Abandoned

"You... nonsense... How could I do it on purpose..." Lu Ningxue raised her voice and argued with a flushed face, but it always gave off a somewhat guilty feeling.

Xiao Jiuzheng looked at Lu Ningxue with the look of how could you deceive me, Lu Ningxue was so ashamed that her face was almost smoking.

"This is a good thing. After Su Qingchen knew what you did, she didn't expose you, and didn't embarrass you. I have to say that she is really considerate of you." Su Qingchen knew that Lu Ningxue was a womanizer After that, not only did he not alienate Lu Ningxue, but he also allowed Lu Ningxue to live in her room again to avoid suspicion. It can be seen that Su Qingchen definitely has feelings for Lu Ningxue, and Su Qingchen saw his performance just now.Xiao Jiuzheng was sure that Su Qingchen definitely had feelings for Lu Ningxue, and it was the kind of relationship that Lu Ningxue wanted. It was just a relationship that had been with her day and night for more than ten years, and it had deteriorated unconsciously. It was difficult for Su Qingchen to find out.Unless there is some opportunity, such as when you lose it, it's like when you loved Chia Ya at the beginning, but you didn't know it until Chia Ya died, and you didn't realize your feelings.

"Elder Sister has always been very kind to me, she is such a kind person." When Lu Ningxue talked about Su Qingshen, she couldn't hide the love in her eyes, and her mood was joyful and sad at the same time.

"Just say, do you want her? Do you want her to reciprocate your affection?" Xiao Jiuzheng asked. With Lu Ningxue's personality, she and Su Qingchen could only continue to waste their lives like this.

"Of course!" Is there any need to ask?She was even dreaming.

"Then listen to what I tell you and do it, and I'm sure you'll embrace the beauty." Xiao Jiuzheng thought, since she had already intervened in this matter, she would send the Buddha to the west.

"Really?" Lu Ningxue looked at Xiao Jiuzheng suspiciously, always feeling that it would be so easy.

"Since you are so desperate, why not take a gamble?" Xiao Jiuzheng asked back.

Lu Ningxue thought of being kicked out of her room by the senior sister again, and thinking that she would never have the chance to live in the room of the senior sister, Lu Ningxue also decided to go all out and take a gamble.

Su Qingshen restrained the desire to knock on the door. Xiao Jiuzheng had already been in for two full hours. These two hours made Su Qingshen feel that it had never been so long.No matter how calm Su Qingchen was, she couldn't hold her breath anymore. She couldn't care if Xiao Jiuzheng was the Queen Mother. When she was about to knock on the door, she just raised her hand, and Xiao Jiuzheng came out of Lu Ningxue's room.Xiao Jiuzheng seemed to have just put on his clothes and was arranging them.

"It's time for lunch." Su Qingchen found an excuse to explain the reason for his appearance, glanced into the room, but saw Lu Ningxue was sitting by the bed, and her clothes were a little messy.Thinking of what might happen between Xiao Jiuzheng and Lu Ningxue, Su Qing felt gloomy, but facing Xiao Jiuzheng, he couldn't get angry.

"I don't stay in front of the table to eat. It just so happens that I want to discuss something with the elder sister." Xiao Jiuzheng said to Su Qingchen with a happy face.

"What's the matter?" Su Qingchen used to have a good impression of Xiao Jiuzheng, but now he only feels disgusted when he looks at Xiao Jiuzheng, and only hopes that this person will never appear in Qingfeng Guan.

"It's like this. I'm going back to Beijing after a while. Ningxue has a great talent for painting, she has a simple temperament and is very flattering, so I want Ningxue to follow me back to the palace." Xiao Jiuzheng said, and carefully observed Su Qingchen's behavior Su Qingchen's expression darkened, obviously unwilling.

"Ningxue's temperament is pure and unworldly, like a child just born, she needs someone to take care of her all the time, I'm afraid it will be difficult for her to survive in the palace." Su Qingshen refused instinctively, no matter whether there is an affair between Lu Ningxue and Xiao Jiuzheng , she was unwilling to let Lu Ningxue leave with Xiao Jiuzheng.Xiao Jiuzheng can treat Lu Ningxue wholeheartedly, but Xiao Jiuzheng has an affair with Dugu Qianya, and Dugu Qianya is so jealous, how can Lu Ningxue handle it.Besides, today Xiao Jiuzheng is half-hearted, and when he returns to the palace, he might hug him even more. Now Xiao Jiuzheng is probably just a novelty to Lu Ningxue.How could she just watch Lu Ningxue jump into the fire pit!

