I may not be human [holographic]

That night, Lin Zhengyan had a dream.

In the dream, he turned into an eight or nine-year-old boy, thin and small, walking shyly on a remote road in the city.He was holding a big paper bag in his arms, the things inside were a bit heavy, and it was a bit hard to hold.But he couldn't let go, and he couldn't rest. He had to hurry back to the small courtyard to avoid some people he didn't want to meet.

However, the winter wind was too cold, he was blown a little staggered, he couldn't walk fast, and in the end he couldn't escape the group of bad kids.

A chubby boy stopped him, with a smirk on his face: "Yo, isn't this Lin nerd?"

The boy stepped forward and grabbed the paper bag in Lin Zhengyan's hand, yanked it, and snatched it away.

Lin Zhengyan was anxious and rushed forward to take it back, but was pushed to the ground by the boy.

"Tch, it's just such a small amount of junk, why would you want to snatch it from me?" The boy laughed loudly, tore up the whole paper bag, and spilled all the nutritional supplements and vitamin drinks in the bag on the ground.

Immediately afterwards, a few more boys surrounded him, giggling, and forced Lin Zhengyan, who had just stood up, to lean against the wall on the side of the street.

"Hahahaha, he's a Kupei, it's not bad if he can afford these things!"

"So what if you study well? Can you still get into an S-class school? You eat garbage every day, and your body is as weak as a woman..."

"It's like this without parents—"

"As a Kupei who eats money from our family, you are born inferior to us! Do you know that?!"

The children spoke freely, and in fact they didn't understand the concept of "Kubai people". They only knew that these people had no parents since birth, and lived entirely on the benefits provided by the federal tax.

Lin Zhengyan leaned against the wall, stubbornly not crying.

He has experienced this kind of thing more than once, and in the end, he will not suffer any harm, but he will be pushed and ridiculed.

It's just... those nutrients... I'm afraid they will be robbed a lot.

The residents in this neighborhood are actually not very rich. Although they look down on nutritional supplements, in fact, these things that can fill the stomach are still very important to the people here.

After the children taunted Lin Zhengyan, they lowered their heads and picked up the nutritional supplements from the ground and put them in their pockets. When they saw Lin Zhengyan coming up to grab them, they kicked them back.

"Put down everything in your hands!"

Suddenly, a stern voice sounded in everyone's ears.

The visitor was a sixteen or seventeen-year-old boy, tall and imposing.With one hand, he picked up the little fat man who caused trouble first, and with a smirk on his lips, he said to the troublemakers: "If you don't want to be beaten, return everything you took! Don't even try to run away!" My family name is Chang, even if you run away, I can find out who it is one by one!"

When the children heard this surname, they immediately showed panic expressions, quickly took out the nutritional supplements in their pockets, and threw them on the ground in front of Lin Zhengyan.

Lin Zhengyan immediately rushed forward and picked up all the nutrients.

But the paper bag has been damaged, he can only try to hold these scattered things with his hands, but he can't hold them, one falls to the east and another falls to the west.

The boy surnamed Chang said to the little fat man caught by him: "Federal law clearly stipulates that gene bank breeders and all people have equal status! Let me know that you bully the children in the orphanage, and I will tell you!" My dad! Take care of you one by one! Go away!"

After finishing speaking, he let go and let the frightened little fat man go.Several children who caused trouble quickly disappeared without a trace.

"Hey, I said, your body is too weak."

The young man stepped forward, took off his coat, helped Lin Zhengyan to scoop up nutritional supplements all over the floor, and said angrily, "Is this what the orphanage gives you to eat? And let you go out and buy it yourself? Those managers took the food donated by our Chang family. That’s how it works! I must tell my dad!”

Lin Zhengyan took the boy's coat wrapped with nutrients, and said in a low voice, "...Thank you."

The boy grinned and gave him a big smile. On the dark street in winter, it was as bright as a sparkling little sun.

