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Muzhenxi didn't say much after she broke up, but only told her to pay more attention to rest after returning home.

Xiao Jin, who was in a rage, couldn't find Muzhenxi's suspiciousness at all, and even threw everything he could get at her on her body. Muzhenxi endured it silently, and then left sadly.

Xiao Jin is not an idiot, after returning home, she carefully went through the ins and outs and details of the quarrel in her mind, and realized that Muzhenxi didn't mean that.

Xiao Jin is a lady with a temper, although she looks gentle and polite on the outside, she is a good student in the eyes of the teacher and classmates, even in front of her parents, she is a sensible and caring little padded jacket, but she is a nest in front of Muzhenxi Li Heng, often loses his temper because of all kinds of small things, such as misplacing the tutorial book, being a few minutes late to go out, going to bed late at night, etc., etc., which obviously have nothing to do with Muzhenxi, but he can always find it. To rely on her from the beginning.Mu Zhenxi is surprisingly gentle and patient with her. No matter what Xiao Jin does, she always looks indulgent. Xiao Jin sometimes feels that she is going too far. She reads books about love and says that in the relationship between two people, it cannot last forever. One side indulges, and the other side is fearless, otherwise it will lead to a crisis, but Xiao Jin can't control it, probably because of the so-called pampering and fearlessness.

She was lying on the bed, with her calf on the wooden pillow creek leg, and she read to her the passage written by Wang Xiaobo meaningfully: "I give you my whole soul, including his eccentricities, playing small temper, flickering Darkness, a thousand kinds of bad things. It's really annoying, only one good thing, love you."

Mu Zhenxi gave her a leg massage. Under the influence of Xiao Jin, she also read the book, and she was impressed by Wang Xiaobo's classic words, and asked, "Are you talking about yourself?"

"That's right." Xiao Jin said anxiously, "Is my temper very bad? Will you hate me in the future?"

Muzhenxi paused, and said seriously: "I don't have a bad temper, and I won't hate you. It's too late for me to like you."

Xiao Jin's heart was full of sweetness, but she deliberately put on a straight face, kicked her calf lightly in her arms, and said, "Liar."

Muzhenxi said: "It's true, I swear." She raised her hand, put her three fingers together, and pointed to the sky.

Xiao Jin said lightly: "I don't believe it."

"Prove it to me." She looked at the wooden sleeper stream leisurely, like a hunter looking at her prey, with dangerous and meaningful eyes.

Wooden Sleeper Creek: "..."

She was dumbfounded, her two hands massaging Xiao Jin stopped completely, clumsily curled up, relaxed, and then tightened again, her eyes were almost red with anxiety, her heart was full of hot affection, but she didn't know how to please her. Sweetheart's favor.

After a while, she asked, "How to prove it?"

Xiao Jin couldn't bear it anymore and said, "You might as well just be stupid."

Wooden Sleeper Creek: "Huh?"

Xiao Jin then got up one by one, raised her hand and impatiently hooked Muzhenxi's neck, and kissed her lips actively.

Kissed for a long time.

Lip parted, panting.

Muzhenxi finally understood, his eyes brightened slightly: "I see, you want me to kiss you."

Xiao Jin became angry from embarrassment: "Shut up!"

As he spoke, he kicked Muzhenxi to the edge of the bed.

When Xiao Jin loses her temper, she often speaks without restraint. Sometimes she deliberately says "I don't want you" or "I lost you" to anger Mu Zhenxi, and Mu Zhenxi will show a sad expression. Xiao Jin feels that her mouth is cheap, While feeling happy in her heart, the sadder Mu Zhenxi is, the more she cares about herself.

At that time, the fire was all over the country, and the lyrics of "I Love You" wrote: Occasionally I really don't understand you, but who really understands themselves, often the closeness of two people is proved through hurt.

She has said all kinds of excessive things to Muzhenxi, but the word "break up" is a forbidden area.

But now she had such an idea on impulse, she couldn't remember why she linked Muzhenxi's words with "break up", but Xiao Jin knew that these words came from her own mouth, What a blow to Sleeper Creek.

Mu Zhenxi is sensitive and inferior. She originally chose to be with her and endured the pressure of their completely different growth environments, not to mention the current messy situation. Facing her misunderstanding, she will definitely not and will be powerless to defend herself. That's why this situation has been created.

After thinking it over, Xiao Jin wanted to apologize to Muzhenxi.But first, she never took the initiative to apologize, and she needs to make some mental preparations; second, she is still angry, and if she goes there and quarrels again, it is better to wait until she calms down completely, and the two of them can resolve the misunderstanding.

