autumn sunshine

The sun was shining outside the house, and the breeze gently brushed the white window screens. It was obviously summer, but it looked particularly cool, even a little chilly.Just like my current mood, with a coldness that I don't even want to see.

His right hand was broken, his thigh, calf, chest, back, abdomen, cheek... More than 50 places were injured all over his body.I looked at Xiaojie who was lying in a coma on the hospital bed and gritted his teeth, completely ignoring Hanzo who had been standing behind him for more than two hours.No matter what, I don't want to see him. Even though I know that in the game, it is inevitable to be injured in the battle, even if you die, you are responsible for yourself, but I still can't forgive.But, what right do I have to not forgive, Hanzo is not wrong, what is wrong?The fault is that Xiaojie is too stubborn, stubborn and unwilling to admit defeat, even if the opponent is so much stronger than him.Thinking back to the scene I saw that day, I really wished I could drag the child lying on the hospital bed out and punish him until he realized his mistake.

When Kulabika entered the ward, what he saw was such a strange scene. It was obviously a dog day, but he was covered in cold sweat.He waved to Hanzo to signal him to leave first.

"How is Xiaojie?" Kulabica's gentle voice was full of concern.

"I haven't woken up yet." I didn't turn my head, looking at Xiaojie's face, "To be honest, I hope he doesn't wake up now, otherwise..." Otherwise, he will definitely blame himself for the weird thing, and then he will definitely ignore it No matter what the situation is now, I have to go to Qiya.

That child Qi Ya actually had an accident, in front of us, no one can do anything.No one knew that the weird looking man with nails who was fighting Kirya could be his brother. When the disguise was removed, I saw Kirya's big terrified eyes.

And I don't even know if this guy who seems to be mean-spirited is actually a killer, or a family killer.If I knew, I would definitely not let Xiaojie get too close to him... But I know that is impossible, even I can't do it, let alone Xiaojie who is so like-minded with Qi Ya.After all, I was too selfish.

I just can't leave Kiya alone.I know that my heart actually loves him.

Recalling the scene at that time, I don't know how to evaluate it. It was the first time I heard of the term "beating the enemy" and this surname that day.Leorie even told me that in the trap tower, Qi Ya could actually dig out a human heart with his bare hands.I was surprised, and it took me a long time to find my heartbeat. What was I thinking at that time?I don't know, it's just that for a short moment I felt like my heart was being pulled.

Qi Ya finally gave in, I watched him say that he wanted to be friends with Xiaojie, and he didn’t want to be a killer, and I also watched his brother threaten Xiaojie’s life and death, talking about it like the weather A person's life and death.At that moment, I was angry, but at the same time I was sober again, I once again felt our own weakness, in this world of the strong, our weakness is controlled by random domination, even life and death and thoughts It will be all right.

After the game, I never saw the light in Qi Ya's eyes again, the child seemed to be dead, there was no wave in his eyes, from the death of his heart to his body, his hands were firmly stuck in his pockets , I don’t know if it’s my illusion, I always feel that the hand in the pocket is shaking, whether it’s anger, sadness, or helplessness…

I didn't want to comfort him, because at that time I didn't know how to speak, I told him against my will that it didn't matter, Xiaojie would still be friends with you, or should I tell him don't worry, as long as you don't want to be a killer, you won't become a killer?I think these words are ridiculous when I think about them. Let’s not say that I don’t want Xiaojie to get involved with such a dangerous family, including Kulabika. his attention.If you don't want Xiaojie to be threatened again, if I still have the brains, I must not challenge his brother's patience at this time.

The breeze blew gently, and my hair was lifted up a few strands. Looking at Xiaojie's sleeping face, my heart was heavy.I did analyze everything sensibly, and acted sensibly according to the analysis. Whether I chose to watch on the test field or I don’t want Xiaojie to wake up now, I am sane.

But isn't the most unreliable thing in a person is the heart!

In fact, I was worried in my heart, the conflict was selfish, and I was self-righteous thinking that these were all for Xiaojie and for the good of others!What the hell is this?When did I become so cold-blooded and cruel?

"Migal, I can probably guess what you're worried about," Kurabica said in the quiet ward, "Are you worried about Kiya?"

"..." Kulabica, do you know why I always don't want Xiaojie to be with you?In addition to the deep hatred in your body, you are also too smart, so smart that I am afraid that one day you will use your own intelligence, use Xiaojie, and use our friendship to accomplish your goals.Your cleverness tore away all my calm pretense at once. I trembled and resented, but I had to admit that I was worried about Qi Ya.

"Kurabika, you're so smart that people hate you." I suddenly didn't want to fake my feelings, and even my voice carried a coldness that I didn't know.

"Migal, you finally said it," Kulabi paused, "Actually, I have always had feelings, Migal, you don't like me... Sorry, the word like is not very appropriate. "

"I don't like you. I don't like you ever since I knew you were carrying the hatred of extermination. I don't want Xiaojie to get too close to you, because I know that once Xiaojie recognizes you as his friend, then even if Xiaojie What a difficult and unreasonable request, as long as you open your mouth, he will agree to you, and even if you can't do it, you will try your best to help you." This time, I finally did not turn my back on Kulabika, I stood Standing up and turning around, he looked straight at Kulabika.