He said: "To thank me, you have to work hard to contribute to the Federation! You were bred to balance the birth rate and population composition of the Federation, so you must be useful to the Federation, you know?"

The little Lin Zhengyan was overwhelmed by that energetic smile, and was speechless for a while.

The young man continued: "I'm going to the Fighter Air Corps of the First Federation Army in the future, isn't it amazing? You also have to work hard and exercise. If you want to thank me, come to the Fighter Air Corps to find me in the future!"

As soon as he finished speaking, he heard a roar from a distance: "Chang Fan! You kid is running around again! We are here with Dad to investigate, not to play! Come back to me!"

The boy shrank his neck, and said quickly, "Oh, it's over! I wanted to go to the game hall, but I was interrupted by you, so I have to be caught by my brother! I ran away first, you hurry up and take your things. Go back, don't let anyone bully you—”

By the time the last sentence was spoken, the person had already run away.

Lin Zhengyan stood still holding the bag of nutritional supplements wrapped in his coat, watching a young man chasing after the boy in the direction where he was running away, without even giving him a look.

The dream is changing and messy.

Lin Zhengyan suddenly returned to a tidy but lifeless small courtyard.

"Why have you been here for so long? Hey, why did you make the nutritional supplements so dirty? Have you been bullied again?"

A middle-aged woman babbled impatiently: "She is so weak, she is already nine years old, and no one is willing to adopt her, and she can't do any work in the yard. Going out to buy something will cause trouble! What do you think you have?" use?"

"Hey? Whose coat is this?"

"What Chang family? Master Chang family? Is this coat his?"

"Let go, let me go! You can also take Master Chang's coat?"

"Give it to me quickly, I will find a way to return it to him tomorrow!"

Lin Zhengyan only felt a burst of unwillingness in his heart, but he couldn't say anything.

The surrounding sound and light suddenly weakened and dimmed, and gradually fell into a silent darkness...

……

"Star mark time, six o'clock sharp."

Lin Zhengyan opened his eyes, feeling a little confused for a while.

He seemed to... had a dream?

He only had a vague impression of what happened in the dream. It seemed that he had dreamed of Shi Changan—when he was being bullied by someone and was extremely lonely and helpless, Shi Changan came down like a god and rescued him.

As for other details, they were hazy and I couldn't remember clearly.

Lin Zhengyan sat up from the bed and couldn't help chuckling.

It is said that Shi Chang'an has become a savior-like existence in his subconscious mind, which makes him think about him in his dreams?

and many more……

dreaming?

But how could he have had a dream?

Could a ray of soul be able to dream?

Lin Zhengyan finally felt something was wrong.

If the soul can have dreams, then why, in such a long time before, he has never produced even the slightest dream during the forced offline period?

The smile on Lin Zhengyan's mouth gradually faded away.

He remembered that a person's dream should be something that is produced when the brain is asleep and some brain cells are still in an excited state.

That is, his brain...

he……

Lin Zhengyan lowered his eyes in a daze, looking at his palm, thinking of his body's ailments these past few days, and thinking of the "voices" he vaguely heard every time he experienced dizziness and suffocation, his heart was filled with turmoil.

—Is it possible that he...is still alive? !

Could it be that his time travel was just another dream of his?

Or is it that his soul is temporarily out of body, and once he wakes up in reality, his soul will return?

Lin Zhengyan was a little dazed, with thoughts and guesses coming and going in his mind, but none of them could be confirmed.

Maybe it's because he has had too many thoughts of wanting to enter reality recently, which awakens his brain that has not yet died in reality?

So if he wakes up, will he return to his original world, original time and space?

Does that mean... he can see his family again, see his parents?

Lin Zhengyan suddenly felt excited, but was extinguished by another thought that popped up almost in an instant.

——If he really returns to reality, will he...he will never be able to return to this game...

Just... never... see Shi Changan again?

