light adaptation

Before going to bed, Ning Zhanmei checked the weather. The rare double typhoon was more severe than last time. He sent a message to Bi Qiannian, telling him not to go out for the next two days.

The screen lit up for a moment in the dark room, causing Bi Qiannian to squint his eyes, and he unlocked it with a wooden face.

Ning Zhanmei: /picture

Ning Zhanmei: Have you checked the weather?It's going to rain again, so be careful not to go out.Good night.

Ning Zhanmei: / Kitten Kiss

He couldn't help laughing when he saw the cute expression on the screen, a dull pain arose from the twitching of the corner of his mouth, which made him barely stop his hand that was about to reply to the message.Bi Qiannian stopped smiling, and two lines of bitter tears flowed from the corners of his mouth.

He turned off his mobile phone and fell on the bed. It was dark outside the window and there was no moon.

10 minutes ago, he was rolling on the bed full of joy. At dusk, he and Ning Zhanmei ate roasted fish in Yunjiang. He recalled the details of getting along with each other these days - originally planned to write a love letter to Ning Zhanmei tomorrow Respond to him, tell him you like him too, and thank you.

He is not very extroverted, unlike Ning Zhanmei, who can say a sentence of likes without blushing and heartbeat, and write a letter to him vulgarly and sincerely after considering it. It shouldn't be badly written, right?

But now he can't say a word of love. He feels that he really likes Ning Zhanmei. Not long ago, he was troubled by the strange possessiveness, but now he really knows that he likes him. He is happy when he sees him. , he has already tasted this taste.And he liked the feeling of being choked in his throat and unable to make a sound, and he immediately felt it.

Bi Qiannian touched the mat that had not been removed with his cheek, feeling cold and sore.The first time he was beaten by Bi Qian was in primary school, when Xue Chengkai squatted over him and was found, Bi Qian dragged him home, and then slapped him hard.It hurts, and he was very afraid of his mother at that moment.

And she immediately showed weakness, she beat her own child, but she loved him helplessly, hugged her and cried, said sorry, and said that mother loves you.

The little Bi Qiannian didn't even have time to shed tears, so he reacted immediately, half of his face was swollen, he hugged his mother back, and comforted her, Mom, don't cry, I love you too.

Did mom hurt you?I'm sorry, Chien Nian.

No, it doesn't hurt, mom, don't cry.

This was an innocuous episode in his childhood, again in junior high school, and again today, Bi Qiannian stared at the ceiling with those round eyes that looked like Bi Qianxiao coldly, and hated her so strongly for the first time.

He wanted to tell Bi Qian that he was in pain, it was not these three slaps, but these many years.Crazy, disorderly, mixed with endless tears, love and hate for many years, mother, he called, let me go.

Bi Qiannian set the alarm clock the next day, and made breakfast before Bi Qian got up, a bowl of noodles in clear soup and a fried poached egg.

He fell asleep slowly at dawn, thought a lot, and had a glimmer of hope in his heart. Bi Qian probably encountered Xue Chengkai's son losing control for a while, and it wasn't really that he was not allowed to go to other places for the exam.It's not a big deal, he wants to have a quiet talk with Bi Qian today.

Bi Qian's complexion remained the same today, seeing Bi Qiannian's red and swollen cheeks froze, but didn't say anything.

After she finished her breakfast, she realized that Bi Qiannian hadn't eaten and was only looking at her.

"What's wrong?" she asked.

"Mom," he said, his heart was not easy, he was like a taut string, "I want to discuss college matters with you."

"Well," Bi Qian put down her chopsticks, "Why do you want to go to Zhiqiong University?"

"I think I can go if I work hard," Bi Qiannian replied, "I also want to go to farther places."

They sat across from each other, as if they were having a negotiation.It was cloudy with the hazy and dull light shining in through the curtains.

"Have you fallen in love?" Bi Qian asked quickly.

"...No." Bi Qiannian seemed to hear his own unsteady heartbeat. The calmer Bi Qian was, the more frightening he felt, "But I have someone I like."

Bi Qian looked at him indifferently, got up and took her bag to go to school.

"Mom?" Bi Qiannian followed without approaching.

"Falling in love doesn't affect your studies, that's fine." Bi Qian said suddenly, and went to the entrance to change her shoes. She stood up straight again and stared at Bi Qiannian, "It's impossible to leave Shuiyun City."

Bi Qiannian froze in place, Bi Qian closed the door without waiting for his reaction.

"Mom?" Bi Qiannian heard the sound of the keys locked outside the door, "Mom!"

Bi Qian went downstairs, and there was a muffled sound of her feet stepping down the stairs, and she left with brisk and powerful steps, as if playing a triumphant piece of music.

Bi Qiannian slammed on the door, "Mom! Mom! Why are you locking the door!"

He felt suffocated for a while, his palms turned red, and no one responded to him, so he stopped dejectedly.The goldfish in the room seemed to have glanced at him, turned around and swam away again, spit a string of bubbles.

Crazy, Bi Qiannian thought, this family is crazy, already crazy.

He naively thought that he had learned to like and love, gained unprecedented courage through Ning Zhan's fiery feelings, and fought against fate. He wanted to live for himself once.

But what's the use?He looked at Bi Qian's locked door, imagined his mother smiling downstairs, imagined her graceful demeanor on the podium, no one knew that the dignified and elegant teacher Bi was a ghost at night, Bi Qiannian thought, he was her Lang Lang was able to survive in the world.