"I'm afraid that your approach is purposeful. I'm afraid that you will use everything to achieve what you want in the future. I'm afraid..."

"I won't! Migal!" Kulabika interrupted my words loudly, and then his voice dropped again, as if he was saying something unconsciously, "But maybe you're right...you're right ..."

"...I know you can't, it's because I know you can't, that I hate you even more!!! Obviously tell me rationally how dangerous you are, but... But emotionally, I can no longer let you go I don't care! It's so annoying, you guys! It doesn't matter if it's Kurabica, or Kira...you're all too annoying!"

I closed my eyes, a hot current surged up from my heart, scalded my eyes, rushed out of the last shackles, and flowed down without any scruples.

I cried, for the first time I lay on Xiaojie's hospital bed and cried like a real child.Xiaojie was still lying on the hospital bed, still awake, and standing behind him was Kulabika, whom I hated to death but had to worry about, and I knew that I was still worried that I would be canceled for the hunter exam because of murder. Qi Ya with qualifications, all of them are worry-free guys.

The next afternoon, Xiaojie finally woke up.

The first thing I did after waking up was to ask about the exam situation. I didn't stop anyone from telling him that Xiaojie always wanted to know.When he learned from the examiner about his exam situation since he was knocked unconscious by Hanzo, he lifted the quilt and ran out without saying a word, while I stood quietly by the window, leaning against the window sill, quietly without sleeping. There was no stop, no hope to go in the direction of Xiaojie's departure.

The examiner named Saci who had been talking with Xiaojie just now also quietly accompanied me in that ward for a while, and then left.

So, when I knew that Xiaojie planned to beat up the enemy Hakka and take away Qi Ya, I was really not surprised at all.I looked at Leorio and Kulabica, they also nodded in agreement, I smiled helplessly and rubbed Xiaojie's hair without saying anything.

Ever since I confessed my thoughts to Kulabika, I don’t know if it’s an illusion. I always feel that Kulabika seems to have changed. He hides his emotions about those exterminations or revenge more, and what he shows The breath became more and more gentle.If he encounters the time alone with me, he will also want to know more about Xiaojie, and he will also want to know me and our life on Whale Island before.He smiled and said that he has long lost his childhood, so he is very envious of Xiaojie and me.

I can feel that those words did not increase the distance between Kulabika and me, but made us understand and tolerate each other better.

I once asked him why he didn't care about what I said before.Kulabika just smiled and said that even if he is hated, he is still very happy, because at least there are people in this world who care about him, and he knows what I said is ironic.

I laughed, it was the first time we talked since that conversation, on the way to Chiya's house.I think, I probably have an attribute that is a knife-mouthed bean curd heart.

The hunter license is very useful, and 90.00% of the public facilities in the world are free for hunters.Xiaojie, Kulabica, and Leorio and I bought a ticket to Kiya's house with our hunter card, and beat the base camp of the enemy Hakka.

I played with the hunter certificate in my hand, and felt a little emotional. Speaking of it, if Qiya hadn’t committed a foul and killed someone and became the only unqualified candidate, it would not be so easy to get this hunter certificate. I didn’t even play. Opportunity.

Along the way, Xiaojie has been actively talking about bringing Qi Ya out of the house, and then we will go somewhere together, do what... I listened to my thoughts and drifted away, until Xiaojie begged for approval. Looking at me, I nodded my head in agreement.In fact, after thinking about it later, I didn't even hear what Xiaojie said, so I agreed.

My heart is not as relaxed as Xiaojie said. To be honest, I don't think that the family of killers who beat the enemy will let go of Qi Ya's control easily.After all, I was in the examination room at the time, and from the conversation between Qi Ya and his brother, I was able to roughly analyze the character of their family.The mother loves the child extremely, to the point of being a little neurotic, but it is understandable, after all, it is such a dangerous world, and their family is engaged in such a dangerous profession, so the parents' love for their children will probably be a little paranoid, maybe extreme It may also be extreme abuse, but it seems that Qi Ya's parents are a little bit of both, and they are rationally educating their children about danger.Is it a professional killer, or is it inherited from the family.Let’s take a look at Qi Ya’s cross-dressing brother again. I remember his name is Illumi. From his words and deeds, he really fits the characteristics of a killer, with a strict expression and a voice that is so flat that there are no ups and downs. Even with a handsome face, Also because of his own characteristics, the sense of existence has been reduced to almost non-existent. Such a person is indeed a model killer.

However, speaking of it, most of these speculations about the killer are based on books. Many of them are fabricated by my own first sense plus the descriptions in books, and I can’t really compare them with Qi Ya. their home.Thinking of this, I am really glad that since Mitt knew that I was interested in reading books, he often asked people from the island to help me bring some books back.She also taught me how to read and write, and told me some interesting stories. Of course, most of them were made up by herself or told by other people on the island, and the contents were mostly warm fairy tales.Later, after I was able to read books by myself, when I was not stepping on mushrooms with Xiaojie, I always held them and flipped through them, not limiting the content, and seeing what I had.

I looked at the mountains retreating outside the train, and thought to myself, I don’t know what will be waiting for us at Qiya’s house...