Can I skip class?

Su Heng's home is also in the local area. He took a taxi to the municipal hospital, and saw Yang Zhi alone on the bench at the door of the emergency room.

Yang Zhi's dress has not changed from three years ago, she still has the style of a strong woman who is at the forefront of fashion trends, but at this moment, she is shrouded in despair and looks much older.

Su Heng's mood was very complicated for a while when the strong mother in his memory overlapped and separated from the dazed woman in front of him.

He walked over, a few short steps, but unexpectedly heavy.

Yang Zhi looked at him, her eye circles were already red.

Su Heng asked, "Mom, what's going on?"

Yang Zhi's voice was hoarse: "A car accident."

Su Heng's mind went blank.

"Su Heng." Yang Zhi raised her hand and covered her eyes, "Your father..."

"It's okay, Mom, don't worry about it."

Su Heng rummaged through all the vocabulary in vain, trying his best to speak words of comfort, but suddenly found that the words were so pale and powerless in the face of the restless and anxious heart.

He had no choice but to gently take Yang Zhi's hand, and be silent with her.

The waiting time was extremely tormented. In a trance, Su Heng imagined countless kinds of words that the doctor would say when he walked out of the emergency room. , he even thought it was an illusion.

The doctor came out and took off his mask wearily.

Yang Zhi raised her head, but before she could stand up, the doctor made a comforting gesture.The doctor was aware of the family's anxiety, so he cut to the chase and said, "Are you Su Hongshan's family? The patient has been rescued and returned, and he can visit him when he is transferred to the inpatient department."

Yang Zhi was stunned for a moment, then nodded in a daze, as if she hadn't recovered yet.

The doctor left, Su Heng patted Yang Zhi on the back: "It's okay, Mom."

Yang Zhi leaned back in the chair, let out a silent breath, her face was full of tiredness.

Su Heng waited with Yang Zhi until Su Hongshan was transferred to the inpatient department, and did not leave temporarily to buy food for Yang Zhi until he saw Su Hongshan sleeping peacefully with his own eyes.

When leaving, Su Heng still felt a little unreal.

Unexpectedly, three years later, he would meet Su Hongshan and Yang Zhi again in this way.In fact, no matter how unfeeling and indifferent, in the face of life and death, it seems like an insignificant joke. The categorical severance of the relationship back then, now it seems that it is too serious to be too childish.

Thinking this way, Su Heng walked into the convenience store, and was called out behind him when he was paying the bill. When he looked back, it turned out to be Fan Ruyi's father.

"Teacher Su..." Father Fan was obviously taken aback.

Su Heng nodded and greeted him.

The two of them went back to the inpatient department on the way, only then did Su Heng realize that the reason why Fan's father was in the hospital was not because of someone else, but because of Fan Ruyi.

Su Heng was puzzled: "What happened to him?"

"Appendicitis." Fan's father's tone was very helpless, "I don't usually pay attention to eating habits, but it always hurts before, and I don't know how to care."

Su Heng sighed: "It's nothing serious."

After Fan's father heard that Su Heng's father was in a car accident and was hospitalized, he expressed great concern. He bought fruit and wanted to accompany Su Heng to see it, but Su Heng couldn't resist him, so he had to take him with him.

Su Hongshan was still asleep, Yang Zhi sat by the bed, and when she saw a handsome middle-aged man behind Su Heng, her expression changed.

Su Heng: "..."

Su Heng was speechless, and explained: "The father of our classmate."

Yang Zhi's expression still didn't ease, obviously she didn't understand why the classmate's father came to visit the teacher's father in person.

Su Heng said with a sullen face, "Mom."

Only then did Yang Zhi realize that she hurriedly asked Father Fan to sit down.

Fan's father was very talkative, he explained the reason why he came here in a few words, and expressed appropriate concern, Yang Zhi gradually let go of his guard.

The age difference between the two is not very big, and they are both entrepreneurs who have been in the business world for many years, so they chat very speculatively.Su Heng sat on the side, feeling like a high school student who couldn't talk.

After sending Fan's father away, Su Heng asked about Fan Ruyi's ward, intending to visit it as a matter of courtesy.

After eating, Yang Zhi tidied up her appearance a little bit, but she became much more energetic.Su Hongshan was out of danger, Yang Zhi's mentality calmed down, and her expression and temperament returned to their previous appearance. She looked at Su Heng who had sent Fan's father back, and asked him: "Su Heng, how many years have passed? How are you doing?"

Su Heng sat on the other side of the hospital bed and replied, "It's fine, how about you?"

"Still the same." Yang Zhi paused, observed Su Heng's expression, and asked him tactfully, "Have you... been in a relationship for a few years?"

Su Heng shook his head honestly.

Yang Zhi said slowly: "Recently, your father met a new doctor, who said the effect is not bad, do you want to—"

"It's not a disease." Su Heng's tone was firm and weak, "Same-sex marriage is even legal in other countries. Mom, it's not that you have no information, why can't you find out more about it?"

"Do you know that I didn't find out?" Yang Zhi glanced at him, and her tone, which was very relaxed just now, gradually became aggressive, "I have asked many people in the past three years, and many of the acquired homosexuality can be obtained through contact with the opposite sex. , gradually changed, besides, I never said it was a disease at all, the doctor I said was a psychiatrist, how could it be regarded as a disease if you talk to a psychiatrist?"

Su Heng sighed, and said slowly: "There are many things that can be changed, and many things that cannot be changed. I belong to the latter."

