Whoever wins the crouching dragon wins the world

No matter how painful it is, as long as you are reluctant to die, you have to go on living.

Kong Ming only returned to the thatched cottage for a few days before leaving for another cloud tour, but this time he did not bring tea with him as usual.At first I was still surprised, but soon I heard that he happened to meet Huang Yueying who was disguised as a man on the way, so I suddenly realized that it was natural for two people who met old friends in a foreign country to go together.

I no longer have the strength to delve into how many artificial elements are in this "encounter", because it became the last straw that crushed me.Stimulated by this news, I finally gritted my teeth and decided to give myself a good knife.Otherwise, I really can't guarantee that I will do something stupid when I hear about their marriage.

"You want to go?" Kong Ming seemed surprised, his brows were frowned, but his tone was as steady as ever.My heart throbbed unconsciously.I really failed completely, and he didn't even care if I went or stayed.

Moisture accumulated in his eyes, and he could no longer look at him, so he had to raise his head to hold back the tears that were ready to burst.Pretending to appreciate the "Humble Room Inscription" on the wall, I smiled with difficulty, the words I had thought up long ago stuck in my throat, and rolled back and forth on my vocal cords: "The town is recruiting wine girls, and the treatment is very generous. I want to earn some money by myself. ..."

At the beginning, Lai stayed at Zhuge's house to prevent Kong Ming from being deceived by Liu Bei. Now that the task has been completed, I have no reason to stay.But I made an appointment with my sister a few years ago to meet in Nanyang, so I can't go too far...

I can't help laughing at myself: I'm making excuses for myself again!Where is it that you can't go far? It's clear that you don't want to go far.Afraid to see his concubine's love, but also reluctant to run away and see nothing, so I can only find a tortoise shell to cover myself up, and use a childish and ridiculous way to hide my eyes, not far or near, pay attention to me want to follow Yes, block what I don't want to hear.

It's just self-deception.

"Although you and I are separated and reunited, but—" Kong Ming suddenly stopped, and the reckless footsteps holding ink came from far to near: "Sir, Mr. Huang is here to visit! Hey, Nanshuang, why are you crying?"

"Which eye of yours saw me cry? You're the one crying!" I gave Peng Mo a hard look, and I retorted faster than I could think, but even I could hear the intention in my tone.Peng Mo was suspicious, Kong Ming glanced at my reddish eyes, straightened his clothes, and looked at Peng Mo with a calm and prestige warning: "Nan Shuang, you go and prepare some wine and vegetables first, and the matter discussed just now will be left to Huang Huang." Let’s talk about it after you leave, Mr.

I had no choice but to nod indiscriminately, and the whole person was out of the situation.Floating into the kitchen in a trance, either almost broke the bowl, or passed the washed dishes through the water twice.Fortunately, Huang Chengyan didn't stay for dinner that day, otherwise he would be deeply puzzled by my sudden lack of standard cooking skills.

Kong Ming didn't seem to notice, and ordered me to see off the guests on his behalf as usual. When he walked to the door, Huang Chengyan asked me suddenly: "Nan Shuang, who are you?"

Can't help but startled.This question is too sensitive, even if I am in a state of fugue, I will be alert like a conditioned reflex.

Embarrassment unfolded in the air, Huang Chengyan knew he had made a mistake, but his eyes did not show weakness, and he stared straight at him.I vaguely felt that I had been provoked, and my jealousy towards Huang Yueying was also provoked, and I almost wanted to speak out to stop his aggressive exploration.

Huang Chengyan didn't give me this chance.He lowered his head before me, and lowered his body to the end: "Miss, don't blame me, it's the old man who is being rude."

This is too flattering for me.I was clearly just a servant girl, but he called me Miss.A girl can't afford a big gift from a celebrity.

"I'm not a young lady—" I opened my mouth to argue, but Huang Chengyan stroked his beard and waved his hands: "This old man has lived for more than fifty years, so I still have this insight. Miss Nanshuang doesn't behave like a maidservant, The speech is also very different from ordinary people, and Kong Ming will never keep an ordinary woman by his side."

I am speechless.

Huang Chengyan let out a long sigh, ignored me, walked away slowly with his hands behind his back, and sang: "Marriage is destined, the world should not force it...".For some reason, I saw the word "frustrated" from his back.

What are you thinking, you don't have enough time to worry about your own affairs, how can you have time to worry about other people's frustrations and triumphs!

Turning back to the room, Kong Ming was indeed sitting upright in the hall, his eyes dark.The life experience I told him when we first met was obviously nonsense, and he never believed it from the beginning to the end.I once thought about telling the truth, but hesitated, and finally failed to find a suitable opportunity.Now that he has made up his mind to go, there is no need to confess—since the future will be indefinite, why bother to let him know that the "Nan Shuang" who has been facing him day and night for the past three years is just a deliberately fabricated dream, an identity that must not be seen. ?

Anyway, in my future, there will be no more participation from him.

I didn't give Kong Ming a chance to speak, so I took the first step and said, "I have already agreed to the shopkeeper of the wine shop, and I will go to work in the future. Sir, you have taught me that people cannot be dishonest."

If a wise man like Kong Ming really wants to keep someone, he will always find millions of excuses.But he didn't say anything in the end, just sighed, and with a light wave of his hand, he cut off all the ties between me and him.

After all, don't you care?

I wiped my tears while unpacking my luggage, but unfortunately there was nothing I could take with me except my underwear, so my tears still gushed out like a river breaking its embankment after unpacking, and I couldn't stop it no matter what.I became more and more aggrieved, so I simply threw away the package, let myself lie on the bedside and cried hard, threw the farewell letter on the desk, and sneaked out of the thatched cottage that night in a hurry to report to the wine shop early.

After holding ink and serving tea, they blamed me countless times for leaving without saying goodbye.But how did they know that I was really afraid of being seen by Kong Ming in a panic.As a tortoise, one should have the consciousness of a tortoise. It is already wrong to want to eat swan meat. If you still face the swan and feel sorry for yourself, you should be struck by thunder.

"When I met you, I became very low, very low, all the way down to the dust." I was not a person with low self-esteem, but love drained my courage, made me worry about gains and losses, and became submissive and neurotic.

Only by leaving Kong Ming can I find my lost self.

There is also no fate.The wine shop is only a few miles away from the thatched cottage, but I sell wine on the street, have met Zhuge Jun, Lin Yuejie, even Shui Jing, Cui Zhouping, Huang Chengyan, but I have never met Kong Ming.On the contrary, when the drinkers learned that I had worked in Mr. Wolong's house, they always liked to coax me to tell some deeds as an appetizer. From time to time, they would chat a few words about his recent situation to relieve my lovesickness.

Whenever this time, my mood is very contradictory.On the one hand, I hope they can tell the story in more detail. I am happy because he has won the praise of everyone, and I am angry at the irresponsible slander of others.On the other hand, I also know that I am drinking dove to quench my thirst-Kong Ming is like poison, I am already sick to the bottom of my heart, and there is no cure for medicine or stone.