[Tutor] Lick the dog until nothing is left

After the wound on the knee was sterilized with iodine, the red and purple bruises looked more hideous and terrifying, but this was only a skin trauma after all, and it might heal after a while.

It was never the wound that really hurt me, but Tsuna's attitude that night.

Reason tells me that he is not wrong. Anyone with this kind of thing will involuntarily pay attention to those who are more seriously injured.But emotionally, I still can't accept it.His performance at that time was too panicked, and it seemed that he couldn't use the common sense of "caring for a friend" to describe it. If he had to analyze something, I think the fear he expressed was more inclined to fear of losing her.

I don't know whether this guess is right or not, but I don't want to think about the difference between right and wrong anymore. Even though I kept finding excuses in my heart to excuse him, the voices of rebuttals still weakened little by little. , like the coast after low tide, gradually returning to calm.

At this point, I finally can no longer lie to myself.

Compared with those excuses that can be broken immediately, I believe in my own eyes and everything I see through these eyes.

If I knew it would be like this, wouldn't it be better not to start at first?

But I just want to get his response, and no one can imagine what will happen later.

No one can understand my struggle and hesitation at this moment, and no one can reach out to me and take me out of this abyss full of pain and sorrow.

This night, I had insomnia for a long time, and I kept thinking about whether it was worth it, and whether what I did should be right.But once he thought about being separated from him, even breathing became painful.

On this road to happiness, I just took a step, and I was blocked by an invisible barrier.Although I tried very hard to take a step forward, but now I can't see the end and lose my direction.

I opened my eyes as the first rays of morning light shone through the curtains on the floor of the house.There is always an emotion in the cerebral cortex that is constantly active, making it difficult for me to fall asleep in the true sense, but it is amazing that my spirit does not feel tired, but is driven by this emotion to be extraordinarily awake.

On the screen of the mobile phone, the three words "are you asleep" sent by Gang Ji last night did not receive a reply.I glanced at my ID and the note I gave him, and suddenly felt a little glaring, so I clicked on the profile and deleted them column by column, but when I touched my profile, I couldn’t think of what to say. new ID.

Just at this moment, the phone vibrated, so I typed a full stop and clicked on the chat bar.

[A Gang: Good morning, are you awake? 】

Pointless opening remarks, exactly the same as I used to be.

He probably realized something and was trying to remedy it. I should be happy about it, but the corner of his mouth moved but he couldn't move it.

The wound treated yesterday had already scabbed slightly. I stood in front of the mirror and looked at it. I turned around and changed into a skirt. The skirt that was as long as my calf was enough to cover everything.

Perhaps because I didn't get a reply, Gangji on the list was quiet for a while. It wasn't until I packed up and walked out of the house that I received another message from him saying that he was going to the underground base, asking me if he wanted to come with me.

I didn't reply, put away my phone, stood on the side of the road, called a taxi, and headed towards Bingsheng Hospital where Jingzi was.

When she arrived at the ward, Kyoko was already awake.

Her head was covered with a thick layer of gauze, and her face was a little abnormally pale, but her eyes were as clear and soft as ever, and she smiled pleasantly when she saw me.

"Charlie ちゃん." She looked behind me, seemed a little strange, blinked her eyes in doubt, "Did you come alone?"

I pulled the chair beside me and sat down, hummed lightly, not wanting to explain.

Leaning over to take a closer look at her well-bandaged wound, I couldn't help recalling the blood-stained stone slab last night, and I felt a sudden fear in my heart, followed by the guilt of not being able to protect her well, and I couldn't help it. He frowned and apologized softly to her.

"Sorry……"

What happened yesterday, if I had held her back from the beginning, we wouldn't have been swept away by the tide, and it wouldn't have caused her to lie here injured, making it difficult to even move her neck.

"Why do you have to apologize to me? It's obviously not your fault."

Kyoko's hand gently touched the back of my hand, gently smoothing my unconsciously bent fingertips.Her palms are soft and warm, just like the tone of voice when speaking, always carrying a sense of comfort that can make people feel at ease.