It was at this time that Xiao's mother, Lu Xiaoyun, proposed to take her abroad for a few days to relax.

At that time, the grandmother's condition in Muzhenxi was temporarily under control, but Xiao Jin was not at ease, and refused at first. Lu Xiaoyun said that the family hadn't traveled together for a long time, and it was rare that she and Xiao's father had time, so they just went out. A few days, come back soon.

Xiao Jin hesitated for a moment, and finally nodded in agreement. Before leaving, she deliberately packed a bag of test papers in the suitcase, intending to take advantage of the few days of travel to see what questions were helpful for the Muzhenxi College Entrance Examination.

In her mind, this was just a serious quarrel, no different from every previous quarrel, and they would soon reconcile, and there was nothing to do with breaking up.

They have a deep-rooted love for each other, and they have sworn to each other forever, and they will never change their minds. She believes that Muzhenxi is also waiting for her to return to her side. She needs herself, and she also needs her.

But she didn't expect that she would never see Muzhenxi again, and the two words she blurted out turned out to be true, and the impulsiveness became irreversible in the end.

She didn't dare to ask Muzhenxi's real thoughts back then. It was not only the nightmare that trapped Muzhenxi for several years, but also her countless dreamless dusks in the future.

……

Xiao Jin's mood was not right, and Lu Xiaoyun could feel it. She pinched the shoulder strap of her satchel with both hands, and looked nervously at Xiao Jin, whose relationship had finally eased during this period of time.

Xiao Jin closed her eyes, took a long breath, said with downcast eyes, "Forget it, it's all over, don't mention this matter again."

Lu Xiaoyun knew in her heart that this matter was definitely not over.

She felt more and more regretful.

The atmosphere between the mother and daughter was stiff, Xiao Jin wanted to say something, but her mind was full of bloody past, and she couldn't pull herself together to talk to Lu Xiaoyun as if nothing had happened.In the end, Lu Xiaoyun could only ask Xiao Jin casually about her usual work, how she prepares lessons, and how she teaches students. The students are not obedient.

Xiao Jin responded with a few words, took out the phone from her bag, and turned on the screen.

Lu Xiaoyun stopped her mouth in a timely manner.

Went to a restaurant, ate a tasteless meal, and the two set off on their way home.The driver sent Xiao Jin back to the community first, and Lu Xiaoyun tentatively said, "Why don't you sell the house in No. [-] Middle School?"

Since the whole family dislikes it, it is better to sell it than to keep it.

Xiao Jin shrugged: "You can do whatever you want." Anyway, they bought the house.

In that house, there are many sweet memories of her and Wooden Sleeper Creek, as well as the deepest pain of her life.Memories of her have long been in my heart, as for the others, they are not important.

Lu Xiaoyun said: "Then I will pick a time to go back and find someone to clean it up in a while, and hang it with an agency?"

Xiao Jin said, "Yes."

Lu Xiaoyun asked: "Do you have anything to go back and get?"

Xiao Jin looked cold and said, "No. Haven't you cleaned up everything about her?"

Lu Xiaoyun was embarrassed.

After a while, Lu Xiaoyun moved her lips and said guiltily, "Is that right—"

Xiao Jin interrupted her violently, and said sharply: "I've said it many times, I don't want to mention this matter anymore, can you please let me be quiet for a while, can you?!"

She was sitting in the backseat, with bulging veins on her temples, she almost yelled furiously: "You don't know anything at all, stop trying to expose my scars to explain me!"

Lu Xiaoyun's eye sockets were hot and humid, she took out a tissue from her bag and gently pressed the corners of her eyes.

Xiao Jin leaned back in the seat as if exhausted, turned her face to look out of the window, her chest heaved violently, she slowly closed her eyes, trying her best to calm down her excited mood.

Before getting out of the car, she and Lu Xiaoyun apologized for the rudeness just now, and then said in a cold tone: "I hope this is the last time. Anyone can mention her in front of me. You can't mention the year."

Lu Xiaoyun watched her back disappearing from sight, then sighed, and said to the driver, "Go back to the hotel."

Xiao Jin was right, he did offer a glimmer of hope that he could relieve her, and wanted her to face the wound directly so that she could let go completely.But she still underestimated the degree of Xiao Jin's persistence. One year, two years, five years, ten years, every time she was mentioned, she always reacted so radically, maybe she couldn't let it go in this lifetime.

