HP is a dream in a dream and a dream in the night

When I woke up and saw the quilt that fell on the ground, I finally remembered that I didn't take the quilt with me last night, maybe it was because it fell on the ground, so I didn't carry it?After all there's nowhere on it for me to make sure I'm carrying it properly, trouble.Next time I'll find a rope and tie it to myself, but it's better to wait until I get home, doing this in school...too crazy...

Thinking about last night and the night before, I never knew that I could go hysterical so bluntly, and I still couldn't accept time travel so quickly.It's too bad.Even if you know that this matter is not harmful to you in essence, you will still be negatively affected by it to some extent.I'm not an overly shy person, but I'm not an open person either, and I've never done that kind of thing before, but apparently I broke my record last night.It is conceivable that the impact has been great.My calm, uncontrollable shatters when I confront Tom.I have always thought that I am a sensible person, although occasionally a little crazy, but that is basically when I am alone, and talking to myself usually happens when I am alone, because I can’t do it well in front of others. vent yourself.But I vented it in front of Tom.Children are usually sensitive, but I’m not sure if Tom can detect my restlessness. The possibility is very low. The most important thing is that we only know each other, but it’s only because we know each other that we will notice my behavior. How abnormal it is, it just depends on whether he understands my normal appearance.If in the future, the two of us get acquainted with each other, then it is normal for him to find that I am abnormal, but now, no one knows, let alone wait until we really get acquainted, whether he can remember what is happening now or not? question.But that's beside the point, whether he's aware of it or not, he's temporarily accepting my hysteria.

When I think about it this way, I feel very abnormal.From the way he seldom smiles, basically frowning, pursing his lips and being able to wake up with the slightest movement, it seems that he is a very difficult person to get along with, or he is very guarded.It is possible for a deep-minded person to pretend to be innocent, but the opposite is easy to see through. It should be said that the pretending will not last long, and the nature will be exposed soon.Not so with Tom.And since Tom was born in an orphanage, it's only natural that he be on guard.But because of this, his concession seemed even more incredible.But he is just a child, no matter how he is, it is impossible to say where the darkness is. He has been a mess since he was a child. I think he is like the enemy beater in the hunter, Meteor Street, or a big family in reality. It's easier to cultivate.Orphanages, as far as I feel, are more likely to be withdrawn, distrustful, violent, and a little cunning.Well, Tom is a little crafty.But he was indeed asleep. On this point, I don't believe he needs to pretend, because I will spend almost every night with him in the future. From the time during the day, it seems that the children in their orphanage have something to do Yes, then if he always pretends at night, it won't be long before something happens.So this may be ruled out.

So why?his concession.Because of food?a possibility.But I always feel that this reason alone is not enough.I haven't heard that one person gives another person benefits, and the other person trusts the other person wholeheartedly.And it is undeniable that although I didn't sympathize with him at first, when I learned about the orphanage, I did mix in sympathy in my subsequent communication.I'm very sorry for this, but I can't change this point of view all at once.Especially on the point of providing him with food. I give him food when the resources of the orphanage are scarce. Can you deny that I sympathize with him?He got angry, but quickly forgave me.Or is it because he is broad-minded?It always feels... not quite the same.

Or is it because no one can see me, so I feel special, so I am more tolerant of me, who only he can see?I always feel that even if this reason may be true, I have a bit of chills.

There is another reason that is very tender but quite unfounded. He is lonely and needs someone to accompany him... This reason is not impossible, but, tsk... This answer is something I would like to accept in my heart, but from someone It's too beautiful from this perspective, so I don't want to think about too many reasons.It's as good as developing a game.I have to admit that I like playing love games, although it is very vulgar.I have always found it very interesting to capture the person I am interested in, especially when I am not interested in three-dimensional characters, although that person is often a woman.Of course, there are many men who attack men.For example, Plum Dream Summer, the lavender and rosemary in it are the types I like.Although I started with rosemary, Kawaii's Zhengtai is always cute, but then I found out that what I love is actually lavender!How arrogant, especially when he blushed... I was defeated by him!Look at Tom, what a proud kid, don't you feel excited!So being able to gain Tom's trust is also quite a fulfilling thing.However, after all, getting along between people is not a game, even if they are somewhat similar, they are not the same, the former is much more difficult.

Although many novels are saved, conquered and loved because of a little thing, but in reality, if no one knows the truth, we don’t have mind reading skills, and there is no game panel to tell us how good the other party is to us. Sentiment, loyalty, trust, etc.How do I tell myself that Tom accepted me because he was lonely and lonely for such a beautiful reason...

If I could, I really wish I had Ma Cang's good spiritual vision ability, so that I could know what he was thinking in his heart, even though it was a bit opportunistic, but after thinking about it, I don't know why I am so annoyed.And I'm super curious.

However, this doubt completely disappeared when I went to Tom's side again.I don't know what's wrong with me, why I'm always suspicious of a kid, he's only 9 years old!

No matter how precocious he is, he's still a 9 year old and I'm 16!From this age, isn't it unnecessary and shameful for me to think like this?Although children are often naive and cruel, they are also naive, they are nothing!I don't need to wonder if Tom trusts me, and why.Especially when the question is based on the fact that I have nothing to lose anyway, can a child as young as Tom still hurt me?What the hell am I doing? It's like a person suffering from delusions of being persecuted!Reading too many dark novels is not for me to doubt people everywhere!

{Tom, sorry. }I sincerely apologize to him, even though he may not know why.

He turned his back to me and didn't speak.

{Why? } As I was looking at the moon and getting ready to go to sleep, he turned and faced me.

{all. }I smiled, {I'm sorry for bothering you all the time, for my sympathy for you, for losing my temper with you last night, and many, many reasons...all of them. }

He was a little surprised, but after a while, I saw a small cute smile.Although the corners of the mouth are only slightly raised, it is really cute.

I think he forgave?

{I do not accept. } When I thought so, he withdrew his smile and said with a straight face.This contrast left me speechless.

"Brat." Seeing Tom's self-sneaky smile after he finished speaking, he instantly understood that he was playing tricks on me, and couldn't help muttering.I'm sure he doesn't know the fact that I can see clearly even at night.After all, I carried a flashlight for the past few days.

{what are you saying?Are you not convinced? }

{No, I am very convinced.Go to bed, it's late.You can accept it when you want to accept it, anyway, I will talk about it first. }I stretched out an arm to hug him, and patted his back like coaxing a child.

He pouted, glared at me unwillingly, and finally closed his eyes in compromise.

I guess, maybe he wanted me to continue coaxing him, just like I made him angry before, but I saw through him and made him unable to continue, so he was arrogant.

I have to say, he is really cute, maybe this kind of time travel is not bad.

I still can't accept it easily, but I have to, so finding more good things to comfort myself is also a good way to help myself.

During the day I have everything a normal person has, but at night I am different.

I face the moon and sincerely hope that Tom and I can get along well.Every night thereafter.

Because on these lonely nights, it's just Tom and me.

☆、Announcement

After many years, I am going to fill in the hole again. I only modified some sentences in the previous article, but did not modify the content. Then I changed a bug and changed Tom’s age to 9 years old.Due to the long time, the painting style will change from the next chapter, please forgive me.