be safe

Of course Xiao Jin would not be so naive that Mu Zhenxi suddenly said this sentence just to say that she met Lu Xiaoyun once.

One question after another flooded into her mind, tearing her reaction nerves into a mess.

When did Lu Xiaoyun return to Lincheng?I clearly told her that she wanted her to tell me in advance, why didn't she say so?When did Muzhenxi meet her?And why didn't you tell yourself?Most importantly, what did they say?What did Lu Xiaoyun say to Muzhenxi!

Xiao Jin felt like a fire was raging in her chest, mobilizing her emotions for many years, and clenched her underwater hands into fists.

If she really said it, she would have to settle the score with her mother!

It seemed like a long time had passed, and it seemed that it was just a blink of an eye. Xiao Jin relaxed her limbs, leaned lazily on the edge of the bathtub, raised her eyebrows with just the right arc of doubt, and said with a shallow smile, "How did you meet?"

She was betting that Lu Xiaoyun didn't reveal much.

If Mu Zhenxi hadn't been paying attention to Xiao Jin's expression since she said that sentence, she might have been deceived by her extremely fast reaction speed.

She looked at Xiao Jin firmly: "She told me everything."

Xiao Jin thumped in her heart, but she was not as easy to deceive as Zhou Xinyue, she wouldn't tell herself when Mu Zhenxi said something vague, she still had a smile on her lips, as if she didn't understand what Mu Zhenxi was talking about.

"What is it?"

Mu Zhenxi finally saw how stubborn Xiao Jin was. She had already pushed to the door, but Xiao Jin was still stubbornly resisting and refused to let go.If it wasn't for Lu Xiaoyun, this matter would probably remain a well-known secret forever.

"You entrusted your parents to give you the money for grandma's medical treatment."

"Your father forced you to make a choice between me and our relationship, and you chose to commit suicide."

"Your headache is the root of the disease that fell at that time, and that scar is just under the scar from the car accident."

Every time Muzhenxi said a word, Xiao Jin's face turned white, and her smile could no longer be maintained, and the arc of her chin was cold.

"Lu Xiaoyun told you?" Xiao Jin raised his eyelids coldly.

Wooden Sleeper Creek nodded.

There was hostility in Xiao Jin's eyes, even the eyeballs were faintly red, Mu Zhenxi had a bad intuition, and added: "I forced her."

Xiao Jin was furious, how could he listen?Even if she listened to it, she would not believe Mu Zhenxi's words, she had her own judgment.

A clatter.

Xiao Jin got up from the bathtub, dripping water hung on her body, shining white and shining like jade.It's just that her face is gloomy and treacherous at the moment, but she looks like a ghost crawling out of the depths of hell.

Muzhenxi took a step back involuntarily, and immediately realized that he stopped Xiao Jin with his hands.

Xiao Jin didn't even look at her, and said coldly: "Get out of the way."

Muzhenxi didn't budge: "What do you want to do now? Ask the teacher to ask the crime? You don't want me to know, I already know it. If you want to ask the crime, ask me first."

Xiao Jin said, "It has nothing to do with you."

Muzhenxi: "Why doesn't it have anything to do with me? Everything about you has something to do with me." She gritted her teeth and said shamelessly, "Your mother is also my mother, I can't just watch you bully my mother."

Xiao Jin said blankly: "Isn't your mother Yin Xiaoli?"

Muzhenxi: "...Is there too much for Mom? I still have a biological mother."

Xiao Jin raised the corners of her mouth, a slight arc, lost to Muzhenxi's untimely and strange humor.

She closed her eyes and calmed down the surging anger. After a long time, she said, "Bath towel."

Muzhenxi said, "Don't you want to continue taking a bath?"

Xiao Jin stared at her without any emotion.

Mu Zhenxi pulled off the bath towel, wrapped Xiao Jin in it, wiped her body, and put on a clean nightgown.

Xiao Jin went to the living room, sat on the bay window, overlooking the night scene, moved her fingers hanging by her side twice, and then a long-lost itch rose in her throat.

"Is there any smoke?" she asked Sleeper Creek.

Why does she have smoke here?So Muzhenxi shook his head, and then there was a strong shock in his eyes.

cigarette?

Xiao Jin saw through her guess, and a mocking smile appeared on the corner of her mouth: "I smoke and drink, are you disappointed?"

Xiao Jin thought she was going to start a new life, why? !Why do people always bring up these old sesame seeds and rotten millet again and again as if they can't understand her having a good life? Is it meaningful?