"I noticed it when I first came in, Xiali ちゃん's place——" She pointed at my face, "Is it too tight?"

Jingzi sighed softly as he spoke, and there seemed to be a bit of worry in his eyes looking over.

She seemed to want to say something, but she hesitated and didn't say it. She just held my hand even harder, as if she wanted to give me some kind of strength.

"Charlie-chan don't always take all the mistakes on yourself, and think for yourself once in a while."

I was slightly taken aback, then lowered my eyes to avoid her gaze, and smiled noncommittally.

I feel sorry for her, and not just because of the fact that she was hurt.

What's more, it's the jealousy that often flashes but never disappears, and the bitterness that I can't understand.

For Kyoko, whether it's the love affair with Tsunayoshi, or the various experiences, they are all pictures that exist in the memory.She has already walked out of the sad but bright past, moved towards a new starting point, and has a new life.

I shouldn't involve her in our relationship anymore, it's really not fair to her, but I can't help it.

I clearly know that as long as Gangji doesn't explain to me what he really thinks about this relationship with me, I won't be able to get rid of this knot in my heart for a day.

It is like a seed, which has been deeply buried in my heart now, only waiting for the day when it breaks out of the ground.

After talking with her for a while, Kyoko's boyfriend Hojo Yuma arrived, carrying two steaming bags of breakfast in his hand.Seeing this, I took the initiative to stand up and give up my seat, bid farewell to the two of them, and walked towards the direction I came from.

The main entrance of the hospital is next to the wide asphalt road, both sides of the road are full of green trees, under the tall plane tree stands a familiar figure, looking back at me among the mottled shadows, brown eyes full of tears. A soft light.

The steps I had taken to go out stopped unconsciously like this, watching him walk in front of me step by step, my originally calm heart suddenly became a little sour.

Gang Ji didn't know how long he had been waiting here, there was still a thin layer of sweat on his forehead, and his snow-white shirt looked even more dazzling and eye-catching under the sunlight.

"Natsu ちゃん." He called me, as if he didn't dare to look at me, his eyes drifted away unnaturally, as if he was racking his brains to think about what to say.

I folded one arm and carefully observed his embarrassment at the moment, and didn't intend to rescue him.I only heard him suddenly whisper, and his eyes fell on my new skirt this morning: "Why did you suddenly change to this?" He glanced at me and said uncertainly, "I remember Xia ちゃん said this kind of skirt It's not suitable for sports, because running will cause some stumbling or something..."

It's rare that he can still remember these little things clearly.In this respect I differ from him in that I have always remembered only what I wanted to remember.

Thinking of this, I told him lightly that it was just because I thought it looked good.

And Gang Ji believed my lie again, nodded, then took my hand habitually, and led me to the direction of Sanchome.

After walking a few steps, I suddenly remembered something, so I glanced at him, and couldn't help asking: "Aren't you going to say goodbye to Jingzi? We're leaving this afternoon."

"No need..." Tsunayoshi rubbed his nose, carefully glanced at my expression from the corner of his eye, and then added, "I happened to meet Hojo-kun when I came here, and I asked him to pass it on to Kyoko ちゃん."

I caught these little movements of his out of the corner of my eye, and couldn't help but feel a little funny in my heart, so I really smiled.

Lunch was settled at Tsunayoshi's house, and I helped wash the dishes by the sink.Taking advantage of the time when he was going upstairs to get things, Aunt Nana put down the rag in her hand and came to me, she lowered her voice and said softly: "Charlie ちゃん, I am really happy that you are back this time."

I was stunned, turned my head, and met those brown pupils that were almost exactly the same as Tsunaki's, the bright and soft eyes reflected my appearance.

"Mr. Gang is able to be with such an excellent girl, and as a mother, I can finally rest assured."