No, not maybe, but definitely.

Lu Xiaoyun closed her eyes wearily.

Xiao Jin drank some red wine in the evening, walked towards home with deep kicks and shallow kicks, opened the door and threw herself on the sofa, in a daze.After a long time, her sore neck moved, and she looked at the window of Muzhenxi's house from the bay window.

The lights are dimmed, there is no light, Muzhenxi should be asleep.

Sleeper Creek.

Thinking of this name, Xiao Jin's decadent cells that were clamoring all over her body instantly became full of motivation. She sat up on the sofa, grabbed her phone and checked the time, it was 11:30 in the evening, it was indeed very late.

Muzhenxi's sleep has been very regular recently, so he has to be more regular.

Xiao Jin controlled her body to take a shower mechanically, returned to the bedroom, and rolled herself into the blanket with the hot water bottle.I had a dream. I dreamed of high school. When I got up, I couldn't remember many details, but the corners of my mouth were raised.

Early the next morning, instead of driving to work, she went to the coffee shop next to the community by chance, where she met Muzhenxi last time.She was stunned when she reached the door, Muzhenxi was sitting inside by the window, and she came again.

Xiao Jin stood at the door for two seconds, stepped in, ordered the latte recommended by Muzhenxi last time, and then sat on the seat opposite Muzhenxi.

Mu Zhenxi looked up at her, without any surprise. He didn't know whether he expected her to come or, like Xiao Jin, saw her through the glass beforehand.

Wooden Sleeper Creek said, "Good morning."

Xiao Jin said, "Good morning." She took off the scarf around her neck and put it on the back of the chair.

Muzhenxi looked at her up and down, and smiled softly: "You are also very well dressed today."

Xiao Jin nodded generously: "Thank you."

Wooden Sleeper Creek said, "Did you pay for the coffee?"

Xiao Jin said, "Not yet."

Muzhenxi said: "I was too busy yesterday, so I didn't formally thank you. Let me treat you to this drink? Let's talk about it."

Xiao Jin laughed: "Okay."

The two fell into a cold spot.

Mu Zhenxi excitedly ran to see Xiao Jin yesterday, but she poured cold water on her saying that she was going to have dinner with her mother, and she almost dispelled the idea when she returned.

What is she going to say to Xiao Jin?Thinking of the unspoken words yesterday, Mu Zhenxi was afraid for a while, impulsiveness is the devil, and the situation will be out of hand, not only will he not be able to step down, but it will also be a kind of harm to Xiao Jin.

Thanks to Xiao Jin's sudden interruption, she had time to think slowly.

"Your coffee." The waiter put the steaming latte in Xiao Jin's hand from the tray.

Xiao Jin pinched the small white porcelain spoon with two fingers, absently stirring the coffee at the bottom of the cup, resting her chin with one hand, looking out the window at the street scene.

"Anything on your mind?"

There was a question in front of him.

Xiao Jin didn't seem to have expected that Muzhenxi would ask her, she was taken aback for a moment, lowered her head and smiled, and said softly, "Indeed."

Muzhenxi leaned back, in a listening posture: "Would you mind talking to me?"

Xiao Jin was silent for a moment, and said, "Some part is related to you, do you want to hear it?"

Muzhenxi hesitated for a few seconds, then nodded.

Xiao Jin sighed and said, "I went to dinner with my mother last night."

Muzhenxi hummed and said, "So?"

Xiao Jin said, "We had a quarrel."

Muzhenxi narrowed his eyes and guessed, "Because of me?"

"No." Xiao Jin suddenly changed her mind. She was probably infected by the wooden sleeper stream recently, and she had more and more impulsive thoughts, and even wanted to confide in the wooden sleeper stream regardless. She said in a complaining tone, "My mother said I'm neither looking for a boyfriend nor a girlfriend, what on earth do I want to do?"

Mu Zhenxi raised his eyebrows, gloating a bit, and said, "Forced marriage?"

With a sad face, Xiao Jin said cutely: "Yes, yes, am I miserable?"

Muzhenxi smiled and said, "It's miserable, luckily I'm not forced."

"Nonsense, isn't Yin Xiaoli a matchmaker for you?" Xiao Jin laughed and changed the subject in a timely manner, "Did your mother contact you later?"

Muzhenxi shook his head, then nodded again.

Xiao Jin: "Huh?"

