenly trembled, and I saw a person walking out of it.A man glowing with light and wrapped in green flames.
"'He' is GHOST." Bai Lan introduced to me kindly, "He is the strongest Lei among the six hanging flowers."
The person named GHOST has long golden hair, and his skin is as cold as gray as the dead. Through the surging thunder, I saw the same inverted thorn tattoo in front of his eyes as Bai Lan.
He is naked. He looks like a human being, but there is a strange inhumanity everywhere.
I cautiously distanced myself from them, but suddenly found that indigo mist began to emerge from my fingertips, then my palms, arms, and half of my body.
In this familiar mist, my body began to dissipate bit by bit, and watched as the components that made up my body were sucked in the same direction like light smoke.
"GHOST's ability is very special—Charlie-chan can no longer maintain illusion^^"
As soon as the words fell, 'I' suddenly disappeared.
Even after the flame was extinguished, the fire of death energy continued to flow from the ring.In a way, this is a fire that burns life to release, and if left alone, I may die.
I took a deep breath, suppressed the dizziness caused by the loss of flames, gritted my teeth and ran towards the direction of the explosion.
Bai Lan is right, GHOST is indeed very special. 'He' may not be a human being, but a 'tool' capable of powerfully absorbing all the flames of death.
I had to go and tell them—
In the next second, my eyes went dark, and I fell to the ground suddenly.
A steady stream of flames of dead energy flowed out of my body, and I lost all my strength in just a few minutes.I tightened my fingers desperately, but I couldn't stand up again.
I felt something in my body go away from me.The originally clear vision gradually became blurred. I opened my mouth wide to breathe, but I couldn't resist the suffocation of dying.
"It's almost time to clear the place."
There was a faint shadow covering the top of my head, and someone walked up to me with brisk steps, bent down and put down a snow-white anemone in front of my eyes.
"Good night, Shirley-chan~"
After doing all this, Bai Lan straightened up, straddled my arm and left.
……
I seem to be dying.
After all, I underestimated Bai Lan, and I never thought that the last Liu Diao Hua would have such strength.
Bai Lan has already gone to the battlefield.
In this final battle, will Ah Gang and the others win?
I can't seem to see the end.
I half-opened one eye, and saw the ring on my finger in the gradually out-of-focus sight. The screaming grimace of the bone image seemed to be roaring at me. This time, the voice that appeared in my mind became extremely loud, Almost shattered my nerves.
"Pray—please give me your soul."
"In this way, you can survive and meet him again in that world!"
... deceitful.
Such an obvious lie, I heard it the first time.
If I sell my soul to the undead in hell, I can indeed survive, just like the phantom knight once did.
But if that's the case... then I'll never be able to see the warm light in my heart again.
As I have always believed.The place where he is must be full of light.
The eyelids became heavier and heavier, and I tried my best to turn over, but in the end only the eye feathers trembled slightly.
I saw the sun above my head, and the crimson orange fire rising in the distance, even under such a brilliant glare, the light still illuminated half of the sky.
In a trance, I recalled many memory fragments that had been lost in the long river with time, recalling the Sawada Tsunayoshi that belonged to me.
That was the face that would hurt my heart when I saw it in my dreams, and all the time I spent with him in the past, smiling, crying, happy, and sad, all disappeared at this moment.I only remember that in the sunset surrounded by the afterglow of Qian, he stretched out his hand to me with a gentle smile in his eyes.
"I'm so happy, Charlie."
I am also very happy that you chose me under such circumstances and let me spend the last life with you as the most important person.
It seems like two months have passed since you left my world.
how are you over there
I'm fine, I just miss you a little bit.
Are you still waiting for me?
I seem to have a lot to say to you, but you should know all of them, right?
I really miss you.
I want to see you, I want to hug you, I want to see your face and say I love you again.
I want to... find you.
Consciousness gradually blurred, and the moment my eyelids closed, my world fell into a silent darkness.
All light is gone from me.
It turned out that at the very end...
I still haven't been able to go to the world with you.
The author has something to say: Thank you for the cute island mine, thank Xiaotong for the two mines, and thank you for the cute deep-water torpedo I will have a cat.
The BGM of this chapter: Ayaka Hirano - "Love Not Delivered", you can go and listen to it.
Anemone Baidu Encyclopedia: Not all love is so beautiful.Not all love is sweet.Maybe, your love is so bleak, maybe, the person you love loves not you but someone else, if this is really the case, then you can send anemones to her or him or to yourself.
That's all for now, see you later.
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