[Bulletproof BTS] RE:suming

After washing and resting, I went back to the room and Jungkook wasn't there, and Namjoon was still leaning on his bed reading a book, I stopped pushing the door open, Jungkook seemed to be called by Jimin just now?

tsk...

Seeing me come in, Brother Namjoon closed the book, stared at me seriously, stretched out his hand to lift the quilt and patted the place beside him.

"Hmm~"

I pursed my lips, and it was like this again!

"I do not!"

Exit, close the door, and go to the porch. It's better to sleep in the studio today.

"sorry!"

"Can you talk to me? I want to apologize to you properly, can you give me a chance to correct..."

"It's my first time being an older brother too, so I didn't do well..."

"Are you allowed to make mistakes? I... want to correct it..."

I lowered my head and let go of the doorknob, why did I make myself so pitiful!

"it is good……"

In the dim room, I lay on the bed, blinked, and saw the ceiling of the dormitory so far away from me for the first time.

"Should I do it?"

Maybe it's the security that the darkness brings me, maybe it's the familiarity that makes me feel more relaxed, maybe it's all the things that are going on these days.

After all, no relatives in my family have passed away, and I don’t seem to have any pressure, and I don’t have anorexia, and I am not the captain of the team...

"Nope!"

"Brother is lying to me, right?"

You must have lied to me for answering so quickly.

"No, this is what I want to say in my heart. We are not perfect, and sometimes I get caught up in certain emotions for no reason. It's normal for you to have it. You are willing to vent it. I'm actually quite happy..."

I was taken aback and chuckled.

"elder brother……"

"Hear me out?"

Brother Namjoon patted the top of my head, and I nodded obediently.

"Actually, compared to Jungkook, our brothers care more about Jungkook..."

My eyes widened slightly, it turned out that my brothers knew it well, I grinned, indeed compared with Jungkook, I looked more sophisticated and sophisticated.

"Mo... Jungkook really hurts..."

"no!"

Brother Namjoon interrupted me suddenly and loudly.

"Star Lord!"

"Hey..."

"In the past two days, Seokjin and I have also talked a little bit, and we are reflecting on whether our attitude towards you and Jungkook is unfair, because you can handle your emotions well every time, and sometimes even give us An illusion that you are the same as our peers, you can handle everything well, you know what to do on any occasion, and you don’t need us to watch all the time, and sometimes even help us watch you guys small……"

"So, over time, we took it for granted, but forgot that you are the same age as Jungkook and need us too..."

I bit my lip, in the dark, I thought of a lot of things that I deliberately didn’t remember, I thought of myself attending the opening ceremony of Seoul National University alone, I thought of my brothers always being the first to find out that Jungkook’s emotions were wrong, I thought of The whispers of the brothers when standing next to Jungkook to comfort them.

"I'm sorry, I apologize to you on behalf of the few of us, because our negligence or laziness made Star Master have a hard life."

"no!"

I hugged Brother Namjoon, buried my head in Brother Namjoon's shoulder, and shook my head vigorously.

"My brothers are very kind to me, they will praise me when I do well, and help me change when I do not do well. I am too greedy, and let my brothers live hard because of me!"

"what……"

Brother Namjoon sighed faintly.

"Brother, actually I do have a little jealous of Jungkook..."

"Um……"

I muffled my voice.

"I also do this occasionally, brother, don't hate me! I like Jungkook very much, Jungkook is too clean, sometimes I will be jealous of him, but I hope he can continue like this..."

After all, that's what I long for...

"I don't need hyungs to treat me like Jungkook, it's just..."

I turned my head to look at Brother Namjoon.

"If brother misunderstood me, you must apologize to me and coax me, otherwise I will be angry too!"

Brother Namjoon looked at me without speaking, I couldn't see his expression clearly in the dark.

"Ok?"

Answer me quickly!

"it is good!"

"Also, sometimes I get sulky and feel wronged by myself, so I have to find out and coax me!"

"it is good!"

"And there's..."

I tightened my arms around Brother Namjoon, and said cautiously.

"Sorry……"

"Star Lord..."

"Ok?"

"sorry!"

I tried my best to widen my eyes, not wanting to let the tears fall, and finally gave up and blinked. I suppressed the choking in my throat, and nodded heavily.

"Ok!"

"and also……"

and also?

"I love you!"

I wiped my face, really!Don't make me cry!

"Ok!"

The company's clarification has been sent out. No matter the result is good or bad, I have already stood at the forefront of the storm. The situation is the same as two years ago. It is my own fault to calm down.

I just did what I wanted to do. Because of my identity, I was not understood or approved. I alone could not control the eyes and opinions of the public, and what the public saw was what someone made them see.

And what the truth is, who cares...

"Yin Xingzhu!!!"

MCD returned to stage recording. As soon as the car arrived at the entrance of the TV station, I heard a heart-piercing shout when I got out of the car. Before I could react, my arm was pulled. Smashed Ammi sticks.

"Star Lord!"

Brother Nan Jun let go of me, looked at the ground with a stiff face, he hugged me to block all sight, dragged me and walked inside, I didn't even have time to look at that girl...

Sorry to disappoint you...

It's just, didn't you guys tell me that you like me more for who I am?This is the real me too, don't you like it?hate it?

Is it annoying...

Walking into the door, I looked into the crowd behind me in a strange way. The excitement and excitement on the faces of those overlapping people were also stacked together.

After all, what you like is the one I let you see...

"nothing!"

"do not worry about it!"

"Yeah, let's talk about music..."

The manager and the older brothers were all around me, comforting me with words from left to right.

"I'm fine, you guys still go to make up, I'm still waiting!"

I pushed the nearest Taehyung hyung and Jimin hyung, looked at Jungkook again, and asked.

"Compared to me, what about Brother Namjoon? Just now, Brother blocked for me, are you okay?"

"Nanjun is fine! He's fine with bumps and bumps, so what is this?"

Seokjin hyung sat in front of the dressing table and looked at me through the mirror.

"Now, it should be communicating with the directors about the stage, so don't worry."

"Hey..."

Don't ask any more questions, after all, we have to do a good job on this stage right now.

"Star Lord! Come here and change clothes~"

"Hey~"

I stood up and looked at a circle of people.

"I'm going to change clothes, don't be around! I'm a senior who debuted for four years, how can I be so narrow-minded!"

"Is it really okay?"

Brother Haoxi was a little worried.

"Really! Go, go!"

After the pre-recording of the comeback stage, I don’t need to go to the studio for the time being, and I have some time for myself, but I prefer to stay in my own studio.

The more I watch, the harder my heart...

I can't think too much, I can't watch too much, I should do my own thing well, imply that I block out all the voices outside, and concentrate on completing this comeback.