[Bulletproof BTS] RE:suming

what……

I lowered my head and laughed at myself, bursts of anger and sadness suddenly surged up in my chest, what kind of person am I?What kind of person am I to him?What am I in his heart?

And why am I so sad, since debut, I have been blamed big and small, haven't I?Why am I so sad today alone...

In his eyes, am I causing trouble?Not sensible?Indulgent?

Ah……

"It's just a drink with relatives and my brother."

calm down!

calm down!

"I'm not drunk and I'm not staying out overnight!"

calm down!

To explain calmly!

"I didn't invite messy people to drink with me. I didn't do any bad behavior. I just got photographed. Isn't that okay?"

calm down!

Stay sane!

"I also told the company when I went back. Brother Shizhen also explained some things to me. He also reported in the group when I would come back. I didn't delay work. I just went there in my own private time. And My brother is with me, so..."

calm……

I raised my eyes and stared at him. I knew I shouldn't have the emotion in my heart. The person in front of me was the captain, and he was responsible for the whole team. I shouldn't just focus on my own...

But I just can't help it!I don't want to go on like this, what I did, my hard work, my sadness, my sadness, my grievance, why can't I see it!

"Am I willful?"

Where is the willfulness?I just go home, see my mom and dad, meet up with Philo and my buddies at the bar, have a few drinks, and I'm doing my best.

“还要我把私人的行程列出个1、2、3，见了什么人也列个1、2、3在群里报备吗？！”

I try my best to sing, dance hard, try not to cause trouble to me, try my best to correct my bad parts, try my best to listen to your words, try my best to make you feel at ease, and try my best to be a person who is satisfying and likeable. Yin Xingzhu, also tried his best to laugh it off when he was sad!

What do you want from me?

Can't I have my own friends?

Don't cry, don't make trouble, don't be self-willed!

"I don't mean to blame you, it's just..."

"what is that?"

Watching Namjoon stand up and walk towards me, he also explained ridiculously.

"I just hope we are not around, you go to see your relatives, you can pay attention..."

"What happened to Biber?"

I took a step back, dodging the hand extended by the other party, and at the same time, I looked at Brother Namjoon with a smile on my face.

"Ah……"

Brother Nan Jun's outstretched hand stopped, as if he didn't expect that I would hide. Seeing Brother Nan Jun's dazed expression gave me an inexplicable sense of revenge, and this feeling quickly became addictive.

"Because he used drugs and was promiscuous? So, they guessed me like that too, right?"

I couldn't help laughing, I was a little tired, took a deep breath, and I asked lightly.

"Who am I?"

"Is it the me standing here, with you for 4 years, or the me on the Internet, am I drinking alcohol? Tattoos? Drugs? Promiscuity? Heinous?"

"Master Yin Xing!"

Brother Namjoon was angry, his chin protruded, disapproval and disbelief appeared in his eyes...

"You are such a person! Can't I care about you?!"

"Ah……"

calm down!

care about me?

Do you care about me like that? !

Then I just want to vent, just want to drink, just want to cry and make a scene regardless of everything?

Haha ...

After all, I still can't bear to let the irrational me hurt you, and I don't want you to experience this kind of sadness.

"So……"

I took a deep breath and suppressed the madness in my heart. When I am irrational, the most hurtful words are said. I have been like this, so I can't do this...

"Then what else can I do?"

and so……

You can use this reason to hurt me, can't you?

Feeling the coolness on my face, I actually smiled, look, even when I cried, I laughed.

"what else can I do?"

How much I cherish you, how much I love you.

"I don't cry, I don't make trouble..."

Quietly be a sensible brother on the side.

"Don't ask, don't..."

When I wronged myself, can you see it?

"What do you want me to do now?"

A quiet room.

I didn't want to stay here anymore, but after I turned around, I saw Brother Shuozhen standing at the door of my room. I exhaled slowly and looked at Brother Shuozhen.

"Brother... I'm resting..."

"Um……"

Brother Shuozhen came over and patted my shoulder lightly, with a little comfort and shame in his eyes, I knew what Brother Shuozhen wanted to say, with that look in his eyes.

Do not say!

I'm afraid that the next words will make me bow my head, I don't want to do it, I don't want to make excuses to comfort myself...

"Brother! Good night..."

"Good night……"

Brother Shuozhen who was interrupted by me was taken aback, then nodded.

"Go."

I closed the door, cut off everything outside, leaned against the door and looked at my room, and only at this time could I cry without restraint, don't care about other people's feelings, other people's eyes, just do what I want.

click...

The sudden sound of closing the door interrupted me, I raised my head from the crook of my arms, it was getting late, I had to rest quickly, there was a shooting task tomorrow, if nothing unexpected happened, the company would find me, the original practice time was not much...

I still tossed and turned and couldn't sleep, I knew I was looking for abuse, but I couldn't help but took out my phone, entered the search list on the Internet, and immediately saw my name.

—No way, really?If I remember correctly, he has just come of age...

——Tsk tsk, I couldn't help it when I was just an adult, as expected, the more serious I was, the dirtier it was, the people on the stage looked like dogs, but the audience didn't know what it was like...

——somewhat disappointed...

--sky!It's a good thing my deskmate was still talking to him yesterday, and he praised him so much that there is nothing in the world, so I'm probably going to cry to death now.

—Pravda?A very famous underground bar in New York. Vodka is their signature. Many Russians in the United States go there. After all, their wine is strong.

——Please take a good look, his brother is also there, he is with his family, even though he is just an adult, he is still an adult, it is not illegal to go to bars as an adult!

--Yeah!Your brother is right in everything, hehe~

——Don't step on it, wait for the explanation...

——P’s, shouldn’t they be preparing for a comeback?How could it be possible to go to the United States to drink?

——Picture.JPG, have you seen it, the airport has a picture!Just go home tonight!They are almost back and go abroad to drink. They really are the rich second generation. Being rich means that you can trample on other people's dreams...

—Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo share

——Come here to eat melons, and then wait for bigger melons, as soon as he debuts, I can see that he is not a good person, KKKKKKK~

——People flock together, and birds of a feather flock together. For him, drinking is probably a small case. I didn’t see the guy next to him. Changing girlfriends is like changing clothes. He has tattoos all over his body, and he is also addicted to drugs and alcohol.

——Wow, my mother still asks me to use the stars as role models, it's terrible...

——Did you see my profile picture, let’s go, let’s all be well.

——The pictures are all normal, Pravda operates legally, there are no such messy things, the legal person of their family is still a philanthropist, it’s just a bar with spirits as a sign, the stars go with their family, their family is a real noble family Ah, how could the family let Xing Xing learn to be bad!

——Clothed beasts are not without...

——Is there any real hammer?Maliciously attack others with a single picture!

——Let's stop arguing and wait for Dahei's official announcement...

……

Scolding, satirizing, leaving, disappointed, joining in the fun, explaining for me, cursing back...

I'm sorry, Ami, to cause you trouble again, and to make you sad again...