Mu Zhenxi said: "After my grandma passed away, she bought a cemetery for my grandma. Didn't I leave after that, and I didn't have any contact information? Naturally, I didn't contact her. Later, when I came back, I ran into her and her husband on the street by chance. Son, um..." Muzhenxi took a sip of his coffee, lowered his eyes, and said, "It's embarrassing, I haven't seen him since."

Xiao Jin asked: "Do you still want to see her?"

Muzhenxi raised his eyes: "Huh?"

Xiao Jin said: "I saw her in a place last time. She opened a small shop. If you want to see her, I can tell you the address."

Muzhenxi frowned and said, "Forget it, she didn't consider me her daughter anyway."

Xiao Jin nodded, deeply convinced: "That's fine."

Mu Zhenxi raised his wrist to look at his watch, then at the coffee left in Xiao Jin's cup, slowed down, and took a sip while playing with his mobile phone.

"By the way, I have something to ask you for help." Xiao Jin put down the spoon.

"What's the matter? Tell me." Muzhenxi was worried about where to repay Xiao Jin's favor, and the opportunity came so soon?

Xiao Jin said: "A questionnaire survey just happens to involve the game industry."

Muzhenxi asked doubtfully, "You want it yourself?"

Xiao Jin said: "No, I have a colleague, she is a teacher of animation major."

Wooden pillow Xixin said: Since they are all teachers majoring in animation, can't they find someone by themselves? Why did they ask Xiao Jin?

She still promised: "Okay, you can send it back to me, and I will let them do it." Muzhenxi left her her own mailbox.

Xiao Jin said, "Thank you."

The time was almost up, and the two went out of the cafe together, walked side by side, and finally separated at the crossroads.

Muzhenxi received the address of the questionnaire sent by Xiao Jin at around ten o'clock in the morning. She clicked on it, checked it, and sent it to her colleagues.

A small gossip group within the company.

- Colleague 1: This time I really fell in love, woo woo woo

- Colleague 2: Sister Mu actually asked us to do a questionnaire survey!

-Colleague 3: Let me just say that she has a problem. How could she have sent us this kind of boring questionnaire if she hadn't asked her to do it!

-Colleague 4: So my head was saved?

- Colleague 3: I guarantee the head of Colleague 4, the boss's mysterious object is a woman! ! !

- Colleague 4: ? ? ?

- Colleague 5678: Colleague 4, what a miserable woman

Corgi girl finished filling out the questionnaire and turned to look at Muzhenxi who was working on the computer. There was nothing unusual about Muzhenxi's expression, but this was even more abnormal.You could still smile when you were angry before, but now you are expressionless?

Corgi girl suddenly became suspicious, isn't this questionnaire for the sweetheart, but for the rival in love?Shouldn't it?

It's so unbelievable, Corgi sister suppressed this bold guess.

Xiao Jin didn't have the contact information of Muzhenxi, so she contacted her by email for the time being.

At eleven o'clock in the morning, Xiao Jin sent an email, and there was a line of text lying quietly in it: [The samples are enough, thank you]

Muzhenxi stared at this "thank you" for a long time, and felt an unknown fire in his heart. He clicked the reply button with the mouse, tapped his fingers on the keyboard, deleted, deleted, modified, and finally returned a line: [It's a little effort, you're welcome]

Xiao Jin didn't send any more messages until after get off work in the morning.

Muzhenxi and Corgi's sister went to the cafeteria to eat. Corgi's sister observed her expression. After 10 minutes, she finally confirmed that she was in a bad mood today.

"Boss?"

"Huh?" Muzhenxi raised his murderous eyes.

The Corgi girl flinched indistinctly, retreated resolutely, and asked, "Is your cold better?"

Muzhenxi lowered his eyes and said calmly: "It's much better, why?"

Corgi sister smiled flatteringly: "What kind of medicine do you take, can you recommend it to me?"

Muzhenxi glanced at her, ground his molars, and said with a smile: "I want to make you into medicine."

The Corgi girl ate hard, not daring to let go of a fart.

The next day, Muzhenxi chose to make breakfast at home. She hadn't turned on the fire in the kitchen for a week. Looking at the heat coming out of the pot, she felt nostalgic and found the long-lost peace.

She belatedly realizes that Xiao Jin has affected too much of her mind recently, and even her daily life has been greatly affected. Maybe she should learn to be calm and not get flustered at the slightest sign of trouble.

Don't say that Xiao Jin should have nothing to do with that colleague, even if there is something, it's none of my business.

