light adaptation

Tong Zhi met Bi Qiannian when she was in the fifth grade.

He remembered clearly that it was winter vacation, and he was so bored that he went to play with Xu Yun and challenged the coldest configuration in Shuiyun City in a year.

"Hello Auntie!"

"Hello Ah Zhi, Xu Yun's friend is here today, can Ah Zhi invite him to play together?"

"Okay."

He excitedly ran to Xu Yun's bedroom, and when he opened the door, he saw a little boy lying on the table doing his homework, with long eyelashes casting shadows under the desk lamp, like two little butterflies lying on his face.

Xu Yun was reading comics on the bed, raised his eyes and scolded him in a cold voice, even though he was in the fifth grade, he didn't know how to enter a house without knocking.

The little boy who was doing his homework looked up at him and smiled slightly at him, revealing two shallow pear dimples, a pair of dark and round eyes, but he didn't dare to look at him, a little shy.

After being taught by Xu Yun for the first time, he didn't play tricks, scratched his head a little embarrassed, and was ashamed in front of his new friends.

He said, "Hi, my name is Tong Zhi, and I am Xu Yun's friend."

The boy with dimples on his face replied, "Hi, my name is Bi Qiannian, and I'm also Xu Yun's friend."

According to the principle of equivalent substitution in Tongzhi's heart, Tongzhi and Bi Qiannian have formed an equation that Tongzhi and Bi Qiannian are friends.

He was very happy that day, so happy that when he left Xu Yun's house, he insisted on holding hands with Bi Qiannian.Bi Qiannian was also very happy that day. He made a second good friend in the fifth grade, and he was also very good-looking.

It wasn't until he was in the sixth grade that he realized that something was wrong. He clinged to Bi Qiannian all winter and summer. During the day and night, he always wondered what Bi Qiannian was doing, and wanted to buy him some sweet ice cream. I also missed two dance classes, in order to accompany Bi Qiannian to complete the practical class in the botanical garden during the summer vacation.Then Ran Nanyan locked her up for a few days.

"What's wrong with you?" Ran Nanyan went home and looked at his drooping head. She felt that Tongzhi's trouble with demon moths was different from the past, and she didn't even go to dance class. She was really worried, "What's wrong? Mom said."

After thinking about it for two days, he finally understood why.

"Mom, I have someone I like."

"...Son, your puppy love is too early, right?" Ran Nanyan didn't know what to say, and she could only choke her sarcasm in her throat, "Who? The kindergarten doesn't lend you money." The one with the colored pen? Qingqing who tied your hair in the second grade? Or Xiao Yao who danced with you in the fourth grade?" After Ran Nanyan finished speaking, she felt that her son was justified early.

"No, Mom, this is different," Tong Zhi was a little frustrated, "I seem to like Qiannian."

"Qian Nian?" Ran Nanyan reacted for a moment, "Oh...he's been to our house a few times, he's quite a good boy... No, you like Qian Nian now?"

"What are you crazy about?" Ran Nanyan looked at him in disbelief, "Is there nothing wrong with you? Is it stupid for you to be confined for two days?"

Tong Zhi made an expression that you don't understand, and decided to ask Xu Yun, the bystanders knew, he wanted to ask Xu Yun if it was possible for Bi Qiannian to like him.

"Is there someone you like?" The way Xu Yun sat reading the comic book seemed to be the same as when he saw Bi Qiannian for the first time. The comic book was updated again. When did Bi Qiannian like me?He sighed.

"Ah."

"The one who braided your hair and took a photo... Qingqing?"

"No!" He was a little annoyed, "It's Bi Qiannian! I'm in love with him!"

Xu Yun finally put out the comic book and realized that this time it seemed to be serious, so he thought about it again, "Oh, good."

"Why are you doing this?" Tong Zhi felt that he had lost his head looking for Xu Yun, and maybe he would report to Bi Qiannian, then... that's pretty good, and he looked forward to it again, "Do you think he has any?" Maybe you like me?"

"Come on, I think Qingqing is more likely to like you." Xu Yun looked at him, "Really like him?"

Tong Zhi nodded, "It's just... I really want to buy him delicious food, and I want to be with him in everything, you know?"

Xu Yun nodded, "I know, I do the same."

"Really..." Tong Zhi was satisfied that someone understood him, and suddenly realized, "You like him too? No, he's mine."

Xu Yun rolled his eyes unreservedly, "It doesn't count, but I do want to treat Qian Nian better." He thought for a while, "I want to share more things with him, but I don't want to be with him all the time. He's together."

"Then do you like it?" Tong Zhi was puzzled again, "The last time I wanted to share this was with my sister. She wanted ice cream, so I gave her all mine."

He added resentfully, "Then I had diarrhea for a day, and I was scolded by my dad for a day."

