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After all, after more than ten years, Xiao Zichong almost forgot what Yan Ran looked like in high school.

In the past ten years, Yan Ran has become a symbol in Xiao Zichong's heart. As Yan Ran's specific appearance continues to fade, Yan Ran's symbolic meaning has gradually become deeper.

While the symbol "Yan Ran" became Yan Ran in high school, it also became a synonym for Xiao Zichong's "high school period".

As the distance between elementary school and junior high school is getting farther and farther away, the things and classmates at that time are becoming more and more blurred, so the high school days of teenagers are more prominent.

Not facing Yan Ran, but just drawing Yan Ran's image in his mind. In Xiao Zichong's impression, Yan Ran was thin and white when he was a child, with big and dark eyes, and his expression was always pure and sincere.

Facing Yan Ran at this time, Xiao Zichong felt that Yan Ran hadn't changed much compared to when he was in high school, and Xiao Zichong still didn't know how Yan Ran viewed himself.

**

Xiao Zichong's house was damaged in the earthquake, and the house cracked several times. Although the construction department evaluated the house and believed that the house would not collapse, no one went back to live in the house after all, after all, the house was cracked. , and it is inconvenient to make up for it, and it leaks when it rains, making it impossible to live again.

Xiao Zichong's family rented a house outside that summer, and bought a high-rise elevator apartment next to the People's Park. When they bought this apartment, Xiao's father was very happy and proud, and said: "It's next to the park. It is convenient for exercising." Later, I found out that there are people dancing baba dances in the park every morning and evening. They are noisy in the morning and evening, and they are very troublesome. Fortunately, Xiao Zichong had already started his own independent life in college at that time, and he only went home for a few days during the winter vacation. , so I don’t have much complaints about my father’s choice of the house next to the People’s Park, but Wu Lan’s complaints are bigger, and I don’t have the money to bother to buy a house again, so I have to live like this forever.

In other words, Xiao Zichong's family is not that poor. Although he doesn't have a lot of money, he is not particularly picky. It is probably because his parents have always made him feel that he has to endure all kinds of inconveniences without money. My family is very poor. After I went to college, I seldom asked my family for any money other than non-routine expenses.Since he was in college, he has been a tutor, doing projects for tutors, striving for various scholarships, etc., to minimize the financial burden on the family. Therefore, he basically does not go home during the summer vacation, so he can do more and save money. travel expenses.

During the four-year undergraduate summer vacation, he only went home once during the sophomore summer vacation, and he didn’t go home for a few days, and there was nothing good to do at home. His father said that the family rented a house outside, and the house was small, and many things were packed and not unpacked. , told him not to go back, but Xiao Zichong wanted to go home to see the situation of his parents and grandpa dog, and secondly, he wanted to see Yan Ran, so he didn't listen to his father's words.

At that time, Yan Ran's school hadn't finished the final exam, and Yan Ran was still in school, so Xiao Zichong went directly to Yan Ran's school.

What Xiao Zichong wanted was to take a good look at Yan Ran, to probe into Yan Ran's thoughts, but when he passed by, he saw that Yan Ran was not at all the same as he imagined that "people who suffered too much after the earthquake were haggard". Yan Ran smiled and introduced him to everyone in the dormitory and the dormitory next door. I don’t know why Yan Ran usually uses himself to brag about his buddies in the dormitory. As soon as he arrived in Yan Ran’s dormitory, an endless stream of people came to visit him. Keep asking things like "how is your B major?"

Xiao Zichong was originally full of emotions, but he just wanted to hit Yan Ran and beat him up.I wondered what was going on in Yan Ran's school. The final exams were over, and everyone kept playing games and didn't read books well. I couldn't understand it. Luckily, Yan Ran was not that messy.

Yan Ran didn't notice it, took him to eat in the cafeteria, and arranged him to sleep in his own bed with clean sheets and quilts at night, while Yan Ran ran to the next bedroom to share a bed with another thinner classmate.

Xiao Zichong was "lying on the grass" in his heart for a while, and didn't know what to say.

Xiao Zichong excitedly ran to Yan Ran's school, and went back to M City the next day depressed. When he went back to M City, he found that his father had not lied to him at all, and the family really wasn't suitable for him to go back to.

His family used to live in a big house of more than 150 square meters, because the three members of the family loved to read books, and there were so many books, but the house broke down, so they rented a set of tens of square meters and packed it in a box. Xiao Zichong had no place to live when he went back, and his mother went to the disaster area to deal with the follow-up epidemic control and other issues. She couldn't go home for ten and a half months. He and his father Staring at each other at home, Xiao Zichong bought a train ticket and went back to school before he quarreled with his father. Although the school's accommodation conditions were terrible, it was still better than watching the mess at home.