Aunt Nana touched my cheek as she spoke. The smile on her face was kind and full of tenderness, like the sky that can contain everything. Just looking at it makes people feel warm for no reason.

"So I'll be counting on you for the next few days, Xia Li ちゃん." She paused, and after thinking for a moment, she suddenly said to me seriously, "Of course, if Tsunade-kun did something to bully you, I'm fine. Please don’t be polite and take revenge back, I’m on your side!”

Gang Ji just walked down the stairs at this time, and he couldn't help slipping his feet when he heard the words, and wailed bitterly: "Mom, don't always say bad things behind my back! When did I bully Xia ちゃん?"

"Ah, I'm just vaccinating Xiali ちゃん in advance. After all, as my son, I still know how much you care about girls."

"No!" Tsuna retorted, subconsciously glanced in my direction, touched the corner of my slightly raised lips and couldn't help but hesitated, and didn't say the following words.

Aunt Nana happily won the victory, stood at the door and waved to us, watching us leave.

On the way of the plane, I just asked Tsuna Yoshi about the underground base in a symbolic way, and the answer I got was that it has basically been completed, and I can officially order the new base to be used after returning.

I was not very interested in this matter, so I let out an oh and didn't ask any more questions, I closed my eyes and pretended to be in a light sleep.

My original intention was to talk to him less and try my best to calm down the mood that lasted from yesterday to the present, but I didn't expect that because I didn't sleep all night, I really fell asleep very soon, and felt in a daze that someone was worrying about him. I covered the thin blanket, although it was just a small thing, it made me slightly curl the corners of my lips in the half-dream and half-awake state, and fell asleep with the warm and familiar fragrance of flowers.

When I got back to Italy, I suddenly became a lot busier.Because Li Baoen is now one of the targets that Bai Lan is trying to eliminate, Gang Ji dare not bet his life, so he asks him to stay in the headquarters for a long time.

On the one hand, Li Baoen readily agreed, and on the other hand, he re-divided the workload of each of us on the grounds that the consultant members outside the door were not allowed to sneak away when he was away. Almost as soon as the communication was over, the entire CEDEF work group was It was maxed out, and Olegano took this opportunity to promote the emoticon package I posted to everyone, so the ghostly "I'm not a devil in my Bourne after all" immediately became popular throughout the manor.

The newly appointed Fran in Balian is at the bottom of the scorn chain of the cadre group. Seeing this, he secretly took pictures of many seniors in the same group, who is also Balian Lanshou Bell. , I launched soul attacks on Bell in the internal group of Balian all day long, and Scuvaro and Ruslia called me all day long. The former angrily accused me of leading their new cadres and destroying the Ann is harmonious internally, while the latter is pure gossip watching, and even often broadcasts to me the "battle situation" between Bell and Fran in the group in real time.

This is not over, I received a letter from Kurom, who has always been hidden, and she told me through the owl that she will return to Vengley's headquarters in the near future, and she will entrust me with important things. Find time to transfer to Fran.I was confused about this, and asked her why she didn't go directly to Balian, but I still couldn't understand her explanation, and she just said to me "I don't have time anymore".

I finally breathed a sigh of relief when I was finally freed from the mess.Just when I thought I could usher in the long-lost rest time, a piece of news about Gilurone submitted by the intelligence department immediately stuck in my throat.

Perhaps it was because of Pengelie's headquarters' strict defense against Li Baoen that Bai Lan couldn't find a chance to strike for a while, so he turned his target to the other one of the only two surviving Rainbow Sons. The position, that is, the rainbow's big sky and Yoni's body.

Peng Lie and Jiliurone did not belong to the alliance, and Youni himself did not ask Tsunaki for help, so after leading the family members to resist for a period of time, she was under pressure to go to the headquarters of the Jesso family in an attempt to fight with him. Bai Lan discusses the matter of ending the war.

The accident happened at this moment.After Yuni met with Bailan alone, she who had always refused to merge with the Jesso family suddenly changed her mind, and directly sent the news to the family members that Gilurone was about to join the Jesso family. For the Black Curse, he even succumbed to Bai Lan and became the leader of the Black Curse.

