don't be alone anymore

*I tell you about myself*

……

Fade Chen, Liu Yi, and the two split up and searched the emergency room several times, but they couldn't find Jian Muzi.

After Fade Chen made the first call, Jian Muzi sent him a text message back.

Because of the content of the text message, Fade Chen didn't have the nerve to make a second call.

His sister told him... to call again if there is a task.

And there is no task right now, it's just that he and Brother Liu are simply worried about Jian Muzi.

When Dr. Wu Chao said that Dr. Jian was unwell just now, it was as if a knife was hanging on the heads of Liu Yi and Fade Chen...

At the same time, they remembered the time last year when Jian Muzi had a severe cold and insisted on going to work.

The two men with lingering fears were as anxious as headless chickens.

Helpless and searching for nothing, Fade Chen had to call Wen Yang for help.

This time, he and Liu Yi became ordinary citizens who needed the help of the police.

……

There was still more than an hour before the handover of the shift, and the colleague on the road sold Wen Yang a favor and came here early to hand over the work.

Wen Yang and Zhang Luzhi immediately drove to a hospital, and then joined Fade Chen and Liu Yi in their search.

Fade Chen has already told Wen Yang everything he could think of through WeChat voice...

Including the old lady cleaner who the emergency team failed to rescue not long ago.

Fade Chen guessed that Jian Muzi's sudden disappearance might have something to do with the patients they failed to rescue.

Three big men found the top floor of the emergency building.

The door from the top stairs to the roof was locked, and all three of them breathed a sigh of relief for an instant.

I don't know what they were thinking.

He clearly knows Dr. Jane's character, but he still looks for someone to go higher and higher.

Especially when Zhang Luzhi proposed to go to the top floor to have a look, both Chen Fei and Liu Yi agreed after hesitation.

Wen Yang stayed on the first floor of the emergency building.

She walked around the emergency room several times, but she didn't see Jian Muzi at all.

She tried her best to calm herself down, stroked her nervous beating heart and ordered herself to think...

If, if I were Jian Muzi...

If you were in a bad mood, where would you choose to hide in the emergency building?

It must be hiding!

She believed that Jian Muzi, like her, would definitely find a quieter place.

Passing by the end of the corridor again, Wen Yang stopped abruptly.

There is one place that she seems to have completely ignored...

Hidden fire stairs at the end of corridors on both sides!

On weekdays, the doors of the fire stairs are closed, and the medical staff and patients going to and from the emergency building choose the escalators or direct elevators in the lobby.

Even those who want to exercise and climb stairs choose the two wide stairs in the middle of the emergency room.

Where would you run to the end of the hallway?

Wen Yang walked quickly to the fire stairs, and started to trot halfway.

Push door……

No.

She immediately turned around and ran towards the end in the opposite direction.

open the door……

"how come?"

Still empty.

Wen Yang just wanted to lift his foot to leave, but his intuition made trouble.

An inexplicable intuition kept her and let her go in.

She closed the door behind her with her backhand, and walked up the steps lightly.

When she climbed to the half-floor, she saw the person sitting on the first step after the turn...Jian Muzi, whom she cared about wholeheartedly.

……

The people on the steps were so distracted by the memories of the past that they didn't even notice the sound of footsteps.

Jian Muzi still kept her head down, resting her forehead on her elbow-clad arm, quietly.

Deep pity filled Wen Yang's eyes.

Her heart was so sore...it hurt so badly...

At this moment, she just wanted to hold her in her arms and warm her heart.

"Jane... Mu Mu..."

Wen Yang still made a sound.

At this moment, she still wanted to give Jian Muzi a chance to choose.

If the other party is unwilling to show her weak side in front of her, she is willing to fulfill it, of course she is willing to fulfill it...

Jian Muzi's body trembled clearly.

The infinitely exposed sadness was contained in Wen Yang's "Jane Mumu".

In addition to being her own Jian Muzi, she is also Wen Yang's "Jian Mumu".

This time, she didn't hide the tears that were about to fall in her eyes, nor did she hide the sadness in her eyes...

At the moment when Wen Yang wanted to give her warmth and companionship, she met this man's eyes...and finally revealed all of herself to him.

