[Bulletproof BTS] RE:suming

"call……"

When I opened my eyes, the computer in front of me was still at the place where it was paused before going to sleep. I turned my neck and took the mobile phone on the other side. At 5 o'clock in the morning, there were still a few missed calls and unread messages.

what……

I'm going to be nagged by brother Seokjin when I go back...

I stuck out my tongue in my studio, took my phone and looked through my contacts, found Brother Yunqi and asked him to cover me, saying that I was sleeping in Brother Yunqi's studio, so I didn't go back.

As a result, Brother Shuozhen called not long after the message was sent.

"elder brother……"

My eyelids twitched, feeling like I forgot something.

"You are so courageous! Can't you succeed with sex skills?! One sleeps with Namjoon, and the other sleeps with Yunqi?! Oh?! Awesome!"

Ruined……

overturned...

In our producer line, apart from Ho Seok, who has a healthy lifestyle, the other three are masters who stay up all night. When I was not yet an adult, Seokjin watched very closely, plus Ho Seok Staring at the side, I can't find anything.

But 16 years later, Seokjin also considered that I was an adult, so he relaxed a bit, so the trio formed to protect each other, and they have been living in peace...

"that……"

The brain that was chaotic due to staying up late wakes up instantly and spins rapidly.

"I'm sorry, brother!"

In short, first admit your mistakes!

"Didn't I fall asleep in the studio yesterday...it was about this time when I woke up. I definitely didn't stay up all night. Really, I just fell asleep in the studio~"

I talked a lot here, and promised that if I didn’t go back to the dormitory in the future, I would report where I went and what I was doing in the group. Brother Shuozhen let me go.

"Brother~"

I put the breakfast I bought near the dormitory on the table, and I looked dog-leggedly at Brother Shuozhen who was facing away from me in the kitchen and didn’t look back at me. Are you angry this time?

"I'm sorry~ I don't want my brother to worry, I promise I won't let my brothers hide it for me in the future!"

He hugged Brother Shuozhen from behind, shook him gently, and flattered him.

"In the future, I will definitely report to my brother. I made my brother worry yesterday. I'm really sorry~"

Brother Shuozhen put down the shovel in his hand, turned off the fire, and his voice was calm.

"You are an adult, we can't really help you with the album. Sometimes time is tight and you have to rest in the studio, I can understand, but you shouldn't lie, we have been together for so many years, why do you still have to say goodbye to me?" I lied?"

"No! Brother!"

I was startled and hurried to explain.

"I didn't do it on purpose, I really didn't want my brother to worry, that's why..."

"Then do you know that when I know you're lying to me, it hurts me even more?"

The aroma of fried eggs filled the kitchen. It was a familiar and warm smell. I opened my mouth, but I didn't know what to say.

"We wrote letters to each other when we were in Hawaii, and talked a lot..."

I let go and stood there with my head bowed.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! Brother, I will never do this again, really!"

"So what have you been afraid of? Afraid that I will be angry? Afraid that we will ignore you? We have been together for so long, we have experienced so much together..."

"What did you do? It smells so good!"

Jungkook's surprised voice suddenly exploded behind me, making me tremble.

"..."

The atmosphere froze instantly...

"I'm going to call my brothers to get up..."

The sound of Jungkook's footsteps gradually disappeared, and I took a sneak peek, only to see Seokjin frowned and sighed.

"I'll go to your studio tonight, let's have a good chat."

"Hey~"

The night after chatting with Seokjin hyung, my past, which was almost forgotten, reappeared in my dream again, the ridiculous and failed past as Lee Young Hyun.

"..."

I closed my eyes, the plain ceiling, the bedroom of about [-] square meters, the air and my favorite aroma, quiet and peaceful.

So why make me dream about these!

12 etc?

what!

Are you kidding!

Now I have a better life, I have members who are close to my family, I have fans who like me, and I have the talent to support my musical dreams...

Obviously I have accepted a new identity, a new name, and a new look, but I still can't forget the past.

What am I obsessed with, and what am I afraid of...

At 3 o'clock in the morning, I went out in the cold frost. It was already April. After the company moved to the new building, our dormitory was also nearby, that is to say, it was very close to the Han River.

"what--"

I watched the exhaled white mist gradually dissipate in the palm of my hand, and then continued tirelessly. The cold made me wake up a lot. The open environment can help me organize my recent situation.

The shadows of the trees are whirling, and there are scattered street lights.

Beneath the street lamp was a bench covered with thin frost. I walked over and stared at the chair for a long time, and finally I was overwhelmed by my inexplicable worries about this and that.

Brother Namjoon often complains to himself that there are so few chairs in the park, and he can’t find one after searching for a long time. Even the desire to find a place to sit down and think about life is exhausted by such trivial things as finding a chair .

but now……

No matter what cold, wet clothes, it may be uncomfortable if it is very cold.

I just want to sit down now, as if I have completed some ritual. When I sat down, I looked back at the worries just now, and found that it was nothing at all.

After the In the Mood for Love series ended, the company's new planners had already begun to conceive new plans. The success of In the Mood for Love allowed the planning team to discover a new direction, and we, the producers, held many meetings with great interest.

Loveyourself...

do you love yourselfLove who?Yin Xingzhu?Li Rongxian?or all?

But I have just accepted myself, how can I love?Love who?Do you love Lee Young Hyun?What is there to love, can such a life be loved...

This can't work...

I looked up dejectedly, and the street lamp was shining a warm yellow light above my head. The bottleneck period during this period made me a little anxious, and my brothers and PDs also talked to me a lot in private.

It's just, how should I put it, the things I've been worrying about finally happened, I can't be honest with them, whenever someone calls me 'star master', I always think of another me .

I'd rather be called 'Moon'...

This worry has become my heart disease, something wet and cold across my face, I want to cry, I want to confess everything to them like this, I want to be so willful.

But I am 21 this year...

He is obedient, strong, talented and gifted Yin Xingzhu, the perfect young lady in the eyes of fans, the younger brother who does not need to worry about in the eyes of older brothers, and the ACE with unlimited potential in the eyes of PDs...

A loser who stole a piece of the action...

"I have to go back, or my brothers will worry..."

I took a deep look at the still dark sky and the warm yellow lights. The most important thing now is the concert and the invitation from my seniors. I have a new plan for the 4th anniversary of my debut, and there is a comeback album in the second half of the year. There is so much time for me to be sad for spring and autumn here...

"Let's go! There are still many things waiting for me!"

I gave myself a big smiling face, breathed out into the palm of my hand, rubbed my cold face, and stood up.

"come on……"

come on!Anyway, I have gained a lot, from a person with nothing to become the Moon I am today, I have gained too much, the rest is to do what I should do.

"elder brother……"

I stood there in a daze, watching the other party come step by step, and walked under the street lamp, the warm yellow light spread on his shoulders, and on that smiling face.

"I'll take you home."

go home……