Heterogeneous love

Seeing that I was silent, Jue Chu turned his head away.There was still a smile on the corner of his mouth, but his expression was desolate and confused, and his eyes were thin and cool like mist. My heart tightened, I didn't know how to face his expression, so I simply turned around and hid in the kitchen.

After standing in the kitchen for a while, I put mung beans and rice into the pot, turned on a small fire, and cooked porridge.I took chicken nuggets and shrimps from the refrigerator, and started to cook.

The dinner was a hearty one, although it couldn't compare to what my aunt cooked.But I am naturally delicious, and I have a lot of inspiration for cooking. I have helped my aunt in the kitchen for many years, and the dishes I cook are pretty good.

After tossing and tossing for about an hour, I finally finished the dishes, and when they brought them out of the kitchen, Jue Chu was still leaning on the mat and watching TV, and he didn’t even move his posture, but the smile on his face disappeared at some point. The face is indifferent.

I didn't dare to ask him to serve the dishes, so I took all the dishes out of the kitchen and put them on the dining table, and looked back at him, but he didn't even lift his eyelids.

I hesitated for a while, then called softly, "Brother Jue Chu?"

Jue Chu's body shook, and he looked back at me with an incredulous expression.

I bit my lip and felt my heart beating non-stop. Resisting the urge to retreat, I still called out softly, "Brother Jue Chu..."

Jue Chu stood up from the seat cushion, ran to me three steps at a time, grabbed my shoulder, "What did you call me?"

I was frightened by his expression, I only thought that I had said something wrong again, so I stopped talking.

Seeing that I was silent, Jue Chu frowned, and then tried to coax me with a soft and gentle tone, "Yuanyuan, you call me brother, don't you?"

I bit my lip and nodded lightly, thought about it, and nodded again.

Jue Chu laughed loudly, picked me up and turned around twice, "Yuanyuan, it's been 11 years! It's been 11 years since you last called me Brother Jue Chu! You're finally willing to call me brother again!"

I was dizzy from being shaken by him, "Put me down, shake me out!"

"If you don't let it go, you won't let it go! I will never let it go in my life!" He said and turned around twice.

I just felt my head being shaken all over the place, and shouted at him, "Lin Juechu! Put me down! I'm dizzy!"

So, it landed safely.

Juechu held my hand excitedly, turned around and glanced at the food on the table, then turned his head to look at me with a half-smile, and gently pinched my cheek, "What is this? I thought I was as greedy as you." ? Just fooling around with something to eat? Or are you trying to please me?"

I took a look at Jue Chu, he was really in a good mood.

If so, let’s make it clear once in a while.

"Decided."

"Huh?" He hummed twice.

I immediately changed my words, "Brother Jue Chu."

Jue Chu was extremely satisfied with my reaction, raised his eyebrows, and motioned for me to continue.

I pressed my heart to keep it from beating wildly, so that I could finish the next sentence smoothly.

"Brother Juechu, I know you are good to me. I didn't like you before, because you always bullied me and fought with my brother when I was young. Later, when I grew up, I understood something more or less. When my aunt scolded me, you Putting the topic aside, staying in my room at night to read is also to prevent my aunt from coming to my room and scolding me; you tell your aunt that I will give you extra lessons, so your grades have improved. In fact, you are very smart and genuine. I work very hard, and my grades have nothing to do with me. You just want my aunt to treat me better and let me go home, don't you?"

Jue Chu interrupted me with a smile, "Who says you have no credit at all, didn't you tell me ancient poems?"

I also twitched the corners of my mouth and smiled, but tears also fell, "Brother Jue Chu, I know that you are kind to me. I am also a human being, with flesh and blood, and I know how well you know. I know that you are kind to me. So although you are sometimes fierce, I am not very afraid."

"You ask me why I'm always my brother. I don't know how bad I am to you and my brother. My brother has taken care of me since I was a child. I can't do without him. I have to sleep soundly and peacefully in his arms. I feel at ease and happy when I stay by his side, I can't find the feeling that my brother gave me, I can't find that feeling in others."

"I can't find it, so I can't help it. You are also my brother. Although you and my brother are different, you also treat me sincerely, but I can't treat you like my brother."

"Brother Jue Chu, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." My tears flowed out, I didn't know what to say.

Jue Chu gently held me in his arms, and it took him a long time to laugh at himself, "I understand. I always knew that you don't have me in your heart. No matter how much I do and how well I do, I will never be able to do what you want. You want that. Yuanyuan, you said you can’t find it, so he can’t replace it. But I can’t find it either, and I can’t find the person to replace you, so I can’t help it.”

"It's not that I haven't thought about it. Since you don't want to see me, why should I put my hot face on someone's cold ass. But I can't help it, I'm afraid you will be sad, I'm afraid you will be lonely, I'm afraid he won't give you what you want. I know that I may never be able to replace him, but I can't control myself, I can't control myself to compare myself with him. You say I'm smart and studious, but I'm not, I don't like learning at all, I just don't want to lose to him, I just want you to know that what he can do, I can do too."

"So I make it difficult for myself, but as long as I think that this difficulty is all for you, I feel happy."

"Yuanyuan, you said you can't help it. Then you should understand my feelings, I can't help it. But if there is a little way, I won't let myself down to where I am today. I can't help it, so don't embarrass me. I just want to be with you all the time, so that I can see you when you turn around, so that I won’t be alone and helpless. But Yuanyuan, he can’t give you what you want. A person with his personality thinks he’s an upright man and a gentleman can’t be wronged. , what you want, how can he give it?"

"Yuanyuan, he can't afford it. And I just want to ask you, if he can't afford it, do you want more?"

I was crying so hard that I couldn't speak, I just shook my head, "I don't know, I don't know. But brother won't want me, brother won't..."

"You don't know. Then I will watch. See if he dares to ask you. Yuanyuan, if he doesn't want you, I will. I will, as long as you are willing. I will." His face is calm, and so is his voice. Not the slightest fluctuation, but I feel sad.