Pseudo-white lotus survival diary

"... I don't know who is the person who saw this suicide note? Is it my brother, or my parents?

It doesn't matter who it is.I know you are all wondering why I must run away from home and commit suicide, because I really can't bear it anymore.This world is too painful, every minute and every second is suffering.

I often think, why didn't I die when I was 13?If I had died that year, it wouldn't have been so painful.

I don't know if my dear brother can read this letter. If you do, I want to say sorry to you.

I know you've been blaming yourself, thinking that those two bastards were the ones who tortured me to death when you ran away when you were 13, partly, but not entirely.

You escaped that time, and later, in fact, I also searched for opportunities to escape, but they found them, and they...

I know you've been blaming yourself for not telling you the truth because I'm jealous of you bro.

I know it's wrong, but I can't help myself resenting you, resenting my parents.If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't be kidnapped and raped by them, if it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be tortured like that.

I know, I always knew that these resentments were meaningless, but I couldn't control it. Every day after I came back, I felt very uncomfortable. You guys made me become such a murderer!

murderer!

murderer!

murderer! ! !

I really don't want to live anymore, I have nightmares every night when I close my eyes, and you sleep peacefully in bed!

Dad, mom, brother, I hate you, but I also know it's not your fault.

I'm gone, I want to be reincarnated into an ordinary family to be an ordinary girl, grow up peacefully, and never encounter these things again.

Before leaving, I decided to forgive you, sincerely, but I am a little embarrassed.

Do you hate me too?

I don't know if you can read this letter, but if you do, please don't hate me, and I won't hold grudges anymore.Please help me go to the temple to burn an ever-burning lamp, I heard that the lamp can illuminate the cycle of reincarnation..."

……

Lin Qingye kicked the small stone under his feet, and looked up at the corridor of the old building while kicking.

After reading her sister's suicide note, Zhong Chiyu cried until her eyes were red, and then threw the two of them out, locked the door, and stayed inside alone.

During the process of locking the door, Song Ying was pushed hard by Zhong Chiyu because of her persuasion, and Zhong Chiyu said a lot of harsh words emotionally.But no matter how Zhong Chiyu scolded or got angry, Song Ying just looked at him quietly and found an opportunity to hug him tightly.

Zhong Chiyu beat and scolded, but in the end he couldn't break free from Song Ying, and when he calmed down, he hugged Song Ying and cried again.

It was at that time that Lin Qingye discovered that the relationship between the two was more complicated and intimate than he had imagined.

He should have thought earlier that the matter of his sister was Zhong Chiyu's deepest secret, and he would never reveal it to others easily.But Song Ying knew, and she could still find the house where her sister lived. It was very likely that Zhong Chiyu had brought him here, which showed that Zhong Chiyu trusted him very much.

As for why it is rumored that the two do not get along, it is not known why they seem to be full of sex when getting along.

Lin Qingye knew that it was inappropriate for him to stay, and he couldn't help, so his words of persuasion were useless.The atmosphere between the two also prevented him from joining. He felt that he was redundant, so he went downstairs and waited.

He wasn't mad at being ignored and yelling, on the contrary he was happy.Before he found the suicide note, he was not sure that Zhong Chiyu would be able to untangle his heart.

Now Zhong Chiyu's violent reaction is a good thing, only the great tragedy, great comedy, and intense emotions can be vented to relieve the depression in his heart.

His eyes still hurt. In the situation just now, he didn't want to wash his eyes in a bad way, so he could only endure it.

This bit of pain is nothing compared to what happened to Zhong Chiyu!

When the building manager asked the driver for mineral water, he flushed his eyes with water, which made him feel better.

After waiting for a while, there was finally movement in the corridor.

Lin Qingye raised his head and was pleasantly surprised to see Zhong Chiyu and Song Ying coming down.Song Ying kept talking to Zhong Chiyu, but Zhong Chiyu drooped his head and said nothing.

After coming out of the old building, Lin Qingye took a step forward, wanting to say something, but stopped talking when he saw Zhong Chiyu's expression.

Zhong Chiyu walked forward with a cold face, walked a few steps, did not know what to think, and returned to Lin Qingye.

Lin Qingye stood still nervously, and asked, "...are you alright?"

Zhong Chiyu didn't answer, but moved his lips after a while, said something in a low voice, and strode away.

"Thank you."

Lin Qingye was slightly taken aback.

Song Ying nodded to Lin Qingye, hurriedly caught up with Zhong Chiyu, and followed him out of the community, forgetting about her own car.

After a while, Lin Qingye came back to his senses, and his mood gradually became happier.

Zhong Chiyu actually said thank you to him, what does this mean?Explain that he thinks I'm doing the right thing.

He will definitely be able to untie the knot!

Lin Qingye smiled happily while holding the mineral water bottle.

……

It was almost seven o'clock when I got home, and the sky was covered with colorful clouds in the evening.

Jiang's house is on a hill with a very wide field of vision, and can even enjoy the magnificent sunset scenery.

The boundless sky is connected with the mountains and houses in the distance, which is far and wide and refreshing.

Lin Qingye looked at it for a while, and found that there were several people in uniforms bustling around on the lawn near the river.

The clothes are light blue, very different from the uniforms of the domestic servants.

Lin Qingye was a little curious.

There happened to be a servant sweeping the floor nearby, with a rattling voice, Lin Qingye called her to stop, "Hey, auntie."

The servant raised his head when he heard the call, saw that it was Lin Qingye, hurried over with the cleaning machine on, turned off the cleaning machine and asked, "Master Lin, what's the matter?"

Lin Qingye asked: "Who are those people by the river and what are they doing?"