……

When he couldn't see the emotions on Jian Muzi's face, Wen Yang could still think rationally whether he should give the other party the choice to be alone, but after seeing the weakness of the other party spread out in front of his eyes...

Wen Yang is no longer rational.

The subconscious actions of the body are faster than the flying thoughts...

He moved closer to the opponent one step faster and hugged him.

Wen Yang half-kneeled on the steps, and gave Jian Muzi the warmest and warmest embrace.

……

The person who was hugged and warm looked sideways...

Wen Yang knelt on the steps with one knee, so that it was convenient for her to look at her and hug her.

Countless times, it was precisely because of such details that she was moved and moved again and again.

She was just a little cold, but not heartless.

How can a person who can afford the words "angel in white" have no heart?

In such a warm transmission, Jian Muzi closed her eyes.

She wrapped her hands around Wen Yang's back and gathered the other's uniform shirt.

Then, let the tears fall.

……

The hug didn't last long.

And the person sitting on the steps still loves the person who gives him warmth.

Jian Muzi gently tugged on Wen Yang's sleeve, imitating Wen Yang's frequency of patting her own back, and patted the opponent's back regularly.

"Wen Yang, I'm fine."

Wen Yang pursed his lips, and looked at Jian Muzi with nostalgia and reluctance.

The next moment, the person who was hugged just now was also hugged and embraced by the other party.

Two people hugging... No matter who takes the initiative first, it is the two who reap the warmth in the end.

Wen Yang leaned closer to Jian Muzi's face.

The sudden intimacy made Jian Muzi's eyes tremble slightly.

Wen Yang leaned against the side of Jian Muzi's face, and fondled it a few times back and forth.

She didn't speak, and all her emotions were reflected in such an intimate relationship.

After a while, Jian Muzi patted Wen Yang's head and responded to him.

She sighed deeply in her heart, and silently dropped a kiss in the void.

Kiss to the air, kiss to my sweetheart.

……

When the emotions are hurting, it is common for people to be weak and cherish the air.

But after rationality returns, weakness and pity will become a petri dish of being overwhelmed.

Shyness and apprehension can resurface between people, even if the two people were, are, or will be close.

Wen Yang's face turned redder, and when he was so embarrassed that he didn't know what to do, Jian Muzi held her hand.

Jian Muzi could understand that Wen Yang's inability to escape was only because of herself.

The other party cares about herself, and therefore cares about her emotions, and also cares about whether she minds being spied on and taken away from her weakness.

She used her own initiative to soothe Wen Yang's worries.

Jian Muzi was thinking...

If there is one person in this world who can be intimate with me...

She hoped this person was Wen Yang.

If there is one person in this world who can be honest about his secrets and sorrows...

She hoped that this person would still be Wen Yang.

She took Wen Yang and sat beside her.

"...Wen Yang, I thought about it, I don't want you to know about me from other people, especially my past...I hope you know about me from me...I want to laugh about it my past...about my regretful past...about my biological parents and relatives...I want to tell you myself."

……

Before the age of 3, Jian Muzi's surname was not "Jian", not even "Muzi".

She is not a child born with the expectation and blessing of her parents.

She is a "product" of a young man and woman after a short-term lust.

It can only be called a "product", not a "crystallization of love".

21 year old man meets 19 year old woman.

Or should I say, 21-year-old meets 19-year-old.

A man and a woman separated after a short-term love affair.

The ignorant girl left her belly, mistakenly thinking that the late menstrual period is the result of autumn and winter fat.

Children who did not bring pregnancy reactions made the slightly out-of-shape figure not attract enough attention.

When the rebellious girl came home occasionally, she finally went to the hospital for a pregnancy test at the insistence of her mother.

It turned out...it was really pregnant.

At that time, the embryo has already taken shape in the stomach.

The 7-month-old pregnant belly has life and everything.

Young men and women get married under the solemnity of their parents and begin to learn to be responsible and complete their families.

However, people who are still children themselves cannot complete the transformation of identity with the help of others.

Children can only be children, and parents are identities that their age has never thought of.

……

When Jian Muzi was five years old, her parents who quarreled frequently finally divorced.

The reason why it was finally... was because at the moment they divorced, the parents of both parties seemed to be relieved.

