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Chelan's bed is a double bed.

1.5 meters kind.

The bed is actually quite big, and it is more than enough for two boys to lie on it, and there is a gap in the middle so that they will not touch each other.

But Chen Yu's whole body was stiff, he didn't dare to move, he just lay there in a daze, very uncomfortable.

This was the first time he was lying in the same bed with someone.

You can hear other people's breathing in your ears, and you can touch another person's body temperature by putting your hands aside a little.

This feeling is a bit strange.

In fact, Chen Yu was also tired. Last night, he slept for three hours because of his busy schedule. When he was learning how to cook longevity noodles with Ji Juan in the morning, his eyelids were so sleepy that he drank a large cup of coffee to refresh himself.

Closing his eyes, trying to ignore Xie Lang beside him, Chen Yu adjusted his breathing and silently counted the sheep.

However, after counting for 5 minutes, I was still full of energy.

Chen Yu is not happy anymore, the bed is very comfortable, the pillows and quilt smell of warm sunshine, and he is also tired, but he just sleeps, no, sleeps!

Turning his face cautiously, he wanted to take a peek at Xie Lang.

If Xie Lang fell asleep, he would get up and find a book to read, since he couldn't fall asleep anyway.

Time should be used wisely!

But as soon as Chen Yu turned his head, Xie Lang opened his eyes, his eyes were clear, and there was no trace of falling asleep.

"Can't sleep?"

Xie Lang simply turned over and turned to lie on his side, facing Chen Yu.

Chen Yu nodded, "Yes."

"Because I'm here?"

Chen Yu thought about it and nodded.

Facing Xie Lang's eyes, he also asked: "Is it because of me that you didn't fall asleep?"

Xie Lang pulled down the quilt, "No."

Chen Yu stretched out one arm, and pressed the quilt under his armpit, "That's it?"

"Insomnia." Xie Lang said casually, "I often can't fall asleep. I'm obviously very sleepy, but I just can't fall asleep."

He smiled at Chen Yu, "So, it has nothing to do with you."

Talking with his neck twisted all the time was not particularly comfortable, and Chen Yu also turned over. In this way, they became face to face.

The curtains were not drawn, the sun outside was very strong, and the light came in from the floor-to-ceiling windows, making the whole room bright.

With such a face-to-face posture, we can clearly see the expressions on each other's faces, even if they are subtle, there is no reservation.

Chen Yu worried and asked: "Have you seen a doctor? Is it because of too much pressure?"

He also had it before. He was under too much psychological pressure and couldn't sleep all night. Afterwards, he was absorbed in doing papers and gradually recovered.

After a pause, the voice lowered, "Still, your family..."

Xie Lang fixed his eyes on Chen Yu, skipped the next question, and only answered: "I have seen, I have taken the medicine."

He didn't eat it.

No need to eat.

Insomnia is very good, when I fall asleep, I will have nightmares over and over again.

And the feeling of extreme fatigue is actually very good, so that you can really fall asleep, and you won't fall into a nightmare and wake up from the dream.

Chen Yu hooked a small corner of the quilt with his little finger, and observed Xie Lang carefully. Xie Lang didn't directly answer the question just now, and his insomnia should be related to his family.

In the end why, Xie Lang will be alone in City X, and he has to earn his own living expenses.

Doesn't that many people know about Xie Lang like this, only a few insiders?Do everyone else think that Xie Lang has a super brain, a sunny and enthusiastic personality, and will definitely have a harmonious and beautiful family?

She opened her mouth to ask, but remembering the last physical education class, when Shen Jie mentioned Xie Lang's father, Xie Lang became like that, and dared not ask.

Family and father seem to be the bottom line that Xie Lang can't touch.

With such a posture, Xie Lang naturally collected all the changes in Chen Yu's expression. Seeing that Chen Yu hesitated to speak, he was so entangled that the word "Chuan" formed between his brows, and he took the initiative to say, "You want to ask me, why are you here alone?" In City X, you have to earn your own living expenses, don’t you?”

Chen Yu hesitated for a while, and said honestly, "Yes."

"Since you're curious, why don't you ask me?" Xie Lang spoke slowly, with a slight smile at the end, looking at Chen Yu intently, remembering, "Little fish, remember, you are special.

