After I gave up the small attack all the time

On the way back, Xie Anhe remembered to ask Xing Tan about Guan Yu.

Xing Yan didn't want to hide it from him, so he told about Guan Yu and Qi Wu.

It also pointed out the reason why Guan Yu was "envious".

Guan Yu is the heir of the Guan Shan family, and he is destined to represent the face of the Guan Shan family in the future.Whether it's business or private life, this family will not allow Guan Yu to be an outlier.

Guan Yu will get married and have children sooner or later, just like Song Yanyi, the family will not allow people like them to fool around with men.

For Guan Yu, Qi Wu is just a bed partner, but Xing Yu knows that Guan Yu has already fallen in love with him.

For those who are in love but are destined not to stay together, Guan Yu must be envious when he sees Xie Anhe holding hands with Xing Tan.

Not to mention holding hands, he and Qi Wu are not even allowed to eat together in public.

As much as Qi Wu liked him, Guan Yu felt so bitter.

"What did Team Qi say?" Xie Anhe asked.

Xing Yan shook his head, looked at the all-red taillights outside the window and said, "I never asked, Qi Wu should just want to make him happy, so let's not talk about this kind of bad luck."

Because I'm afraid that talking about it will break up, so it's better not to mention it. It's a day to be together for a day, and when that day really comes, cutting the mess quickly is the only ending for the two of them.

Xie Yuhe looked at Xing Yu's sad expression for Guan Yu's love, and suddenly remembered something, and after a long silence, he asked, "Did you tell the family..."

are you gay?

Xing Tan looked at him, Xie Anhe didn't know how to describe his expression, he just watched his two thin lips move, "I said, I came out in high school."

……

Xie An and his 19th birthday have a special meaning to Xing Tan.

Because of this day, he came out to Zhou Meimei.

In fact, to be precise, it was the second day of Xie Anhe's birthday, but the incident was caused by the birthday.

Xing Dan said that asking for leave was a lie to Xie Siwei. He just went to the office to ask Xie Siwei's head teacher to ask for leave while Xie Siwei was asleep, but because his own head teacher was not at school, Xing Dan didn't say anything.

Xing Yan greeted Xia Huai and said that he had taken Xie Siwei away, and if there was anything in the class, he would contact him in time.

He just didn't expect that the homeroom teacher said he was going to the city for research, but he came back early that day. When he entered the door, he saw that Xing Tan was not in his seat, and asked him where he had gone in a rage.

Xia Huai had no choice but to send a text message to Xing Dan, and at that time, Xing Dan and Xie Siwei had just got off the car.

Xing Dan sent a text message to □□ saying that something happened at home, and □□ was very angry, and said that even if there was something happening at home, he should tell him in advance, just as Xie Siwei came over, Xing Dan didn't touch the phone again.

□□ Annoyed, she called Zhou Meimei directly. Zhou Meimei helped Xing Yuanyuan lie and said that something really happened at home and caused trouble for the head teacher. The head teacher felt that his majesty had been desecrated, and hung up the phone angrily.

Zhou Meimei called Xing Dan, but Xing Dan didn't answer, and sent him a lot of text messages, but Xing Dan didn't reply.

Xing Dan didn't see it until late at night, and called her back. Zhou Meimei's attitude on the phone was not very good, she didn't say anything, and only asked Xing Dan to come home immediately.

"I can't go back now," Xing Tan frowned and talked with Zhou Meimei on the phone. He knew that this matter was serious and that he had done something wrong, but he couldn't leave.

He looked up at Xie Siwei who was queuing at Pizza Hut, smiled at him, and then whispered on the phone, "Mom, I'll explain this to you tomorrow, I'm sorry."

After hanging up the phone, Xing Dan walked towards Xie Siwei, Xie Siwei asked him what's the matter, Xing Dan only said it was fine without explaining much.

On the way home the next day, the taxi passed by a pharmacy. Xing Dan remembered the ointment he saw in the bathroom, so he asked the driver to pull over, walked into the pharmacy and asked implicitly what it was.

The clerk in the pharmacy looked at him, and didn't look at him strangely, but just asked, "You have hemorrhoids, right? If it's not serious, you can use Antai."

"Hemorrhoids?" Xing Tan paused, "What do hemorrhoids look like?"

"Blood in the stool, bleeding in the affected area, redness, swelling, cracking, don't be afraid, hemorrhoids are very common, not a serious disease."

"How did you get this disease?"

"Sitting for a long time, eating irregularly, and..." the clerk paused, "...things that adults would do. Anyway, that's almost all. If you want to take a few boxes, I'll prescribe medicine for you."

"No, thank you." Xing Tan walked out of the pharmacy and got into a taxi. After thinking for a long time, he took out his mobile phone and sent Xia Huai a text message.