"I know me, don't worry, I will definitely protect her for the rest of her life, and let her talents be fully displayed. It's a pity that she is buried here." Xiao Jiuzheng promised.

"Empress Dowager, you take care of everything every day. How can a little painter deserve your painstaking efforts?" Although Xiao Jiuzheng promised so much, Su Qingchen still felt uneasy, and she wouldn't be at ease even if she didn't take care of it herself.

"Ningxue is just a little painter now, as long as I go back to the palace, I will be famous all over the world. Daoist Su underestimated Ningxue's talent. My majestic queen mother, I promise you that I will take good care of her, Daoist Su. Don't worry." Xiao Jiuzheng said again.

"Ningxue has a pure personality and does not compete with the world. I think it would be better for her to stay in Qingfengguan. If the queen mother cherishes Lu Ningxue's talent, I will definitely send her paintings to the capital." Su Qingchen refused again. .

Su Qing's serious refusal made Xiao Jiuzheng frown slightly.

"I heard that Daoist Su and Ningxue have been sleeping together every night for more than ten years. Daoist Su refused repeatedly. Could it be that he has his own selfish motives and is not willing to let Lu Ningxue leave with me?" If so, if a gentleman does not take what others like, I will not take it by force." Xiao Jiuzheng looked at Su Qingchen suspiciously and said.

Su Qing clearly heard Xiao Jiuzheng's words, his face turned red and then pale, and he felt a guilty conscience inexplicably, but he also felt that it was absurd, so why should he be guilty.

"Ningxue and I have known each other for more than ten years. We are like sisters. I will consider some bad factors for her. Since the empress promised to protect her for the rest of her life, it is naturally a good thing for her to show her talents. As for whether Ningxue wants to Entering the palace depends on her own will." Su Qingchen did not admit that she had selfish motives.

"Since Daoist Su said so, I am relieved. I have already told Ningxue about this matter, but Ningxue has not given me an answer yet. She said that she needs to think about it. I will give her three days to think about it. These three days God, please trouble Daoist Su to persuade Ningxue for me." Xiao Jiuzheng said entrusted.

"Of course I will persuade the Queen Mother." Su Qingchen replied very reluctantly.

"Very good." Xiao Jiuzheng said with a smile.

After Xiao Jiuzheng left, Su Qing's complexion suddenly became gloomy, and he pushed the door and entered Lu Ningxue's room.

Although Lu Ningxue decided to take a gamble and do what Xiao Jiuzheng said, she still felt uneasy as she had never deceived the senior sister, especially when she saw the ugly face of the senior sister, she felt a little uneasy and flustered.But in Su Qingchen's eyes, her uneasiness and panic were understood as her uneasiness of being caught and raped on the bed, especially when Su Qingchen saw the red marks on Lu Ningxue's neck that Xiao Jiuzheng pinched just now, and the messy bedding on the bed , Lu Ningxue looked disheveled, she just felt a fire burning in her heart.Of course Su Qingchen didn't think it was jealousy at the moment, but felt that it was her anger at Lu Ningxue for not loving herself.

Lu Ningxue also noticed that the elder sister's eyes fell on her neck and the bed. Thinking of what the elder sister might associate with it, and then remembering the fact that she was known by the elder sister, her face suddenly turned a little red.

Lu Ningxue's blushing was understood by Su Qingchen as that she was ashamed of the affair between herself and Xiao Jiuzheng, which made Su Qingchen feel angry and angry.

"You don't love yourself so much, as long as you're a woman, can you do anything?" Su Qingchen asked indiscriminately under the burning of jealousy.

Lu Ningxue's face turned pale when she heard Su Qingchen's hurtful questioning, and then looked at Su Qingchen with tears in her eyes.The elder sister never said such hurtful words, could it be that Xiao Jiuzheng said, is she jealous?Lu Ningxue was hurt by Su Qingchen's words, but she felt a little more hope in the pain.

