soul guide

"When you were young, he liked you very much. He is not what you see. He is actually very kind and gentle. Just like you, he is innocent and lovely, innocent and kind. There are many things. You are very similar. He He didn't want to harm you, what he did was not from his original intention, it's all my fault,...you shouldn't hate him."

Xiao Xi hid in his arms, whimpering and sniffling the snot, the snot soaked into his clothes, not knowing how much he listened to his words, Shen leaned on the railing and talked to himself, eyes drawn into that dusty memory, that At that time, he chose Xiaoxi from hundreds of children. He rolled on the ground with other children in the family, and cried because he could not grab the ball. Shen leaned on the railing to hold him in his arms, and he stopped crying immediately. A piece of candy coaxed him to be good, and he followed him home obediently. He has always been very obedient and listened to what Shen Pinglan said. This is the same as Xiao Xi. At that time, Xiao Xi overcame all kinds of difficulties and stayed in the sun. At the beginning, the two of them were one ghost, and they got along very well. Shen Pinglan was only a weak man, and he had never been a father. He mixed with a bunch of rough guys all day long, and only took care of Xiao Xi. The experience gained, pulling him carelessly, always making mistakes, Xiao Xi folded her hands and laughed at him, watching him carelessly comb Xiao Xifeng's clothes and hair, she laughed so hard that she couldn't even straighten her waist.

He mocked Shen Pinglan, and after laughing, he would take over the work in his hands and do it for him. At that time, he had to beware of the imperial court's pursuit of soldiers, and he had to pay attention to accidents. Although it was hard, he never complained.

"He likes you very much and wants to hug you, but every time he gets close, you cry until you are hoarse."

"He didn't mean to scare you, he just wanted to get close to you."

When Shen Pinglan hugged and coaxed Xiaoxi, it wasn't that he didn't see that Xiaoxi was very disappointed and forcefully smiled. He smiled and said that he didn't care and didn't hear it, and left sadly. Naturally, no one knew the tears he wiped behind his back.When exactly did he become so cruel and bloodthirsty? He just vaguely guessed that he was secretly hurt by Xiao Xi's fear of him countless times, so he could only hide from a distance and watch Shen Pinglan whisper softly. Coax him, and he was the person who was most inseparable from Shen Pinglan, but when Xiaoxi appeared, he became the most redundant person.Perhaps it was Shen Pinglan who saw Xiaoxi crying so heartbroken, and told him to go away with a cold face, and gradually became crazy. They depended on each other for warmth in the bed, and he could only watch their intimacy from one side, and could no longer integrate into normal life. , "Thousands of mistakes are all my fault. Don't blame him. Anyone who sees the person they care about the most is drifting away from themselves, and getting closer and closer to others. It is difficult to accept and control. Can't hold back emotions."

"He couldn't bear to hurt me, and he always attributed the cause and effect to you, which led to a big mistake and gradually turned into this unreasonable appearance."

"Purgatory is very bitter. He has been hiding in Tibet for more than ten years. No one confides in his suffering, and no one talks to him when he is bored. After long-term depression, he will inevitably do wrong things and go astray..."

"Brother, don't cry!" Big teardrops dripped on his head, almost shattering his heart, Xiao Xi wiped his tears and persuaded him in turn, "Don't be sad, I just don't blame him. "

Shen Pinglan was still weeping silently, Xiaoxi was in a hurry, he who has always been strong, had never been so fragile like today, he immediately put the hatred just behind him, and said in a trembling voice: "Brother, I am willing to help him revive, I will He can take his body and use it as he pleases, don’t cry, I’ll feel bad when you cry, my heart will hurt like a knife, it’s going to kill me!”

Shen Pinglan laughed through his tears, and rubbed his face affectionately, "You don't have to force it, I know I lied to you and made you suffer what you shouldn't have to suffer for no reason, we are sorry for you, why do you want to Let you die to fulfill him. He is already dead. My brother has figured it out. Everything is a foregone conclusion. Everything has to go with the flow. Going against the sky will not bring you any benefits. Whether he admits it or not, I won't hurt you, if he is not willing, and dares to hurt you again, big brother will die with him, and go to hell with him, let him stop this idea—"

"No!" Xiao Xi hurriedly covered his mouth to prevent him from continuing. He said, "Brother, you can't die. We all know his temper. Even if you come forward to persuade him, he may not listen to you." .”

"Brother, I know you still care about him very much. You said it lightly. If you really want him to go to hell and be separated from you forever, don't you feel so sorry for him?"

"You said that I have many similarities with him. The face, voice, character and behavior are all exactly the same, like a twin brother. If he stood next to me alive, I'm afraid you might not be able to tell us apart."

Shen Pinglan had a sore throat: "Xiao Xi..."

"Brother, since this is the case, why bother to separate him from me? He is me, and I am him. We have long been indistinguishable from each other. Since we are one person, let us be completely integrated and let us stay with you." By our side, we will never be apart."

After hearing his words, Shen Pinglan was very sad, with mixed feelings in his heart, he took him in his arms and kissed him heavily, "Xiaoxi is so good, brother's good boy, good boy!"

"Brother," Xiao Xi got up and lightly pecked his cheek, "I still like you very much!" Still loving you very much, Xiao Xi asked him: "Will you continue to be my brother?"

Shen Pinglan kissed him, "I will be your brother all my life!"