Yang Zhi asked back, "How do you know if you haven't tried it?"

Su Heng said: "I don't need to try. I know my own sexual orientation better than anyone else. I don't want to deceive my feelings, and I don't want to disgust myself."

"Disgusting?" Yang Zhi snorted coldly in disbelief, and said to Su Heng in disappointment, "Su Heng, do you know? You are the real block, you are unwilling to accept changes, and you are unwilling to accept any turning point." , what you gave up is nothing else, not my hope and that of your father, but yourself."

Su Heng inherited his mother's flair talent to a large extent, but he didn't learn her essence. Facing Yang Zhi's attack with life philosophy in terms of language, Su Heng didn't know how to refute, so he could only ask angrily: " What am I giving up?"

Perhaps because of the many years of devious debates in the mall, Yang Zhi was often unhappy. She replied calmly: "I didn't listen to your father and me and learned Chinese. Is it good to be a Chinese teacher? Can I still support myself? For the rest of my life. Do you just want to rent a house and live like this? When you are middle-aged or old, will you really not regret it?"

Su Heng stood up and smiled instead of anger: "Of course it's good. Of course I can support myself. I don't need to be locked up at home as a mental illness, and I don't need to be pressed for medical treatment. I live a good life. I'm really tired of you guys." This self-righteous look has been like this since I was a child, and I have never considered it for me from my point of view. For three years, you have refused to make a little change or give in for me? You just want to see my jokes, right? , Wait until I can’t live anymore, go back and beg you and my dad, cry and say I’m wrong, I shouldn’t like men, I should listen to you, right?”

Yang Zhi asked rhetorically, "Su Heng, do you have persecution paranoia? Why do you regard us as enemies? You said we don't know how to put ourselves in another place, why don't you? You don't feel very uncomfortable when you say this. Is it chilling?"

Su Heng got up and left without saying a word, and slammed the door heavily.

Yang Zhi looked at the direction he was leaving, and closed her eyes wearily.

Su Heng felt that he should buy a pack of cigarettes at this time, but considering that he didn't know how to smoke, he had no choice but to buy a lollipop to hold in his mouth.

He sat on the steps of the hospital door, crunching the candy.

He didn't want to quarrel today, but for some reason, he messed up everything.In fact, thinking about it, the worst result is just to continue to grow old and die without contact with each other. I am used to this kind of life, so it is really no big deal.It's just that he also had fantasies about the best results. He thought that after three years, his parents would accept his sexual orientation, but the reality still gave him a slap in the face.

In fact, I should have thought about how difficult it is to make strong and stubborn parents back down.They are so busy trying to make money every day that they don't expect their son to be so heartbroken. Perhaps, like Su Heng, there is one more person and one less in life, and the days continue without harm.

Su Heng leaned back, feeling physically and mentally exhausted.

The phone rang, Su Heng took it out and took a look, the message came from Qin Wei.

Qin Wei: "All the class teachers, please issue a notice about the sports meeting in mid-October as soon as possible, so that all the students in each class will be prepared. Auditions will be held after the school starts."

Su Heng: "..."

Qin Wei: "What's wrong?"

Su Heng: "It's okay."

Qin Wei: "Yes."

Su Heng stared at the screen for a long time, and suddenly wanted to chat with Qin Wei.

When I'm depressed, I always want to find someone to explain it to, and Qin Wei happens to be very good at comforting people, so he is indeed a good candidate.

Su Heng tried to type some words, but felt that it was inappropriate. He deleted, deleted, and edited many times, and finally deleted them all, and closed WeChat.

Forget it, I can't say it.

The phone screen lit up again.

Qin Wei: "Su Heng, what are you doing?"

Su Heng was taken aback, and after a while, he replied, "I'm looking at the moon."

Qin Wei: "Then you are quite boring."

Su Heng: "..."

Qin Wei: "Guess what I'm doing?"

Su Heng reluctantly praised him: "What are you doing?"

Qin Wei: "I'm also looking at the moon."

Su Heng's black line: "...you are not sick, are you?"

Qin Wei: "So I'm also quite boring, want to chat?"

Many times, Su Heng really felt that Qin Wei would guess his mind, he could always follow Su Heng's unspoken intentions, and gently help him open up topics that he didn't know how to start.

The corner of Su Heng's mouth raised an inconspicuous arc inexplicably, and then slowly sank. He asked, "How is your relationship with your parents?"

Qin Wei: "Not bad, how about you?"

Su Heng: "Not too good, I had a quarrel just now."

Qin Wei: "Why?"

Su Heng: "Because the ideas are different, we can't understand each other."

Qin Wei: "Didn't you try to communicate more?"

Su Heng: "I tried it, but it didn't work. This seems to be a matter of principle for them, and they will never give in."

Qin Wei: "What about you? Didn't you think about taking a step back?"

Su Heng: "Qin Wei, I like men."

Su Heng didn't know what he was thinking when he typed this sentence.It's like a sudden impulse with blood in the head, telling a deeply buried secret to someone you trust without thinking, and it's like a vague plan for a long time.

Su Heng suddenly panicked.

He heard the rapid beating of his heart like drums on his eardrums, roaring so loud that it almost swallowed his consciousness.At this moment, he thought of countless results, whether he was disgusted and kept away, or something else, but he didn't seem to be ready yet.

She is not ready to lose Qin Wei as a friend.

Su Heng's fingertips paused, and then quickly pressed back as if remedial.