Su Qing looked at Lu Ningxue like this, and realized that his words were a bit harsh, so his face softened slightly.

"She is not an ordinary person, and her identity and background are very complicated. You can't handle it. And the most important thing is that she can't treat you wholeheartedly. Why can't you figure it out?" Su Qingchen said helplessly.

"So what if she can't treat me wholeheartedly? Anyway, I can't treat her wholeheartedly. The person I admire will never accept me, so what can I do?" Lu Ningxue looked at Su Qingchen with a sad face and asked back.

When Su Qingchen was asked back by Lu Ningxue, he was immediately speechless, not knowing how to answer.

"Then you can't be so self-willed and depraved!" After a while, Su Qingchen felt that he still couldn't let Lu Ningxue be like this.

"She gave me some tenderness and comfort. She can pity me, love me, and understand me. I never ask for much, so what's wrong?" Lu Ningxue asked with a broken can, you must know these things Xiao Jiuzheng taught her the words, and when she said these words, she didn't know what to say.

"So, do you want to go with her?" Su Qingchen felt very uncomfortable hearing Lu Ningxue's words, but she knew that what Lu Ningxue asked for was really something she couldn't give, and maybe she should let her go.

"I don't want to part with Senior Sister, but as long as I stay in Qingfeng for a day, I will not be able to restrain my love and desire for Senior Sister. I have been suppressing it hard all the time. I long for Senior Sister all the time, even in the dead of night. I can't restrain the desire to get close to the elder sister, want to kiss the elder sister, want to touch the elder sister, want to have a blind date with the elder sister. I know that the elder sister is devoted to Taoism, but I am just an ordinary person, an ordinary ordinary person , It’s just unavoidable emotions and desires. I didn’t dare to say these things to the senior sister before, and I didn’t dare to let the senior sister know at all, for fear that the senior sister would dislike me. Now, don’t worry, tell the senior sister everything in my heart, maybe in the future Even if Senior Sister despises me, she doesn't have to look at me anymore..." Xiao Jiuzheng taught the first half of Lu Ningxue's words, but these words are all from her heart, and she couldn't help but say Say more things that come to your mind.The more he talked, the more emotional he became, his eyes turned red, and he talked about all his hidden lovesickness through the introduction of parting.

Su Qing listened to Lu Ningxue's words, she silently retreated from Lu Ningxue's room, she knew that Lu Ningxue was in pain now, maybe she left here just to get relief, but she was worried about letting Lu Ningxue leave with Xiao Jiuzheng, always worried that Xiao Jiuzheng would not He will take care of her as carefully as he does, and maybe he also has some reluctance, after all, they have been together day and night for more than ten years, but can he afford the emotions and desires that Lu Ningxue wants?Su Qing wondered what she should do, she just felt that her heart was very chaotic.

Lu Ningxue watched Su Qingchen leave silently, she knelt down on the ground, choked up and began to cry, she felt that maybe leaving here was really the right choice, before that, she never thought of leaving the elder sister.She thought it was enough for her to guard the elder sister silently, but she knew that, as she said just now, as long as she stayed in Qingfeng Temple, she would have extravagant hopes and longing for the elder sister all the time, which was beyond her control. live things.She didn't want to be a burden to the elder sister because of her selfishness, and when she thought about leaving here, Lu Ningxue, who was just choked up, burst into tears, her crying sounded so helpless and desperate.

Su Qingchen, who hadn't gone far outside the house, heard Lu Ningxue's cry, her eyes were a little red for some reason, she didn't expect that she would feel so distressed for Lu Ningxue.

These three days were so difficult for both Lu Ningxue and Su Qingchen. For these three days and three nights, the two of them hardly closed their eyes.We met during the day and didn't have much to say, but Su Qingchen couldn't turn a blind eye to the despair and pain in Lu Ningxue's eyes.

These three days were said to be long, very long, and short, but also very short, the closer to the third day, Su Qingchen became more anxious, and even worried about gains and losses.Even the female champions in the Taoist temple felt that Su Qingchen's mood was very strange.

