PUBG this shot for you [e-sports]

Yu Huan remembered clearly that it was a Friday.

Yu Huan made an appointment with boy X that day, and played games together at night.

The agreed time is eight o'clock in the evening, and the training of both of them ends at six or seven o'clock. This is their precious "date" time every day.

Boy X usually arrives a little earlier, but he still didn't show up at [-]:[-] that day.

Yu Huan thought about sending a QQ message to boy X.

-Junior Y: Late, pig.

Then waited another 2 minutes, no reply.

Yu Huan opened Weibo, and they met on Weibo. Later, although the chat was mainly on Q, sometimes the boy X would send him some love messages through Weibo.

What catches the eye is the "99+" in the new news

Yu Huan was stunned for a moment, then opened the private messages overwhelming.

Some of them are trumpet at a glance, and some are not.

The first one is "What are you doing gay and think you're cool? It's actually pretty disgusting, do you know that?"

Yu Huan was stunned, he didn't quite understand what was going on.

He continued to scroll down.

"You might as well die, dead people are more valuable than you. At least it won't delay other players."

"Young boy Y, Kouqu, you are actually a stench with pockmarks all over your face, right?"

……

99+, the number of private messages is still increasing.Some have content, while others are meaningless, purely personal attacks piled up with foul language.

When Yu Huan came to his senses, his hands were shaking.

He stayed on the interface of a private message and replied "Who are you?"

Then the system prompts that you have been blocked by the other party, and the private message cannot be sent.

Yu Huan was stunned for a long time, feeling that he was not his own anymore.

Angry, sad, all feelings are gone, the whole person seems to be emptied.

He looked up, the computer screen was still on, and the League of Legends client was still on.

But the only friend on this account, "Youth X", has a dark ID.

Yu Huan sat in front of the computer, staring at the friend list.Cling to the last driftwood like a drowning man.

He doesn't care about being scolded overwhelmingly by private messages, as long as boy X appears.

As long as he shows up and says I'm sorry, as long as he gives an explanation, Yu Huan will accept any explanation.

As long as he is around.

Yu Huan wanted to call boy X, but he didn't have boy X's mobile phone, he suddenly felt that he was ridiculous, the only way to contact X was Weibo, games and Q.

The Q didn't respond, and the game list didn't light up.

Yu Huan stared at the computer screen until the screen went black due to inactivity for too long, and then turned it on again.

For an hour, Weibo continued to pop up new messages.

There is no news from boy X.

The computer screen went dark again, just like Yu Huan's heart, cooling down slowly while waiting, falling to the bottom.

That should be it.

If you wait any longer, you will be humiliating yourself.

Yu Huan sent the last message to Boy X.

- Boy Y: Goodbye then.

Then delete the friend.

Goodbye to someone I loved.

Goodbye to the good memories I thought.

Yu Huan uninstalled Weibo, deleted QQ, closed League of Legends, and stared blankly at the screen.

The door was suddenly pushed open at this moment.

"Yu Huan!" is the voice of the team manager, "If you want to play ranked, play ranked, and don't stay in the training room if you don't play! Is it a waste of public resources in the team to turn on the lights and computers? Terminate the contract if you don't want to work hard , give the opportunity to others!"

Yu Huan didn't even hear what the manager yelled, the noise was enough to make him feel a bang in his head, and something broke silently.

There was neither anger nor pain, an overwhelming numbness surged up, and the whole person was blank.

The manager of the championship team has long become a habit of scolding the youth training players. Even the most talented youth training players are just children with no commercial value in his eyes.

But when Yu Huan slowly turned his head to meet the manager's eyes, his pale face and the expression in his eyes made the manager's heart tremble suddenly.

"I won't fight anymore." Yu Huan said, "Give up the opportunity to others."

This time, the team manager was stunned.

"You don't play anymore?" The manager repeated in shock, eyebrows furrowed together, "Are you serious? If you play professionally, you will have no problem entering the LPL, and you may even become a star player."

"I'm serious." Yu Huan said calmly.

Star players are nothing more than receiving more expectations and applause than others.

But his favorite applause, the one who smiled and said "that's amazing" is gone.

"May I ask why?" said the manager. "You signed the contract, and you can't withdraw it without special reasons."

"I'm sorry." Yu Huan said, "Something happened to my family."

"This..." The manager's face showed sympathy. It was the first time that Yu Huan saw such a humane expression on his face in the past few months in this team's youth training.

If I had seen this look earlier, maybe I would not have left, but now all thoughts are lost, and it is useless to say anything.

"Have you really thought about it?" the manager asked, "If you break the contract during the youth training period, we must report the situation to the competition committee. If you want to join other professional teams in the future, you may be blocked because of this."

"It's okay, I've caused you trouble." Yu Huan said.

After a pause, he said softly, "I won't play professionally in the future."

That night, Yu Huan carried a bag on his back, refused the manager's persuasion, and left the base, holding in his hand the full salary specially approved by the manager, which was 6000 yuan for one and a half months.

Walking on the street in the dark, the winter wind is very cold, the year is approaching, and there are few people on the street.

The lamps and shadows fell, and the wind blew into his bones. Yu Huan was like a walking dead wandering on the street.