At this point, a brand new family was born, but also powerful enough to be terrifying. Bai Lan named it Miru Fiore. There is a stark contrast.

On August [-]st, the Mirufiore family announced the official completion, and Bai Lan sent out invitation letters to the world of the Black | Hand | .In addition, some prominent small and medium-sized families were also invited. Bai Lan didn't seem to care about the size of these families, but just wanted to spread the news completely.

The post I sent clearly stated that it was a banquet, so I, as Tsunayoshi's female companion, once again accompanied him to such an occasion.It took almost half a day to drive all the way from Palermo to Marsala. When we arrived at the dinner address marked on the invitation letter, the sky was already a little dark.

Standing at the door, I couldn't help raising my head and glanced at Gang Ji next to me, my whole body was unnaturally tense.

If Bailan wants to seize the rainbow pacifier, the Pengel family, which has been protecting Libao En, will be his biggest obstacle at present.I don't know what he plans to do next, but there is no doubt that Tsuna and Bai Lan are destined to become enemies.

Perhaps aware of my uneasiness, Gangji turned his head and smiled at me. His brown eyes reflected the bright brilliance of the chandelier above his head. There was no timidity or confusion in it. The deepest brilliance was full of calmness and firmness. The momentum exuded by people is extremely confident and powerful.

He took my hand calmly, and took the lead in pushing open the door leading to the dinner venue, walking steadily and unhurriedly.

"Oh, it looks like our last guest has arrived^^"

On the speech platform directly in front of him, Bai Lan wore a snow-white suit that matched his skin very well, and looked at us with a smile.Immediately, everyone in the lobby was attracted by his words and turned their heads in unison.

Gang Ji secretly shook my palm, smiled calmly and apologized to the people around him: "Sorry for the long wait."

"Small things, small things~ After all, Mr. Gang Ji is the tenth king of Pengelie, and he is different from us. It is normal for busy affairs to be delayed." Bai Lan answered with his eyes bent.

I frowned suddenly.His words were undoubtedly guiding everyone's thinking, and virtually separated Gangji himself, or the Pengelie family from all other families.

But Tsuna himself didn't seem to understand the meaning, he still stood there with a smile on his face, and even nodded inexplicably towards Dino who was a little worried in the crowd.

After dropping these words, Bai Lan quickly announced the start of the dinner party, and the place where Tsuna Ji was located was instantly surrounded. I had no choice but to retreat from the crowd and slipped to the side of Dino, taking advantage of the fact that everyone was not here At that moment, I lifted the hem of my skirt and showed him the high heels on my shoes, and asked viciously, "What are you laughing at?"

The teasing smile on Dino's face suddenly froze, he quickly adjusted his expression, and shook his head innocently at me: "Cough... nothing, you read it wrong."

I didn't pursue it with him anymore, I turned around and went to the food selection area to get two drinks, and stood not far from Gangji and waited quietly.After finally waiting for the people around me to gradually disperse, my eyes lit up and I was about to step forward, but in the corner of my vision, I saw a white figure who had already come to his side before me.

"Gangji-kun is indeed the tenth generation of Peng Gelei. You must have a lot of entertainment on weekdays^^"

While talking, Bai Lan passed over the wine glass in her left hand, which was filled with crystal clear liquid, which reflected fine streamers of light with slight shaking.

Gang Ji didn't pick it up, and didn't even see a half smile on his face, so he refused in a gentle voice.

"It's a pity." Bai Lan didn't mean to force it, and put it on the side of the table casually, and I walked up at this time, he bent his eyes and greeted me, the three syllables of Xia Liちゃん came from him It is extremely sweet when you say it in your mouth.

Gang Ji glanced at me unexpectedly, and then I remembered that I never seemed to have told him about the encounter with Bai Lan in the cemetery that day, and I felt guilty for a while, but fortunately he quickly looked away, his tone was gentle but Feeling somewhat alienated again, he smiled slightly and said, "So Mr. Bai Lan is also here to 'entertain'?"

