[comprehensive] Ishtar

"The road has been clearly pointed out to you, Kirei!"

The King of Heroes made no secret of his importance and expectations for Kotomine Kirei: "Kotomine Kirei, open your eyes to see, think, try, and do what you think of as 'indulgence'. Then Then tell me what you really think!" Gilgamesh looked at Kirei and said.

Encouraged, Kirei let go of his hand covering his abdomen, and looked down at himself, which was stained with blood but was smooth and flat. Obviously, a few minutes ago, there was a abdomen that could be fatally penetrated there.There was nothing there now but a hole in the priest's robe, telling of an accident a few minutes earlier.

"King of Heroes," Kotomine Kirei looked up at Gilgamesh, "What do you want from me?"

He didn't think that the King of Heroes just helped him on a whim, or because of the special care that 'Tohsaka Rin' gave him.He is not an idealist like the teacher, nor is he an optimist like Kariya Matou. As early as when Assassin was summoned, he looked into the inhuman eyes of Killing, and he had already realized that——

——Heroic spirits are not existences that humans can control and command.

But, why didn't you tell the teacher to know?Why didn't he tell the teacher that what he thought was a strategy of 'surrendering to the king' would only become a 'joke to make the king laugh' or 'a lead to anger the king'?Why didn't he tell the teacher that Assassin's real identity had already been dreamed about?

Is it because of expectations?Looking forward to the scene where the person who has always had countless backup plans and never panicked is in a hurry because of an accident?Looking forward to the embarrassment of the man who has always maintained a gentleman and demeanor when he finds out that he is clever and self-defeating?

Is it out of curiosity?Curious how the 'king of kings' would react to disrespectful ants?Curious whether the heroic spirit and the master are really compatible?I wonder if other masters will be like me, not getting along well with heroic spirits, and even have to use command spells to save their lives?

Is it because of fear?Are you afraid that his peaceful lake surface for so many years will be broken?Are you afraid that the sleeping beasts in the abyss will gradually wake up?Fear of being his father, being his teacher, and when people around him know that he is actually the same person as Assassin, will they see him in a different way?

It seems to have both, but it also seems to have none.

It's like when his wife passed away, he thought a lot of things, but when he thought about what he thought about at that moment, he found that his mind was empty.

Is it grief and regret?

No, it's more——

"Excitement, isn't it?" Gilgamesh's laughing voice filled Kotomine Kirei's brain, "I am excited because I am curious, and I am looking forward to it because I am excited. Kotomine Kirei, you are looking forward to something beyond The ending you expected, an ending that you wrote with your own hands, but others can't predict."

"Such excitement, why suppress it, why hide it, why don't you despise it, why feel guilty! What you have experienced is the first step in the transition from a beast to an ape!"

Kotomine Kirei looked at Gilgamesh without an answer.

The King of Heroes laughed loudly: "What kind of eyes do you have, Kotomine Kirei! Take a mirror and look at your eyes at this moment, what you pursue and what you expect will be clear at a glance. Kirei, it is precisely because You never know what your heart is looking for, so you feel lost."

Averting Gilgamesh's blazing gaze, Kotomine Kirei's voice contained excitement that he himself hadn't noticed: "King of Heroes, you've told me so much, what do you want?" He never Believe in the pie in the sky, after Assassin, I don't believe in these so-called heroes.

No, you can't say you don't believe it.

It is precisely because he believes in these heroes too much that he feels that these heroes have also been human beings.

They are not the thin and rigid appearance in writing, not the story of a short "sacrifice" that ended, and they are not the so-called "perfect saints".They have their own interests, their own calculations, their own goals and plans, and even their own judgments.

Heroic spirits are not the 'tools' that Tosaka Tokiomi thought they were!

Kotomine Kirei looked at Gilgamesh.

When will the teacher realize that from the very beginning, it was not 'Gilgamesh' who was being used, but 'Tohsaka Tokiomi'!

——!

"Finally realized it, Kirei!" Gilgamesh looked at the brown-haired young man whose clothes seemed to have been approved by Lei, and let out a joyful laugh, "All along, what you have been confused about, what you have been looking forward to , are all 'values'." The King of Heroes finally threw out his own olive branch.

"What did you live for, and what do you want to sacrifice for?" The King of Heroes raised his lips, "The life of that Assassin gave you the answer, didn't it?"

If the old man (the virtuous king) doesn't say anything, then he doesn't know if he doesn't have clairvoyance?

What makes Kotomine Kirei so special to Kotomine Kirei, the completely different attitude of the coffee shop towards Emiya Kiritsugu and the Einzbern cyborg that day, and even his attire and offensive methods.

A life named 'Emiya Kiritsugu' can be seen with the naked eye.