My throat started to hurt again, and my heart was sore.Lin Zhengyan looked up at the sky outside the window, not knowing what to do for a moment.

Should he be looking forward to waking up soon, or should he be looking forward to a longer and longer relationship with Shi Changan?

Family and love...

No, it should be true family affection and false love.It doesn't seem too difficult to choose between the two.

"morning."

Shi Chang'an's voice sounded from the direction of the bedroom door, and a moment later, a pair of arms wrapped around Lin Zhengyan's neck, pulling him into his embrace.

A light kiss landed on Lin Zhengyan's side face, Shi Chang'an smiled and said, "What are you thinking? It's the first time you wake up in our home, it doesn't feel real?"

Lin Zhengyan did not put on the protective clothing when he left the production line last night, and was still topless.At this moment, feeling the temperature coming from behind, he finally couldn't help it, turned around and hugged Shi Changan, and buried his face into the crest of his neck.

Shi Changan sat stiffly on the edge of the bed, his raised hands could not fall on Lin Zhengyan's back no matter what.

In Lin Zhengyan's tighter and tighter arms, he recalled the phone call with Qin Yan last night——

"It stands to reason that if he has an emergency attack in reality, someone from the volunteer management side will force him to go offline and will not allow him to stay in the game. Moreover, fundamentally, the research institution will not accept physical illness. Volunteers with problems have physical problems, and he cannot pass the medical examination, let alone get a permit."

Qin Yan frowned on the screen and said: "According to your description, did he have that kind of stress reaction when he had relatively intimate contact with you?"

Shi Chang'an said: "Yes. Later, I thought about it again, more than once. Every time I want to talk to him... that is, every time I touch his sensitive parts, he will have dizzy and suffocation reactions."

——In the Corps meeting room before the game, Lin Zhengyan had symptoms of dizziness and suffocation.Earlier, on the day of playing the piano, when the two kissed in the alley, Lin Zhengyan also said that he felt dizzy.

Qin Yan pondered for a moment and said, "Can you rule out his psychological factors?"

Shi Changan asked, "What do you mean?"

Qin Yandao: "There are some extreme psychological aversions, which may lead to certain stress reactions. Because the physical health will not be affected, so the pain sensation will not be detected during the physical examination."

Shi Changan frowned and said, "Psychological disgust? Probably not, he... is quite proactive."

Qin Yan said: "This kind of problem is not necessarily related to his subjective wishes, perhaps subconsciously, he doesn't want to be touched by you... or, in other words, he doesn't want to be touched by anyone. This is a kind of mental illness, not something he can do by himself. controlling."

Shi Changan was silent for a while, and asked: "...will this happen?"

Qin Yan said: "According to the information you provided, I can only make such a guess."

Shi Changan asked again: "Then, will his life be in danger?"

Qin Yan thought for a while, and said: "There will be no danger to life, but according to your description, his reaction will be more painful. In this case, you can only take it step by step, don't be too aggressive."

Recovering from the memory, Shi Chang'an lowered his eyes to feel Lin Zhengyan's embrace.

I don't know if it's his illusion, but at this moment, Lin Zhengyan's dependence and admiration for him shown in this tight hug is completely different from Qin Yan's explanation.

Moreover, a long time ago, he also guessed that Lin Zhengyan should be a sick child in reality, that's why he never even took a shuttle.

... This is different from Qin Yan's deduction.

No matter how Lin Zhengyan got the 90% pain permission, there must be something unique about his situation.However, Shi Changan didn't dare to take his safety to the test after all.

After hesitating for a while, he still put his palm on Lin Zhengyan's back and patted it lightly a few times.

"What?" He asked with a smile, "Could it be that you had a nightmare last night and came to me for comfort?"

Lin Zhengyan rested his head on Shi Changan's shoulder and shook his head.

"I didn't have a nightmare." He whispered, "I had other dreams. Um...good dreams."

Shi Changan chuckled lightly.

"Good dream? What did you dream about?"

"……you."