Grandpa doesn't eat your shit

Zhou Ya reacted when she saw Zhou Shuran get off Gu Jianghe's car.

Gu Jianghe drove out to pick up Zhou Shuran.

Fortunately, he still pretended to be affectionate and thought he was here to find him.

I was also worried that it would be unsafe for people to find it dark to go home.

The face is really big.

The old man chased the chickens because of Zhou Shuran.

He's quite a big man, so afraid of ordering a small chicken?As for?Growing up in the countryside, what chickens are you afraid of?

Zhou Ya couldn't help thinking sourly in her heart.

In an instant, he realized that his idea was wrong. What people were afraid of was his freedom, and he couldn't control his fear, so he couldn't use it as a mockery.

So silently bit the words and swallowed them back.

It's just a bad feeling in my heart.

Where is the pain?

Probably, the moment Zhou Shuran appeared, he suddenly had a strong feeling that he was an outsider.

Although it is said that he is also an outsider, but he is not very happy.

They were talking outside the house, and the old man asked Zhou Shuran if he could sleep at home at night.

Before Zhou Shuran could reply, Zhou Ya felt a wave of resentment in her heart.

Sleeping "at home"?whose home?Anyway, it's not his Zhou Ya's home, Zhou Shuran went back to "home" to sleep, what about Zhou Ya?

There are only two bedrooms, maybe he sleeps with the old man?

Or is he with Zhou Shuran?

Thinking about it this way, Zhou Shuran has lived in that room for more than ten years. Isn't that the bed that Zhou Shuran has slept in for more than ten years? If Zhou Shuran is willing to let him sleep in half of the bed, shouldn't he still be grateful?

As soon as he got angry, Zhou Shuran replied, "No, I'm at brother Gu's house tonight."

His tone sounded less enthusiastic.

Zhou Ya couldn't help being picky again, the old man kept you, at least he raised your grandfather for more than ten years, right?Return to Brother Gu’s house, Brother Gu’s family has gold?Will you grow thorns if you stay at home overnight?Have to refuse?

Again, I hate Gu Jianghe in my heart, little brother Gu, little brother Gu, God damn little brother Gu, you have to be pronounced "little".

Zhou Ya felt a resentment in his heart, there was no place to stand out, and it bulged in his chest, bumping around, making him upset, and he didn't like whoever caught him.

Hearing the words, the old man made a few ahs, as if he wanted to say something to persuade him to stay, but he couldn't find a reason for a while.

Zhou Ya laughed in her heart.

Gu Jianghe started talking and said: "Shu Ran has to catch the high-speed train early tomorrow morning, I have to send him there, and then he still has to find me, so he can just stay at my house, third master, don't worry about it. "

comfortable.

Zhou Ya read it again in her heart.

The barking was quite affectionate, didn't you sip Zhou Shuran when you were talking to me just now?

What are you talking about going to the provincial capital? It turns out that the college students themselves will come to see you from the provincial capital?It's really affectionate.

He also thought about catching the high-speed train early in the morning and sending him off.

Zhou Ya has been here for so many days, but she has never seen Gu Jianghe get up early every day.

When he persuaded Gu Jianghe, people would say that early worms are eaten by birds, and that the quilt is inseparable from me.

After working on it for a long time, it turned out that the partner was wrong. If Zhou Shuran was replaced, he would be able to get up?

He stood over there, gnashing his teeth, his heart constantly looking at the three people in front of the house, who were so sore, Gu Jianghe looked inside, and walked towards Zhou Ya.

When Gu Jianghe approached, Zhou Ya was still staring at the chicken coop. He looked at Zhou Ya's appearance, a little funny, and wanted to ask him if he looked at the chickens so seriously, did he want to be a chicken king, and remembered that the child just got angry and cried today Pass.

When he was still in the car just now, he saw the child's red and swollen eyes and reddish nose.

I wondered where I was hiding and cried.

If he was the only one here, he would drag Zhou Ya to have a heart-to-heart talk, but Zhou Shuran was also there, and if he didn't have a good chance to chat with Zhou Ya, he could only call him, "Where's the chicken?"

Zhou Yali ignored him and remained silent.

Thinking about nonsense?Don't look at the chicken to look at you?Do you have a chick? You?

Seeing that he didn't answer, Gu Jianghe said after a while: "Well... your phone dropped in my shop in the afternoon..."

As he spoke, he took out the cell phone from his pocket.

Before he finished speaking, Zhou Ya directly grabbed the mobile phone from his hand, and then turned his head back to look at the chicken coop.

Gu Jianghe laughed.

Well, it looks like it's still angry.

He didn't touch Zhou Ya's head, and asked him: "Then I'm going first?"

Zhou Ya still didn't say anything.

I said in my heart whether I love to go or not, it's none of my business, anyway, this is not my home.

