Old Cannon's Infatuation

December 2015, 12, Thursday, Christmas Eve.

This day is the third day since Zhang Xuan came back from the hospital, and the stomach problem needs to be recuperated slowly.Things have been rough lately, but no matter what, life has to go on.

It was the end of the year, and there were a lot of things to do in school. This was the end of Zhang Xuan's first semester of graduate school, and the graduate classes were useless and of no practical use at all.Before Zhang Xuankuang took several classes and visited the laboratory several times, he was not familiar with his classmates.In addition to the final exam, the research topic also had to write an opening report. On this day, Zhang Xuan found her graduate tutor and talked about the topic for a long time.

The teacher is a very kind person. Knowing that she was ill a few days ago, she mentioned a few words about her absenteeism and then lightly brushed it off. She just urged her to check the information carefully and pay attention to the graduate project.Faced with the teacher's tolerance, Zhang Xuan was a little ashamed, and raised a lot of questions about the graduate project. At the end of the discussion, the direction of the thesis was roughly clarified, and it was already past six o'clock when he looked at the clock.

"It's about this time, I'm sorry, teacher, I missed your dinner."

"Hehehe, it's okay." The teacher waved his hand nonchalantly, "Let's leave it at that. If you have any questions, you can call me again. Today is Christmas Eve. Do you have other activities tonight? Don't delay you go play."

"No." Zhang Xuan smiled and shook his head.She meant it, no one would ask her out.

"Then let's do this first. Take these documents back and have a good look at them."

"Okay. Then I'll go back first. Happy Christmas Eve, teacher."

"Happy Christmas Eve, be careful on the road."

Saying goodbye to the teacher, Zhang Xuan walked out of the office.While waiting for the elevator, looking out through the floor-to-ceiling windows on the 11th floor of the office building, the neon lights of Beijing are shining at night. Against the background of white snow, the whole city looks peaceful and romantic.

The moment she walked out of the building, the cold wind blew in her face, as if blowing into her heart all at once.Looking down at the lights of thousands of houses in Beijing just now from a high-rise building, I obviously feel so gentle and beautiful.However, at this moment, walking on the street, I feel that the whole city is so cold and dark.Zhang Xuan exhaled a mouthful of white mist, wrapped her scarf tightly, and walked into the dimly lit depths.

It just snowed yesterday, covering the streets and trees in snow.Looking at the neon and snow-white eyes, Zhang Xuan didn't feel any festive joy, as if this was just an ordinary day in a year.She wanted to go home quickly, because it was so cold that she felt like shivering from the bottom of her heart.

"Ah!" As a result of walking too fast, just as she turned into the gate of the residential area, she slipped on the thin ice on the ground.

This area has always been very clean, and her cries of pain did not attract anyone's help.Fortunately, he fell on a pile of snow and was not injured and his clothes were not stained.Zhang Xuan sat on the cold ground for a while, then slowly got up by herself.

"Hiss..." It seemed that his leg was still a little strained.She grinned, it really hurt a little.

Limping home, what greeted her was the coldness and darkness of the room.Living alone is not good, no matter how warm and happy the day is, she is the only one.

It's really... pitiful.Zhang Xuan sighed, thinking, fortunately, he was used to it.

But now is not the time to feel sorry for yourself.I changed clothes, took a shower, and felt the pain in my leg lessen a little.She felt that she should not be seriously injured, just walk more.So she made some food and put it in the pot first. She took her mobile phone and walked slowly in the living room.

On Christmas Eve, the blessings from friends were filled with text messages, WeChat and emails. She looked slowly, but couldn't find even a single word from Tan Xiaofei.

Forget it, Zhang Xuan told herself, don't think too much, it's better not to contact, otherwise it will only become more and more sad.

Continuing to look down, Zhang Xuan saw a text message from Wen Qian.

"Honey, happy Christmas Eve! I'm sorry, I can't accompany you today~ Do you have any arrangements over there? Go and have fun with your graduate students, don't stay at home, make more new friends, and have fun Heart! Remember to call me if you need anything~」

Looking at the message, Zhang Xuan smiled subconsciously.This Wen Qian, who is about to become a mother, is still so childish.

After replying all the messages, Zhang Xuan paced to the window.Suddenly, many memories of the past flashed through my mind.

