walk through spring with you

The plan to go to Leshan failed.

Xiao Zichong got up for a run early in the morning. Although Yan Ran had had enough sleep, his body was a little uncomfortable, and he always felt that he needed to slow down, so he didn't get up until ninety o'clock.

He didn't understand why Xiao Zichong's technique was so good, which made Yan Ran full of doubts, so he thought about it.

Xiao Zichong can cook simple meals. After running, he took a shower and went out to the vegetable store at the gate of the community to buy some vegetables. He made vegetable porridge at home in the morning, and prepared a stewed chicken for lunch.

This community is a very general low-cost of living community. The location is relatively remote, housing prices are relatively cheap, and there are no mature business districts around, not even larger shopping malls.Part of the community is commercial housing, such as the one Yan Ran bought, and part of it is government resettlement housing.Residents in the community have a relatively high average age composition. There are many grandpas and aunts living in it. Some play cards all day long, and some take their grandchildren for a walk in the community. The average education level of the residents is not high, and quality is not high. Many residents wrote big-character posters and posted them on bulletin boards, or cursing those who kept dogs, or those who stole shoes, or parked their cars on the main road blocking other people's driveways...

In Xiao Zichong's view, this house can only be lived in temporarily.

Xiao Zichong seldom went shopping for vegetables, but when he did so once in a while, the aunt who sold the vegetables asked him if he was married.

Xiao Zichong was wearing a simple short-sleeved t-shirt, paired with long trousers, and even slippers on his feet. With this appearance, he would be asked if he was married.

Xiao Zichong replied politely: "It's over."

The aunt said: "There are really not many good men who get up so early in the morning to buy vegetables and cook for their wives."

Xiao Zichong thought to himself what was this talking about, so he ignored it and hurried away with the food.

When Yan Ran woke up, Xiao Zichong had already cooked the vegetable porridge and was preparing the stewed chicken, but he was afraid that the stewed chicken would be spoiled, so he held his mobile phone to check the strategy.

Yan Ran spent several months in the circle when he was in school, and was introduced to a lot of "common knowledge in the circle" by a few "friends". He usually reads a lot of pornographic books when he has time, but he knows that he is rich in theoretical knowledge. , no practical ability.He remembered that Xiao Zichong slept with him last night, but when he woke up in the morning, Xiao Zichong had already gotten up.

Even though he was 30 years old, Yan Ran felt shy again. Standing at the kitchen door and watching Xiao Zichong guarding the casserole and looking down at his phone, he hesitated and didn't go forward for a while.

Xiao Zichong threw the soaked shiitake mushrooms into the chicken casserole, poured some cooking wine, put down the ginger and whole shallots, and felt that the water was about the same, so he covered the casserole and waited for the chicken to be stewed slowly.

After doing this, when he went to wash his hands, he found Yan Ran there.

Xiao Zichong smiled at Yan Ran, "I made vegetable porridge for breakfast, do you want to eat it?"

Yan Ran was a little uncomfortable, blushing and nodded.

When the two sat at the dining table and began to eat, Xiao Zichong couldn't bear it any longer, so he asked Yan Ran, "Of course, are you in good health?"

Yan Ran was very embarrassed. While eating vegetable porridge and kimchi, he whispered in embarrassment: "It's okay."

Xiao Zichong wanted to ask other details, but he didn't ask, he just said, "If you have any questions, please let me know as soon as possible."

"Oh." Yan Ran responded in embarrassment.

Xiao Zichong spends all day at home tidying up the house, cooking, washing dishes, and tidying up the closet, while Yan Ran sits on the sofa watching American dramas and playing games.As long as Xiao Zichong wants to do something, it's hard to fail. This also applies to cooking.

After lunch, Yan Ran praised Xiao Zichong: "Your food is good, better than mine."

Xiao Zichong said, "When I have time, let me cook."

Yan Ran smiled: "Okay."

Xiao Zichong also smiled, put his arms around Yan Ran's neck, and kissed his lips.

