as pure as a radish

"Click", my hospital room door was opened before I put down the post-it note.The person who came was not a doctor or nurse, but Liu Ziyun, the person who wrote this post-it note.I seem to have seen her sign her name on a small ticket before, but today is the first time I have seen her write a complete sentence.In fact, from the time I saw her signature, I was very sure that she is a beautiful handwriting person, and that kind of beauty is not the beauty of neatness, but the chic style of writing with great personality.

"Feeling better?" She closed the door and turned the anti-lock knob.

Before she walked to my hospital bed, I mustered up the courage to say, "Didn't I say that we would never see each other again?"

Yes, after I came out of the gym and felt extremely sick that day, I sent a message to Liu Ziyun saying that I would never see her again.

When I went to the club that night and came back, I put all the things Liu Ziyun left with me into her orange SUV overnight, then drove the car downstairs to her house, and sent her a message to tell her the location of the car and the separation of all the things. Just leave it there.I think that apart from the emotionally procrastinating thoughts, I have already separated from her.

She didn't respond to either of my two messages, and of course she hasn't contacted me since.In the world of adults, fading out from each other is tantamount to parting.

But my decisive words did not stop Liu Ziyun, she still came to my bed and sat on the edge of the bed.

"Have you received my message? It was sent successfully. Although you didn't reply~" I emphasized again that we are no longer the relationship we used to be.

"Hey~" She sighed, looking down at the quilt covering me.

Is she sad?If so, this is the first time she has shown sad emotions in front of me... My heart is astringent, but to be honest, I have never been in a good mood recently.

Her gaze followed my body up and finally settled on my face.Liu Ziyun sat forward and got closer to me.

Immediately, I felt that something was wrong all over my body, and an electric current ran wildly in my body.Is it that everyone can't hold back when they meet their old lover like me, or is it just me who has such poor concentration?

Liu Ziyun then raised his right hand and gently touched my face to caress.

"Don't do this." I barely squeezed out the words of rejection.

She looked at me intently, and then I felt a slight squeeze in her palm, and she pulled me closer to her, while she leaned forward to me.At a distance close enough to hear the other person's heartbeat, she closed her eyes and touched my upper lip with her lips.

My heart trembled violently, and my voice trembled too, "Don't... like this... really... no... um..."

She stuck her tongue out while I was talking.The long-lost feeling spread from the tip of my tongue to my whole body. If there was an electric current running around in my body just now, there are probably thousands of currents running in my body now.People can't always control their body, just like now, no matter how hard I try, I can only press Liu Ziyun with my weak arm, which is not the best, because I can't exert the strength to push her out, at most Putting his arm around her shoulders, sort of.

When I was in a state of severe fever, Liu Ziyun stopped her kiss, she opened her eyes, but still kept a nose-to-nose distance from me, "Am I late?" Liu Ziyun was a little hurried gasping for heat. "Be my daughter..."

"I..." I interrupted Liu Ziyun, I knew exactly what she was going to say, but my mind was in a mess right now.

She stroked my cheek twice, put her left hand into her pocket, and took out a small square box.

No no no, I'm more confused.I just know it's not supposed to be this way.

There are too many reasons to count.For example, on the emotional level, although we are obsessed with each other's bodies, it does not necessarily mean that we love each other deeply or that we like each other or even that we have feelings for each other; for example, on the material level, to put it bluntly, I am not worthy; such as on the spiritual level , we have only known each other for a few months, and most of the time is just for physical communication, not to mention being soul mates, we don’t even understand each other’s spiritual world; When evaluating others, I only know that there is definitely a big problem with my own personality, and I may not be suitable to be anyone's partner... In an instant, all these thoughts burst out.

My fingertips felt a little cold, I came back to my senses and saw that the ring was already facing my finger.Without thinking, I pulled my hand back. I moved so violently that the infusion needle was crooked by me, and the blood immediately flowed back into the infusion tube.

"Be careful!" Liu Ziyun said anxiously.

It was just a small pain. I didn't think it was a big deal, so I pulled out the needle casually, and used a Band-Aid to press the hole of the needle that was bleeding out.

Liu Ziyun was about to get up, I knew she was going to call a nurse, so I quickly grabbed her, "Don't let anyone come in, I want to be quiet."

"Give me your hand~" Liu Ziyun sat back and said calmly.

I handed it to her, and she peeled off the Band-Aid, looked at the bleeding, and felt around carefully.

"It's a little swollen, it's okay, I once swelled even more and it's okay, it will go away by itself." I said.

She looked at my calf and asked me again, "Do you think this is all right?"

"Isn't this still alive? Of course it's fine." I laughed.

She was about to speak when I continued, "But~"

Liu Ziyun: "What?"

I wanted to half-jokingly say that I was itchy from being kissed by her, but before I opened my mouth, I felt ashamed to say that, so I swallowed it again, "It's nothing."

Liu Ziyun raised her eyebrows, "Be my girlfriend."

Caught off guard, she still found a chance to say this.

I don't know how to answer, because I don't think I am qualified to refuse or accept.

"Is it a terrible question?" Liu Ziyun asked me, "It's rare to see you so hesitant."

"How did I come to the hospital?" I chose to escape.

Liu Ziyun touched my head, "Your question is not very clever. But I will not fail to answer your question. I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night last night. I went to find you and found you fainted in the living room with burns all over your forehead. It's hot when you touch it. I tried to call you a few times, but you didn't respond at all, so I sent you to the hospital. I've finished answering your question. What about my question? I want to know your answer. "

"Give me some time, one month." I thought for a while, "Well, just one month. Then I will ask you the same question."

Liu Ziyun nodded, I think she should understand what I'm insisting on.

Going around in the ward, Liu Ziyun kept rubbing the small square box.

"That, it's a little too early." I took the initiative to say, "We don't need any impulsiveness at this age. We will start slowly and pass slowly. If we are still not tired of each other one day in the future, we will not be tired of each other until then." Late."

"I've never been impulsive~" Liu Ziyun walked to the side of the hospital bed and bent down, "Only...for you..."

I was sucked in deeply by those eyes, and the electricity started to wander in my body again.I gently grabbed the corner of her suit, and started to unbutton my hospital gown with one hand, "I'm really not a good person..."

She knelt down on the bed and kissed my forehead, "Who told you to be a good person, you just want to be my person..."