Bi Qiannian felt hopeless like never before, this is his fate, and this is the reason why he survived - he is a living ghost raised by Bi Qian, who loves her and is loved by her, so that she will always remember the shame of being betrayed , so that she will not die alone guarding that bit of hatred.She wanted to drag him down, and he deserved to be dragged down by her. He was the result of that betrayal.

Bi Qiannian never resisted. Behind this tightly locked door, he found the reason why he was too lazy to resist, and the reason why resisting was useless was Bi Qian, the crying mother who loved him.If she doesn't let go of her hatred for Xue Chengkai for a day, she won't be able to get rid of it for a day.

Bi Qiannian turned back and walked to the room, put the letter paper that he had prepared to write the love letter to Ning Zhanmei in the drawer, and sealed a blank piece of paper to express his love, a love that died prematurely.

He breathed out a foul breath in the cloudy sky that seemed to be covered with dust, he was crazy, he was crazy early, he closed his eyes, and waited for the night to fall.

Bi Qian bought vegetables and meat at home, and locked Bi Qiannian at home the next day as before. Bi Qiannian didn't respond, and only told her to be careful on the road.

Bi Qian smiled at him in a good mood, then locked the door and went downstairs.

Bi Qiannian didn't look at his phone for the past two days, as if it was a piece of too hot object, he didn't dare to look at it, and would withdraw his hand as soon as he touched it.

Ning Zhanmei was depressed with the rainy day when the typhoon was approaching. Bi Qiannian didn't reply to the news all day yesterday, and he didn't respond to the call today. He was not at ease.

The knock on the door came to the bedroom on a breezy afternoon, dull and eerie, reminiscent of a flickering light bulb.Bi Qiannian stopped writing. He was just writing an article for the writing competition and it was almost finished.

He walked to the porch, "Who?"

"It's me." Ning Zhanmei's voice came over, "Open the door, Qian Nian."

"It can't be opened." Bi Qiannian's voice was calm, but Ning Zhanmei was a little uneasy.

"What do you mean?" Ning Zhanmei asked, then laughed again, "Did Auntie accidentally lock you in the room at work?"

Bi Qiannian didn't answer, just asked him, "Is there something wrong?"

"I miss you." Ning Zhanmei said, across a door, but the knowledge that Bi Qiannian was on the opposite side made him cuddle a lot, "Why didn't you reply to my message yesterday? Qian Nian, what are you hiding from. "

"Go back." Bi Qiannian ignored his usual teasing.

"What's wrong?" Ning Zhanmei sensed something was wrong, "You throw the key from the window sill, I will open it from the outside, I want to see you."

Bi Qiannian was silent for a while, and agreed.

As soon as he opened the door, Ning raised his eyebrows as if thinking that he was wrong, and hugged him without changing his shoes.

Bi Qiannian's cheeks were still swollen, and it hurt to be held tightly by him, but he didn't make a sound, and let him hold him, like a dying person with tolerance and kindness towards everything.

Ning Zhan rubbed his eyebrows against his temples, and kissed his ear, but felt that it wasn't enough, and wanted to kiss his lips.

He let go, but saw Bi Qiannian's red and swollen cheeks, and those round eyes that lost their shame.

"What's wrong?" Ning Zhanmei carefully touched Bi Qiannian's face, "Does it hurt?"

It hurts, Bi Qiannian wanted to say, he hurts so much.

"My mother beat me." Bi Qiannian avoided his eyes, moved away and asked him to change his shoes and come in.

Ning Zhanmei entered the living room, and the two sat on the sofa.

"Auntie, why..."

"I said I want to go to Zhiqiong to study in university, that's all." Bi Qiannian replied to him, not intending to hide it, but to let Ning Zhanmei know everything, this is an explanation he deserves, and then leave as a matter of course he.

"Why?" Ning Zhan frowned in confusion.

Bi Qiannian started when Xue Chengkai was looking for him in elementary school, and added the follow-up that Ning Zhanmei didn't know about, and then the day of the junior high school graduation ceremony, and the night before when Bi Qian knew about Xue Yan.Neither Xu Yun nor Tong Zhi had ever known that Bi Qian was such a mother whose day and night were very different, Bi Qiannian didn't mention it, it was a reservation of her mother's dignity.

"...That's all." Bi Qiannian exhaled, feeling a lot more relaxed, and Ning Zhanmei was about to leave him, and after a long time around, it was still the same ending, and he felt a sense of relief and joy.A kind of impoverished frankness, I had known such a sigh.

Ning Zhan frowned, this is not normal, maybe Bi Qian should see a counselor, why did Bi Qiannian suffer from this?He is innocent... He suddenly realized.

"Bi Qiannian." He called him.

"Ok?"

"So?" Ning Zhan asked him, staring at him.

"...What's the reason?" Bi Qiannian was puzzled, but he realized it immediately, and he fell silent.

Ning Zhanmei kissed him fiercely, sticking out his tongue for the first time.

He was biting Bi Qiannian's soft lips, and the body fluid was mixed with a hint of saltiness. The less Bi Qiannian resisted, the more uneasy he became.

After parting, Bi Qiannian panted lightly, and was about to speak, Ning Zhan raised his eyebrows again, shut up, shut up.He tried to delay his own death sentence, and he had already heard an answer in Bi Qiannian's silence.

Bi Qiannian finally pushed him away, a piece was cut at the corner of his mouth, a few drops of blood oozed out, showing a strange and coquettish look on his pale face.

"I can't leave, Ning Zhanmei."

"You go."

A ghostly silver-white lightning flashed across the sky, and thunder hummed.