At night, Yan Ran was tired of watching variety shows and was about to go to bed. Xiao Zichong was still working on the computer in the small guest bedroom. Yan Ran didn't know if he wanted to sleep with him. After some hesitation, he went to knock Xiao Zichong's bedroom door.

Xiao Zichong's voice came: "Of course, come in by yourself."

Yan Ran pushed open the door, stood at the door and looked at Xiao Zichong, "Xiao Zichong, where do you sleep tonight?"

Xiao Zichong looked at the time on the computer, it was only 10:30 in the evening, Xiao Zichong always had to do things until close to twelve o'clock before taking a shower and going to bed, he looked at Yan Ran again, and asked, "Do you want me to sleep with you? Will I squeeze you in?"

Yan Ran walked up to Xiao Zichong, and Xiao Zichong stretched out his arms to wrap his waist and hips. Yan Ran sat on his lap, staring down at Xiao Zichong's face. Before he could speak, Xiao Zichong Zi Chong had already raised his head and started kissing him from his neck to his lips.

Yan Ran had been intimate with him for a long time, and couldn't bear it any longer, so he separated from Xiao Zichong, put his hand on Xiao Zichong's chest lightly, not letting him continue, and said, "Xiao Zichong, why are you so skilled? Okay? I've been thinking about that all day. Have you ever had a boyfriend before?"

In fact, Yan Ran has always wanted to ask this question, but has never mustered up the courage to ask it out.

He and Xiao Zichong have been separated for more than ten years, studying and living in different places. During such a long time, the two will experience many things and meet many other people.

Yan Ran thought that Xiao Zichong had other boyfriends or girlfriends in the past, but he actually cared a lot, and was very jealous and uncomfortable.However, he couldn't think that Xiao Zichong was responsible for this kind of past matter, because that was Xiao Zichong's right, and he shouldn't even ask about it.

Xiao Zichong was stunned for a moment, Yan Ran said that his technique was good, which was affirmation of his performance last night.Xiao Zichong has been the type of person who wants to do things the best since he was a child, and because he does everything well, he is often affirmed and praised by others. In fact, he is immune to other people's praise and rarely cares too much about others. Praise, but Yan Ran's praise is different, which makes Xiao Zichong a little complacent, and joy from the bottom of his heart.

He put his arms around Yan Ran's back, tried his best to restrain his joy, and said, "I haven't talked about a boyfriend before."

After thinking about it, I added: "I haven't talked about a girlfriend either."

Yan Ran felt that Xiao Zichong hadn't lied to him, so he became happy and confirmed, "It's true, you didn't lie to me?"

Xiao Zichong said: "I said I would never tell you a lie or lie to you. You don't believe me so soon?"

Yan Ran felt a little guilty, and said, "It's not that I don't believe you, I just want to hear you say that I'm the only one again."

Xiao Zichong rubbed Yan Ran's ears with his fingers, Yan Ran's ears were blushing, and when he touched them, he became even hotter, so he had to bow his head to kiss Xiao Zichong again, to cover up his embarrassment.

Xiao Zichong asked: "Yan Ran, have you had any other boyfriend or girlfriend?" Although Xiao Zichong felt that Yan Ran hadn't, he had to tell him directly so that he could be more sure.

Yan Ran originally wanted to say "Then you guess", but after putting himself in his shoes for a while, he said bluntly: "No. I'm a nerd every day, and I don't feel motivated to fall in love with others."

Xiao Zichong: "I remember when you were an undergraduate, you all played games in your dormitory. You always watched variety shows and played games like this every day. How could you have any other motivation?"

Yan Ran wondered what you meant, why did you suddenly criticize me, Yan Ran said angrily: "Many girls in our college who like to play games are also chased by many girls. I was also chased by many people before. I just thought of you and felt It's boring to fall in love with others, so I didn't talk about it."

"Thinking of me?" Xiao Zichong always knew that Yan Ran liked him, but he also always thought that it was the admiration and liking of a good buddy, so he didn't make other interpretations.

