HP's Lost and the Lighthouse

Just as Snape was reluctant to teach Harry, Harry was obviously unwilling to learn from Snape.It is even said that the boy's reluctance should be more obvious, but obviously, the decision-making power is not in the hands of any one of them.

In any case, the teaching of Occlumency was by no means a success.

"Potter didn't try to deny my intrusion at all!" Snape complained angrily to Dumbledore when he met Dumbledore. "All along, he let his emotions control his brain—his thoughts Like an egg white without a shell—”

"Is it all water?" Dumbledore whispered, a little smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

"No, it's nothing." Hearing Snape's sudden pause, Dumbledore waved his hand in his questioning eyes, motioning for him to continue.

"He was even obsessed with the dream that the Dark Lord had constructed for him—he was trying to find out what the Dark Lord wanted—and he thought he was doing a good job!" The potions professor paused for a while, his voice calmed down, "I Still very skeptical that I was the right decision to teach Potter Occlumency..."

"Severus, Harry hasn't been having a good time lately, and I think it's understandable that he's been a little emotional," said Dumbledore. "Give him a little time, and he'll realize that learning Occlumency is important to him." Said it was necessary."

"but--"

Dumbledore turned around: "Give him a little more patience, Severus." He turned his back to the Potions Master, showing that he didn't want to continue the subject.

Snape unhappily swallowed the rebuttal that came to his lips, and muttered reluctantly.

"I don't think it's going to improve," he said. "He doesn't even realize it's not his job to get information from the Dark Lord."

With that, he strode out of Dumbledore's office, tossing his robes.

Before Snape could find stronger evidence to support his view from the 'remedial' lessons he had spent with Potter at night, which he was obviously not alone in finding, there was a big surprise at Hogwarts. misfortune.

Umbridge, the insufferable woman sent by Fudge, finally realizes her dream of having Hogwarts in her hands completely - she successfully drives Dumbledore out of Hogwarts , became the new Headmaster of Hogwarts.

Not only that, but judging from what Snape read in the Daily Prophet the next day, she also managed to incriminate Dumbledore with the appropriate crime - 'organizing an army with the intention of overthrowing the Ministry of Magic' - and successfully put the Dumbledore becomes a fugitive from the Ministry of Magic interrogation and the murder of Azkaban.

In Snape's opinion, this was ridiculous to the point of absurdity.It was Dumbledore who rescued him from Azkaban more than ten years ago - relying on the old man's fame, credit, naturalness, and charisma - to vouch for him as a Death Eater.And now, the White Wizard, who had been able to easily exonerate a Death Eater, himself faced being imprisoned in Azkaban-of course, he didn't think Dumbledore would be so stupid as to throw himself into the trap.

The reports in the Daily Prophet provided Snape with half the jokes of the day - albeit gloating, but he did get a kick out of the reported description of Dumbledore's 'panic' confession of his crimes after being caught A kind of pleasure similar to 'you also have today'.As for the other half - it goes without saying that it comes from Headmaster Umbridge who can't wait to exercise his rights. After all, it is rare for a Hogwarts headmaster to be confused by the students' "welcome fireworks" on his first day in office. A sight to behold.

But Snape's good mood didn't last more than a day in the end.It was only the day after Dumbledore left school that Potter - he shouldn't have expected Dumbledore's departure to make the boy feel better - had broken into the memory he had kept in the Pensieve.

"Are you having fun?" He pinched the boy's arm palely - maybe a little too hard, but Snape didn't have the heart to care about that.He was filled with anger at being found out about a secret he had tried so hard to keep hidden.

The most embarrassing and painful moment of his youth——

"So," Snape's lips quivered, almost at a loss for what to say, "so... happy, Potter?"

"No—no."

"Your father was an interesting man, wasn't he?"

"I - I didn't -" The young man seemed to be terrified, his eyes slipped from the bridge of his nose because of Snape's shake, and those green eyes looked at the Potions Professor who had completely lost his composure.

As if awakened by the green eyes imprinted in his memory, Snape pushed Harry out of the way with all his might.The boy fell heavily on the floor of the basement classroom.

"You are not allowed to tell anyone what you saw!" he roared.

"No," Harry said, standing up, trying to stay as far away from Snape as possible, "No, of course I—"

"Get out, get out, I never want to see you in this office again!"

Snape didn't want to hear his hypocritical promise at all, pointing at the door and snarling furiously.

He watched Harry rush to the door in a daze, quickly twist the door open and escape, his body filled with anger swayed in place as if his strength was suddenly taken away.The door slammed open from the wall and then slammed shut again.

He sat down behind his desk somewhat dejectedly, and buried his face in his palms.

For a moment, Snape wanted to tell Dumbledore.But he soon realized that Dumbledore had been kicked out of Hogwarts by Umbridge just a few days earlier.And...even if he complained to Dumbledore, how much could the old man understand him?

After all, those things have passed for decades, even if it left an indelible mark on his heart, the protagonists in it-Potter and Lily have been dead for more than ten years, even if Dumbledore can understand His brooding, can it play a consoling role?

Snape lifted his face from the palm of his hand, and the momentary weakness quickly faded away from him, and he looked like the potions professor everyone feared at Hogwarts again.He waved his wand and began to tidy up the office that had been messed up by his own excesses.

Of course Dumbledore knew the feelings he had for Lily—he waved his wand to separate some potion ingredients from the broken glass shards, thinking slowly—but after so many years, no matter how strong Feelings are also fading.What's more, he never really had her feelings...

The author has something to say:

Professor: I have been wronged, I want to tell Dumbledore

Professor: No, no, he must think I can't tell him because Lily is upset.

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By the way, in the last chapter, no one of you paid attention to the professor saying that Harry’s brain is King’s Cross station? hhhh I think this “coincidence” is very interesting