Heterogeneous love

After falling asleep at night, he was woken up by Jue Chu.

I looked at him with confused eyes, "what's wrong?"

He squatted on the edge of the bed and looked at me without speaking.

I was a little annoyed, so I pushed him, "Why are you so nervous, you don't sleep in the middle of the night."

"Yu Qingyuan, you are crying again."

"It will wake someone up."

I froze, and then fell asleep again.Looking at the dark sky outside the window, the car was running so fast that no lights could be seen.

It was also very dark in the carriage, only a few faint lights were on, and it was a bit cold.

I sat up wrapped in the quilt, no longer sleepy, just holding the quilt in a daze.

Jue Chu sat down next to me and didn't speak.I just stretched out my hand to warm my cold hand, his palm was so warm that I was so weak that I wanted to cry.

"For a while, I was like this. I cried and cried for nightmares every night. Later, my buddies in the dormitory couldn't stand it anymore, so they came up with a trick. When I fell asleep, I tied a rope around my ankle, and I woke up in the middle of the night. As soon as I was called to the buddy on the opposite bed, I pulled the rope. When I was pulled awake for the first time, I thought I was bitten by a snake, so I jumped up."

I burst out laughing with a "puchi", and recalled the situation when his roommate called me at that time, my heart ached, and I glanced at him.

He was looking down at me with a smile, his eyes were full of gentle smiles, but I understood how much pain I had experienced behind that smile, my heart was sore, and I pulled the quilt and half covered him.

"It will always pass. Yu Qingyuan. It will always pass. In the past, I always thought that that person was irreplaceable to me. There are so many people, but I just met her, and then I locked myself in prison. I just waited for her. Redemption, everyone else has become a general."

"But later, after all, I peeled her off from my heart. It hurts, it really hurts." His eyes were a little twisted and foggy, "It hurts just like you do now, like the whole person is being torn apart alive."

"I waited for a long, long time, but she still didn't come back. At that time, I was in so much pain that I wished I could die immediately, but I was still alive. Because someone told me that people will die for a long time, so you must live well. alive."

"So I told myself, live. Live well. Even if I never see her again, even if I can't find her again, at least I can still miss her, at least I can still know if she is doing well."

I was so sad that I couldn't speak, I looked up at him, "I'm sorry, Jue Chu. I'm sorry."

He didn't answer, but just lowered his head to look at me, his eyes were as deep as the deepest sea in the world, without bottom.

"But, Yu Qingyuan, why are you still so worthless after all these years. You cry at every turn, and you still don't keep the person you want, and make yourself skinny, as if you can be blown away by a gust of wind."

"Why are you still so useless?"

I cried and couldn't speak.

He sighed, pulled me to his shoulders, ran his fingers lightly through my hair, and patted my back to comfort me.

"Yu Qingyuan."

"Ok?"

"I won't let go this time. I can't let you go like this."

My mind was numb, and I looked up at him blankly.

With his warm fingers, he wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes.

"I promised you that I will let you see it when you turn around. Now that he has left, I can't leave again." He lowered his head and kissed my lips, such thin, cool and soft lips , obsessed with tongue...

"Yu Qingyuan, I won't let you go this time. No matter what you say, I won't let you go..."