"No ^^" Bai Lan rolled his eyes, "I want to discuss important matters with Tsuna Ji-kun. For example... About the ownership of Vongola's Ring."

I was stunned, and I heard Bai Lan's smiling voice next to my ear and continued: "This is the same S-level treasure as my Mare's ring. After the birth of the box weapon, the status of the high-level ring has been greatly improved. There must be quite a few people vying for Vongola's ring."

"As far as I know, Tsunayoshi-kun is a person who hates fighting and killing. If that's the case, why don't you just give me the ring, and this will reduce a lot of unnecessary casualties, won't you^^"

The smile on Bai Lan's face is kind and bright, as bright and flawless as the sunshine in Sicily, and the appearance with curved eyebrows and eyes looks very harmless to humans and animals. If I hadn't always been wary of him, I might be caught by him at this moment. Sincere words deceive a moment.

But it was only for a moment.

"I'm sorry, but I refuse your request." Gang Ji lightly tidied up her neat cuffs, and there was still a gentle and calm smile on her face, but the smile didn't reach her eyes.

"Vongola's ring belongs to Vongola, and the rainbow pacifier belongs to the child of the rainbow. This is an unchangeable law in this world." He turned sideways and took my hand as a gesture to leave. Before leaving, he did not forget to look back. Glancing at Bai Lan, her tone seemed to be a warning, "Don't try to change all of this, because no one will always have something that doesn't belong to them."

This sentence……

Familiar words were uttered again from different people, and I suddenly looked at him in astonishment, and my mind went blank.

Pop, pop, pop.

Bai Lan clapped her palms lightly, and clapped with a smile. He was not suppressed by Gang Ji's words at all, and even laughed with great interest.

"As expected of you, Tsunaji-kun, it really hasn't changed." After saying this, he didn't know whether it was praise or derogation, and the smile on his lips grew stronger, "That is to say, even if I tell you now, your choice will make you If the people around you are in danger, will you still do the same?"

Gangji nodded, with a firm expression: "That's right."

Bai Lan rolled her eyes: "What a ruthless answer."

"Because my current strength is enough to protect them, but you are different, Bai Lan."

Tsuna lowered his eyes and looked at the Daikon Mare ring surrounded by two wings on his middle finger, his expression calmed down a little bit.

"Everything you do now is against the laws of time and space, and one day it will bring disaster to yourself, so give up your ambitions before it affects more people."

"Does Gangji-kun know what my ambition is?" Bai Lan asked back with a smile, and then continued without waiting for his answer, "Compared to this, you should worry more about yourself, because in order to get Pengo Lie's ring, I'm a big bad guy who can do anything ^^"

Hearing this, Gang Ji frowned: "What do you want to do?"

"It's nothing, I just heard that Tsunayoshi-kun seems to have many old friends in Japan, and one of them seems to be someone he once dated?"

Bai Lan pretended to be thinking seriously, and deliberately dragged out her voice in distress: "Well... how should I treat them?"

This refers to...Kyoko and Xiaochun?

Involuntarily, I looked at Tsuna who was beside me.

Because of the height difference, when he doesn't bow his head, I can only see half of his profile from my perspective.But this time the situation was a bit special, because I was wearing high heels, I could easily see the expression on his face.

He didn't seem to have thought that Bai Lan's information network would extend so broadly, and the calm expression he had had since entering the door was finally broken.He was obviously startled at first, and then he realized the threat in Bai Lan's words, and the brilliance in his originally warm eyes gradually settled down.

This time, Tsuna was truly irritated.

The hands that had been naturally hanging by his side were unconsciously clenched tightly, and the brown eyes were burning with cold anger, but they restrained themselves from bursting out.

"Bai Lan." He lowered his voice, and his voice, which had become clearer since he was an adult, was now stained with a rough hoarseness, as if trying to hold back something.