The aunt said: "It's the workers who have been invited to repair the bridge."

"The workers who repair the bridge?" Lin Qingye was stunned, "Do you... want to repair the bridge?"

"Originally there was a bridge there, but it was pushed down due to safety concerns, and the pier was left. Now it only needs to be paved with wooden planks."

"But..." Lin Qingye was certainly happy to be able to build the bridge, but suddenly started to build it, a little inexplicable, "Why did you suddenly build the bridge?"

"Boss Jiang ordered, I don't know." Auntie said.

President Jiang?Jiang Yichen?

Why did he suddenly repair the bridge?

Is it...

Lin Qingye's heart was pounding. Did he send someone to repair it because he said it was convenient to have a bridge?

No no no, this is too exaggerated!

Lin Qingye is not good at putting gold on his face.

No matter how good the relationship is, I will become his younger brother, because it is too exaggerated to say "building a bridge".

There must be other reasons.

Must be.

Lin Qingye stood on the grass for a while, feeling as if she was riding a roller coaster up and down, and also as if she got into the colorful clouds in the sky, her heart was full of rainbow colors.

Zhong Chiyu's problem can be solved, and Jiang Yichen's bridge repair is a happy event.

All very happy.

In joy, but also a little itchy, as if a kitten's paw was scratching at the tip of his heart, he wanted to ask Jiang Yichen if he built the bridge because of himself, but he was afraid that if he answered no, he would look big and funny.

During the process of entering the villa, he kept hesitating about what to say to Jiang Yichen, whether to ask him.Before he could figure it out, when he entered the room and ran into Butler Yu, the butler told him that Jiang Yichen was not there, and his heart that was floating in the clouds sank.

"Master, what happened to your eyes?" Yu Butler asked with concern.

Lin Qingye said, "It's okay, the sand fell into my eyes."

"Need a doctor to see?"

"No need!" Lin Qingye quickly shook his head, "I'll go up first."

Talking and walking upstairs.

Jiang Yichen went to accompany Jiang Minghai, Lin Qingye went back to the room and stayed alone for a while, went to the bathroom and found that his eyes were red and swollen, so he stopped going to the White House to worry Bai Lifang.

Soon after Jiang Yichen came back, seeing Lin Qingye's eyes, he frowned, "Crying?"

Lin Qingye shook his head and quickly explained, "No, it's because sand fell into my eyes."

Jiang Yichen: "..."

The handsome man was silent for a moment, stepped forward and patted Lin Qingye on the shoulder, "People will definitely find them."

Lin Qingye was stunned for a moment, realizing that the other party didn't believe her words, she couldn't laugh or cry, "The person has been found."

"Why did you cry when you found it? He bullied you?" Jiang Yichen didn't understand.

"No, I really didn't cry." Lin Qingye explained, and then told him a little bit about what happened in the old building.

Jiang Yichen nodded after hearing this, reached out to lift his chin, and focused his gaze, "Let me see your eyes."

Lin Qingye: "..."

The two were very close, too close.

Lin Qingye's breathing became short of breath, and a burning sensation rose from his face and burned all the way to the top of his head.

"I just washed it with water..."

"Open your eyes and don't move."

Lin Qingye didn't dare to move.

Jiang Yichen held his chin and observed carefully, with a very serious expression.

"It's still a little red, it's better to use some ointment." After a while, Jiang Yichen let go of his chin, "Eyes are too important to relax."

Lin Qingye breathed a sigh of relief, and he didn't know if he would suffocate if he went down.

There are emergency bells in each room in case of emergency.Jiang Yichen rang the bell, and someone answered soon.

"Master Lin, what's the matter with you?"

"There's something wrong with his eyes, let someone come over and take a look." Jiang Yichen said.

"Ok."

Soon, a younger doctor came to the White House and went upstairs to help Lin Qingye see his eyes.

"No problem. I'll give you a bottle of eye drops to moisturize. If the redness is gone tomorrow, you'll be fine. If it's red and swollen tomorrow, use another bottle of gatifloxacin." The doctor said after seeing it.

There was no eye drops in the villa, so the doctor wrote down the name of the medicine and sent a servant to buy it.The villa area where I live is in a remote place, and I have to send a car to go to the pharmacy.

Lin Qingye was very ashamed, grabbed Jiang Yichen's hand and said, "No need, I really don't need to mobilize people like this."

It was a battle between a family doctor and a car and a servant. Some people might feel a sense of superiority, but Lin Qingye felt terrified and uncomfortable.

God, he's not a prince, nor a young master, how can he stand this kind of treatment?

Jiang Yichen only said to the doctor: "Thank you, let's go."

The doctor smiled at Lin Qingye and left.

Lin Qingye was both ashamed and happy in his heart. Although he mobilized many people, he received unprecedented attention. This was a treatment that he had never thought of in two lifetimes.

It would be a lie to say you are unhappy.

"Brother..." He pondered for a moment, then asked in a low voice, "When I came back today, I saw a bridge being built by the river..."

Jiang Yichen hummed.

"Why...the bridge was suddenly built?"

"Don't you want it?" Jiang Yichen asked naturally, "It's not a big deal, so I sent someone to fix it."

no big deal...

Jiang Yichen's attitude was too natural, as if building a bridge was as common as buying an apple, which made Lin Qingye speechless.

Perhaps, for people at the level of the Jiang family, building a bridge and sending a car to buy medicine and vegetables are all natural things.

"... Oh." He was jumping with joy, as if a deer was jumping up and down, "Thank you then!"

"Thank you?" Jiang Yichen laughed, rubbing his head, "You are my younger brother, so I should spoil you."