She wanted to get angry, questioned, and yell, but the object in front of her was Wooden Sleeper Creek, so she could only point the blade at herself.

She is an unbearable person, far less beautiful than Mu Zhenxi imagined.

Others say that she is dedicated to academics, glamorous, and a flower of the high mountains. Only she knows that she has made a mess of her life, and she is also rotten in the mud.Now that she has crawled out of the mud, she doesn't want to accept Muzhenxi standing on the edge of the swamp, watching her with guilty eyes.

That would not only hurt Muzhenxi, but also embarrass her.

"No." Muzhenxi came up to hug her.

Xiao Jin broke away from her embrace and lowered her eyelids: "Let me be quiet for a while."

Wooden Sleeper Creek still said, "No."

The veins on Xiao Jin's forehead were twitching, and there was a faint sign of anger, so he endured it and said, "I just want to think about things by myself, can't this work?"

"No." Muzhenxi seemed to only be able to say this one word.

She didn't know what Xiao Jin would think, but she knew that what Xiao Jin thought would definitely be different from what she thought.

Xiao Jin organized words in her mind, Mu Zhenxi took advantage of her thinking and quickly hugged him tightly again. This time, Xiao Jin couldn't break free no matter how hard she tried.She was getting angry, and she opened her mouth to bite Muzhenxi's shoulder, her teeth getting tighter and tighter.

The t-shirt that Muzhenxi wore was thin, and Xiao Jin tasted a faint smell of blood, which filled his mouth.She loosened her jaw, the wound was soaked in saliva, and a light red color melted on her shoulder.

Xiao Jin panicked: "I'll get you medicine." She never thought that she would bite so hard.

"It's okay, don't rush to take the medicine." Mu Zhenxi gently stopped her, instead of anger, there was a faint smile on his face, and his face was even brighter under the moonlight.

Xiao Jin gave up resisting and let her hug her lower back vaguely.

"Others think you are perfect, but if you ask me, you still have shortcomings."

Xiao Jin said rather self-deprecatingly: "I didn't say I'm perfect, I have a lot of shortcomings, didn't you already know that?"

"The biggest shortcoming is too much pursuit of perfection."

"..."

"We are all ordinary people. Why are you always afraid that I will know about those bad things? Could it be that if I know about them, I will change my view of you? Or do you think I have such a weak ability to bear the truth in my heart? Have no courage?"

"I'm not." Xiao Jin immediately retorted, but his eyes dodged for a moment.

"That is to say, I feel that my love for you will be mixed with other emotions, so that it will become impure?"

Xiao Jin didn't make a sound, this was part of the reason, and it was also the reason Mu Zhenxi thought.

"Let me tell you the truth." Mu Zhenxi said, "Among the people who have chased me over the years, there is one who I am very impressed with. She is quite like you. She has been chasing me for a year, and she has helped me a lot. Busy, I am grateful to her."

Xiao Jin roughly guessed who that person was, the "new love" of Muzhenxi who had been misunderstood by her.

Mu Zhenxi raised her eyebrows slightly, Xiao Jin didn't feel jealous when she heard that others were chasing her fiercely?She temporarily suppressed her doubts and said: "There are many kinds of human feelings. Love is love. Gratitude is gratitude, and guilt is guilt. I treat you differently from others. Can't you feel it?"

"Don't switch roles," Xiao Jin said sullenly, "You love me with guilt, not pure guilt. Don't think I don't know."

Muzhenxi raised his hand, and flicked Xiao Jin's forehead with his fingers.

"Why did you hit me?"

"If I beat you, the authorities will be confused by the bystanders."

"What?" Xiao Jin was taken aback.

"You know I had a bad time in the past few years, are you guilty?"

"of course."

"Okay you." Muzhenxi glared, and knocked on Xiao Jin's head twice in succession, with a bang, "Your love for me is not pure!"

Xiao Jin: "..." What the hell?

Muzhenxi had to knock again, Xiao Jin felt that it was too timid to hold his head with his hands, so he had an idea: "I have a wound on my head, and you still hit me."

"It's been more than ten years, and you still pretend to be me."

"There was another one last year." Xiao Jin pouted.

Muzhenxi withdrew his hand and said with a smile, "Look."

"Look at what?"

"If you don't take it seriously, it's not a big deal." Muzhenxi huluhu hushed her head, and then pushed aside her bangs to look at the wound on her forehead, "Actually, I don't think it's a big deal either."

