My claws must be on it

What is despair?It's not the edict to go to hell after falling to the bottom, it's the person step by step from the mud to the flower field, thinking that he has exchanged his efforts for success, so he dares to accept the shining sunshine, and then suddenly finds that he is just stepping on a mirage.

Because Shang Zhixin felt that he was appeased when he was anxious, and Fang carefully accepted the kindness, which was the most rewarding.

Lou Ke was wrong about one thing, she mistakenly believed that Shang Zhixin and Jin Jiao were the same person, so no matter how much Shang Zhixin hated her, annoyed her, or belittled her, it was always because they had a past.But the blood awakening completely transformed her into another creature she had never seen before.

Shangzhixin seems to need to transform into a cocoon. Cocoons and butterflies are actually two completely separate lives. The worm body is actually a container used to provide energy.Jin Jiao was born as "food", and her fate was to wait for another soul in the blood to wake up and die as a cocoon.

How could Shang Zhixin care about her?She is cruel enough to torture people.

……

"Otherwise, why would Gu let you live? Naturally, there are better ways to give you than death."

Shang Zhixin pointed at her, shaking her head like a pretty girl, with a breathless smile:

"Pfft. Lou Ke... Lou Aiqing, you don't know, you are a coward. Do you remember what you said to Gu when you first came back?"

The separation and reunion of the two has been settled, and the Lou Ke is self-aware that he is a sinner through the ages, so he refuses to continue guarding the northern demon realm, and insists on returning to the imperial capital and letting him be punished.

She said: "The minister is guilty."

The crime is to deceive and use the young princess to achieve his own goals, but he never mentions the love between the two.

She admits that the crime of deception is unforgivable, but at the same time denies her feelings for Jinjiao, and completely pushes her new relationship with Shangzhi to the position of "emperor" and "subject", in order to hide their past mutual affection, and would rather Be a sinner, don't want to be a betrayer.

Because she dared to bear the consequences of bullying the king, she didn't dare to think about her heart-but whether she was heartless or not, it could not be erased by concealing it, and it could be ignored by denying it.

So the only thing Shang Zhixin did was to force her to admit that what she owed was love, and she couldn't let it go.It was a process that required patience, but she had nothing to do anyway.

……

Lou Ke's mind was blank, staring blankly at Shang Zhi's newly opened and closed lips, but there was only a meaningless piercing sound in her ears... She hadn't closed her eyes for a long time, and the dazed feeling of falling from the clouds hadn't dissipated yet.

"Of course you are guilty, and you are still stupid." Shang Zhixin said: "When Gu didn't think of you, you didn't feel comfortable staying at the border, but you came back knowing that Gu hated your annoying talk, but you wanted to behave in front of Gu.

Do you think Gu doesn't know that you did it on purpose?Deliberately annoy Gu Gu in order to let Gu beat you and kill you... Let's chat to comfort my guilt.Where in the world is there such a cheap thing. "

She gradually grinned, recreating the indifferent look of killing people in front of the palace that day: "It's hard to be around Gu, isn't it? Is Gu moody? Is it easy to get angry suddenly? You idiot!"

"No one will ever see the loneliness, because they will die before then! The loneliness puts up with you."

As she spoke, her voice suddenly slowed down again, not to be embarrassed: "Is the 'tyrant' you served before enough to suffocate people? But you still don't know who Gu is."

……

Lou Ke originally thought that even if she had bumps and bumps along the way, it would always point to a full stop.But it seems that the first half of her life went smoothly, so now she needs to pay back.

She should be the legitimate son of Jinyi Yushi, with a high strength and a light spirit.At that time, the young man in brocade clothes was peerless, with his own ice pot to wash his soul and white jade to mold his bones. He was so proud that he had to wait for his elder family to have a smooth and smooth career.

So she, Shen Ya, is cold and arrogant, with a youthful spirit and conceited of her identity, taking experience as a trifle, filling her qualifications with her life and failures.

... But it is not easy for anyone to live in this world. Back then, she was healthy and proud, defying fate, and then fate would teach her to be a human being and deprive her of everything bit by bit.

Father's death, broken family, sea of ​​blood

feud.The arrogance she needs to tear off is lurking in the enemy's mansion, and if she makes a wrong step, she will be doomed.She lied, assassinated, framed... Bloody broken her own bones and muscles, stained with darkness, no more noble.

Then seduce the innocent girl and use it as a pawn, be the most gentle vassal, and peek at her crony of power gracefully.

But what she did wrong was not only that she cheated too much and made herself unable to get out, but more importantly... she cheated the wrong person at all.There is a demon inhabiting the girl's body.So all the painstaking efforts instantly return to zero!This pathetic avenger not only failed to wash away the hatred, but was grabbed by the throat by the devil.

Therefore, people should not underestimate fate. The favored son of heaven is like a guest in a building. Doesn’t he still walk from his clothes to ragged, sunny to leaning on the dirty darkness.