**

After meeting Yan Ran that summer vacation, Xiao Zichong and Yan Ran actually "dissolved their suspicions". In fact, it was not at this time that they "dissolved their suspicions". It was the 512 earthquake, and the two resumed contact.But after all, it is necessary to meet face-to-face directly to give people a more intuitive and practical feeling of resuming friendship.

After Xiao Zichong went back to M City during the winter vacation, he also made an appointment with Yan Ran, but every time he made an appointment at a place like KFC to sit down, eat something and talk for a while before finishing the conversation.

Xiao Zichong felt that the craze for Yan Ran was always there in his heart, but he couldn't express it to Yan Ran. The two were so familiar that each other became an image in his life. He could even be separated by three to five hundred meters. When I was young, I knew that the person who came was Yan Ran just by feeling, but I couldn't ask Yan Ran "Have you been in a relationship", let alone say "I want to chase you".He couldn’t ask the first sentence, but he thought the latter sentence was too childish. He and Yan Ran were both boys, and if he really turned Yan Ran on the road of “had a relationship with a man”, could he be at this time? Just promise to marry Yan Ran in the future?Yan Ran is not a person like himself who can ignore other people's eyes and words. Once Yan Ran is turned on this road, it is to let Yan Ran walk a steel wire bridge. He can't treat Yan Ran like this.

**

And since Xiao Zichong went abroad to study for a master's degree, he hasn't met Yan Ran, but the two have QQ. After work, WeChat just started to become popular, and they quickly added each other, but they rarely chat with each other. The main reason is that we don’t have much time to talk, and sometimes we don’t know what to talk about.

After Xiao Zichong returned to China for work, he went on a business trip to City S once. After thinking about it, he contacted Yan Ran and asked him if he could have a meal together.

Yan Ran actually blamed Xiao Zichong very much in his heart, because Xiao Zichong didn't tell Yan Ran immediately about Xiao Zichong's return to work in China, but after several months, Yan Ran learned about it from his high school classmate Jiang Kun. information.

Jiang Kun was admitted to Tsinghua University back then, and after working, he did private work for a start-up company. This start-up company happened to rely on Jiang Kun to go to Xiao Zichong to attract investment. The two have been in contact since they were undergraduates. Because of this incident Jiang Kun always thought that Yan Ran knew that Xiao Zichong had returned to China immediately, so he slipped his mouth in front of him, and when Yan Ran heard it, his heart immediately stopped.

He didn't tell Jiang Kun that Xiao Zichong didn't tell him about his return to China, and he didn't turn around and ask Xiao Zichong why he didn't tell himself that he had returned to China. I wondered what Xiao Zichong meant, he didn't regard me as a friend, and I didn't want to talk to him in the future.Yan Ran was so angry that he worked overtime in the company every day, and worked hard at the excel sheet.

As a result, as soon as Xiao Zichong called him and invited him to dinner, Yan Ran calmed down, put down his excel watch, and took a taxi to the city for dinner.

It was nothing but uncomfortable to be depressed for a long time.

Xiao Zichong didn't mention why he went back to work in China at all, and Yan Ran didn't ask, as if it didn't happen.

The two ate beef hot pot, but Yan Ran didn't eat much, and he didn't remember the taste of the hot pot. He just kept chatting with Xiao Zichong, and what they talked about. Once Xiao Zichong left, Yan Ran didn't remember much. Yes, probably because I drank alcohol, so I don't remember.

Yan Ran had a slight impression that Xiao Zichong asked him where he lived. Yan Ran said that he rented a house with others, and Xiao Zichong asked: "Doesn't your family have a lot of real estate in S City? Why do you share with others?"

Yan Ran said: "Those properties belong to my parents, not to me. Besides, I want to live near the company so that I can commute conveniently, so I can only rent with others."

Xiao Zichong didn't say anything more, but Yan Ran judged from his expression that he felt that he was very bad.Yan Ran complained in her heart, you didn't tell me when you returned to China, your friends are gone, you don't care how I live!

**

This time we meet again after the beef hot pot last time.

That beef hot pot meeting seemed to have happened not too long ago, but Yan Ran tried hard to think about it, and found that it had happened two years ago.I was so confused that I seemed to automatically fragment the time when I didn't meet Xiao Zichong, and I actually felt that I had just met Xiao Zichong not long ago.

Yan Ran stirred the white rice porridge in the pot, then turned to look at Xiao Zichong who was standing at the door.