Gu Jianghe thought for a while, and then said: "This afternoon, I was the one who spoke too hard, I..."

As he was talking, Zhou Shuran stood at the door and looked over, wondering, "Brother Gu? What are you doing?"

So the words were interrupted again.

Zhou Ya just pricked up her ears to listen to Gu Jianghe, but when she saw Zhou Shuran approaching, she lowered her eyes again.

Gu Jianghe also knew that this was not a good occasion to talk, so he could only sigh in his heart, and then replied to Zhou Shuran: "Nothing, let's go."

As he spoke, he took a few steps forward, then looked back at Zhou Ya: "I'm leaving, kid."

Of course there was still no response.

Gu Jianghe clicked his tongue in his heart, he still looks angry... Tomorrow he has to coax him well.

Zhou Ya stood like a statue in front of the chicken coop. Amidst the chirping of the little chickens, she heard the sound of Gu Jianghe walking away, then the sound of the car door closing, the gas pedal was fired, and then left.

He was very upset, and he didn't know which side to worry about.

Zhou Shuran and Gu Jianghe are naturally very cordial, he already knew that.

He and the old man's grandson Lushui in just one month is naturally not as strong as Zhou Shuran, whom the old man brought up in his heart, and he understands this.

But it is uncomfortable.

It's like, he quietly stole other people's things, and before he warmed up in his arms, the original owner came over, and then the things in his arms hurried to the original owner, and performed a scene for him. The world-shattering reunion of broken mirrors.

It made him frightened to death, but he still had nothing to say, who made things not belong to him in the first place?

Zhou Shuran's sudden visit did not only affect Zhou Ya's mood.

The old man sat there restlessly for a long time, until it was time to eat, he couldn't help looking at Zhou Ya's room after eating two bites.

Sitting next to him, Zhou Ya could tell from his expression that he must be thinking of Zhou Shuran.

I couldn't help but feel a little bored.

But when you think about it, after all, the old man brought up the child himself, wouldn't it be strange if he didn't want to?

So he couldn't help but opened his mouth, and asked the old man if he would go for a stroll at Gu Jianghe's house after dinner.

He found all the excuses for the old man, walked a hundred steps after the meal, and lived to 99.

Originally, he wanted to ask him again if he wanted to accompany the old man, but just as the words came to his lips, he swallowed them back.

Don't want to go, don't want to see them.

It gets dark late in summer, but it is still very bright at this point, so the old man is not a big problem when he goes alone.

It was too late to chat there, Gu Jianghe and Zhou Shuran would naturally send him back.

There is no need for Zhou Ya to worry.

Unexpectedly, the old man refused, saying that he couldn't, that he was too old to walk.

This excuse is not at all clever.

He usually goes out to herd cattle during the day, and he can put them there for several hours, and he runs far away, saying that he should not eat up the grass near his home.

Zhou Ya would have to ride a bicycle for a long time to find him.

The distance he walks in a day is probably dozens of miles from Gu Jianghe to here and back.

When Zhou Ya heard this, she knew it must not be the reason, but it was not easy for him to intervene in the matter of the grandpa and grandson.

One was that it was inappropriate, and the other was that he was afraid of interrupting, so he couldn't help but started to be awkward, and then said sour words.

It would be embarrassing.

So he shut his mouth, ate honestly, cleaned up the dishes, and boiled water for a bath.

When Zhou Ya was pouring the bath water, she passed the lobby and heard the old man sigh in the room.

He heard the sound and looked into the old man's room, the door was not closed, the old man was sitting on the chair, hunched over, stretched his hand to his face, and wiped it.

It looks like it's wiping tears.

Seeing the movement of the figure, Zhou Ya couldn't help holding his breath. He stared blankly, feeling numb in his fingertips.

It took a while to recover, pursed his lips, went out lightly to pour the water, then walked back to the room lightly, and closed the door.

When he was doing farm work, he felt the cocoons out of his fingers, and then worn the cocoons, making the skin and flesh sticky together; when he was tossing and turning in this place, he couldn't sleep well, couldn't sleep well, and couldn't eat well; , I couldn't see the direction ahead, and when I was lost, I never had the thought of "It would be great if I didn't exchange with Zhou Shuran".

This thought came to him for the first time when he saw the old man wiping his tears sitting alone in a dim room.

If only there was no exchange.

The old man didn't know how long he could live in his whole life. When he was getting old, the child he had been with him for so long was replaced by someone else.

So what if the one in exchange is related to him by blood?After all, there are still no relatives who have been brought up since childhood.

Although she knew she couldn't blame him for this matter, Zhou Ya couldn't help feeling a lot of shame and self-blame in her heart.

This morning, the old man was still listening to "Go Home and Have a Look".

His son is gone, his wife is gone, and the grandson he raised since childhood is not his own anymore.

Zhou Shuran is going to study in Beijing next time, and there are very few chances to come back, and the return is not to this place, but to the home where Zhou Ya used to stay.