Xiao Jin asked suspiciously, "Really?"

"Fake." Wooden Sleeper Creek touched it very carefully, and kissed it, "But I think it's too big to turn back time? God doesn't listen to me."

"That's the only way." Muzhenxi shrugged.

"I feel like you're talking nonsense to me." Xiao Jin was repeatedly manipulated by Muzhenxi, and she couldn't sort out a specific train of thought for a while, but she was able to clearly extract the key points.

"You feel right." Muzhenxi smiled softly in her ear.

"You—" Xiao Jin said speechlessly, "How did you become like this now?" He ran the train with his mouth full.

"Only this kind of me can be worthy of this kind of you, and I can be with you for a long time." Mu Zhenxi is not ashamed but proud, she can't always be led by the nose by Xiao Jin, she should take the initiative in some things To fight for the initiative, after all, Xiao Jin "suffered" very hard.

Xiao Jin wanted to bite her again, but when she saw the wound, she retracted her mouth and only ground her teeth.

"When did you know?" Xiao Jin asked at the same time, she had an answer in her heart, she squinted her eyes, exuding a dangerous breath, "Tuesday?"

Muzhenxi nodded: "I took a day off on Tuesday and didn't go to work. I saw your mother."

Those weird points seem to be connected by a thread.

Xiao Jin's complexion became extremely ugly.

Sure enough, it still has an impact, and it has had a great impact on the Wooden Sleeper Creek.

Mu Zhenxi lowered his head to find Xiao Jin's cold hand, interlocked his fingers, and after a long silence, he said, "When I first found out, I couldn't accept it. I walked aimlessly outside for a day and slowly digested this fact. , I don’t want to be too gaffe in front of you and arouse your vigilance.”

Xiao Jin listened silently, with lowered eyebrows and eyes, if not for the breath, he would almost think he was a dead person.

"In fact, I thought about whether to hide it from you at first. If you didn't want me to know, I just pretended not to know. Both of us are very happy."

"Why did you change your mind?" Xiao Jin's voice was hoarse.

"I'm too stupid, and you are too smart, you can hide it for a while, but you can't hide it forever."

Xiao Jin forced a smile.

"Besides, if I don't know, you will be worried all day." Mu Zhenxi held Xiao Jin's cheek with one hand, making her look directly into her eyes, "I don't want you to work so hard."

Two teardrops rolled out of the corners of Xiao Jin's eyes, and Mu Zhenxi wiped them away with her thumb, the temperature of her fingertips was hot.

"Don't take care of everything by yourself, we are..." Muzhenxi got stuck, she hadn't put on her engagement ring yet, and her girlfriend seemed too light, so she changed her words, "We are going to live forever , or the same sentence, you can hide it for a while, but you can't hide it for a lifetime. No matter how stupid I am, I will always find evidence bit by bit in the last three to forty years. Cry in your arms."

Muzhenxi taught her emotionally: "Wow, you dead ghost, you committed suicide 50 years ago, and you didn't tell me, killing a thousand swords, my heart..." Muzhenxi said seriously, "What if at that time I have a heart attack, maybe it will pass right away, where can you find me."

"..." Xiao Jin said with a straight face, "You said something unlucky, hurry up."

Muzhenxi turned his head and pointed at the ground: "Bah, bah, bah."

Seeing Xiao Jin's expression, she was no longer as ugly as before, and the stone in her heart fell to the ground a little.

Xiao Jin sighed.

Mu Zhenxi guessed that she was about to speak, so she waited patiently for her next words.

"Not exactly." Xiao Jin said.

Muzhenxi tilted his head: "Huh?"

Xiao Jin said: "There is no pure love in this world, even I dare not say I love you purely." Part of Xiao Jin's love comes from obsession, she knows it very well.

"When I didn't get back together with you, I really didn't want these miscellaneous things to affect your judgment, including several times when you couldn't help but came to me impulsively, I used all kinds of reasons and excuses to fool you It's over."

Mu Zhenxi's previous speculation became true, and he said in his heart: She really did it on purpose.

Xiao Jin said: "The two of us got together later on. I never thought that you would know about those things. The last time I met Aunt Zhou, I felt a sense of crisis. The main reason why I decided to hide it from you is..."

There was a long pause.

"Why didn't you say it?" Muzhenxi asked strangely.

Xiao Jin glanced at her, quickly lowered her head, and said, "The main reason is that you won't be able to bear it."

