Pseudo-white lotus survival diary

"Qing Ye..."

Familiar body temperature, familiar voice.

Dou Yang.

Lin Qingye gave up struggling and let him hug her tightly, rubbing his head on his shoulders.

If it is a real couple relationship, this scene should be quite warm.

Lin Qingye was very warm in his heart, but he also knew it would be bad to continue, and felt that the time was almost up, so he gently pushed away Dou Yang's hand, turned around, and said with a smile: "Welcome back."

Dou Yang's eyes were full of smiles.

"It feels like..." Lin Qingye took a few steps back and looked Dou Yang up and down.

"What do you feel?" Dou Yang looked at himself suspiciously.

"Have you gained some weight?" Lin Qingye asked uncertainly.

Dou Yang was very thin before, that kind of thinness is like a tree eroded by wind and rain, and he looks very tired after resisting disasters for a long time, but now, the invisible fatigue on Dou Yang has disappeared, like a dead tree in spring, sick and crooked The trunk re-sprouts and grows new leaves.

A renewed vitality.

Dou Yang was taken aback for a moment, then a blush appeared on his fair face, he scratched his face, and said a little embarrassedly: "So obvious? Did you see it at a glance?"

"Really fat?"

Dou Yang nodded and raised five fingers, "I gained five catties."

Five catties.

But half a month.

"I ate well and slept well in the nursing home. The doctor would ask us to go out to do some activities every day. There are many people like me there, and some people have more serious problems than me. I didn't know until I went in, I Such a situation is not surprising, and it should not be ashamed. Many people who are more serious than me can overcome psychological barriers, and I think I can do it. And..." He paused, his eyes softened, "As long as you think of You waited for me outside, and you gave so much for me, I feel that you must be cured before you can come out..."

"Qingye..." He approached Lin Qingye, hugged him again, put his head on Lin Qingye's neck, and rubbed it lightly like a cat, "I did it, I said I wouldn't let him You are disappointed..."

Lin Qingye opened her arms, not knowing whether she should hug him back, hesitated for a while, and then patted his back lightly, signaling him to let go.

"It's amazing!" Lin Qingye was really happy for him, "So your condition has recovered?"

"En." Dou Yang nodded.

that is really good!

Lin Qingye thought, after being unlucky for such a long time, now things are turning, Zhong Chiyu's insomnia has been cured, Cui Zhining's mania has been found, and now even Dou Yang's mental illness has been cured.

When I just crossed over, I just wanted to break up and protect myself. Later, when I saw their pain, I felt compassion and wanted to help them. This kind of feeling is similar to the feeling of a father for his own children, and he is responsible for their future. , and also compensated for the random settings for them.However, Lin Qingye knew that they were three independent personalities with their own lives, and his help could only be limited.

Today, the mental illnesses of the three people are basically cured, and Lin Qingye is about to retire.

"Doctor Wei said, let's see the situation in two days."

"Depends on the situation?" Lin Qingye was surprised, "What's the situation?"

Dou Yang coughed, "Just to see if there are any feelings of world-weariness, restlessness, anxiety and wanting to destroy. If not, it means the disease has been cured."

Lin Qingye asked: "How long do we need to observe?"

"Not long, a week." Dou Yang smiled.

a week...

Lin Qingye pondered.

"Qing Ye..." Dou Yang asked in a low voice, "A week later, can you go watch the sunrise with me?"

Lin Qingye looked up, "Watch the sunrise?"

"Don't you like sunrise and sunset?"

"Ah... yes, I like it."

The originally happy mood was diluted by this passage, almost forgot, Lin Qingye pretended to be Dou Yang's real savior and approached Dou Yang, and told countless lies in the middle, "I like the sunrise and sunset" is probably one of the lies.

Lin Qingye said to herself: Be rational, don't let your emotions show you.

He tried his best to suppress the joy in his mind because of Dou Yang's healing, and used reason to judge the next step.

Originally planned to break up with Dou Yang today, but after hearing what he just said, Lin Qingye changed her mind and planned to wait a week later.After a week, we will know whether Dou Yang has been cured or not, and we will make a decision at that time.

"Qing Ye?" Dou Yang's voice became softer, a little uneasy, after probably not getting a response for too long.

"Huh? Ah, okay." Lin Qingye returned to his senses, and laughed quickly, "Of course, watching the sunrise... um... I like watching the sunrise..."

Dou Yang breathed a sigh of relief, "I thought...you wanted to refuse."

"No." Lin Qingye shook his head.

Dou Yang's eyes lit up immediately, and he hugged Lin Qingye again, hugging him tightly, "Qingye, you are so kind! You are really my angel!"

Lin Qingye was strangled by him and almost suffocated. She wanted to struggle, but when she heard his words, she couldn't bear to push him away and let him hold her.

Dou Yang, I'm not an angel...

Gently, gently sighed.

That afternoon, Lin Qingye and Dou Yang agreed to go out to watch the sunrise in a week, and then went to the studio to draw.