"What's wrong with Senior Sister and Lu Ningxue?" The women's crowns in the Taoist temple were discussing in private. In fact, in their eyes, Senior Sister and Lu Ningxue were already a couple.After all, they have lived together for more than ten years, and the senior sisters usually protect Lu Ningxue, it's nothing, they don't believe anything they say.However, most of the women who are crowned in the Taoist temple are hard-working people, and they are tolerant of the love and mutual affection between women and girls.Moreover, these years, they are all people who have received Su Qing's deep kindness.

"It's probably a quarrel. The lady surnamed Xiao obviously has a crush on Lu Ningxue. This Lu Ningxue has no conscience, and she doesn't care about the elder sister. Even if that woman looks better than the elder sister, she has the right to look at her." Those who are powerful can't be so half-hearted..." Another female crown said.

"Elder Sister is too pampering Lu Ningxue, if you want me, how can you allow Lu Ningxue to be alone in a room with other women..."

"I don't think Ningxue is such a person, there must be some misunderstanding..."

When Su Qingchen heard these discussions, she had mixed feelings in her heart. She thought that she and Lu Ningxue were innocent, but unexpectedly, in the eyes of her junior sisters, she and Lu Ningxue were not innocent long ago.She has always believed that the innocent are self-clearing, but at this time, Su Qingchen is not so sure, can she really be completely innocent to Lu Ningxue?Otherwise, in the past three days, when she thought that Lu Ningxue would leave with Xiao Jiuzheng, she would feel so uncomfortable.She thought it was just her reluctance to give up on Lu Ningxue's love for more than ten years.

Su Qingchen's heart was tangled and messy, but before she could sort out her feelings for Lu Ningxue, Xiao Jiucheng came.

Seeing that Su Qingchen and Lu Ningxue were both extremely haggard, Xiao Jiucheng knew that the two of them were struggling and suffering.

Xiao Jiuzheng entered Lu Ningxue's room, only to see Lu Ningxue shrouded in shadow.

"I lost the bet..." When Lu Ningxue said these three words, tears rolled down again.

"Then do you want to come with me? My family has a great career, and it's okay to have a lot of idlers." Xiao Jiuzheng said, she didn't think that Lu Ningxue had lost, but she was put to death to survive. After she really took Lu Ningxue away, maybe Su Qingshen Only then will she feel that she has truly lost Lu Ningxue.If it was really taken away, Su Qingchen didn't say anything, then there is really no point in staying with Lu Ningxue, and she will only feel more sad.

"Okay, I'll go with you." Lu Ningxue nodded and said, she was grateful to Xiao Jiuzheng for taking her in, but her heart was more painful.

"Clean up a little bit and come with me." Xiao Jiucheng saw that Lu Ningxue was really pitiful. At this time, she could understand Lu Ningxue's state of mind. She had experienced such despair herself, so her attitude softened a lot, and she couldn't bear to add insult to injury.

Xiao Jiuzheng didn't stay for too long this time, so he brought Lu Ningxue out together.Su Qingshen was in the backyard of Qingfeng Temple, seeing Xiao Jiuzheng holding Lu Ningxue's hand and coming out together made her heart skip a beat. Lu Ningxue was carrying a burden on her back, and her red eyes hurt her even more. She knew that Lu Ningxue had decided to be with her. Xiao Jiuzheng went together.Su Qingchen only felt that his heart was as heavy as a huge boulder on his heart, dull and uncomfortable.From Lu Ningxue's red eyes, she knew that Lu Ningxue didn't want to leave, she wanted to tell Lu Ningxue that if she didn't want to leave, then don't leave, but she couldn't say anything, she knew that if she left Lu Ningxue, she would respond to what Lu Ningxue wanted everything.

"Say goodbye to Daoist Su, I'll wait for you outside." Xiao Jiuzheng let go of Lu Ningxue's hand, thoughtfully leaving Lu Ningxue and Su Qingchen alone, and went to wait outside the Taoist temple first.

"Elder Sister, I'm leaving." Lu Ningxue said to Su Qingchen with a forced smile, just looking at Su Qingchen, she couldn't help but shed tears again.

"Since you have made your decision, you can only wish it well." Su Qingchen also replied pretending to be relaxed.