Yan Ran: "That's right. I... have actually liked you since high school."

Xiao Zichong was a little surprised, but besides being happy, his heart softened. The feelings at that time were so pure and passionate.

Xiao Zichong also knew that he liked Yan Ran at that time, but he didn't want to tell Yan Ran this kind of thing, because he felt that his liking at that time was quite irresponsible. He had to rely on his parents to live, and he couldn't even be independent. , and how to make promises to the person you like.That liking was just Xiao Zichong's own emotion, and to Yan Ran, Xiao Zichong didn't think it meant much.

Seeing Xiao Zichong's surprised expression, Yan Ran was a little hurt, thinking that I have shown you my heart, but you still don't believe it?

"Why, don't you believe it?"

Xiao Zichong hugged Yan Ran tightly, buried his face in his shoulder, and said, "No. How could I not believe it. I just thought of many things, thank you, of course."

Yan Ran felt a little embarrassed, gently stroked the back of Xiao Zichong's neck, thought for a while, and asked, "Did you like me before? Last time you came to my house suddenly and chatted with me all night. If you didn't come then, I won't go to you, maybe I won't tell you in my life, I like you."

Xiao Zichong looked up at Yan Ran, with strong love and joy in his eyes, "Thank you for coming to my house and telling me. Otherwise, I might not feel how happy and full of joy it is to be with the person I like in my whole life. something to look forward to."

Yan Ran was quite shy under his gaze, and asked with a blushing face, "You haven't said why you like me?"

Xiao Zichong smiled, as if he was embarrassed, and said: "I used to think that liking someone easily and irresponsibly is quite frivolous, especially if the other party doesn't have the same feelings, it's a shame to like someone else." , is likely to bring great trouble to the other party, not only that..."

If you still can't help thinking of the other person as the object of your sexual fantasies, it will be even more offensive.

But Xiao Zichong was shameless and couldn't say such words, so he changed the direction of his speech and continued: "Not only that, you see that you are a man, and I am also a man. My buddy is actually pretty good. I would like to live with you, which was an idea I had some time ago."

Yan Ran was a little disappointed, he actually wanted to hear from Xiao Zichong that he loved him a long time ago, but it didn't seem like that.But Xiao Zichong said that he wanted to live with him, so he looked forward to it, "A while ago? When was it?"

Xiao Zichong said: "I just turned to your circle of friends suddenly. I thought you were getting married?"

Yan Ran was taken aback: "I don't want to get married."

Xiao Zichong: "I know. I made a mistake. I thought you were going to get married, and at that moment, I felt very painful emotions. I couldn't sleep all night and thought about a lot of things."

Yan Ran thought to himself that there was such a thing, Xiao Zichong was really upset, "You suddenly found out that you like me?"

Xiao Zichong smiled helplessly: "No."

Yan Ran was disappointed again, pinching Xiao Zichong's ear with his hand.

Xiao Zichong avoided his hand and said, "I knew that I liked you before that. I just thought that if you get married, then a stage of my life will pass."

Yan Ran didn't understand.

Xiao Zichong continued: "I suddenly realized that your marriage is a dividing line in my life. It is divided into the stage before you get married and the stage after I married you. You are married, and you will be with other people from then on. Life, forming a new family with someone I don't know, you will put your mind on her, I find it unbearable. So, I had lunch that day, I couldn't control myself, I was going to Hangzhou for a business trip, But I asked other colleagues to go, so I took the suitcase and changed the flight to your house."

Yan Ran understood Xiao Zichong's words, because he put himself in his shoes and thought that if he suddenly saw the news that Xiao Zichong was going to get married, he would feel the same pain, thinking that the first half of his life was over.

Xiao Zichong continued: "I think, in my life, I will never find another person who makes me love him more than you."

Yan Ran looked at Xiao Zichong quietly, and said softly, "Me too. I can't find anyone who loves you more than me." Including myself.