Gang Ji's expression sank completely, and he stared at Bai Lan, whose smile remained unchanged, his eyes were filled with increasingly bright and firm belief wrapped in anger.

"If your goal is Vongola's Ring, then even if you let it go, Vengola will never back down. But there is only one thing I hope you will keep in mind..."

"Don't attack innocent people."

Bai Lan let out a "huh" and tilted her head curiously: "So this is a war declaration from Pengo Lie? Besides, why should I abide by the rules you set ^^?"

"Family and friends, people you like and people around you, to give up or to protect, which one would you choose?" He said, looking at me meaningfully, his violet-toned pupils were cold, and only his lips were cold. The smile on the side seemed to be meaningful, "It's really exciting... isn't it, Shirley ちゃん?"

The deep voice suddenly changed, and changed into a somewhat playful rising voice.And Gang Ji also seemed to suddenly realize that I was still there. He was stunned for a moment, then quickly took my hand and led me to meet Dino not far away.

Because we haven't planned to tear our faces here yet, we didn't leave the venue, but he and I were a little absent-minded for the next time.

Every word Bai Lan said seemed to be in a joking tone, but there was always a deep meaning in it.

I don't know why, when I first saw him in the cemetery that day, my first impression was that he was an extremely dangerous existence, especially when he opened his always smiling eyes and stared at me.

From the first conversation since we met, he seems to have been hinting at me.

Whether it's "things that don't belong to me" in his mouth, or "which one to choose", it can't make people ignore it.

And does this ensuing sense of instability come from what he said, or from my own feelings?

An hour and a half later, the dinner party was finally over, and we walked out of the room, only to find that it was drizzling outside unknowingly.

Gang Ji said that he would go to the garage to pick up the car and come here, and asked me to wait for him here, without getting caught in the rain. I nodded and agreed, watching his hurried back quickly disappear into the night.

The rain curtain in front of me is somewhat familiar. I have seen such a scene not long ago. Reminiscent of the mood I had on that day, I looked up at the endless night sky. I only felt that the position of my heart was always heavy, and occasionally A few traces of unspeakable sadness came from the deepest part.

I don’t know when it started, but I have always been like this. I often fall into inexplicable sadness alone, and it seems that I can’t really be happy, like I have an incurable disease.

I thought that this relationship with Gang Ji was already the best medicine in the world, but now I find that it is not the case.While this medicine tried to heal me, it also pushed me step by step to a deeper place, where there were no flowers and no water, only the long dark night and a little starlight in the distance.

I yearn for salvation from another person, to save me from this endless waiting, and take me to the vast sky.But I waited and waited, but in the end no one came.

"It's painful, Shirley-chan."

Suddenly a soft voice came from my ear, and I suddenly came back to my senses, and found that it was Bai Lan who came to me holding an umbrella.

Looking at each other, he bent his lips: "You and Tsuna Ji-kun are really not suitable~"

I was taken aback for a moment, but I quickly reacted and retorted a little coldly: "It doesn't seem to have anything to do with Mr. Bai Lan."

Bai Lan ignored it and narrowed her eyes to look at the rain in front of her.

"You said, why do people always learn badly? They repeat the same mistakes again and again, but in the end nothing can be changed. Just like what I said at the beginning, what is not yours will never be yours."

He paused, then turned his head and smiled at me: "If you feel the pain, you can just give up, what are you still insisting on^^?"

Yeah, what am I still holding on to?

Even though I already know that no one can take me out of there, I still have expectations for him.

And all because I love him and I want him, simple as that.

It is precisely because of love that I can endure these emotions I have never experienced alone.

It is precisely because I want it that I am unwilling to let go after I get it.

Beep, beep——

Accompanied by two short and rapid car honking, there was a strong light coming from afar, which made me subconsciously raise my arm to cover it.

The black Maybach stopped slowly on the edge of the steps, Gang Ji rolled down the window, first glanced at Bai Lan with one hand in his pocket and a nonchalant face, and then called my name.