How can there be children and grandchildren who can "go home often"?

As Zhou Ya thought about it, she couldn't help thinking of her grandfather.

Gu Jianghe asked Zhou Ya before, saying why I haven't heard you call San Ye a grandfather?The first thing you say is my old man, my old man's, why?Don't want to call?

Zhou Ya was silent for a long time, and finally told him.

When he was with his adoptive parents, the one closest to him was his grandfather.

Grandpa is getting old, and Zhou's father is old enough to have a son, and he will only have a son when he is almost 40 years old.

The grandfather in Zhou Ya's memory was very old from the beginning.

People are old but their hearts are not old, just like an old urchin.

I like to take Zhou Ya to play everywhere.

Zhou's father and Zhou's mother are always busy with work, and Zhou Ya is always accompanied by grandpa.

Teach him to skateboard, fight crickets, play mahjong, play spinning top, and ride a bicycle.

On Saturdays and Sundays, he called Zhou Ya to climb the mountain. Zhou Ya was so tired that he was out of breath, but he was very relaxed. He even laughed at Zhou Ya, saying that children are more active.

Grandpa can write calligraphy with a good brush and a magnificent momentum.

I usually keep a lot of flowers and plants at home. Zhou Ya was curious and asked him for two pots of succulents.

As a result, he was raised to death.

Zhou Ya regretted and was afraid, afraid that grandpa would be sad.

Grandpa was not very sad, he smiled and said to him: "Baby, you are too young."

Zhou Ya has never understood why he is said to be too young, and what does his age have to do with raising succulents?

But he is really too young, and grandpa is already old.

When he was 11 years old, when he accompanied his grandfather to practice Tai Chi, the old man accidentally lost his waist.

This time, pull and mobilize the whole body.

Grandpa's aging has become more and more obvious since this time.

I can't climb the mountain anymore, and I can't breathe when I walk.

The spinning top couldn't move anymore, so he liked to watch Zhou Ya fidgeting around there, and then laughed, laughed, and coughed again.

Grandpa died of lung cancer.

But in fact, even if there is no lung cancer, it may not be a few years.

After all, the age has come.

Birth, old age, sickness and death always come step by step.

The first person who discovered Zhou Ya's sexual orientation was grandpa.

The old man didn't know what was going on, but he was much more enlightened than his son.

Instead of blaming Zhou Ya for this, she guided him, saying that this is not something to be embarrassed about, that there is nothing wrong with liking men and women, and liking is always innocent.

When he said this, he was lying on the hospital bed with gray hair and a sick face, still smiling there, just like usual, just changed from lying on a recliner to a bed, and teased Zhou Ya, saying it was a pity The old man will never see the day when you find a boyfriend.

Zhou Ya had always blamed herself because of her sexuality, but she never expected to get the support of her grandfather.

It was both pleasant surprise and sad at the same time.

With tears in his eyes, he said with a crying voice: "You live a long life."

Grandpa himself was quite open to it, and said with a smile: "I don't have such a long life, and the road to treasure is still long. You have to live well, live a wonderful life, and grandpa will watch you in the future."

After her grandfather passed away, Zhou Ya cried until she lost her voice.

He didn't know if grandpa could really see him. At that time, he hoped that grandpa could always look at him.

After this incident happened, he began to be afraid.

Will Grandpa see it?What would grandpa think?

Will he regret it?I regret that the child I have been carrying is not my own grandson, but a child who came from nowhere and was carried by the wrong child.

He didn't dare to think about it, he was too scared, and he didn't dare to think about what if his grandfather was like his parents, and he was only good to him because of his blood relationship, and if his grandfather knew about it, he would not want him anymore, so what should he do?

When Zhou Ya was young, his parents often went to work and left him alone at home. People always joked that your parents don’t want you, you are a child that no one wants.

He always responded triumphantly, saying no, my grandpa wants me!

Later, his parents really didn't want him anymore, and he started to get scared.

What if grandpa didn't want him either?

Then he really is an unwanted child.

Gu Jianghe asked him why he didn't call the old man a grandfather, because he didn't dare.

He was afraid that if he yelled out, grandpa would not be his grandpa anymore.

So what if grandpa heard it?Could grandpa have been shaken in the first place, and when he changed his name to being a grandpa, would he really not want him?

Zhou Ya often didn't know what she relied on to gain a foothold in this world. She didn't understand until she lost the strength that stood behind him, supported him, looked at him, and encouraged him.

To be needed is what he wants.

Only when you are needed by others can you be valuable, and in whose life you are rooted can you have a sense of belonging.

He once heard a saying that a person must have a home to have a direction.

If there is no home, it is like a rootless duckweed, which can only float there.

After his grandfather passed away, he has been drifting there, not knowing where to go, where is the end.

Now, there is nowhere to go.