"Thank you, big sister, then I'm leaving." Lu Ningxue quickly turned her head away, fearing that she would collapse emotionally.

Su Qing looked at Lu Ningxue trembling slightly, and felt extremely sore in his heart.

"Wait..." After Lu Ningxue took a few steps, Su Qingchen couldn't help shouting to Lu Ningxue.

When Lu Ningxue heard Su Qing's deep voice, she immediately raised a trace of expectation.

"If you don't have a good time outside, you can come back at any time. You are always welcome at Qingfeng Temple." Su Qingshen swallowed the words he wanted to keep Lu Ningxue in his throat, and changed another sentence.

The greater the hope, the greater the disappointment, Lu Ningxue immediately burst into tears.

"En." Lu Ningxue responded, and quickly walked out of Qingfeng Temple.

Su Qingchen looked at the back of Lu Ningxue leaving, feeling as if something had hollowed out his heart little by little, and unconsciously followed Lu Ningxue's footsteps to the gate of Qingfengguan, and then watched helplessly, Lu Ningxue took one step at a time She walked towards Xiao Jiuzheng, walked towards the sedan chair that Xiao Jiuzheng came to pick her up, and then watched Lu Ningxue sit on the sedan chair and watch the sedan chair leave. That scene made Su Qing feel as uncomfortable as a knife.

Until the sedan chair gradually disappeared from Su Qingchen's sight, Su Qingchen suddenly felt panic and fear. She realized that she would really lose Lu Ningxue.Thinking of Lu Ningxue's silent kindness to him over the past ten years, Su Qingshen suddenly realized that his feelings for Lu Ningxue were more than just sisterhood accumulated over ten years, otherwise why would he be so uncomfortable.She had already fallen in love with Lu Ningxue, but she didn't know it, otherwise she wouldn't have indulged Lu Ningxue's feelings for her again and again. Thinking of this, Su Qingchen couldn't care less about anything else, and hurriedly chased him down the mountain.

In the sedan chair, Xiao Jiuzheng saw that Su Qingchen did not chase after him, and then saw Lu Ningxue, who was crying into tears, and felt a little unbearable. Thinking of himself and Chia Ya, he thought, not everyone in this world can be as lucky as himself, so he thought about it It would be better for Chia to go back.However, she has always been very kind to Chia Ya, and now she can't wait to give her heart to Chia Ya.

"If you don't want to, go back? No matter how bad it is, you can stay by her side." Xiao Jiuzheng said, Lu Ningxue would not be happy even if she left with her. No one will come into her eyes again.It's better to see her than not to see her. The most desperate thing is not to see her.

Lu Ningxue stopped crying when she heard the words, she knew that she just wanted to go back, she just wanted to stay with Senior Sister, even if she would upset Senior Sister, she still wanted to go back, she was not that great.

"I want to go back, I want to stay by her side." Lu Ningxue cried.

"Then go back." Xiao Jiuzheng was not surprised by Lu Ningxue's choice. After all, he had made such a choice back then. He would rather be a concubine than be hated by her, and stay by her side.

Lu Ningxue knelt down towards Xiao Jiuzheng, kowtowed three times, and got out of the sedan chair.

At this time, Su Qingchen also chased up from behind, and her hair was messed up. It was Lu Ningxue who had never seen such a embarrassed senior sister. Lu Ningxue didn't dare to hold out too much hope. The memory was still fresh, and she thought that maybe the big sister still had something to say, and she was looking for some excuse to say why she didn't leave.

Su Qing looked at Lu Ningxue who came down, walked over directly, and hugged Lu Ningxue.

Lu Ningxue let Su Qing hug her in a daze, her eyes widened in disbelief.

"If you want to be an ordinary person, I'll follow you." Su Qingchen hugged Lu Ningxue tightly and said, feeling like she was lost and found again. After chasing her all the way, she thought that as long as Lu Ningxue was left behind, she could ignore those rules and regulations.

Lu Ningxue couldn't believe what she heard, her tears were like broken pearls, but this time she was crying with joy.

Xiao Jiuzheng looked at Su Qingchen and Lu Ningxue who were hugging each other, and couldn't help but smile a little, then put down the curtain and let the bearers in front continue to carry the sedan chair down the mountain.