Because it is a closed space, the temperature inside the car is much higher than that outside the car, so a layer of white water mist condenses on the window.Sitting in the co-pilot, I stretched out my fingers to wipe them off bit by bit, and my eyes fell on the receding scenery, which was rare.

Bai Lan is sowing discord between us.

I knew this clearly, but I suddenly discovered that what he said was actually unreasonable.

I had thought a lot before this, but I forced myself to forget it because I was reluctant to let it go, but in fact, they have always been there.

Those painful and sad emotions, those struggling, confused longings, and that unresolved suspicion.

After that day, I waited for a long time, but I never got an apology.

I know that he has actually realized that his handling method is not proper enough, otherwise he would not stick to me abnormally.But I waited and waited, and until now, I still haven't heard a word of apology from him.

In fact, I don't really want him to apologize, I'm more just looking for an attitude, an attitude where he really looks at me squarely and will try his best to redeem me and calm me down.

But I didn't wait.

I don't know why he didn't say it out loud, or maybe it's because he hasn't really realized its importance deep down, but it's also possible that my performance that day wasn't tense enough, and my indifference comes and goes quickly. Hurry up, although I let him know my unhappiness for a short time, but I couldn't persist for a long time.

Suddenly, I am very concerned about a problem.

If I were the person being threatened in Bai Lan's words today, would he still be as angry and concerned as before?

With that in mind, I naturally asked the question.

Gang Ji was taken aback by my question, he remembered something, and frowned slightly: "Why did you suddenly ask such a thing... Could it be that Bai Lan just told you something?"

His clothes got wet on the way to the garage, and at this moment both cuffs were rolled up to the elbows, exposing his fair but thin forearms.

I looked at his sharp side face, and my eyes slid from his forehead to his hand holding the steering wheel. I suddenly found that I liked everything about him, including his imperfect personality from the beginning.

I know that he is actually a passive person in essence, if no one pushes him forward from behind, then he will stand in place for a long time.It is precisely because of this that the appearance of Li Baoen brought him such a big change, and it is precisely because of this that we have the opportunity to get to know each other later.

If that's the case, then this time, let me push him.

Curling the corners of my lips and smiling, I raised my eyes to look at him: "Because I want to know the answer, if it's Kyoko..."

"—but there are no ifs in this world."

Gang Ji suddenly interrupted the end of my words, his eyes were dimmed, and there was an inconspicuous light and shadow dancing in his eyes, and he clenched the steering wheel slightly.

"Natsu-chan, don't do this."

Taking a deep breath, he moved the car closer to the side of the road, stepped on the brakes and stopped slowly. Then he turned his head and looked at me. There was a flash of emotion in his eyes, which was similar to praying, but it quickly disappeared. He said softly to me, "Whether it's you or Kyoko-chan... I have never compared you in my heart, and there is no so-called if and choice."

I twitched the corner of my mouth.

But even so, I am still not as special as her in your mind.

I knew I shouldn't have said these things, and I shouldn't have dragged him back at this time, as Bai Lan wished, and made him worry about the future.But I can't control my heart, this feeling has been suppressed for too long, I desperately want to know an accurate answer.

Even if there is only one sentence, I want to hear him say that I am the most important and no one can replace me.

Even if they lied to me, I want to hear such words.

Because only in this way, I regain the reason to move on.

——'Listen, he said he loved me, he said I was irreplaceable, so how could I give up on him? '

I want to say this.

Really Want.

In fact, as soon as I said that, I realized that the timing was not good enough, so I wanted to apologize to him.It can be seen that when he frowned slightly, he couldn't say such words.

Ever since I was a child, I have never let go of myself to anyone, except when I faced him, I retreated again and again.

The words of apology were stuck in his throat, and the man in front of him had clear features and a serious expression, and he still carried some shadows of the past in a trance.

I still love him dearly.

But for some reason, I don't want to go back anymore.

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