When dealing with feelings, she is like an elderly person who has already stepped into retirement life ahead of time, walking slowly step by step, still fascinated by Xiao Jin, but has no enthusiasm for chasing after her, if she happens to meet on the road, saying hello is enough Very good, wait for time to slowly smooth out the previous scars, if it is suitable, it is not impossible to walk side by side for a while, but if the other party wants to find another companion halfway, she doesn't care.

She appeared in the coffee shop day after day, sometimes meeting Xiao Jin, sometimes not.Xiao Jin's car commuting and subway commuting also became irregular, and both of them were very headstrong.

Time is being chased away, and soon the most important day of the year-the Spring Festival is ushered in.

Xiao Jin took the winter vacation with her students early, and returned to the United States to gather with her friends who had been away for a few months.

During this period of time, Muzhenxi has been working overtime in the country, not to mention going to the coffee shop, not even going home, and the other members of the project team are similar.One day, the Corgi girl yelled "Ah" and said, "It will be New Year's Eve in two days!"

The atmosphere in the office immediately became restless, chattering and discussing like a thousand ducks.

"Are you going home for Chinese New Year this year?"

"I won't go back. It's only a week's vacation. Tickets are still hard to buy. Anyway, Chinese New Year is not interesting. I will go back when I take the annual leave."

"I'm not going back either, I plan to go play."

"Where are you going to play?"

"Sanya, let's go on vacation."

"Wow, that's so cool. If I dare not go home, my parents will cut me off."

……

dong dong.

The glass at the Sleeper Creek station was knocked.

Muzhenxi stared at the computer in front of him without turning his head: "Say."

The Corgi girl poked her head over and asked in a low voice amidst the noisy discussion: "Are you going home for the Chinese New Year?"

Wooden Sleeper Creek: "Go back."

Sister Corgi: "Where is your hometown?"

Sleeper Creek: "Local."

Sister Corgi: "Oh, that's pretty good, you don't need to fight for a ticket."

Muzhenxi gave a faint "hmm": "Is there anything else?"

Sister Corgi thought for a while and said, "Yes."

Muzhenxi stopped sliding the mouse, and finally gave her a look: "Say."

Corgi sister said: "I'm afraid that there will be too many blessings on New Year's Eve, and you won't see my greetings. I'm afraid that the firecrackers on the first day of junior high school will be too noisy, and you won't be able to hear my blessings, so I want to talk to you now." Just say: Happy New Year."

The corner of Muzhenxi's mouth twitched.

Sister Corgi: "Hahahahaha."

Muzhenxi turned his face to continue looking at the computer, and after a few seconds, he slightly bent his eyes.

On the afternoon of 29, everyone except Muzhenxi was not in the mood to work, and waited for the time to get off work.As soon as five o'clock arrived, the desks and chairs in the office rattled, and the crowd swarmed out. When they went out, they turned around and said "Happy New Year everyone, see you next year" as if rushing to the scene.

"Happy New Year, Boss, see you next year." The second-to-last girl Corgi, eager to return home, skipped away happily with small steps.

"Happy New Year." The office was empty when the sound of Wooden Sleeper Creek finished.

She collected the items on the desk unhurriedly, and was the last to leave, locking the door of the office.

"Aren't you really going to my house for the New Year?" On the way home, Mu Zhenxi received a call from Yin Xiaoli, who also got off work, and went back to her hometown by train on New Year's Eve.

"Thank you for your kindness, but I really don't need it." Today's wind is very strong, and the weather forecast says that it may snow. Wooden Sleeper Creek gathered the woolen scarf around his collar, and pulled up the cuffs to cover himself as much as possible. Finger holding the phone.

"As for the matter of more people and more chopsticks, my parents really want to see you. They hear me talking about my fairy girlfriend every day. Up to now, I have only seen photos, not real people."

"It's weird. I've been up all night for three consecutive nights. I only have seven days off. I'll be on the road for another two days. I think you want me to vomit blood."

"It was agreed not to let me make fun of vomiting blood, but now you say it yourself."

Muzhenxi laughed twice.

"It's fine if you don't come, show me the dinner tomorrow, no instant noodles." Yin Xiaoli knew that there was no way to convince her. She had known Muzhenxi for so long, and she never said anything about it. A cold person.

"Understood, Mom." Muzhenxi smiled and drew out the tone.

The eyelashes were a little bit cool, people coming and going stopped at Zhongmuzhen Creek, looking up, there were numerous snowflakes falling from the sky and the earth.