walk through spring with you

Yan Ran's face is close in front of his eyes.

Xiao Zichong has often dreamed about him recently, and once even dreamed that Yan Ran kissed his cheek actively. At that time, Yan Ran's face was so close to him, and he looked at him blankly and emotionally.

The overlapping of dreams and reality made Xiao Zichong feel uncomfortable. He blinked, tried to calm himself down and said, "After so many years, are you still so afraid of your parents? Tell them directly that you have your own Arrange, let them not interfere with your life. Is it necessary to hide, so far away?"

Yan Ran is actually not afraid of his parents anymore, but in fact, he still can't be cruel to his parents. He can't stand his parents being sad because of his own pain.So I clearly mentioned the matter of homosexuality before, but later, both sides stopped asking each other, and the years became quieter.

Yan Ran said in embarrassment, "I'm not you, I'm afraid of my old mother." Besides, my parents are not as open-minded as yours.Every situation is totally different.

Seeing his limp appearance, Xiao Zichong wanted to hate him, but also felt that Yan Ran was like this, with such a nature, what could he do to Yan Ran.

Xiao Zichong sighed, "We were in the same year, you are almost thirty, are you still afraid of your parents? I think you should establish your authority at home and let your parents respect you. This is not just for yourself , It’s also good for your parents.”

Yan Ran frowned and looked at him, the tails of his big eyes drooped slightly, like a little sheep, Xiao Zichong couldn't help but said, "You are so soft, how did you become the supervisor of your department, can you control people?"

Yan Ran thinks that you underestimate me too much. I am also quite authoritative in our department, and everyone from the big boss to the finance minister to the other employees below like me very much.

He snorted, "We are a small company, can't I have a high education?"

As soon as Xiao Zichong heard it, he knew that he was deliberately speaking ironically. The company Yan Ran worked for was not small, and it was well-known in the southwest. Besides, Yan Ran would talk to Xiao Zichong about the premise of "education" in the past?

Xiao Zichong thought I was talking to you about something serious, but you actually got into a temper tantrum with me.

In fact, when Xiao Zichong was dealing with other people, it was impossible for him to say things like "Why did you become the head of your department" and "Can you manage people?" However, it is easy to take on the posture of Yan Ran's parents when he is in front of him. The problem of treating Yan Ran as his son is still there.

He frowned and said, "I'm talking to you, don't you like me talking about you? You're playing against me on purpose."

Yan Ran lowered her head and pursed her lips in silence, upset.

Xiao Zichong sighed, and continued, "I'm not doing it for your own good, would I say these things?"

Yan Ran was still silent, Xiao Zichong was also a little angry, and said, "I'm talking to you, you keep your head down, why don't you look at me, you are also evasive in front of your boss and subordinates Look? If you're not happy about what I said, just refute me directly."

Yan Ran was extremely bored. He didn't come to listen to Xiao Zichong's words. Moreover, he knew the source of the problems between him and his parents best, and he knew what to do. Just deal with it calmly.What's more, he likes Xiao Zichong so much, he always asks about him from other people, and always checks his various social accounts, like a voyeur, he is almost out of his mind.Compared with his parents being the source of his troubles, Xiao Zichong is the source of his troubles and pain.But Xiao Zichong didn't understand anything.

Yan Ran suddenly raised his head, looked straight at Xiao Zichong, and even said angrily, "I'm in front of others, of course it's not like this. I... I'm just facing you... I..." Yan Ran suddenly I can’t say what to say next——I am always hesitant and do not know what to do just because I like you and love you so deeply.

Xiao Zichong didn't realize what Yan Ran wanted to say, he said, "What if you just face me? I've always regarded you as a good friend. Would I suppress your will? Are you facing me? Can't talk?"

Yan Ran was very annoyed by his aggressive words, and said directly, "I... I just like you, because I like you, that's why... I'm not like this at all when I'm facing other people."

Xiao Zichong was stunned, looking at Yan Ran in astonishment.

After Yan Ran finished speaking, he was also stunned. Immediately, he became terrified again, thinking, I actually spoke out what was in my heart, and I just said it like this.

Xiao Zichong's astonished expression made Yan Ran even more terrified, this buddy can't do it anymore, what will he think of me?

Yan Ran couldn't control himself immediately, tears fell from his eyes in an instant, he didn't expect that he would cry, because it seemed that he was too useless.Since his grandma passed away, he hadn't actually cried again, and now he was crying in front of Xiao Zichong, which was too shameful.

Yan Ran was so embarrassed that she wanted to wipe away her tears, she didn't even dare to watch Xiao Zichong's reaction.

After Xiao Zichong was stunned, he realized that what Yan Ran said was true, and Yan Ran burst into tears suddenly, which made Xiao Zichong understand that the "like" Yan Ran said did not seem to refer to the love between friends. It is not a kind of liking, but a "like" with a deeper meaning.

Does he have "love" for me?

This is obviously what Xiao Zichong dreamed of, but when it really happened, Xiao Zichong became timid like Ye Gong loves dragons.