Mu Zhenxi was dumbfounded: "...Am I such a fragile person in your mind?" Mu Zhenxi just said it casually before, but she didn't expect Xiao Jin to really think so. What did she think?Are you still yourself?

Xiao Jin touched the tip of her nose guiltily, and hurriedly said, "Now I know it's not true."

Muzhenxi snorted and said, "I'm so mad."

After all, they haven't seen each other for too many years, lack of understanding of each other, and they don't want to repeat the same mistakes, which led to a disagreement because one insisted on keeping the other secret.In the final analysis, the relationship is still too short.

Given a few more years for them, Xiao Jin will be able to let go of these worries and choose to tell the truth, especially unknown.

But Muzhenxi couldn't wait, she remembered the past memories, the previous lessons, and the sword of Damocles hanging above her head forced her to find out the truth as soon as possible, so that she could be completely at ease.

Getting to the present is both accidental and inevitable.

Xiao Jin said, "Oh."

Wooden Sleeper Creek: "Why are you sighing?"

Xiao Jin said: "If I knew I told you myself, you must have cried in front of my mother, and I can't comfort you." After a few seconds of pause, he added, "Forget it, I definitely wouldn't say it myself, it's all Hindsight."

Muzhenxi snorted coldly: "You are very self-aware."

Xiao Jin knew that he had offended her, so he rubbed her cheek flatteringly.

Mu Zhenxi rested his chin on her shoulder, and suddenly made an absurd assumption, saying: "What if I'm really the same as when I was?" It might be difficult for the two of them to get back together, right?How can a self-abased and cowardly self match her?

After serious thinking, Xiao Jin said: "I will be more careful, be more careful, Yin Xiaoli can turn you into what you are now, why can't I?" No matter what, she will not give up.

Mu Zhenxi was a little moved, but she didn't want to say it, so she deliberately misinterpreted her meaning: "Do you want to be my mother?"

"Why not?" Xiao Jin raised her eyebrows, "Isn't it more exciting when you scream on the bed? Good girl?"

Muzhenxi couldn't help laughing out loud.

Xiao Jin didn't take it seriously, and said confidently: "30 years in Hedong and 30 years in Hexi, let's wait and see."

Mu Zhenxi shrugged her shoulders and smiled even more joyfully. Xiao Jin, who was held in her arms, trembled along with her body.

Xiao Jin showed a meaningful smile of "you will regret it" from an angle she couldn't see.

Having had enough trouble, Muzhenxi turned on the light in the living room, made two cups of milk and came over, and the two sat cross-legged on the bay window facing each other.Muzhenxi clinked glasses with her, and asked enthusiastically, "When did you learn to smoke?"

Xiao Jin's eyes were complicated, and she found that her expansion called "Muzhenxi" was being updated all the time.Wood Sleeper Creek is really interested in this relatively rebellious life.Whether it's Qi Yin, a 419 professional, or smoking and drinking by himself... It's not a perm, Muzhenxi himself is also permed.

This time Xiao Jin didn't avoid talking about it anymore, and recalled a little bit forward: "Around 20 years old, I can't remember clearly."

"When did you quit?" Mu Zhenxi lived with Xiao Jin for several months when she lost her memory, and now she has lived with her for a while, and she has never smelled smoke, so she must have quit.

"Before returning home last summer vacation."

"Open your mouth."

"what?"

"Open your mouth." Muzhenxi urged her.

Xiao Jin opened her mouth, feeling like a donkey muzzled by a prime minister.

Muzhenxi almost took a flashlight and shone her one by one. After a long time, she closed her mouth with a smile on her lips: "Hey, your teeth haven't been smoked yellow."

Xiao Jin: "..."

It just doesn't make sense!

Xiao Jin couldn't hold back, and said loudly: "I pay attention to oral hygiene! Besides, I'm not a heavy smoker! I smoke like hell all day long!" , but she still loves beauty, how can she make her teeth yellow.

Muzhenxi smiled and said: "Be quiet and don't be impatient, I'm curious and curious."

Xiao Jin kept shouting: "Why don't you be curious about others!"

Muzhenxi wondered: "Why should I be curious about other people, I despise others smoking."

Xiao Jin was pleased by her tone of course, and snorted proudly: "I hate smoking you too." In the past, there were boys in high school who hid in the toilet cubicle or smoked in the narrow alleyway where no one was around. Watching her walk away from a distance, she frowned at the smell of second-hand smoke and formed the word "Chuan".

"Then haven't you quit now? Is it hard to quit smoking?"