She finally changed, the former pampered nobleman became a qualified leader, forbearing and powerful, resourceful and humble.The price is that the formerly powerful ethnic group is now falling heavily on her shoulders and crumbling, and the young and healthy people at that time are now covered in bruises and have a short lifespan.

Life is all about fate.

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When Lou Ke woke up from the bed again, he was in a bad state.She breathed in panic, and vaguely felt that she had a nightmare, her throat was so dry and sore, she tremblingly prevented the maids from helping them and the water that was handed to her mouth, and asked, "Where is the Lord?" Her tone was like that of a girl Desperately seeking a lover's comfort and refuge is generally startling.

The maids looked at each other in panic, and one of them stumbled carefully and said: "The Lord left a message. If you know it, you will follow it. But if you want to see her, she is by the lake in the Royal Garden..." Before they finished talking, Lou Ke had already left.

……

She looked a little dazed, and the deep demeanor that she never lost when she woke up from the prison with bruises all over her body was gone now, and she staggered forward in the thin underwear.

Fear gripped her pulsating organs, and she vaguely remembered something she couldn't accept as if it had happened:

What I thought I was holding was the ashes of a phantom. The girl named "Jiao Jiaoer" was going away from her. If she didn't look for it, there would be no more of that person.

Her eyes were dim for a while, and when she was about to faint, one gently supported her.

……

But she suddenly became stiff, turned her head, and moaned: "Lord..." Shang Zhi raised his eyebrows, and before he could speak, he was hugged.

"My lord, I was wrong. I shouldn't have mentioned Jin Jiao and that year. My sin is unforgivable, so I shouldn't ask for forgiveness." She did something wrong, so she shouldn't think that there is a reunion between them. Yes, she shouldn't think that she is Lou Ruosu and Shang Zhixin is Jinjiao.

Shang Zhixin raised his head, as if he wanted to speak, but was interrupted by the guest, and eagerly added:

"I'm a sinner. The Lou family... deceived the emperor and owed everything to the Lord. I'm here to atone for my sins. I can't hold Xiao Xiao in your mind."

She was probably about to cry, and she tried her best to bear it, her words were full of blank blankness and fear:

"You said that the good minister is your toy, something to play with at your feet... I know, I really know!" Her teeth were chattering, and she tried to calm down, but she couldn't, so her prayer was very strong :

"The surname Du will be your empress. I understand that I will have no children..." The prime minister's family will be the new in-laws who cling to Shangzhi, and her Lou family will be forever suppressed in the bottom of hell. The gentleman who was admired became a slave and pastime... She said, she didn't know whether she was ashamed or excited, her cheeks flushed slightly:

"Please... play jester..."

Then... please don't leave me...

……

"Have you finished?" Shang Zhixin's voice rang in her ear.

Lou Ke trembled and nodded slightly.

She then patted Lou Ke on the head: "Let go of Gu."

Lou Ke did as he said, took a step back, knelt down before her, and stood in front of her in a daze, pale from the winter wind, with a dazed expression, like a helpless child.

"Ai Qing

Do you know how you became like this? "Shang Zhixin narrowed his eyes.

The guest shakes his head.

"Because you fell in love with Gu." Shang Zhixin ignored her gradual panic, and said: "Jin Jiao was cheated by you, and you feel guilty and want to make it up to Gu. But you dare not admit that you love Gu, because Terrible things are going to happen."

"You're right, but it's a pity that you couldn't resist the temptation in the end... Think about it, too. You've been having a hard time recently, and you probably think you're making atonement. Since Gu accepts your atonement, it's possible to forgive you."

Shang Zhixin smiled: "Why do you have this expression?"

Lou Ke looked at her desperately.

"Jin Jiao loved you, but after all, there is no more Jin Jiao in this world."

Shang Zhixin shook his head: "That's a fool. She loves you but at the same time respects you and regards you as 'heaven'. But you burned her letter and threw away her jade......"

"But do you dare to treat Gu like this?" Shang Zhixin said: "You treat the purse that Gu Sui threw to you as a treasure, even if you tease the sword you gave Du Aiqing, you dare not return it."

"Look," she said, "sarcasm."

"Lord..." She approached her tremblingly, her expression gradually collapsed, and she finally couldn't help saying: "But you are Jinjiao... Even if I did something wrong, don't treat me like this... You might as well just kill me." I-"

Shang Zhixin was a little dissatisfied: "Shut up, come with Gu."

Lou Ke walked over in a daze, stood in the center of the pavilion and watched Shang Zhi sit down again, like a wind-up toy after the order was executed, and stopped again.

Shang Zhixin said, "Kneel down."

She knelt down.

Shang Zhixin said: "Give the tree branches at your feet to Gu."

She touched it and presented it.

Shang Zhixin took it, played with it, and suddenly stepped on her joints with force and pierced her palm with the branch.