The backyard is finally peaceful, the three of them and one ghost are safe and sound, each of them is safe and not disturbing each other, the world is chaotic outside, Shen always takes Xiao Xi with him by the fence, he is no longer allowed to go out with Zhao Yi, and he is rarely separated from him, and Xiao Xi's birthday is less than two months away, and Shen Pinglan is very nervous, worried that the Taoist priest who disappeared for almost a month will return, and worried that other troubles will come to his door. Fifteen years ago, the demon monk made an appointment with him to meet him soon. He can't wait until the end of the year, just in case he needs to invite him in advance.

The demon monk's whereabouts are uncertain, and after many years, Shen Pinglan was a little flustered. Now he was worried whether he would be able to find him. Back then, he went to Beiyan Mountain outside Yongxing Pass to look for him, but the rumored place, He has never been there.

Although it is in northern Xinjiang, the journey is relatively far away. Shen Pinglan wants to take Xiaoxi with him, but he has been seriously ill recently, and it is not suitable for him to go out and bump back and forth with him. Xiao Xi and Xiao Xi, he was afraid that Xiao Xi would cause trouble again, so he pasted the unused talisman on his door, seeing that he was stuck in the house and unable to get out, he went out with confidence, and he wanted to come back as soon as possible before all accidents happened .

Seeing that he hadn't forgotten him before he left, Xiaoxi opened her mouth and didn't tell him the truth, and slowly stuffed the thing tightly in her hand into her cuff, it was the talisman Lin Tun gave him last time, looking at Shen Tun Leaning on the railing, all the fuss was useless, Xiaoxi couldn't bear to hit him.But he has never been separated from Shen Pinglan. When he was leaving the house, he completely forgot what he said to him the night before, and hugged his thigh to prevent him from leaving. Moist, finally coaxed, he took two steps, and heard a burst of heart-piercing crying, he had no choice but to turn back, "Don't cry, Xiaoxi, brother will come back soon, you wait at home Look at brother, okay? Little idiot?"

Xiaoxi, whose face was flushed from crying, wept silently, and buried herself in his arms without making a sound. Shen Pinglan's heart broke, and he pushed him onto Zhao Yi, asking Zhao Yi to take him into the house. He went away as if he dared to escape.

Xiaoxi cried bitterly for a while, heard the sound of wheels, knew that the carriage was getting far away, and was struggling to go out, Zhao Yi pulled him tightly and reminded: "He's gone, don't chase after him!"

Xiaoxi sobbed, rubbed his eyes, and burst into tears: "Yes, but I want to take another look at him." He tried to open his eyes wide, only to see a hazy scene, the dust on the spacious street was no longer flying, only car marks remained .

Zhao Yi wiped away his tears: "My mother used to say that relatives should not shed tears when traveling far away. It's unlucky. Xiaoxi should be sensible when she grows up."

"I know, and I don't want to cry either." Xiaoxi stared at the empty street, her eyes were completely cracked and she couldn't see a piece of Shen's clothes, "But I can't help it, I don't want to cry when I think of him coming back." If I belong to me again, I feel very sad, he left so fast, he couldn't wait for Shen Wanxi to return to the sun, he was so eager to let me die, now he is the only one in his eyes, and I have no place."

Zhao Yi didn't know how to respond, so he could only change the subject abruptly, saying, "Xiao Xi, you should think about something happy, and don't think about all the troublesome things. You are still young, so grow up. As for the real human affairs, if you look back at what you were worried about today, it’s really nothing.”

Sitting on the steps, Xiaoxi hugged her knees, looked at him indistinctly, and suddenly asked, "Will he hate me?"

"People don't kill for themselves, you are not wrong, you just want to live well, what's wrong with you? Why are you afraid of him hating you? What can his hatred do to you?" Zhao Yi sat next to him and said, " We can no longer be his accomplices. He was wrong from the very beginning. He listened to the words of the demon and spent more than ten years just talking about that unrealistic idiot's dream. He is really too confused. His behavior like a madman now is not worth a cent. that year……"

Mentioning the past, Zhao Yi's heart ached, and he said angrily: "The living person is right in front of him, he can't see it, and his mind is full of that person who shouldn't exist in the world long ago, I try not to point fingers at your affairs, But now, I can't stand it anymore!"

Zhao Yi stood up, paced back and forth, and said in a voiceless voice: "How can he forget the past ten years of getting along day and night, how can he accept this ridiculous suggestion without changing his face, he is just digging a hole for you to jump in, I don't want to follow this kind of ruthless person, you, you...you have to do this, don't tell me you would be happy to see him and Shen Wanxi together, would you be willing?"

Of course Xiaoxi is not willing to be reconciled, Shen Pinglan is his, and he will not let go even if he dies, but he can change anything if he agrees or not, he can't do anything, he knows Shen Pinglan's decision, he has worked tirelessly to support himself for so many years , just for the word "en".When the time is up, he must repay their kindness as a matter of course. This is a matter of course. He cannot be ungrateful and try to take advantage of all the good things in the world. Shen Pinglan's tenderness, arrogance, and deep affection are not for him. , I still deceive myself and others even now, I would rather drown in the dream of Spring and Autumn than wake up.

Zhao Yi held his hand, glanced at the backyard, and said: "The fairy master is coming soon, let's stay at Qin Xiao's place for these days, we can't stay here, so we won't come back here for now."