Yu Huan needs to find a place to spend the night, he is not yet an adult, so the only one who can check in is the black guest house.People who live in this kind of place are often wanderers living in this city, lingering on their last legs.

In the small room of the hotel, apart from the bed, there is only a square TV, the kind that would be too shabby in the 90s.Yu Huan turned off the light, and the dim light like a corridor horror movie leaked in through the crack of the door, so he had no choice but to turn on the light again.

There is no private guard in this hotel, and there is a bathroom at the end of the corridor. When Yu Huan wanted to wash his face, he saw a family of three carrying a basin, as if they were going to take a long bath. Yellowing, the slippers on the feet are very old, splashing water on the ground.

Yu Huan returned to the room without hesitation.

Then lay down on this damp and musty bed, looking up at the pale light, and the ceiling that couldn't block the old atmosphere.

There are no formed thoughts in my mind, there are countless chaotic thoughts roaring, but I still don't feel anything, my heart seems to be dead.

But there has never been a more lucid moment than now.

I don't know how long I was in a daze, Yu Huan habitually picked up the phone.

His fingers instinctively moved towards the position of Q, and then stopped.

That icon is no longer there, it was deleted by him.

The person who wanted to share with him no matter happy or sad things is gone.

Holding up the phone, Yu Huan froze.

I don't know when he let go of his hand, and the phone fell on the bed, making a muffled sound.

No more, go, don't want me anymore.

Lovers, partners, dreams, futures, it's all over.

Yu Huan didn't want to cry, he didn't even feel it at all, he looked up at the pale ceiling, which had cracked and yellowed lines due to years of disrepair.

He didn't even know why the tears came down.

What an unforgettable 17-year-old.

After that, Yu Huan bought a ticket and went back to his hometown. He took a break from school for half the semester, and it was just right to follow the next grade. .

After going back for about a week or so, he occasionally thought about whether to download Q back to see if the boy X gave him an explanation in the end, but he still controlled himself afterwards.

Why should you not be reconciled to a person who left you behind? Just let it all pass.

The short-lived romance, the not-so-good youth training, just pretend it never happened.

After that, more than a year later, Yu Huan wanted to play games again. He never thought about League of Legends again, so he started playing chicken.

Thinking that if it is possible to become a professional player, I would stand in front of X and slap him in the face fiercely. With this obsession, I played viciously, until by chance, I saw Xie Ci while watching a video.

Slowly start letting go of the past.

……

The phone rang suddenly, and Yu Huan was startled, waking up from the memories.

The moonlight streamed in from the window of the training room. This place was no longer the training base. The flickering on the phone screen was a voice call from Xie Ci.

"...Brother Ci?" Yu Huan opened his mouth and found that his voice was hoarse.Does it take so much effort to remember?

Two years later, the love and hatred have faded, but if I try to recall, the unwillingness and despair are still very clear.

"Xiaoyu, are you asleep?" Xie Ci asked, his voice was a little noisy, there was the sound of wind and cars.

"Nothing." Yu Huan said, finally pulling his emotions out of his memory with difficulty, "What's the matter, Brother Ci, what's the matter?"

"It's okay." Xie Ci smiled, "I just finished eating with the big boss, my God, you don't know how many rules he has, I don't even dare to play with my mobile phone."

Yu Huan finally raised the corners of his mouth: "Then finish eating now?"

"After eating, I just sent the big boss away." Xie Ci said, "Brother Duan and Tai brother and I are standing miserable on the side of the road to take a taxi. There are quite a lot of people in this wretched place... There are more than 20 people waiting in line for an express train. "

"... Then you came back after 12 o'clock." Yu Huan said in surprise.

"Yes, I was afraid that you would fall asleep, so I hurried to find you." Xie Ci said.

"You... just send me a message, and call me." Yu Huan said.

"Because I want to hear your voice." Xie Ci said with a smile.

Just now, I was still immersed in the lingering memories of a certain little beast, and I suddenly received such a sweet sentence. The contrast is really a bit obvious.

Yu Huan felt his heart beating wildly for a moment.

"I miss...you too," he said.

Xie Ci laughed over there, and then vaguely heard Duan Fei say, "Don't laugh, your smile is too nasty!", so Xie Ci laughed even more happily.

"Go to bed early?" Xie Ci said.

"May I wait for you to come back?" Yu Huan asked.

"Okay, but you may have to wait a little longer." Xie Ci said.

"It's okay." Yu Huan said.

You can wait as long as you want.

As long as you will come.

"By the way, Xiaoya told you, let's play the league together tomorrow." Xie Ci said.

"I said it, but I might cheat you." Yu Huan said with a smile.

"It's okay, I'm cheating too." Xie Ci said.

"Do you want to play Jie?" Yu Huan asked.

"I don't want to play, I'm very good at playing Jie, and Mr. Ye is just a dragon." Xie Ci said, "Let's fight together."

"Take it as a couple?" Yu Huan asked smoothly.

"Well, it's for couples." Xie Ci paused, then smiled again, "Okay?"

"Okay." Yu Huan didn't hesitate, feeling the corners of his mouth rising uncontrollably.

Names, past, messy things, are not important now.

At least at this moment, he was really loved by this person.