"No, do you want to kiss him?" Xu Yun asked him, "Kiss the mouth kind. Sleep with him every day, start a family, and live together in the future." After thinking about it, "It seems a bit strange for two boys to do this .”

"I think it's okay." Tong Zhi retorted dissatisfiedly, "Not really... I'm always afraid of him being bullied, you know, just, always worried about him."

Xu Yun was a little precocious, afraid that Tong Zhi would not have a clue, so he told him about Bi Qiannian's situation.

"Then I don't think I like it," Xu Yun analyzed, "Even if friends miss each other, I will also worry about him, because Qian Nian is very sensible, not very courageous, and the family situation is not very good, but I don't think I I want to spend my life as a partner with him, and I just try to help him as a partner as much as possible and give him warmth."

Tong Zhi digested this passage and felt that it was the case. He just treated Bi Qiannian better than ordinary friends. He was a little confused, "Maybe."

"So," Xu Yun looked at him in a daze, "next time you kiss Qiannian, see if you have... that kind of heart-pounding feeling."

"Ah?" Tong Zhi felt uncomfortable, "Will he agree?"

"You are stupid, stealing a kiss."

So Tong Zhi sneaked a kiss to Bi Qiannian, but didn't dare to kiss his face, and only pecked lightly on Bi Qiannian's round cheek.There is no feeling, no heartbeat, and no dislike.

Later, Tong Zhi chatted with Xu Yun a few times, Ran Nanyan also paid attention to this matter, and finally came to the conclusion: I really like Bi Qiannian, but I don't like him because I want to form a partner with him.

He spent many summers and winters with Bi Qiannian again. This was a young and pure love that lacked passion or even made no progress, and was carefully treasured by him, like a tender flower bud, a love, But it won't grow any more.

This is a childish enlightenment on the emotion of "like". In fact, he honestly believes that Bi Qiannian is his first love in winter.

Then I learned today that the little Miao Miao who I had guarded for so many years was picked by that naive and naive man with a fierce face just now!He knew how it felt when the cabbage he raised was raped by a pig. He was angry and even a little bit wronged.

Xu Yun came out and knew that Tong Zhi had been hit. If you say that Tong Zhi's liking for Bi Qiannian had nothing to do with it when he was a child... He actually didn't think so, but later Tong Zhi figured it out and straightened it out. Because of the location, he and Bi Qiannian became close friends.

"Are you all right?" Xu Yun asked him, patted his back, "Not at all."

Childish tears tend to flow when he is excited, and his eyes turn red when he quarrels with others. This time, it is not entirely because of sadness, but also mixed with a lot of confusion. It seems that someone has snatched Bi Qiannian away, but he has nothing to do , but also be warned by the other party to stay away from Bi Qiannian by virtue of her boyfriend's status.

Damn, he thought, where were you when I liked Bi Qiannian?He felt angrily unconvinced again.

"I'm fine." He took a deep breath and sank down again. Although he knew that he was not in love with Bi Qiannian, he was also a cabbage raised by him. Now he was worried about Ning Zhanmei's character, "Then How about Ning Zhanmei? He's so fierce, he won't bully him, right?"

Xu Yun was used to his changing thoughts, so he replied flatly, "It's good, he's liked Bi Qiannian for a while, it shouldn't be a joke."

"How long have you known each other for a while?" Tong Zhi's voice became louder again, "Hey, I am, and I feel uncomfortable."

"It feels like he's someone else's all of a sudden, obviously I'll stay with him longer, why?" He muttered, "Forget it, I'll beat Ning Zhanmei if he dares to bully him in the future."

许昀笑了声，“行，你揍。”又想了想，“你这占有欲……我什么时候谈恋爱了你会不会哭啊？”

He and Tong Zhi watched each other grow up.

"Come on," Xu Yun gave himself goosebumps, "It's disgusting."

"Fuck you," Tong Zhi laughed angrily at him, "Let's talk about it after you find someone, I think you have to live alone for the rest of your life, who wants to live with the air conditioner?" Xu Yun didn't refute, Tong Zhi sighed after thinking about it "Don't tell me, if you have a really good new friend, or really fell in love, I might cry too."

Xu Yun laughed, "Well, I'm honored. Go in, they've been waiting for a long time."

"Let's go, go meet the pig that can push my cabbage."

Ning Zhanmei ate Bi Qiannian's grilled pork belly without any psychological pressure. Bi Qiannian kept looking out the door, obviously worried about being childish.He put the iron tongs aside, "You bake it yourself first, I'll go and see Ah Zhi."

Ning Zhanmei pulled him back, "Don't go."

"Don't..." Bi Qiannian wanted to talk nonsense, but felt that he had violated Ning Zhanmei's liking for him.

