Heterogeneous love

The words are ruthless, but in the end it can't be worth a heartbreak.

Jue Chu was gone when I went back, I smiled wryly, it turned out that no one would really wait for someone at the same place, so it’s better to just listen to it and take it as the truth.

Walking along the school wall all the way, I don't know how long I walked...

It was getting dark, I stopped in a small corner, sat down against the wall, sat there in a daze, my heart was empty, my head was also very tired, I buried my head and hugged my knees, just wanted to sleep, and then No need to wake up.

I don't know how long I have been sitting like this, but I only know that the voices of people in the distance are getting smaller and smaller...

Until Jue Chu came to find me, he knelt down and gently pulled me, his voice was soft, "Yuanyuan, let's get up and go back, shall we?"

Such a gentle voice, at that moment I almost thought it was my brother, I raised my head suddenly, but when I saw it clearly from behind, I fell down in a daze.

It turns out that after such a long time, I still haven't given up, I still haven't given up.

It turns out that what you don't want to give up on is getting discouraged again and again...

"Jechu," my voice was hoarse, "Why are you? How did you find this place?"

He twitched the corners of his mouth, "You have been useless since you were a child, and you have to rely on things that don't move to feel safe. Every time I approach you, you always lean against the corner. After all these years, you still haven't grown up. .”

……

He squatted down, turned his back to me, "Come up."

I looked at him, and it took me a while to climb onto his back.

That night, I don't know how long I walked with my back on my back. I only remember that I fell asleep on his back so sleepy at the end.

When I woke up again, I was in the small room my brother left me, Jue Chu hugged me and fell on the bed, already fast asleep.

As soon as I moved, he woke up in a daze, perhaps half awake, and said in a daze, "Yu Qingyuan, don't go anymore, I'm afraid I won't be able to find you again this time." Then he fell asleep again. past.

My heart ached and I didn't move.I looked up at the desk, where my keys were lying.He is smart, and he still wants to get the key to come here...

I didn't feel sleepy anymore, but I didn't move.Looking sideways at Jue Chu's face.

So sharp-edged, he still frowned when he was asleep, as if there was something he couldn't think about in his heart...

Why are we torturing each other like this?

In the end, no one is better off...

Jue Chu woke up around eight o'clock, turned to look at me, "Are you awake?"

I looked at him, silent, and it took a long time before I spoke.

"Juechu, aren't you tired?"

He raised his eyebrows and said nothing.

I looked up at the ceiling, "I'm tired, so tired, my heart is covered in ashes, no matter how I wipe it off, I can't clean it. How can love be like this? I just want to love someone well."

Jue Chu stretched out his hand and rubbed my hair, "The person you love doesn't love you, there is nothing you can do about it."

I glanced at him, "Then when I treated you like that before, didn't you feel tired after working so hard?"

He smiled, with a bit of bitterness, "It's very tiring. I've thought about it. There are so many fragrant grasses in the world, and you are just a dog's tail grass. Why should I hold on to it so hard. But the heart and reason It’s two different things, I say that with my mouth, I think it in my head, but I can’t let it go in my heart, so what can I do? I just have to hold on, there is no other way.”

"Decided."

"Ok?"

I hugged him, "I'm sorry."

He sighed and laughed at himself, "Yu Qingyuan, you hug me like this—you should know that I've never been a gentleman."

I smiled, raised my head, and kissed the corner of his mouth lightly like the way he kissed me last time, "I've never been a fair lady either."

Jue Chu was stunned for a moment, and held my hand tightly, his voice was a little rough, "Yuanyuan, you are playing with fire."

"I know. So, are you willing to die with me?"

He was silent for a while, kisses fell like raindrops, his hands came in from my wide cuffs, his voice was as soft as a whisper, "Yu Qingyuan, you used the wrong word, this situation should be called dry wood."

I twitched the corners of my mouth, didn't speak, and sighed silently in my heart, "No, Juechu, it's death. I will eventually drag you to hell together, and you will never be reborn..."

……

Jue Chu was very gentle, and his kiss was very domineering, almost taking his breath away.But his movements were very gentle, as if he was afraid of hurting me.

There was no pain as imagined, really no, but I still cried, unable to express the feeling at that time.

Jue Chu didn't say anything, just gently kissed my tears away, feeling sorry for me.

Afterwards, I smiled and praised him, "You are very skilled, how many times have you practiced?"

His face turned pale and red, he gritted his teeth, "Yu Qingyuan! You clearly know that you are my first woman."

"Oh~" I drew a long tone, "Didn't it mean that a lonely man who is stimulated by love can easily become a playboy, and can't get along with one woman after another?"

He raised Danfeng's eyes sideways, with a half-smile, "Are you interrogating or are you jealous?"

I lost my words all of a sudden, Jue Chu laughed loudly, came to hug me, and was kicked by me.

I don't know where he got there, he covered his body and bent down, "You murdered your husband?"

I understood it all at once, and my face turned red.

Jue Chu smiled and came over to hug me, and sighed softly in my ear.

"We're going to buy medicine. We haven't made any preparations. I'm afraid you will have problems."

"Ah."

He gently rubbed my ears, "Taking medicine is very bad for your health, and he would never be willing to let you take medicine like this, but I am different from him. He is not afraid that you will change, I will, I am afraid of you Turn around and never refuse again."

"Besides, you know that I've never been a kind person. There's no reason why I wouldn't open my mouth when the girl I love is brought to my mouth. But I promise this is the first and last indulgence, and I won't let you take medicine again. But Yu Qingyuan, why?"

I was stunned for a moment, then understood, and joked with a smile, "It shouldn't be so many years for such a good young man to be by my side. I think it's a waste of resources. Why don't we develop it..."

Jue Chu looked at me silently, with a rare serious expression on his face. I couldn't go on anymore, turned my head, and answered him indifferently, "I'm tired. After so many years, I'm tired. No matter how hard it is for love, it's always worth it. I can't stand not having that person's response. If it goes on like this, I will hate him, I will hate him very much."

"I don't want to waver anymore, I don't want to give myself hope anymore, I won't waver anymore, I won't have hope anymore, and I won't experience despair again and again..."

Jue Chu sighed, and hugged me tightly, "Yuanyuan. Let's get married. I know it's not the right time, but let's get married. I've already got an offer from the University of Hong Kong. We'll get married after you finish your graduate studies, okay?" good?"

I was silent for a long time, and finally sighed in his arms and gave a soft "um".

Jue Chu hugged me and smiled happily, "Yuanyuan, I want a daughter, I want a daughter! She is as cute as you were when you were young! I braided her shofars, but you never pulled my braids when I was young..."

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I have no desire to ask the heavens, is this the so-called settlement after autumn?