Dou Yang had painted many portraits of Lin Qingye before, and every time he asked Lin Qingye to wear a school uniform and sit on a stool, as if he wanted to restore the touch and admiration in his heart through clothing and demeanor.Lin Qingye heard Dou Yang's invitation to paint, and went to the cubicle to get the school uniform to put on after entering the studio, but was stopped by Dou Yang.

"No need," he said.

Lin Qingye stood in the cubicle, holding the blue school uniform in his hand, and asked in surprise, "No need?"

Dou Yang took the school uniform from his hand and threw it on the small bed next to him, took his hand and said, "Your appearance is the best."

What do you mean?

Lin Qingye was very confused.

"Isn't it really necessary?"

"No need." Dou Yang's tone was very sure.

Lin Qingye didn't care if he wore a school uniform or not. Since Dou Yang didn't need it, he stopped being obsessed and sat in the position where he used to be a model when he got out of the cubicle.

Standing behind the drawing board, Dou Yang smiled at him, lowered his head, and drew on it seriously.

Painting with Dou Yang is not a boring thing, because Dou Yang did not require him to maintain a certain posture, he just needs to sit there, as long as it is not a big movement, it is fine.

Lin Qingye can even read books and play with her mobile phone.

Of course, before thinking about not irritating Dou Yang, Lin Qingye never did anything else while painting, and basically kept a posture and sat to the end.

Around three o'clock in the afternoon, Dou Yang suddenly said, "It's fine."

"So fast?" Lin Qingye was surprised, stood up and walked to him to look at the drawing board.

The outlines and details of the characters in the drawing board have been drawn, which is perfect and realistic.

"The painting is really good!" Lin Qingye praised sincerely.

Dou Yang was a little embarrassed, "I draw well?"

Lin Qingye nodded vigorously, then raised her hand to give him a thumbs up.

Dou Yang's eyes were crooked with laughter, he couldn't help lowering his head, and kissed Lin Qingye's forehead.

Lin Qingye was stunned.

The kiss broke at the touch of a finger, without any profane meaning, not even lust, it was a very pure kiss.That kiss was just the kiss itself.

Lin Qingye raised his hand to touch his forehead, where there was still a warm touch.

"I'm sorry...I..." Dou Yang was a little helpless, "I...can't help...you won't be angry, right?"

Lin Qingye let go of her hand and shook her head.

Speaking of...

Although he had three boyfriends, he didn't have any intimate behavior with the three boyfriends, at most they hugged and held hands, very pure and pure.

Dou Yang's reaction is also very cute, it is obviously a close lover relationship, kissing his lover, he will feel flustered...

"Aren't you angry?" Dou Yang asked cautiously.

Lin Qingye shook his head, "Not angry."

Just a forehead kiss.

Dou Yang breathed a sigh of relief, his eyes softened, "Qing Ye, you are really an angel in my life. You saved me when I was young, and now you save me again. Before, I have been looking for the shadow of my childhood in you, even I want to draw the shadow of that year, for this reason, every time I make you wear a school uniform and sit in the studio for a long time... But after going through some things, I understand..."

Lin Qingye was startled, understood, understood what?

Ah, it turns out that he made me wear a school uniform because he wanted to draw the shadow in his mind...

Cough cough, no wonder he couldn't draw it all the time, because Lin Qingye was originally a counterfeit, and of course he didn't have the shadow of back then...

Dou Yang pressed Lin Qingye's shoulders with his hands, and stared at him deeply, "Now I know that your current appearance is the angel I have been looking for, and your current appearance is the most beautiful and purest appearance."

Lin Qingye, who was originally thinking wildly, heard Dou Yang's words, and his thoughts went blank for a second.

He raised his head and stared at Dou Yang in surprise.

Just now... what do you mean?

As if reading doubts from his eyes, Dou Yang smiled and said: "I thought a lot in the nursing home, but I was too obsessed with the past, holding on to some old ideas and not letting go, leading myself to a dead end. Just like I insisted that you wear school uniforms and act like you were when you were a child... That's wrong, everything will change, and Qingye will also change. When Qingye grows up, she is still my angel and saved me... So, I think Qing Ye's current appearance is the best."

Lin Qingye: "..."

Lin Qingye was speechless.

I was really touched, my heart was sour and warm, but also very sad.

"...I think that this time I will be able to completely draw a work that satisfies me." Dou Yang's brows are bright, as if he has let go of some kind of shackles, and he has a lot of freedom and inspiration.

Lin Qingye suppressed the complicated feelings in his heart, nodded, "I can definitely draw it."

Dou Yang was very serious about painting, and Lin Qingye walked around the studio and other rooms in the villa. In the evening, Dou Yang personally cooked for Lin Qingye.

Lin Qingye leaned against the door of the kitchen, watching him busy, and remembered how Dou Yang chased him with a kitchen knife before.

That scene seemed to have happened a long, long time ago...