as pure as a radish

When I woke up the next day, I was bored in the room and did Sudoku for a whole day. It was not until the problem became more and more difficult that I couldn’t solve it after writing seven or eight sheets of draft paper. pencil put down.

Lying back on the bed, I stretched out my right hand in the air. The place where the middle finger was deformed due to holding the pen was pressed into a deep depression by the pencil. It has not recovered its elasticity until now, and the palm of my hand has a strange feeling because of holding the pen for too long. Feel.

The last time I wrote so many characters was probably during the postgraduate entrance examination. For a while, I entered the review bottleneck period, my brain couldn’t work, and I forgot a line after reading a line in the book. I used the most stupid copying method to force myself to memorize .

After writing hard, there will always be a sense of peace in my heart.Body organs are easily deceived by heavy labor, and this is my purpose today. I want my body organs to be deceived, and then I can enter temporary tranquility.

My arm was a little sore, I finally retracted my hand, and my muscles instantly relaxed, triggering a burst of physical pleasure.

"Not going," I said to myself calmly.I am very familiar with the old saying that "a tree moves to die, but a person moves to live", and I know that I have made a desperate choice.But so many days of trembling and trembling have made me exhausted physically and mentally. I am more and more eager to live the life of an ordinary office worker again. If I have to run around the world for my life as soon as Y appears, I am afraid that I will not be able to live like that in my life. day is over.Maybe, I am destined to fight with Y.

I looked at the time and it wasn't too late, so I got up and put on a shirt and trousers, took my employee card, and went to Kechuang Avenue with a blank expression.

Walking into the familiar industrial park, I walked in along the winding path paved with stones in the middle of the grass. After passing through three forks, I walked out of the grass. There were several colorful semicircles hanging on the outer wall of the building in front of me. Metal trim, that's the company I used to work for.

It has only been more than ten days since I resigned, and I am still very familiar with everything here.But my employee card can no longer be swiped to open the access control on the first floor, so I have to ask the security guy to be more accommodating with a smile on my face.When I entered the door, I didn't take the elevator. It was embarrassing to meet too many familiar faces. I lowered my head for a while and walked straight into the stairwell without looking anywhere, and went straight to the 8th floor.

The manager's office is on this floor. Whether I can be reinstated depends mainly on her. As long as she is willing to report to the police, the people above won't care about the personnel issues of a small employee.

Knocking on the door of her office, she saw me, her face darkened, she asked "what's the matter" and then bowed her head and started to sort out the files.

I know she's not that busy, she's just showing me a face on purpose.I resigned when the department's workload was heavy, and I didn't bother to compliment her, so of course she wouldn't give me a good face.

I walked in, closed the door, and pressed my hands tightly to the hem of my trousers, "Manager, my family affairs have been settled, I don't know if I'm coming back now..."

She raised her throat and coughed twice, and I shut up immediately.

"Janie," our department is mainly in charge of the company's international business, and the frequency of English usage is relatively high. The boss calls our subordinates by English names, "Aren't you in a hurry to leave, you can't wait for two months... "The manager really brought it up.

"I'm really sorry for causing trouble to everyone at that time. Things are urgent at home, and I am also anxious." When I resigned, I used the excuse that something happened at home, and now I can only follow this excuse.

"Who doesn't have a personal matter, who doesn't have a family member, if something happens, everyone is in a hurry. But~" the manager changed the subject, "After all, we are a collective, so we casually put aside our work, are we responsible?"

"It was really ill-considered at the time." I lowered my head.

"It's really incompetent! Very inconsiderate! Everyone in this department will pay for your incompetence." The manager raised his voice, "You are too selfish!" After speaking, the manager turned the conversation to the issue I was most concerned about. "Your position has just been released from the human resources side. Guess how many people have submitted their resumes?"

I lowered my head again, hoping that she would say a few more words to relieve her anger, so that I could beg her to let me reinstate.

"Heh~" She snorted coldly, "Forget it, you are quite arrogant, you probably don't care how severe the current employment situation is."

"Manager, I cherish the job opportunities that the company gave me. In the past, I was not good at handling interpersonal relationships. I will definitely correct myself in the future." I had to clarify quickly.It's not good momentum to label me arrogant, the manager probably wants to make a point that I don't fit in.

"From now on?" The manager's voice became sharp, "Janie, are you thinking too easily? If you want to resign, then resign, if you want to reinstate, then reinstate?"

"I just wish the company would give me another chance," I begged.

The manager raised his eyebrows and shook his head, and simply ignored me.In this way, it seemed extremely redundant for me to stand there stupidly.

But I can't just walk away in despair, I want to try again.How to do it?bribe?But I'm afraid I can't give the number that the manager will be moved, and if it is not handled properly, it will have a negative effect... Does the manager have other needs?By the way, she has children.Is there anything special I can do for her baby?There are a bunch of options in my mind, but they all require strong financial strength or personal connections...

"I'm busy." The manager looked up at me.

There's no chance... I feel hopeless that I've been sentenced to death...

Suddenly, a gust of air flowed from behind, rushing over my sweat-drenched shirt due to nervousness, and a feeling of coolness pierced my heart.

"Yo, isn't this Janie?" The person who opened the door was my standard competitor before resignation.We have similar working years, similar educational backgrounds, and similar working abilities.A month ago, the former supervisor received a transfer order to be promoted to the deputy manager of another department, and the supervisor's seat became vacant.If the top doesn't parachute a supervisor to our department, the next supervisor will be between me and her.

"Director Li," the manager put the position on purpose, "send this to the client." The manager put a stack of documents on the side of the table.

"Okay." My former competitor smiled and walked over, "By the way, leader, what is Janie here for?"

The manager pouted, "I want to come back~"

The two of them just talked about me in front of me, it feels really...

After the two of them chatted, my former competitor was about to leave, but she turned around deliberately, and asked the manager like an opera, "Boss, don't we still need to hire an intern~"

The manager raised his eyebrows and looked at her.

I already knew what she was going to say.

Sure enough, she walked up to me and said with a smile, "Janie, I'll give you this vacant seat. We'll work together, and I'll help you intercede with the leader."

I watched the twitching of her facial muscles, the opening and closing of her mouth, and the opening of each pore from a very close distance...

My stomach was overwhelmed, I held my breath and endured it.

Before leaving get off work, I finally rejoined the company - as an intern.

The administrative department put my employee card on the machine and ticked it, and this white card has the authority to enter and exit the company building.Of course, under Director Li's kind reminder, the staff of the administration department carefully scraped off the position information on my employee card with a blade.

The news that I returned to the company to become an intern passed through the administration department, and it will surely spread in the company tomorrow.

Congratulations to all of you for having another conversation piece in your boring life.

I walked out of the company with a blank expression, walked to the subway station in the industrial park, followed the crowd downstairs, walked, and squeezed onto the subway.

The carriage was swaying, and someone pushed me on the back, making my efforts to hold my breath useless, and I hurriedly covered my mouth.The people around thought I was going to vomit, and they all shrank their necks and looked at the heels to avoid it.In the crowded carriage, a strange no-man's space instantly formed around me.