The proud grandfather severed the father-daughter relationship with his daughter (Jian Muzi's biological mother), and asked for custody of his granddaughter.

Granddaughter, began to follow grandpa and grandma.

When she was 5 years old, her grandfather gave her the surname "Jane" after her grandmother.

Neither the surname of the biological father nor the surname of the biological mother.

Because grandpa felt that neither of these two surnames was worthy of their baby.

When she was 6 years old, her grandfather was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer.

Worrying about my daughter, son-in-law and granddaughter all these years has really taken my mind off.

And drinking, smoking, in the end still hurt the foundation.

In the same year, my grandfather passed away, and my grandmother began to raise her alone.

In the year of graduating from elementary school, grandma's heart disease, which has become more serious in recent years, could not survive.

Her voice, appearance and appearance were all left on the operating table in the hospital, and engraved in Jian Muzi's heart.

Back then, she stood beside the bed covered by white cloth, quietly accompanying her grandma for a long time.

……

Because the girl had said that she had no father, no mother, and only her grandmother, the doctors and nurses in the hospital felt sorry for the little girl and gave her enough time to say goodbye to the body.

After her grandmother was pushed into the morgue, Jian Muzi went to the doctor's office of the Cardiac Surgery Department.

Over the years, her grandparents have accumulated real property and savings for her, but she is still too young, at an age where she needs a guardian to be responsible wherever she goes.

She didn't want to go to the orphanage, and she didn't want to find the blood relationship between the two who had disappeared long ago.

She picked a guardian for herself.

That... is obviously not grandma's bed doctor, but Deputy Director Xia who always asks grandma about her situation and cares about her.

She waited for Xia Liang to leave the office...

Then he said to Xia Liang,

"Can you be my guardian in the future?"

……

"Ma'am, I have something to discuss with you."

"Adopt that child?"

"Ma'am is really a roundworm in my stomach."

"Call Xiaojin in a while and ask him to help find a relationship. Take it home quickly."

……

Later, she was the child who grew up with Xia Liang and Lin Yueqing.

The couple with only one daughter welcomed their youngest daughter more than ten years later.

……

"This is my sister's room, you can't go in."

"Your sister? The one downstairs?"

"That's right, my sister, Xiao Mu, my own sister!"

"Then why did she call you Zhizhou instead of your sister?"

"That's what I asked her to call her. All younger sisters all over the world call her sister, it's not special!"

"Then why does she still call your father Director Xia?"

"That's what I call my dad!"

Xia Zhizhou leaned out of the handrail of the stairs and shouted towards the downstairs kitchen, "Director Xia! Director Xia!"

"Eh? Eh!"

Xia Liang leaned out from the kitchen, and Jian Muzi, who was doing homework at the table, also paid casual attention.

"Father, do I usually call you Director Xia?"

Xia Liang took a meaningful look at Xia Zhizhou, and then smiled heartily, "Yes, we know that Zhou usually calls his father Director Xia and his mother Madam."

Xia Zhizhou nodded to Xia Liang with satisfaction, and then smiled at the classmates beside him, "See, our family is not ordinary."

Xia Liang almost laughed out loud.

What a "not ordinary family".

……

Later, she was the younger sister who grew up with Xia Zhizhou.

The girl who grew up to 13 years old by herself finally waited for her own sister.

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The author has something to say:

A previous reader said:

At the beginning, it was Jian Muzi who thought she would never be alone again.

Later, I realized that it was Wen Yang who was no longer alone.

In fact, you don't need to be alone with "you", whether it's Wen Yang, Jian Muzi, or everyone.

Then what can be interpreted about Jian Muzi so far is:

Jian Muzi's life before 2016 was divided into three stages.

The first stage is the 5 years when you are not seen by your biological parents.

As long as I can remember, I have never given my biological parents who are intimate and friendly.

This is the part of her personality that does not want to get close to people.

The second stage is the years when I grew up with my grandmother until I was 12 years old.

Grandma gave her care and the fetters of relatives, and taught her to be tenacious, strong, and independent through her own actions.

This is part of what she learned from her grandmother.

The third stage is the stage of following the Xia family up to now.

Xia Liang, Lin Yueqing, Xia Zhizhou, and even Grandpa and Grandma Xia made her feel kindness and love.

This is the softest, softest part of her character.