"Nonsense?" Ning Zhanmei picked it up by himself, knowing that Bi Qiannian was afraid of hurting his heart by what he said, so he smiled and pinched his face, "Honey, it's not because I'm jealous, childish." Well... he treats you—”

"What's the matter?" Tong Zhi heard Ning Zhanmei's words as soon as he came in, and gave him a vicious look. He was about to say that he just liked Bi Qiannian, so he could barely hold back, and glanced at the pile of things on his plate. Beef lost his temper all of a sudden.

Ning Zhanmei understood the warning in Tong Zhi's eyes, shut his mouth, and continued to eat his own five flowers, guessing that Tong Zhi had something to say to Bi Qiannian.

"Azhi," Bi Qiannian opened his mouth first, and he frowned slightly, "I didn't mean to hide it from you. I didn't find a chance to tell you that I just met today and I planned to talk to you. Don't be angry."

He felt that Tongzhi couldn't accept it because it happened suddenly, his friend fell in love, and was still with the same sex. He confirmed that Tongzhi would tell him immediately, but he didn't do it. This pass.

"I'm not angry." Tong Zhi was a little embarrassed facing Bi Qiannian, as if his love for Bi Qiannian many years ago had been brought to the fore in an instant. He didn't feel ashamed, but felt that it was unnecessary for Bi Qiannian to know.This is his secret.

"I'm just a little surprised. You said before that Liu Jingshu arranged for the two of you," he thought of the argument, "I really didn't think about it, and I was shocked."

Bi Qiannian was relieved to see that he was not angry, "Yes, we are indeed together." He was a little embarrassed, and Ning Zhanmei was still beside him at the moment, "It was just when school started, not too long ago."

"It will be a long time in the future." Ning Zhanmei interjected without looking sideways, and Tong Zhi added a glib tongue to him in his heart.

He still felt happy eating the beef that Bi Qiannian gave him. He calmed down to see that the interaction between Bi Qiannian and Ning Zhanmei was more tacit and intimate than others, and he didn't seem to mind at first. Ning Zhanmei seemed to like Bi Qianm He read it, and he was inexplicably relieved.

Tong Zhi kicked Xu Yun suddenly, "When did you know? I just don't know?"

Xu Yun didn't bother to raise his head, "Ning Zhan sent a message with his eyebrows. The two of them were holding hands. I knew it at a glance, so I asked him to confirm."

Tong Zhi said, and then asked for Ning Zhanmei's contact information. From being an eyesore to each other at the beginning, the two calmly scanned the QR code to add friends, and it was quite smooth.

Ning Zhanmei knew that Tong Zhi had accepted him, and probably he had listened to what he said just now. He had no objection to Tong Zhi, and he didn't want to get into trouble with him. In the end, it was Bi Qiannian who was difficult to do.

The people in the class dispersed one after another, and their battle line was stretched, and they were the last few to leave.

Tong Zhi wanted to go home to get things, and they were not on the way back to school.

He walked up to Bi Qiannian and hugged Bi Qiannian, and Bi Qiannian hugged him back gently, just as if he was still a little bit petty and acting like a spoiled child at the moment.

"Then I'm leaving, you go to school."

"Well, be careful on the road."

He turned around and hailed a taxi, and after getting in the car, he looked at Ning Zhanmei in the rearview mirror and hugged Bi Qiannian affectionately, but suddenly there was no unwillingness or anger, and he and Bi Qiannian were truly friends at this moment Location.

In the past few years, he just took up the name of a friend and thought a little more carefully, a distance where he was quietly and ambiguously alone, and he didn't want to go any further, but it was hard to be reconciled to becoming an ordinary friend.

Now he came to the position where he would come sooner or later, hadn't he thought about it?He thought about it many times, thinking that he would be strongly reluctant, or sad, or angry. Xu Yun knew him very well, and he did have a lot of possessiveness.

Tong Zhi was thinking quietly in the car. She didn't feel that it would be regrettable to have a little extra thought for Bi Qiannian. This is indeed a distance that is destined to be sad. If you can't go up or down, it means that you can't be high or low. Unless he voluntarily gives up.

But there are tens of thousands of emotions in the world, so how come my own, which is in the middle, is neither fish nor fowl?He doesn't think so, he cherishes it and thinks it is a beautiful gift from Bi Qiannian to himself.The flower bud has the beauty of a flower bud, and never blooming into a flower bud also means that it is difficult to shrink and wither. Can he make this flower bud degenerate into a green seedling that does not contain pink?

No, he will continue to have a liking for Bi Qiannian, which is a compliment to Bi Qiannian's personality, but he no longer has any expectations at all.He is still in the middle, but he has lost the desire to climb up, and has become a flower bud that is not wet by dew, calm down and silent.

Childishly thinking, Bi Qiannian is indeed a gift from God, a problem.Taught him not to like deeply and shallowly, but also taught him to give up as a matter of course.