"nonsense."

"How did you quit? Did you use e-cigarettes? Or did you rely on eating sugar to divert your attention?" Mu Zhenxi searched for his meager knowledge about quitting smoking.

She had never heard of these things about Xiao Jin, and it was rare that Xiao Jin was finally willing to talk about it, even if Xiao Jin was driven into a rage by her stupid questions, even if these things were not exciting, but boring to the point of dullness, the wooden pillow Xi still found it extremely interesting.

She is now like a dry sponge, impatiently absorbing water, which only Xiao Jin can give her.

"It's all symptoms, not the root cause. If you want to quit, you can only rely on willpower." Because of some things, Xiao Jin decided to give it a go. Quit it and never relapsed.

"Did it hurt at first?"

"Of course, you'll know if you take a breath."

"..."

"I'm joking, if you dare to smoke, I will break your leg."

"I didn't break your leg even if you smoked it." Muzhenxi laughed.

"If you see me twitching with your own eyes, I'll leave my leg here and break it as you like. You can choose one or two."

"Bullying that I can't cross?"

"Yeah, yeah, can't you?"

"Row."

……

"Then what's the matter with drinking? Don't you know that you will go crazy after drinking? The kind that always tears people's clothes."

"I really don't know, you didn't tell me!"

"My clothes were torn by you, you don't know what to do?"

"no!"

"Next time I let you drink, I'll record it for you!"

"Record it!"

……

"I have a friend abroad. He's a big fool. He once..." Xiao Jin's voice lowered, breathing evenly, and fell asleep in Muzhenxi's arms.

Mu Zhenxi supported her with one hand, trying to keep Xiao Jin still, stepped on the ground in front of the bay window, and then walked around Xiao Jin's knee with one hand, and gently hugged her.

Xiao Jin was not sound asleep, and when she got up into the air, she half-opened her eyes, and said sleepily, "Where did I just say?" Her tongue was almost tied up, and she was very sleepy.

"Speaking of you loving me."

"Take advantage of me." Xiao Jin hummed with a smile, "I didn't say that."

"Then do you love me or not?"

"Love." Xiao Jin closed her eyes with a smile on her lips.

"Go to sleep." Muzhenxi put her on the bed, leaned over and kissed her forehead.

I looked down and smiled.

Xiao Jin pouted spontaneously.

Muzhenxi kissed her on the lips again, and said softly: "Good night."

"Good night." Xiao Jin turned sideways, groping for the open space with her hand, Muzhenxi quickly turned off the light, lay down on her side, Xiao Jin skillfully got into her arms, breathing long.

I feel sweet.

The next morning, before the alarm clock rang, Muzhenxi woke up. Xiao Jin woke up earlier than her, and lay naked in her arms.

The thick curtains were impenetrable, but it could be seen from the gap underneath that it was dawn. Mu Zhenxi squeezed the space between his brows, felt the smooth skin under his hands, and was startled.Didn't Xiao Jin sleep in a nightgown last night?Why did she wake up... She looked at herself again, and the t-shirt had disappeared.

"..." She blinked her eyes and accepted the reality. She didn't see anything yesterday, so she's so shy now.

"What time is it?" She asked Xiao Jin, her voice was laziness after waking up.

"Just at 06:30."

"You got up so early?"

"Sorry."

"Then continue to sleep?"

"Don't sleep."

Xiao Jin changed from lying down to lying down. Fortunately, she was not heavy, and she was lying on Muzhenxi's body. Muzhenxi didn't feel anything, and held her firmly with both hands to prevent her from falling over unsteadily.

Xiao Jin licked her lips, and asked as if pointing, "Are you sleepy?"

"Not sleepy." Muzhenxi woke up naturally today.

Xiao Jin showed a reassuring smile, pinched her white jade-like earlobes with her fingers, looked directly at her and said, "I want it." She had been awake for a long time, and until now, it was her who hadn't woken up Muzhenxi. be kind.

Muzhen Xirao was mentally prepared, but he was still shocked by her straightforwardness.

Xiao Jin raised her eyebrows and said, "You can't?"

Wooden Sleeper Creek: "..."

How can this not work? !

Don't say she can do it, she can do it even if she can't!

"Are you still saying I can't do it?" Sweat slid down Muzhenxi's forehead and stayed at the end of his eyebrows for a while. Muzhenxi tilted his head and dripped down on the tip of Xiao Jin's nose.

"Stop talking." Xiao Jin responded to her with a soft cry.