The new air conditioner at home was very powerful, and the temperature rose quickly. Xiao Zichong unbuttoned his windbreaker and stood there casually.He didn't shave his head randomly like he did when he was a student. Instead, he grew his hair and combed it to a side part. This hairstyle complements his thick eyebrows, deep eyes, and his straight nose bridge. His lips, coupled with his tall and slender figure, and his clothes are between formal and everyday, and his clothes are expensive at first glance, which makes him look mature, elegant, handsome and extravagant, not like before , although he used to be good-looking, but at that time it was a kind of wild and unadorned good-looking, and now he is so good-looking after taking care of it, which makes people even more irresistible. After all, not only is he good-looking now, but he is also very expensive to look at.

Yan Ran suddenly thought that Xiao Zichong knew how to use his appearance to sell books when he was a freshman in high school. Xiao Zichong is so smart, he fully understands any of his advantages, and will use his advantages.

Alas, Xiao Zichong must not have dressed up so nicely to attract me, because I don't deserve him to come here dressed like a flower.

Thinking of this, Yan Ran sighed inwardly.

Yan Ran had to ask: "Are you on a business trip again this time? Want to see a client?"

Xiao Zichong did not directly answer his question. Yan Ran wore a set of medium-thick, round-neck, long-sleeved T-shirt pajamas. The pajamas were very large and felt a little empty. He was already very thin, and he looked even more like a paper He is a filmmaker, thin in stature, and he has a small face and big eyes. He always looks innocent. No matter how you look at him, he still looks like a student, as if he will never grow up.

Of course Xiao Zichong knew that Yan Ran was already an adult.

Xiao Zichong sighed suddenly: "You still look the same as in high school."

Yan Ran frowned and said, "Are you praising me or do you think I'm childish?"

Xiao Zichong smiled and said, "Of course I'm praising you for being young."

I don't know why, but Yan Ran started to feel elated, but his face was not salty, and he said, "Of course I'm still young."

Xiao Zichong nodded with a smile: "Yes, you are still young."

Yan Ran asked: "Do you only eat porridge? Do you want to eat pickles?"

Xiao Zichong said, "Do you still have pickles here?"

As a Sichuanese, how could I not prepare some pickles at home.

Yan Ran wanted to say that my parents prepared it, but thinking that Xiao Zichong didn't like his parents, he changed the way of saying, "Do you want to eat or not?"

Xiao Zichong said, "Okay."

The rice porridge was finally cooked, Xiao Zichong sat at the dining table and ate white rice porridge with dried radish, and asked Yan Ran who had been staring at him, "Do you want some?"

Yan Ran shook his head: "I don't eat it. I ate it in the company."

Xiao Zichong: "Have you been eating at the company?"

Yan Ran: "Yes. Our company's cafeteria is quite good. They all use the company's rice noodles, oil, milk and meat. It's very safe to eat. And the chefs in the cafeteria are familiar with me, and sometimes they cook for me. "

Seeing Yan Ran's proud face, Xiao Zichong laughed and asked, "Are all the staff in your canteen all aunts?"

Yan Ran: "No, some are uncles."

Xiao Zichong: "Then uncle also likes you so much?"

Yan Ran wondered if Xiao Zichong's words really complimented my popularity obliquely, and he said, "That's right."

Xiao Zichong: "Isn't it because I want to marry my niece or something to you?"

Yan Ran: "..."

Yan Ran paused for a few seconds before saying, "Then the boss of your company won't want to marry your niece or something to you?"

Xiao Zichong: "..."

Xiao Zichong raised his head to look at Yan Ran, met Yan Ran's provocative eyes that did not show weakness at all, and said, "Let's change the subject."

Yan Ran realized that Xiao Zichong's calm eyes meant that he was "childish", he pursed his lips and snorted softly, thinking that you mentioned it first, he actually thought I was childish.

Yan Ran asked, "Have you been back to City M recently?"

Xiao Zichong continued to eat porridge, and said slowly, "No. I haven't been back for two years."

Yan Ran: "You haven't gone back for so long. Why don't you go back?"

Xiao Zichong said: "I have nothing to do when I go back. It's boring."

Yan Ran thought that was indeed the case, "I don't go back very often, but I still have to go back to visit grandma's grave every year."

Xiao Zichong thought for a while, and asked, "Are you still sad?" He remembered that Yan Ran's grandma passed away a few years ago, when he was abroad and chatting with his parents on QQ, he heard them mention it.But because he didn't know how to face Yan Ran who lost his grandma, he didn't condolence Yan Ran on QQ at that time.

"Huh?" Yan Ran was stunned for a moment, unable to understand what he meant.

Xiao Zichong reminded him: "Your grandma is gone."

Yan Ran shook his head: "It's okay. When I received a call from my family saying that my grandma had left, I was sad for a while. It's been several years, how could I still be sad. People are going to die, and grandma left without suffering. Well, it’s a good thing.”

"Oh." Xiao Zichong responded.

Xiao Zichong asked again: "Is there any activity in the class recently?"

