[Bulletproof BTS] RE:suming

"hiss!!"

There was a sharp pain in the little finger, I saw Brother Jimin covering his eyes and squatting on the ground in pain.

"Jimin!"

"elder brother!"

The members gathered around to check Jimin hyung's situation, I was stunned, Jimin hyung was injured because of me.

"Sorry……"

"Why does something go wrong here?"

"Cheer up, Star Master!"

There was a lot of confusion, everyone's voices seemed to be far away, and then they were suddenly drawn closer, and suddenly exploded in the ears.

what did i just do...

This is not a new choreography...

Why am I wrong?

"I'll take Jimin to have a look, you guys continue to practice."

Brother Yunqi pushed Namjoon brother, telling him not to follow, practice is more important, he and brother Seokjin took Jimin brother and were about to go out, and their brains suddenly woke up.

"elder brother……"

I bit my lip and looked at the back of Jimin who was being held between Seokjin and Yoonki.

"What's the matter, come back and talk!"

After Yun Qi finished speaking, he waved his hand to call Shuo Zhen to leave the practice room.

sorry……

I opened my mouth, I could only stand there in embarrassment, and rubbed my little finger with all my strength.

pain!

And with the joy of release!

Am I useless?

Once this idea was formed, it began to grow wildly in my mind.

"Star Lord, come out with me!"

Brother Namjoon glanced at me, got up and walked outside the practice room.

"Hey..."

I stood up, Ho Seok looked at me worriedly, and patted my leg.

"Relax... Star Lord!"

"Hey, thank you brother!"

There is no indoor air conditioner, and the outdoor temperature in Seoul in November is very low. I couldn't help shivering. Taking advantage of Namjoon's back facing me, I rubbed my arms slightly.

It was already dark outside, with sporadic lights and passers-by returning late, there was no light in the stairwell, and through the window, the dim light shone in, and Brother Namjoon's face was somewhat unclear.

"Star Lord, what's going on recently? Something is wrong since the tour in Japan. I don't know what you saw or heard. Tell me..."

sigh……

I shook my head, I was tired, everyone was tired, the physical and psychological pressure, the sight around me, people were saying we couldn’t do it, I was a little scared, and I searched the memories of the previous life in my mind over and over again, these are what they should have in the previous life of it?Or is it because of me that I have these sufferings?

"Ha... Star Lord."

Brother Namjoon sighed deeply and stroked his hair.

"If you think you can solve it or digest it well, I won't ask you that. Just like in Japan before, you can adjust your state in time before returning, but you can't now. I don't know because you haven't adjusted well before. , The cover-up was too good, which gave me an illusion, or it was simply because I was too tired recently that my performance was not good. You can also feel it yourself, so no matter what the reason is, let’s talk about it, let’s find the reason together. "

"elder brother……"

I looked at the sky outside the window. In my previous life, I longed to debut, but now that I have debuted, I can even say selfishly that I have gained the attention and love of the public earlier than the members.

When I got the first place in August, I was complacent, thinking that it was because of me that BTS could get it in advance, and that it was because of me that BTS could shine earlier.

But the blow came quickly, and this huge gap between heaven and hell deeply defeated me.

When I dreamed back in the middle of the night, I wondered if I would be a member quietly instead of being the first to be noticed, eager to see my own value, and silently reduce the influence of myself as a butterfly, would there be nothing like this.

Sometimes I even think viciously, it's better to wait for the first place in "INEEDU"!

Is it better to experience hell if you haven't experienced heaven...

"Sometimes I wonder, without me, would our team be better, without so many harsh looks, without so many bad comments, Jimin wouldn't get hurt because of me, am I..."

Very bad……

"Why do you think so? We are on the same team. Isn't it normal to bump into each other in practice? Leaving aside the relationship between colleagues at work, we are still friends and family, aren't we?"

Brother Namjoon pondered for a while.

"Bangtan is a group consisting of eight of us. In addition, you are indispensable to us. Whether it is music or other aspects, your influence on BTS is not only the attention, but also on you. I can learn a lot. Before you came, there were only three of us as the producers of Line. After you came, we paid more attention to vocals in addition to RAP when communicating with each other, so don’t magnify your shortcomings and forget your own advantages. "

"Remember the lesson today, but don't blame yourself too much. There will be mistakes during practice. Didn't I often step on Jungkook when I was dancing? But I didn't care, and so did Jungkook, because we both know that the other party is not on purpose."

"Thank you, bro..."

I laughed, it's rare that Brother Namjoon said so much to comfort me.

"So, are you better now?"

Nod.

"Um……"

"How about the fingers?"

I was taken aback, covered that hand unconsciously, smiled and shook my head, indicating that I was fine.

"No!"

Brother Namjoon didn't ask any further questions, and rubbed the top of my head.

"Then go back and practice."

"Hey..."

Fortunately, Brother Jimin's injury is not serious, but a little congested. I understand what Brother Namjoon said, and I also know that during dance practice, there will inevitably be accidental injuries, but I still feel guilty.

Jimin, who was suffering there, smiled and reassured the hyungs, since he was the one who got hurt, and he had to take care of the emotions of the other members.

Some sad, some distressed.

"elder brother……"

Jimin waved his hand indifferently.

"Star Lord! It's okay, don't feel burdened..."

"I'm really sorry, bro..."

"Be careful next time!"

With a heavy weight on his shoulders, Brother Ho Seok squeezed my face.

"Remember this mistake, but don't be too burdened! Don't you think so, Jimin!"

"Uh-huh!"

Brother Jimin narrowed his red eyes, he smiled, half threatening and half joking, and said to me.

"Next time, don't do this to brother!"

"Since this is the case, let's temporarily stop practicing tonight, Jimin will go back to rest, shall we go to the studio?"

Brother Namjoon finished his explanation and took a look at our producers.

"Yeah, the arrangement is pretty good!"

Hoseok nodded.

"We have to re-arrange several parts of the stage at the end of the year."

Brother Yunqi also came over and pushed me.

"Let's go!"

I looked at Brother Jimin with some anxiety, that brother who would deliberately pretend to be hurt and uncomfortable in front of me...

When was the last time I had a heart-to-heart talk with Jimin, I carefully recalled the atmosphere where we talked about everything, when was it...

"what happened?"

Brother Namjoon next to me asked, I looked away and shook my head towards him.

"No……"

Today, the four of us continued to stay in the studio until nearly one o'clock in the morning before going back. The members had already gone to sleep one after another. When I washed up and went to bed, only Namjoon hyung's bed was still lit.

"Brother, it's almost three o'clock..."

I lowered my voice to remind Brother Namjoon that he was going to sleep.

"Well~ right now..."

"Hey... so good night, brother!"

"Hmm~"

I climbed up lightly, lifted the quilt and got in. As soon as I lay down, I felt something was touching me under my head. I stretched out my hand to grab it, and looked at the light in the room.

It's a massage ointment...

I stretched out my hand to touch the pillow again, and soon found a sticky note. I took it over, and when I turned on the screen of my phone, it lit up. It was Taehyung's handwriting.

My heart warmed up.

I squeezed the sticky note, read the words on it several times, and then carefully stuffed it with the ointment under the pillow.

I will be using it when I wake up tomorrow!

Thanks also to Taehyung!