"Woo—!" Lou Ke was caught off guard, groaning in pain, and in shock, he was pinched by the back of his neck and moved his whole face closer to the burning fire platform next to the rain pavilion. The burning sensation irritated his eyeballs.

"Aiqing's words are really presumptuous today! I know that you are a bit hit today, but one has to live." Shang Zhixin's voice was relaxed and indifferent, threatening her by the fire, even faintly preaching:

"In this way, go back and be your General Lou, as you said before, 'You and Gu will always be just monarchs and ministers', Gu will let you go, okay?"

Lou Ke shook his head in panic, stumbled and said: "No! Don't... I won't leave..."

How could she do it?She had just faced up to her new love for Shangzhi, and was promoted to the clouds, but was pushed to hell with a mocking smile, telling her that everything was a lie, a retribution for deceiving her feelings.

The reason why she was so anxious was because she was eager to delete the last step of what she did wrong, as if Shang Zhixin hadn't exposed it, and their previous relationship was real.

But how is this possible?She lost her head.

"Aren't you going?" Shang Zhixin didn't push her head into the fire anyway, so he relaxed his strength and squeezed her jaw: "Are you sure you're not going?"

"Hmm..." Before Lou Ke could speak, Shang Zhixin suddenly took the branch out of her palm, and stabbed it again next to the bloody hole: "Ugh!"

The internal force leaked out along the branches, and then connected layer by layer inside the meridians of flesh and blood, shattering the entire inner surface of her palm, causing her to convulse instantly.

Shang Zhixin pulled out a bloody branch, threw it into the flames, tilted his head as if flames were dancing in his pupils: "What now? Have you changed your mind?"

"I deserve it..." Lou Ke still hissed and repeated like a lunatic: "No matter what the Lord does to the minister, the Lord should do it, as long as the Lord does not let the minister go... the minister will do anything. Can."

……

"Any...?" Shang Zhixin chuckled, mocking her innocence, and finally revealed his cruel face: "Okay."

She raised the corners of her lips: "The Lou family's 'rebellion', the generation of Lou Guan tried to usurp the throne, it should be recorded in the annals of history. The Lou family will be reviled from generation to generation, men will be slaves and women will be slaves, and they will never stand up again

. "

Lou Ke's eyes

Startled, the thin ice surface in his pupils trembled, revealing the hesitation in his stubbornness.

Shang Zhixin continued: "Then everyone in the General's Mansion will not be able to escape the blame, and they will all be imprisoned." She smiled and leaned into Lou Ke's ear: "Ai Qing has been there, you can bear it, can they bear it?"

She straightened up and asked, "Sixteen punishments in pairs, is it enough for hundreds of people in your family?" Can you ignore yourself, can you ignore them?You are not alone...you have a lot of baggage!

That's right... People are never alone in this world, and Lou Ke is the eldest family of the General's Mansion.

……

Lou Ke's stupefaction and madness gradually faded away, his eyes gradually cleared up, and under the persecution of Shang Zhixin, they became clear again, and only then did he quickly change from a girl begging for warmth to a courtier.

When she wanted to compromise, she realized that there was no retreat from the beginning.She was a little dizzy, "reason" was like a poison and a sedative, and it returned, causing her numb nerves to ache again, and she was no longer able to be willful. Although she was crumbling, she had the strength to bear.

The childish madness was gone, she put her hands in the shackles again, and her tone was familiar weak and calm.

"...It's my fault, I was rude to my majesty today and said some nonsense." She murmured: "I have received your edict." As for this "imperial edict"... it belongs to her for the rest of her life.

See, that's what you said "anything".

Shang Zhixin narrowed his eyes, let go, and politely helped her up, seeing that she had lost all anger, he praised: "The general is indeed sensible."

"Yes." The Lou Ke asked in a daze: "That day the Lord's River Lantern wrote...'Smooth and wishful', are you satisfied?"

All of this... as you wish?

"That's natural." Shangzhi's new eyes bent comfortably, tilted his head kindly, smiled but didn't reach his eyes, and said in a sickly voice, "How many years does Aiqing have to live?"

"In the past few years, I have been struggling for loneliness."

……

Shang Zhixin sees everything in his eyes, and sees her exchanging everything she has left for forgiveness, leaving only the outer skin of the Chinese costume, with a mountain of guilt and responsibility on her shoulders, her thin body is almost bent, Still insist on moving forward step by step.

This short life was full of hardships, and she could not be redeemed until death.Man-made tragedy, as a pastime after dinner.

It's ridiculous that she was pushed back by fate, confessed her love under the cover of being a courtier in a panic, and immediately received a frightening reply.

Jin Jiao doesn't love her, and Shang Zhixin doesn't love her either.

... She just misses her.

Lou Ke felt a bit fishy and sweet in his throat, and tried to open his mouth, but the response was still so light that it was almost silent.

"The minister leads the order."

Had to do as she wished.