Xiao Zichong seldom felt timid. Back then, when he was 21 years old, he set foot on a foreign land alone, started his busy studies, and dealt with people of different races who were even discriminatory or hostile to him. He was never timid, but at this time, he was indeed timid.

Yan Ran likes me.

In fact, Xiao Zichong was happy and excited, but this emotion seemed to be too strong, hovering in his brain like a hurricane, so that it appeared illusory in his brain, and because of the illusory, Xiao Zichong was disturbed.

Xiao Zichong quickly calmed himself down. He looked at Yan Ran silently and calmly, as if he was examining and judging a contract, he had to carefully consider every word, and he had to analyze the meaning behind each word and the possible problems it might cause.

Of course Xiao Zichong knew that Yan Ran liked him, but Xiao Zichong had never thought that this liking had sexual love before.

Because Xiao Zichong also liked Yan Ran. When he didn't realize that this liking might involve sexual desire, strong possessiveness and jealousy, he also thought about it, maybe I will The liking for his wife is not as strong as the liking for Yan Ran.

At that time, Xiao Zichong didn't think that this kind of strong "like" of giving attention, lovesickness, caring, and making all plans and worries for the other party was not friendship but love.

Even now, Xiao Zichong believes that friendship is not necessarily less intense than love, and it is longer and purer than love.

Yan Ran likes me, does he really like me with love?Could he be mistaken?Moreover, the two of them haven't been together for so many years, but they have actually changed a lot, does he know?He may be under so much pressure because he is being urged to marry by his family now that he has hallucinations and elevated friendship to love, but he doesn't know it. When he calms down and thinks about it carefully, will he regret it?

What's more, compared to Yan Ran's love for me, it is very likely that he admires me too much. When we live together, he finds that I am also an ordinary person like him. Will he regret it?Xiao Zichong looked at Yan Ran, and even worried about Yan Ran. He was always worried that Yan Ran was born too pure emotionally. If he understood that his love was too idealistic and the reality was boring and trivial, Is he going to be hit.

Xiao Zichong couldn't give Yan Ran an answer at all for a while, and Yan Ran felt even more sad when Xiao Zichong looked at him calmly. He thought, Xiao Zichong really didn't like the same sex, but he probably didn't like it either. To hit my friend, I had to be silent.

Yan Ran was at a loss for a moment, and wanted to say something, or even tell a joke to smooth things over, but he couldn't make a sound for a moment.

Xiao Zichong was rationally calm, but seeing Yan Ran crying with red eyes and tears all over his face, he panicked again. He wanted to comfort him, but he didn't know what to say. Fortunately, he saw the paper on the coffee table, He quickly took the tissue and handed it to Yan Ran, "Of course, wipe your tears, don't cry."

He unconsciously called Yan Ran by his nickname. In fact, he didn't call Yan Ran that way after the two graduated from high school.

Yan Ran looked at the tissue he handed over, and really didn't have the heart to pick it up. He stood up in a panic, choked up and said, "I'm going back. Pretend you didn't hear what I just said."

Seeing him like this, Xiao Zichong felt even more uncomfortable. He thought that he should hug Yan Ran and say "I love you too, I have always loved you very much", so that he could comfort Yan Ran immediately, but he also knew that he should not This is irresponsible.

Yan Ran was originally a person with pure feelings and always full of enthusiasm. To express his love to him in such a vernacular manner was like putting Yan Ran in shackles. I am satisfied, and he will never leave his mouth.

Xiao Zichong even felt distressed, he took Yan Ran's hand and held it tightly, "You are here this time, you are not here to talk to me just now, are you?"

Faced with Xiao Zichong's embarrassed look, Yan Ran became even more flustered. He knew that he had caused Xiao Zichong a lot of trouble. He wanted to take his hand away from Xiao Zichong's, but Xiao Zichong grabbed it with both hands. Yan Ran felt that things had become a mess, and begged Xiao Zichong, "Let go, I'm going back. I have work to do, so I'm going back to work."

Xiao Zichong looked at him like a rabbit fleeing in a panic, for some reason, he felt sad and soft-hearted and thought it was funny, he dragged Yan Ran back to the sofa, stretched out his hand to support Yan Ran, and imprisoned him in his own Between the sofa and the sofa, I stared at him and said, "I knew you were here, so I asked for a special leave of absence to play with you for a few days."

Xiao Zichong was so close to Yan Ran that Yan Ran could even feel his breath, which made Yan Ran very nervous. He had to lean back as much as possible, sticking to the back of the sofa chair. He felt that Xiao Zichong was very There is something wrong, I said I like him, but he still does this kind of "wall-dong" thing to me, doesn't he know that this is very ambiguous, does he understand it?

Yan Ran was angry and nervous, "It's such a time, what's the use of you telling me these things. I've already said that I like you, but you're still like this, aren't you embarrassed?"