Speaking of which, the relationship between Zhang Xuan and Wen Qian's girlfriends was not always so close.Zhang Xuan once envied Wen Qian very much, envied her good background and cheerful personality, and envied her having a boyfriend who was well-matched and doted on her.Later, they almost broke up because of Tan Xiaofei.

That was also such a day, on Christmas Eve, Tan Xiaofei invited Zhang Xuan to play.The streets of Nanjing are crowded with people, and the banks of the Qinhuai River are almost overcrowded.No matter how good the mood was, it was completely destroyed by such an environment, but Tan Xiaofei still told her that he liked her.This was Tan Xiaofei's first confession, but Zhang Xuan only thought he was joking, completely ignored him, and said he wanted to go back to school.

Both of them were in a bad mood after they came back. Tan Xiaofei was extremely depressed because of Zhang Xuan's indifference. Zhang Xuan said that he didn't take it seriously, but how could it be possible.On the way back to school, she was thinking about a question, "Tan Xiaofei likes me?"

In her opinion, there is no solution to this question, so there is no need to think about it or pay attention to it.She told herself that Tan Xiaofei was still young, it would be fine when he calmed down.

After returning to the dormitory, I was still irritable.If she didn't talk about it, she felt like she was about to explode.So he waited for Wen Qian to return to the dormitory for a date in the middle of the night, and immediately told her.

"I asked you out on Christmas Eve and confessed my love, so don't think about it, he must be chasing you." Wen Qian seemed to have drunk some wine, sat at the desk with her chin propped up, and threw it to She said this.

"But he's still so young, I'm his tutor..."

"What's wrong with Xiao Fei? You can try to date him, and he didn't say you want to get married." Wen Qian disagreed, "I tell you, don't underestimate Xiao Fei. I understand this kid. He If one thing is confirmed, no one can control it, including his parents."

"But I don't think I like him." Zhang Xuan whispered hesitantly, cutting off the hidden sweetness in his heart.

"Then what are you still worried about?" As if seeing through Zhang Xuan's careful thinking, Wen Qian curled her lips with faint impatience, "You see, you have found a good reason for rejecting him, you don't like him, heh~ "

"..."

"Xuan'er, whether Xiaofei likes you or not, I have asked you this question more than once. You know what you think. Every time you tell me that you don't like him, you only treat him as a student .Then why are you asking me now? You don’t listen to my advice, so why do you ask me? I’m tired, Xuaner. I really hate you for deceiving yourself like this.”

At this moment, Zhang Xuan felt his hands and feet were cold, but his cheeks were hot.Wen Qian may be drunk, but there is a saying that "speaks the truth after drinking".It turns out that in Wen Qian's eyes, this is what she looks like.

It seems that they fell into a cold war after that, but it was only a few days.Zhang Xuan is a little confused about who said the soft words first and how to reconcile.However, suddenly it seemed that this memory opened up the two veins of Ren and Du. Zhang Xuan poured himself a glass of warm water and decided to think about his messy love.

Yes, love.She was finally willing to admit that there was love between her and Tan Xiaofei.

It was at this time that the cell phone rang suddenly, and Zhang Xuan trembled in fright.Looking down at the screen, the beating name was Tan Xiaofei.

"Hey?"

"Hello, Ah Xuan." To be honest, Tan Xiaofei was a little surprised, he didn't expect Zhang Xuan to answer the phone so happily.

"...Well, Xiao Fei." She seemed to have not called him "Xiao Fei" for a long time.

"Axuan, happy Christmas Eve!"

"Thank you, and I wish you a happy Christmas Eve." The mood gradually calmed down, Zhang Xuan asked, "Xiao Fei, what have you been up to lately?"

"Uh, it's nothing." Xiao Fei's voice was a little low, but Zhang Xuan could hear that he was smiling, "What are you busy with?"

"Ah, I just went to school. I have an exam soon."

"Is that so difficult? Listening to your voice, I'm a little unhappy."

Zhang Xuan was stunned for a moment before asking: "Can you hear it? The voice feels unhappy or something."

"Of course." Tan Xiaofei laughed, "Voice is also powerful. Happy or sad emotions can be distinguished from the voice. Especially you, I can hear it."

"..."

"Is it just because of the exam? Or is it because of something else."

"..."

"Tell me about something that makes you unhappy."