He was not crowned with glory during his lifetime, and he was not allowed to be known to others after his death, but his life can still be described as "brilliant".This kind of life is so different from Kotomine Kirei's life, but the ending is so similar.

So, what is the difference between 'Emiya Kiritsugu' and 'Kotomine Kirei'?

Kotomine Kirei questioned himself like this.

If this is the case, if there is no name after death like this, if there is no peace in reincarnation after death, if the deceased will still suffer the same things as before, then what is the point of those penances, tribulations, and experiences?

For the first time, the godfather had doubts about his priesthood.

"Naturally because of pleasure," the King of Heroes seemed to sense Kirei's confusion, and he replied, "Naturally, it's for the pleasure of life."

As for after death?

To borrow the words of a certain get up and go goddess——

——After the death of this king, no matter how terrible the flood is!

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On the other side, Berserker, who had received a huge amount of information, appeared outside Einzbern's castle with a dazed expression. Looking at the barrier of the castle that was only a foot away from him, his mind was full of Caster. Gilgamesh's "In order for you to accept her, King Arthur chose to become King Arthur♀".

He remembered the importance Wang attached to himself.He remembered the act of the king deciding to entrust himself with a heavy responsibility when he saw him for the first time during the knight's duel.He remembered the king's will to guard Camelot and Queen Guinevia when he was away.He remembered the days when sitting at the round table, he only needed to tilt his head slightly to see the face of the king.

Lancelot raised his hand, and after hesitating over and over again, he finally released his Noble Phantasm - "Knight of Owner"

Lancelot himself didn't expect that the Noble Phantasm of the Berserk class actually came from a duel in his lifetime.His opponents tricked him into a duel without any weapons.Lancelot readily agreed, picked up a branch at random during the duel, and defeated his opponent.

He himself doesn't know how this ordinary, which is not something to boast about in the eyes of the Knights of the Round Table, is how it was extended to become a Noble Phantasm.But his family knows his family affairs. As a knight brought up by the fairy in the lake, when he was so poor that he was sitting on a golden mountain but had no money to buy a sword, he was just gesticulating with branches...

"Knights don't die with bare hands" can endow the weapons in their hands with Noble Phantasm attributes and can be used to drive them. However, "Noble Phantasm" is defined as "anything that can recognize the range of a weapon" and is judged to be a "treasure." The weapon with the tool will be transformed into ownership in the hands of Lancelot and become his dominator.

In other words, if I touch something, it is mine!

So in broad daylight, Berserker Lancelot raised his hand and stuck it on the barrier of the Einzbern family castle, and spent [-] second fighting for ownership. In the remaining [-] seconds, he will The elder sister who was originally difficult to get in and easy to get out has become difficult to get out and easy to get in.

Well, in that case...

Lancelot stood there and thought for a while.

If I touch Guinevia's little hands, will Guinevia be willing to leave with me?

Lancelot, who never saw Guinevia again until his death, looked at the obedient schoolboy-like enchantment under his palm, and felt that it would be great to be a Heroic Spirit!

Though thinking this way, Lancelot still couldn't hide his excitement as he looked at the branches swaying in the wind in the distance.If there was any regret during his lifetime, it was that he could not see the king again. When he heard the news, Mordred had already launched a rebellion, and the Knights of the Round Table were defeated by the attack of the rebels due to the battle and internal reasons.

He who was far away in France heard the news and came and saw only the rumor that Bedivere was leading the king's horse and leaving in silence.He didn't know where the king was buried, he didn't know how many of his round table friends died at the hands of his colleagues in the past, and he didn't know how much he was responsible for all of this.

The world says that King Arthur doesn't understand people's hearts, but for Lancelot, such a fair and impartial king is the one he is willing to follow all his life.Even if he made a mistake, if there is a chance to make up for it, he is willing——

Lancelot's eyes lit up involuntarily at the thought of meeting his king soon and being able to make up for the regrets of his life.

At that time, Lancelot, who didn't know Gaharad, didn't see King Arthur♂ with his own eyes, and didn't even know the version of Artoria with a gay purple gun, sighed like this.

But even if you know, once you think about it, there are Altria, Altria Lily, Altria Swimsuit, White Spear, Altria alte*2, Hairless, Mysterious Heroine X, the seat of Heroes, For a knight of the round table with a royal attribute, it must be heaven (di) hall (yu)! ! !

I heard... there is also little Arturia?

Lancelot, who was misled by the wise king, rubbed his hands excitedly.

The author has something to say: I am probably really not suitable for writing relaxed and pleasant articles...

Facing the computer screen for three hours, my mind is full of discussions such as 'Royal Way', 'Pleasure and Penance', 'The similarities and differences between Kiritsugu and Kirei's endless destiny', 'Royal Way, Overbearing and Knightly Way', etc. Proposition Orz