As long as you want to know, I will tell you. "

Hearing the phrase "special", Chen Yu's heart beat faster.

Ji Mingan told him last time that he was a special existence to Xie Lang, but he didn't verify it, so he didn't know whether it was true or not.

But now, Xie Lang told him personally.

particular.

is a special existence.

Chen Yu couldn't hide his joy, his smiling eyes bent into a beautiful crescent moon, and his heart was full of flowers.But he didn't get carried away, and directly asked those things that Xie Lang didn't want to mention.

He confirmed seriously and solemnly: "I really, can I ask you?"

"Well, yes."

Xie Lang looked at Chen Yu and smiled, his pupils shrouded in black mist was Chen Yu's reflection, "This is the privilege I give you alone."

"Then I asked." Chen Yu stretched out a finger, "Use it once first."

Xie Lang smiled, "As many times as you want."

Change your posture, put your elbows on the pillow, "By the way, let me tell you about the thing you were curious about just now."

"it is good."

Chen Yu stared at him, pricked up his ears, and listened carefully.

"Before I tell you," Xie Lang suddenly stretched out his hand to Chen Yu, "Xiaoyu, give me your hand."

"???"

Chen Yu didn't understand, so, "What are you going to do?"

However, after asking, without waiting for an answer, he obediently stretched out his hand first.

Trust wholeheartedly.

Xie Lang held it directly, and folded his five fingers together, wrapping it in his palm, "Slightly, give me a little courage."

After a while, "Let me think about where I should start."

Xie Lang's tone was light.

Chen Yu didn't think about it, but instinctively stretched out his other hand and placed it on the back of Xie Lang's hand, "Now it's two shares of courage!"

This old-fashioned community is still some distance away from the road, and this building is at the innermost part of the community, so you can hardly hear the engine sound of the cars on the road. Occasionally, there are a few cat meows from downstairs, adding a bit of laziness to the afternoon.

The sun shines through the glass, and the naked eye can see the floating dust floating in the air in the light, up and down.

Xie Lang finally said, "No one wants me."

"For my mother, I am a broom star, the lone star of the evil spirit, who will be unlucky if she encounters it, and will die if she touches it. She would rather not have given birth to me, but to my father, I am a tool person. Just perfect.

Perfect like a porcelain doll, placed there, being praised, being praised, his face is shining, that's what I should do.

He loves women's children the most, enjoys the best resources and the best education, but mud can't support the wall, so he needs me. "

With a hint of sarcasm at the corner of his mouth, Xie Lang suddenly smiled, "But I'm not that obedient, I just like to fight against him, step on his bottom line, touch his scales.

It is because of him that everyone is unhappy.

Later, I held a knife in the middle of the night and stood in front of his favorite woman, scaring her. My dad scolded me as a lunatic and was kicked out. "

Chen Yu was stunned for breathing, and his heart contracted suddenly.

It hurts badly.

Xie Lang closed his eyes, remembering those things that he wanted to forget no matter what.

He was afraid of falling asleep at one time, and the nightmare was always with him day and night. When he fell asleep, he would run out, and the nightmare continued.

After a while, the mother roared hysterically: "Why didn't you have the accident, and you weren't the one who died, I would rather not give birth to you—"

After a while, it turned into a woman's extremely vicious whisper: "Another accident happened to you, and the people who are with you will not end well—"

He fell into the abyss.

Nowhere to hide.

He couldn't breathe, life would have been better than death.

He cut his wrist with the sharpest knife, and the moment the blood flowed out, he suddenly felt relaxed, unprecedented.

It doesn't hurt, not at all.

He was even awake, clearly feeling the loss of body temperature, respiratory failure, and imminent death.

He smiled relaxed, waiting for relief.

Chen Yu moved, came to Xie Lang, hugged him gently, and only said firmly, "You are not crazy."

All comforting words paled.

He didn't know how to say it.

In the world, there has never been real empathy.

He can understand the original owner and resonate with the original owner because sharing memories with the original owner is equivalent to experiencing everything the original owner has experienced.