[In the things you sent over, there is a small green bottle, what kind of medicine is that? 】

Xia Huai returned after a while: 【Cooling ointment, put it on there.You are so courageous, if you haven't come back now, you don't even know how ugly your face is, it's all blue and red.What about Xie Siwei?Are you still with me? 】

Xing Tan: [No, he went directly to work. 】

He thought for a while and sent another one: [Is it convenient to make a call?I have something to ask you. 】

[Okay, wait a minute, I'll go to the rooftop. 】

Xing Dan didn't care what the driver thought of him, and asked Xia Huai some questions bluntly.

Yesterday Xia Huai edited a text for him and sent it to teach him how to do it, but Xing Tan didn't read it carefully because he didn't think he needed to read it.

But what happened in the morning kept him in his mind, so he felt that it was necessary to consult Xia Huai, a professional who wrote pornography all the year round.

Xia Huai's answer was very frank, knowing everything without exaggeration, and using the most straightforward language, told Xing Tan what to do was the right thing to do.

It was also at that time that Xing Tan realized that it was wrong to bleed, and it was also wrong to let it in.Boys will also be uncomfortable, and if you do it too hard, you may die if you rupture the rectum.

Xing Dan didn't know how he hung up the phone. When he hung up the phone, he had already walked downstairs in the community.

Xie Siwei lied to himself, it's not that he's okay, but he pretends to be okay even if something happens, and pretends to be funny even if it hurts to death.

At that moment, Xing Tan made a decision.

In this life, I will live up to Xie Siwei, and treat him openly and aboveboard.

……

The moment he opened the door and walked in, Xing Tan's heart was extremely peaceful.

He knew that what he was about to face was guilt for Zhou Meimei's upbringing.

So he chose to kneel down.

"I know the situation in our family is different from other families. You don't have a father and you lack fatherly love. It's my fault." Zhou Meimei's eyes were bloodshot, and she turned to look at Xing Dan, "But I think I am I can raise you alone and teach you well. But why are you learning like this now? Skipping class, lying, skipping school and not going home to fool around outside, I don’t even know where my son is this night? What are you doing ?”

"Xing Yan, what are you doing?"

Xing Tan's throat moved slightly, and his eyes turned red. He stepped forward and knelt down, and opened his lips and said, "Skipping class and lying, I apologize, but I didn't do anything bad, I swear."

"Okay," Zhou Meimei took a deep breath, "Then tell me why you skipped class yesterday, why you didn't want to go home, and who are you doing with?!"

Xing Tan's lips trembled. The psychological construction he had done at the door fell apart the moment he faced Zhou Meimei.

He couldn't say it but he had to.

"Mom," Xing Yan called her with his head down, his voice trembling, "I'm in a relationship..."

Zhou Meimei was taken aback, but before she could react, Xing Yan looked up at her and said firmly, "...the other party is a boy."

While Zhou Meimei was surprised by his "puppy love", Xing Dan came out of the closet.

Zhou Meimei's brain exploded with a bang.

She stared blankly at Xing Yan for a few minutes, then slowly stood up from the sofa, and while looking away, tears fell, and big ones hit the ground, smashing into pieces.

"Mom, I'm in a relationship, and the other party is a boy."

Taken apart, these words are not lethal at all, but put together they are comparable to Halley's Comet hitting the earth.

Zhou Meimei's tears were like a lake bursting its embankment. She shed tears silently, and only after a while did she raise her hand to wipe away the tears all over her face.

No, she misheard, Xing Tan didn't mean that, definitely not.

Zhou Meimei grabbed Xing Tan's shoulders with both hands, knelt in front of him and asked with tears in her eyes, "Tell mom, it's not what I thought, you're not gay, you're not."

Xing Tan grabbed Zhou Meimei's hand and did not speak. He lowered his head and remained silent for a long time before slowly opening his lips and saying, "I am."

Zhou Meimei let go of him weakly, knelt down on the carpet and began to sob.

Xing Tan's tears also fell, he pinched his throbbing temple with his thumb and middle finger, turned his head and wept silently.

After an unknown amount of time, the crying finally stopped in the room.

Zhou Meimei's tears dried up, she slumped on the carpet and stared blankly at the portrait of Xing Dan's father.

Xing Tan kept kneeling, not daring to speak, and he was not qualified to speak.

The sky outside gradually dimmed, and the lights in the room were not turned on. Under the only light, Zhou Meimei's dry tears could be faintly seen on her face.

"You..." Zhou Meimei suddenly squeezed out a word from her throat.

This word is so dry, lifeless, without a trace of life, like a walking dead.

Xing Yan looked up at her, but Zhou Meimei didn't look at him, she just said, "...Is it because you don't have a father?"

After she finished speaking, she looked at Xing Tan and asked dully, "If I find you a father, will you be able to return to normal?"