In fact, Xiao Zichong is in the wechat group in his high school class. Most people in the class like to respond to Xiao Zichong. Xiao Zichong accidentally enters the group and squeaks, and a group of people who usually don’t make a sound and only spy on the group appear to chat , there are activities in the class, doesn't Xiao Zichong know better than himself?

Yan Ran didn't know why he asked this question, and said, "I've been a little busy recently, so I didn't pay much attention to Daqun."

Xiao Zichong: "Then there are many classmates in S City?"

Yan Ran thought, are you looking for a classmate to develop your business?Why didn't you pay attention before, but now you suddenly ask?

Yan Ran thought for a while and said, "A lot, there are more than a dozen people. Many people who went to other cities for college entrance examinations have returned to work in S City. Maybe they feel that the pressure of life here is not so great, or Parents bought a house here, so they don’t have to think about the house when they come back to work, which is much easier.”

Xiao Zichong: "Oh. Did you buy this house in full?"

Yan Ran nodded: "The money from my parents. However, it should have been spent and should have been given to me."

Xiao Zichong looked at him, Yan Ran didn't want to be considered by Xiao Zichong as the kind of person who "gnaws the old", so he said: "I used to save 20 to [-] with my parents, and then in the will left by my grandma before she passed away, I left the real estate and money in her name to me, and the jewelry was distributed to the female relatives. But I was still in school at that time, and my parents dealt with the inheritance my grandma gave me, and the money was with them. Those The money adds up to more than enough to buy this house.”

Xiao Zichong said "Oh" and asked, "Your uncle and aunt don't have any objections?"

Yan Ran: "The real estate left by my grandma was not worth much when she died, and the bank deposits were not much, just a few hundred thousand. Uncles and aunts didn't care about this at all. Besides, some of her jewelry are antiques and not worth much. Low, so no one had an opinion at the time."

Xiao Zichong thought to himself, I think your grandma is a strong person, it is wise to make a will when she is alive, if anyone dares to object, he will definitely ridicule the other party loudly immediately, and let people get out, naturally no one will have any objections.

Xiao Zichong's mind came up with the image of Grandma Yan Ran who seemed kind but always had a sharp judgment in her eyes. For the first time, she felt that Grandma Yan Ran was not bad.

After Xiao Zichong finished his porridge, he went to wash the dishes by himself.

Yan Ran turned on the TV, and asked Xiao Zichong if he wanted to connect his phone to the Wi-Fi at home. Xiao Zichong handed him his phone to connect to the Internet, and then sat on the sofa and tuned the TV channel, as if he didn’t treat himself as an outsider at all. .

Yan Ran entered the wifi password for Xiao Zichong, but did not realize that there was something wrong with Xiao Zichong's behavior.After returning the phone to Xiao Zichong, he curled up on the sofa hugging the pillow and gossips with Xiao Zichong about the classmates in the class.

Yan Ran looks quite stable in the company, but his essential gossip feelings make him not gossip to others, and his skin itch all over.

Yan Ran first said: "Do you know what Lu Ming is doing now?"

Yan Ran naturally knew that Xiao Zichong didn't like Lu Ming, but he didn't know how much Xiao Zichong hated Lu Ming. If he knew, he would never mention Lu Ming.

Xiao Zichong knew that Lu Ming was fooling around with that HIV-positive social person back then, and there was a risk of contracting HIV. Later, Xiao Zichong went to college, and his mother mentioned many things about Lu Ming to him.Lu Ming took blocker medicine for a month back then, and the medicine was paid by his mother. Lu Ming was grateful, and he didn't commit suicide after that. After several blood tests, they were all negative, indicating that he was not infected. His fortune is great.Lu Ming was admitted to a university in Shanghai as an undergraduate. He majored in chemistry at first, but after he enrolled, he found that he didn't like chemistry. He changed his major and studied English. After that, he went to graduate school and is now doing simultaneous interpreting.Why did Xiao Zichong know this person so well, because he begged Wu Lan to be his godmother, and called Wu Lan many times a year, which made Xiao Zichong very depressed.Every time I say to his mother: "Don't bother with this person, can you?" Wu Lan will say: "It is very painful for many people to gain life inspiration and change themselves. Lu Ming trusts me very much, and I think he should get A better life, how could I ignore him."

Xiao Zichong felt that the gap between himself and his mother was getting bigger and bigger, and it was also related to these little things.Anyway, it's impossible for him to like Lu Ming even a little bit, and he doesn't want to care about what the hell is going to do now.It's just that he is always worried that the relationship between his mother and Lu Ming is that of a farmer and a snake. Maybe Lu Ming will show his fangs at some point.

Xiao Zichong switched the TV program to the English-language international news channel that Yan Ran never watched, and asked calmly, "What's wrong with him?"