But he didn't really experience what Chelan experienced, and he couldn't feel the comfort of seeing what he saw and hearing what he heard.

He just felt, sad.

The heart felt as if it was being tightly grasped by one hand, and it hurt.

In Xie Lang's understatement, a lot of things were omitted, and the truth that can be restored by digging into Xie Lang's words one by one is already chilling all over the body.

What kind of determination did he have at the beginning to cut such a deep knife on his wrist?

And only one knife.

fatal.

Chen Yu hugged Xie Lang even tighter, believing that hugging can convey strength.

Xie Lang didn't speak again, but leaned against Chen Yu, feeling the warmth and silent comfort from Chen Yu.

At five o'clock in the evening, Chen Yu and Xie Lang got up from the bed.

One afternoon, none of them fell asleep.

In the living room, Ji Mingan was playing a game. Hearing the sound, he tilted his head, "Are you awake?"

After pressing the pause button, he said to Xie Lang: "I've done the translation for you. I've translated a third of it, and the rest is handed over to a top student in our school. He's really good. He can do it in two hours. I'll check it out. Yes, it's perfect."

Touched his chin, "However, he should ask his boyfriend to help."

Chen Yu asked: "How do you know?"

"Of course, they are inseparable every day. They even go to the bathroom together. Like conjoined twins, they share one room in the dormitory. When I was looking for Xueba, his boyfriend must be there." Ji Mingan looked at Chen Yu and smiled, "Say Come on, they are quite similar to you and Xie Lang. Fanatic CP fans call them "Double Bomb", you and Xie Lang also have the cp name, "Wang Zha", they are so similar, and you and Xie Lang are also sticking together every day ..."

Chen Yu didn't understand what CP fan was, what Wang Zha was.

"Wang Zha, what is that?"

"A type of card." Xie Lang returned with beer from the refrigerator, threw a can for Ji Mingan, and gave him a warning look.

Chen Yu hasn't turned his head around yet, the card type?Then why are he and Xie Lang called "Wang Bo"?

After taking a sip of warm water, Chen Yu remembered something and almost spit out the water, but he coughed non-stop.

Xie Lang raised his hand and patted him on the back.

"and many more--"

Chen Yu was surprised, "You said, they live in the same dormitory?"

Ji Mingan took out the cigarette and put it under his nose to smell it, "Ah, I forgot to mention, they are all boys."

Chen Yu's eyes widened in shock.

Xie Lang shook the beer and lowered his eyes, "You reject it?"

Chen Yu shook his head, "No, I'm just surprised."

He weighed his words and was very formal, "No matter who you like, whether you like a boy or a girl, this liking should be respected."

The corners of Xie Lang's mouth curled up, and his voice was gentle, "Xiaoyu's three views are very positive."

Ji Mingan also said, "Not bad."

Chen Yu lowered his head reluctantly, and tapped his toes on the ground.

Ji Mingan returned the standby computer to Xie Lang, "You can check it yourself, so as not to make a mistake and be deducted money."

After Xie Lang finished drinking, the empty can fell into the trash can with a parabola, and said, "Thank you."

"You're welcome, after all, today is your birthday."

Ji Mingan crossed his legs, propped his elbow on his left knee, and rested his chin, "Happy birthday, Xie Lang."

Sheilan glanced at him.

Ji Mingan smiled back and jumped off the sofa, "Help you have a birthday party tonight. I'm 18, so be more formal."

He looked at Chen Yu and invited, "Come together."

"I……"

Chen Yu was a little embarrassed.

Today is Saturday, and he has to go to work part-time.

He has already recorded his leave tomorrow, and if he asks for leave now temporarily, the restaurant will not be able to find a replacement, which is very bad.

Finally he said, "Sorry."

"What's your business?"

Xie Lang checked everything at a glance and found that nothing had been changed, so he kept it safe, turned off the power, turned to look at Chen Yu, and waited for his answer.

Chen Yu didn't hide it, "I have a part-time job."

Xie Lang asked, "What time does it end?"

"Nine o'clock."

Xie Lang made a final decision, "Then start at nine o'clock."

He smiled at Chen Yu, pressed his palm on his head, and rubbed his soft hair twice, "We'll wait for you."