don't be alone anymore

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This update is to supplement the daily update chapter during the period of Jinjiang Clean Network (15th to 29th). This chapter has been released on the author's Weibo. Readers who have already read it, please wait for the normal update at 20:[-] tonight. *If I find a reason for celibacy*

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There are two emergency doctors in Beicheng Emergency Center.

One, in fact, is not an official member of the emergency center.

After all, Jian Muzi actually belongs to the Department of Cardiac Surgery of Beicheng No. [-] Hospital.

Coming to the emergency center to do a pre-hospital internship is purely a "victim" of the turbulent period when the old and new deans of the hospital alternated.

The other is Ming Li, who has a formal establishment and was promoted to the deputy director of the emergency center the year before last.

The two doctors, in addition to their excellent professional strength, are even more impressive because of their outstanding external conditions.

After all, compared to the professional strength that can only be perceived after understanding, appearance is something that outsiders can judge at first glance.

Jian Muzi and Mingli are actually quite similar.

For example, they are all graduates of Beicheng No. [-] Middle School.

For example, they are all top students.

One studied in the UK and studied under the British Cardiac Surgeon.

A graduate from Shuimu University School of Medicine, one of the top medical majors in the country, was recommended to graduate students of the school after undergraduate.

For another example, both of them are not very social people, and they basically don't deal with colleagues in private.

Another example is that they are actually not very close people.

A person who seems to be indifferent, others can feel the rejection thousands of miles away with just one glance.

Although one looks very close, but after actual contact, it will be discovered that this person seems to be like this to everyone.Gentle, kind but not intimate.

For example, they are both single.

Jian Muzi, 32, is single.

Ming Li, 38, is also single.

The last similarity is that they both seem to be single people who don't return home, and they also live in the dormitory provided by the emergency center.

It was the old dormitory building of No. 30 Hospital. No. [-] Hospital gradually expanded its area and built a new dormitory building, so the [-]-year-old dormitory building was transferred to the emergency center next door.

The dormitory building is ample enough, but the number of people staying is not too many.

Many of the employees working in the emergency center were settled in Beicheng.

People who have a family and a mouth will naturally not choose to live in the unit dormitory.

Therefore, the units of the two doctors generously allocated them two large suites.

Mingli also has neighbors.

Ever since Jian Muzi caught a bad cold last time, there has been movement between the two neighbors.

Most likely it was Mingli who took the initiative to knock on Jian Muzi's door to talk about work and chat a few words.

Mingli, who has some understanding of Jian Muzi's situation, did not approach Jian Muzi with the feeling of caring for her subordinates.

After several months of observation, she simply felt that in some respects, she was very similar to Jian Muzi.

Kind of like attracts like.

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In the current Beicheng Emergency Center, the resumes of the two doctors are the best.

Dr. Jian, who returned from the UK, is a master of Ming from Shuimu University.

In fact, among the hundred and ten people in the emergency center, there are only two with a master's degree.

One is a master's degree from an ordinary university, and the other is Mingli.

When Director Guo of the emergency center recruits people, he often says, "You can't let a doctor do this job, can you?"

For pre-hospital first aid, the professional development space is relatively small, and there are few opportunities for professional title promotion.

Every time he faced the medical students who came to the emergency center to apply for emergency doctors, Director Guo seemed to lack confidence.

The recruitment rate is low, but the resignation rate is high, and the emergency doctor team is always in an unstable state.

And it is in this unstable team that Mingli has worked for 13 years.

In 2003, graduated from graduate school at the age of 25.

With outstanding grades, outstanding school, and outstanding tutor recommendation, Mingli could have chosen many tertiary hospitals in Beicheng City to submit her resume, but she chose the emergency center, only the emergency center.

She is the No.1 master student in the emergency center and the only graduate of Shuimu University School of Medicine in the emergency center.

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When she is not on duty, Jian Muzi basically spends her time in the dormitory of the unit.

It was also because of this that she discovered that whenever Mingli was resting, a woman around 60 years old would appear at the door of the other's dormitory and knock on the door.

It looks like it should be Mingli's mother?

But there is no key to the daughter's dormitory door.

One day, when Jian Muzi, who was also resting, opened the door of the dormitory, she happened to run into a woman who was visiting her daughter.

The woman held her for a long while, and Jian Muzi finally confirmed that the other party was indeed Mingli's mother.

That day, Jian Muzi, who had had lunch, was dragged into Mingli's "home" by Ming's mother, only Mingli's home.

Or maybe Mingli saw Jian Muzi after opening the door, it was rare for her not to care about her mother's uninvited visit.

Later, Ming's mother would take the initiative to knock on the door of her daughter's neighbor's house when she visited her daughter every week.

If Jian Muzi was at home, she would have to drag Jian Muzi to Mingli's house together before giving up.

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38 years old unmarried, refused blind dates, refused to pursue.

For so many years, Mingli has come here like this.

For a moment, Jian Muzi was a little surprised.