Xiao Zichong looked at him, and Yan Ran could clearly feel his eyes sweeping over his lips and neck, which made Yan Ran even more nervous, his Adam's apple slipped involuntarily, and his intuition made him feel a kind of tension at that moment. Intensely aggressive, he even felt his scalp go numb. In this almost paralyzed state, he heard Xiao Zichong's hoarse voice say, "So, do you want to get my answer? Or do you want to just say it?" , let me know and go back?"

Yan Ran always felt that it was very dangerous. He was so nervous that he didn't know how to answer, so he could only stare at Xiao Zichong in a daze.

Seeing him like this, Xiao Zichong couldn't help but sighed in his heart, wondering what happened to Yan Ran, he said he liked it just now, but in fact, if he got closer to him, he would be startled.Yan Ran is Ye Gong's good dragon.

Xiao Zichong relaxed his grip on Yan Ran, and said, "Anyway, I have taken annual leave, and you are here too, so let's keep it for a few days."

Seeing that Yan Ran was relieved, Xiao Zichong sighed in his heart again, a little disappointed, and said, "Actually, I don't think you know me at all, Yan Ran, we are not as familiar as you think." Seeing Yan Ran was also disappointed After getting up, Xiao Zichong paused and explained, "The familiarity I said doesn't mean that we are unfamiliar, or that our former friends are not real. I mean, we don't have more time to get familiar with each other's lives Habits or thoughts about life."

Yan Ran looked at Xiao Zichong obsessively, Xiao Zichong saw that he was stupid, and didn't know whether Yan Ran had listened to him, so he could only continue to say, "It's easy to like it, and it's easy to get an answer, but if you want If you want to take a longer view, you have to know more about the other party before making a conclusion, right?"

Xiao Zichong was thinking about the issue of living together, but Yan Ran didn't think about it. He was more concerned about emotional matters. For him, as long as Xiao Zichong accepted him emotionally, the problems in life would not be a problem.

He was so nervous just now that his mind was in chaos. At this time, he also thought for a while before he felt that he seemed to have grasped the clues in Xiao Zichong's words. Could it be that Xiao Zichong meant that they could actually be together?Otherwise, why did he say that he wanted to take a longer view, why did he say that he should know more about the other party first, Yan Ran tentatively asked, "Do you like men?"

This problem is the most fundamental problem between the two of them.

Other things can be discussed, but sexual orientation is impossible to discuss.

Xiao Zichong doesn't need to think about this matter. He has repeatedly examined his heart and sexuality during college and graduate school. Compared with being gay, he should be bisexual.

"I don't have to be someone."

Yan Ran was stunned.

Xiao Zichong saw his stupid and extremely shocked appearance, so he had to add, "I didn't deny it either." Why can you be so stupid?

Yan Ran looked at Xiao Zichong aggrievedly, Xiao Zichong glanced over Yan Ran's rosy lips, stepped back a little uncomfortably, and said to Yan Ran, "Okay, have you finished your work yet?"

Yan Ran nodded.

Xiao Zichong: "Then go take a bath, go to bed early tonight, and I will take you around G City tomorrow."

Xiao Zichong stood up, "You can use everything in the bathroom as you like, and they are all prepared for you."

Seeing Xiao Zichong went upstairs, Yan Ran came back to his senses.

While taking a shower in the bathroom, Yan Ran's brain returned to normal operation, probably because he had been very nervous, sad and happy, so that he always felt that what happened just now was illusory, but he didn't want to go to Xiao Zichong to confirm it.

All the windows in Xiao Zichong’s house were made of sound-proof glass, and the whole house was unbelievably quiet. Yan Ran lay on the bed, looking at the not too high floor, thinking, Xiao Zichong is on it, is Xiao Zichong asleep? , what is he thinking?

Thinking of this, Yan Ran realized that in high school, he had been lying on his bed like this, thinking about these things.

Yan Ran fell asleep in the confusion caused by the interlacing of time.

Probably because Xiao Zichong's house was too quiet, and there was no light at all after the curtains were drawn. Yan Ran didn't wake up until ten o'clock the next day. When he woke up, he was in a trance. He didn't know if it was late at night or early in the morning. He checked his phone and saw that it was after ten o'clock. He was stunned for a long time before suddenly turning over and running out of the bedroom in his pajamas. In the dining room next to the bedroom, his laptop was on the dining table, and he was working on it.

Alas, Xiao Zichong is here.

Xiao Zichong turned his head and smiled at him, "Are you hungry?"

Yan Ran ate an expensive dinner with a small portion last night, and he was emotionally ups and downs. After sleeping for so long, how could he not be hungry? He said, "I'm a little hungry."

Xiao Zichong said, "I'm hungry too, I'll go out to eat when you get up. Are you still sleeping?"

Yan Ran was lost in Xiao Zichong's gentle gaze, and didn't understand when Xiao Zichong looked at him, whether he regarded himself as a friend or a person who could fall in love, he couldn't ask for a while, and said, "I won't sleep anymore You can actually eat first, or wake me up."

Xiao Zichong was not polite, and said, "Why don't you set the alarm clock when you sleep? Go wash up now, let's go out."

Yan Ran sighed in his heart, and hurriedly went to wash up.