Tan Xiaofei's voice from the handset was a little low, and he didn't know where he was. The signal seemed to be not very good, and there were noises in the voice.But at this moment, Zhang Xuan felt that this was the gentlest voice she had ever heard, from Tan Xiaofei, whom she thought she would hate for the rest of her life.

Maybe it's because she needs a window to talk to, maybe it's the distant greetings that gave her sudden comfort, maybe it's because the world is too quiet at this moment, the home is too spacious, and his voice is too gentle...

Maybe, there are too many "maybes", Zhang Xuan can't figure it out.She only felt the tip of her nose sore, and tears fell down.

"I missed a few classes, and I didn't even think about the opening report. I felt very guilty. Although the teacher didn't blame me, I also felt that I didn't do well."

"It's really cold today. I went home alone, shivering from the cold."

"Walking into the community, I fell and sprained my leg. There was no one in the yard. I was really sad at the time."

"When I get home, it's just me."

"The leg still hurts. I feel sad and want to call Wen Qian, but she has something to do. I don't know who I should call."

"I've always been alone..."

I don't know how long we cried, Zhang Xuan finally stopped, Tan Xiaofei on the other end of the phone has been quiet, Zhang Xuan suddenly grabbed the phone in panic.

"Xiao Fei, are you listening?"

"Well, I'm here." Tan Xiaofei replied with a hoarse voice.

Both of them were silent for a while, until Tan Xiaofei sighed deeply.

"Ah Xuan, are you still crying?"

"No more." Zhang Xuan wiped away tears with a tissue.

"Do you feel better?"

"……Um."

"Then do you want to open the door?"

"what?"

"Come and open the door, I'm outside." There was a smile in his voice.

It seems that some warm particles swim through the nerves, follow the veins, and rush straight into the atrium.Zhang Xuan suddenly lost his voice.

After reacting, she walked quickly to the door of the house and opened the door quickly.The white lights in the corridor poured in, and the scene I saw when I opened the door was Tan Xiaofei, whom I hadn't seen for a few days, standing in the corridor with no one around, wearing a navy blue improved military uniform coat and black Martin boots, in this cold winter night He looked a little thin, but he was unexpectedly handsome and handsome.The stand-up collar covered his chin, but it couldn't hide the smile on his lips.A pair of eyes stared deeply at her, as if fainted.

"Axuan."

Zhang Xuan maintained the movement of holding the doorknob, and was stunned for a while, her nose suddenly felt a little sore, "...Why did you come here suddenly?"

"I'll give you a surprise." Tan Xiaofei smiled slightly, "Just now I was afraid that you would not open the door, but in the end it opened all of a sudden."

"..."

"Won't you let me in and sit down?"

What happened to the peace and warmth that suddenly jumped over all barriers?Zhang Xuan was a little confused, but she still let the door open, "Yes, I happened to make something to eat. Come in."

It wasn't until Zhang Xuan saw him approaching her that she suddenly remembered that she had really decided to forgive Tan Xiaofei?But before she could find the answer, she was already tightly embraced by a pair of arms.

"...Xiao Fei?" She hadn't been hugged for a long time, her body froze, she raised her hand subconsciously.

"Don't move." His heavy and rapid breathing was heard next to his ears. The tall and thin boy hugged her tightly, buried his head in her shoulder, and prayed in a low hoarse voice, "Just one minute, no, half a minute is fine." .Let me hold you for a while, don't move."

Feeling a cold breath coming into contact with the tip of his nose, Zhang Xuan pressed his cheek against his chest and closed his eyes.Feeling Tan Xiaofei's arms tightening slowly, Zhang Xuan also hugged his waist tightly.

"Why do you wear so little? What if you're freezing?" She asked softly.

Tan Xiaofei didn't answer, his heart was suddenly filled with the tenderness of rising tide.He couldn't remember how long he had been waiting for this moment.

It turns out that there is really such a feeling. When people are hit by a long-lost sense of happiness, they really want to cry.

He suddenly remembered the day when he saw Zhang Xuan for the first time. She was wearing an old dress and her eyes were as clear as spring water in May.Her lips were slightly pursed into a smile, and she said warmly, "Hello, are you Xiaofei? I'm Zhang Xuan, nice to meet you."

In a flash, so many years have passed.