A woman who talks so much, but never talks about her daughter's finding a partner.

Think about the lady who worries about her home every day...

Jian Muzi originally thought that all Chinese-style parents were like their wives, worrying about their children's love and marriage.

But after Ming's mother learned that she was single, she didn't say any words of advice.

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Facing Jian Muzi, who was not very talkative, Ming's mother seemed to be very talkative.

But it was such a chatty mother who allowed Jian Muzi to learn about Mingli's family background during the three meals together.

It turned out that Director Ming's family is a medical family.

Grandpa, grandma, and parents are all doctors.

"Little Jane, I heard that you came back from studying abroad? Auntie always forgot to ask you, which country did you study in?"

"U.K."

Jian Muzi obviously noticed that Mother Ming's hand holding the chopsticks trembled...

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"I didn't expect that because you studied in England... just the word "British" would scare my mother..."

Jian Muzi and Mingli stood on the balcony of their respective rooms, leaning against one side, separated by a short wall.

Ming Li took a sip of the beer.

Now a bottle of beer every day to wake up, seems to have become the norm in her life.

I don't know whether she trusts Jian Muzi inexplicably, or sees herself in Jian Muzi, "... I had a first love that ended without a problem... Do the math..."

Seeing Mingli, Jian Muzi carefully counted the time with her fingers, she seemed to be really drunk.

"13 years! This year...is the 13th year since we broke up...13 years ago, she broke up with me after I defended my postgraduate graduation..."

"I chased her in the first year of high school. She is my senior sister, the third year of high school."

Ming Li turned her head and noticed that Jian Muzi's expression didn't fluctuate after hearing "senior sister".

she smiled,

"Muzi, you really are different."

Jian Muzi's eyes were still calm, with a hint of tenderness in the tranquility.

Although she herself has no feelings for love/things, she has a friend who loves love/love.

Speaking of it, it was precisely because that friend liked the same sex that she had a different understanding of the emotional world.

"She was admitted to Shuimu University that year, so I chose Mizuki later. I chased her for two years, and we were together in the sophomore year. Three years and three years, after all, it couldn't resist the seven-year itch. Seven years ago We broke up."

"When we broke up, she told me, 'You can't give me the future I want, break up, Mingli'... After being together for six years, she told me that we have no future together..."

Mingli on the balcony next door leaned more and more on the railing outside the balcony.

Ming Li shook the empty beer can in his hand,

"Don't pity me, Muzi...it's not what you think..."

"In the 32 years before I turned 7, my mother asked me to go on a blind date, and I would go on a blind date. My mother hoped that I would try to date the opposite sex, and I would try it too. The relationship with my family is still the same as before, tepid , neither salty nor bland... Then one day, maybe my dad finally couldn't stand my mother, he filed for divorce from my mother, and then found me..."

"It turns out... that day when I was defending my graduation thesis, when she sent me to school... our intimacy in the car was bumped into by my parents... They followed her and threatened her on the roof of the company... When the police came…”

"My mother said, 'If you dare to come to my daughter again, I will jump off this building. If I have no face, I won't make it easy for you.' She also said, 'As long as you are together, I will Go to commit suicide, if you fail to jump off the building, I will swallow sleeping pills, I want you and Mingli to live with my life behind my back. I want to see if you two can still live in peace!'”

"When the truth was known, it had been 7 years... 7 years..."

"Actually, I don't know... Do I blame my mother more... or her more..."

"You're so good at deceiving people... It's also my fault that I always believed in her..."

"In the past 7 years, I have hated her a lot of times! I hate her for saying that I am just playing with me, and hate her for saying that I have no future with me! I even cursed her when I just broke up. to happiness..."

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It seemed like there would be no love after that.

It seems that after learning the truth, he prefers celibacy even more.

That was her youngest love, the first love, the love she wanted to spend the rest of her life with...

If it's not her, then don't want someone else.

So, 32-year-old Mingli moved out of the house and into the dormitory of the unit.

Here she has rebuilt a home that truly belongs to her.

After that, it's not that there haven't been people who are ready to move, it's just that it's hard to be tempted again after seeing a beautiful person.

Just like Mingli's attempts in the past 7 years, each time ended in failure.

She refused to try, just as she refused to go back to that home.

In the first two years, when seeing her mother again, Ming Li ignored her.

It seems that only by transferring her hatred to the "culprit" relatives, can she have the strength to live with the last bit of hope.

But as time passed bit by bit, the hatred gradually became calm.

It seemed that it was difficult to have new emotions that caused waves in her heart.

As many colleagues have commented, her life is becoming more and more Buddhist.

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After years of suffering, Ming Li huddled in a corner of the balcony, hugging her knees.

After another 6 years of tears, they finally slipped away in a moment.

She hated it for 7 years, regretted it for 6 years, and finally drifted in the sea of ​​people for 13 years...

On her bedside table, there is still a frame and a photo.

That was the graduation ceremony, she and her commemoration.

That was also the day we broke up, she and her memory.

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