[Thunderbolt MIT] Dear 007 husband

For the prince, she is guilty.I feel ashamed of myself, why I was so immature, out of tune, and didn't have a good talk with him in time.

"Ghost? Are you awake? Is there anything uncomfortable?" The prince opened his eyes and found that she was awake. He immediately stood up and was about to ring the bell to call the doctor.

"No, I'm fine." Seeing the anxious look of the prince, she felt even more uncomfortable. She hurriedly sat up and grabbed his sleeve to prevent him from ringing the bell.

Maybe it's because he's been asleep for a long time, his voice is slightly hoarse, coupled with the excitement, it sounds a little shrill.

The prince put down the arm that rang the bell, and neither of them spoke, and a strange silence filled the air.

Embarrassed, she pinched her arm bitterly.

"Prince, I..."

"Needless to say, I know everything." The words that had been brewing in her heart for a long time were interrupted by the prince as soon as she uttered them. She suddenly raised her head and looked at the prince in surprise.

What she didn't want to see was his slightly discolored face. No matter how much he tried to cover it up, after so many years, she could still see his emotions clearly.

She still has some understanding of the prince.

She has always been very clear in her heart that her love for the prince was not fake.When you like someone, you will involuntarily want to know everything about him, want to understand his happiness and anger, sadness and sorrow.

It's just that she wasn't brave enough in the past, didn't trust the person she liked enough, and didn't trust the relationship between them enough.

Now she understands that what can be easily given up is not love, but not liking enough.

If possible, she also hoped that James would be her first love, and that James would appear in her world early.

But those years were not shameful, nor were they painful.Even it's wonderful.

There is no reason for the good times to be obliterated, so she will face it squarely and give that relationship a complete explanation.

"Prince, I can't go on being so wrong. It's not fair to you."

She finally became brave, and stared into the prince's eyes without blinking, "I have always been a coward. I used to think you were too good, and I was afraid that I wouldn't be good enough for you. I even pretended to be Xiao Xun and was discovered by you.

Later, my aunt came to me. I didn't trust you, I didn't trust myself, and I didn't trust the relationship between us, so I ran away timidly.

I used to think that I was your drag, but I didn’t expect to see you again in Shengying, but you don’t have a girlfriend with a good family background. The condemning eyes of the six brothers made me understand that I was wrong.

Not knowing how to face you, I ran away again.You see, that's what I am, a cowardly coward! "

She also wanted to say sorry to him, that she was not worthy of her, that such an excellent man as he deserved to be loved by a better person.

But seeing the corners of the prince's eyes moistened inadvertently, he couldn't say the rest of the words, and was completely swallowed in his stomach.

She pinched her thigh heavily under the quilt, feeling an unstoppable sense of guilt surging in her heart.

If she really said those disgusting things, she would really be a big villain, a bad woman.

"Oh, coward, you are indeed a ghost, you have always been such a ghost." The ghost stole my heart strangely.

For some reason, the prince turned his face to the side and looked out the window, half of his face facing her was full of self-mockery, and the astringency in his tone made her not know what to say or what to do.

She didn't see the nostalgia in the prince's eyes, as if he was remembering something.

At this time, she thought that it would be great if 007 was here.With him here, I might not be at a loss.

Thinking of this, she suddenly realized that this was a hospital. Looking at the dazzling white around her, she felt a twinge of pain in her heart.

As she realized later, the pungent smell of disinfectant filled the air suddenly penetrated into her nostrils, and her eye sockets became uncontrollably hot like that day at the door of the operating room.

Pulling off the IV in her hand, she turned over the quilt and was about to get out of bed. While hurriedly looking for her mobile phone and bag, she talked to the prince.

"Prince, I'm leaving first. My family will be worried when they see that I haven't come home for so long."

When she was in the cooking class, she saw that the phone was running out of battery, so she turned off the phone and turned it on.Sure enough, there were nearly a hundred missed calls, and the phone was about to explode, "We can make an appointment on another day, any time."

"No, you can't leave the hospital."

"Why?" she was surprised.

"Although I know it's impossible, I still want to ask—Ghost, can we continue?"

"..." The surprise on his face suddenly froze, and he bowed his head in silence.She was even more at a loss in her heart, and waves of guilt invaded her heart.

"I already knew the answer, didn't I?" So, ghost, it's okay, don't feel guilty.

Looking at the girl who lowered her head and tugged at the hem of her dress, the prince smiled slightly. His ghost is still as cute as ever.No, it's not his anymore.

He closed his eyes, pinched the base of his nose subconsciously, and opened his eyes again, with a smile of sincere blessing but pity flashing in his eyes, he said softly: "Ghost, you can't be discharged from the hospital because you are pregnant and you are going to be a mother. "

These words were still echoing in her ears, over and over again, tirelessly, until the prince pulled her who was standing still on the hospital bed to lie down on the hospital bed.

It wasn't until late at night, when the fluorescent lights in the ward were turned off by the patrolling nurse, and there was no one in the corridor, that she carefully murmured the short but deeply shocked words that the prince said.

-

That night, she opened her eyes until dawn.Excitement, apprehension, happiness, uneasiness, bewilderment and other emotions are intertwined, until finally they become brave.

Because, her James De said, because of fear, so brave.

She believed that if 007 knew about her decision, he would definitely praise her!

She made the bravest and least regretful decision in her life.

She is going to have a baby.

She is going to the United States to find 007, regardless of life or death!

She doesn't want to escape anymore!Nesting in one's own small world is actually a disguised escape!Force myself to be strong, try my best to live my best life, and not let 007 worry.But every late night, dreaming back at midnight, is full of nightmares.

She is conflicted.

She was actually very scared, but she firmly believed that that excellent man would not abandon her, and believed in their telepathy.

After sorting out her mood, she breathed a sigh of relief, thinking that there was already a villain in her stomach, and that this villain would grow up slowly in the future, and even be taller than her, a sense of surprise mixed with joy came from the bottom of her heart. surged up.

007, 007, we have a baby.You are going to be a father.

For two months, finally, laughing.

He turned sideways, touched his belly carefully, glanced at the charging mobile phone on the table inadvertently, thought of something, and patted his head heavily.

"Li Xiaoxing, you idiot, you forgot to call and tell Teacher Cherry, they must be dying of anxiety."

I hurriedly took the phone and unlocked it. I didn't expect to see an open memo that read:

Guigui, I'm sorry that I turned on the phone without your consent. I have already called your family and told them that I stayed at a female classmate's house for a night after drinking too much at a high school reunion.

Now, Guigui, be a happy mother.Don't mind me.

A complex and unspeakable emotion welled up in her chest, and she said silently in her heart: Prince, I'm sorry, I hope you are happy!

Some people, if they miss it, it will be a lifetime.

She couldn't imagine what life would be like without James, and she didn't want to miss it.

Wiping off the moisture that fell off her face inadvertently, she stretched out her hand and rang the bell. It was just dawn at that time, but the nurse on duty came in a hurry, and even followed by a young male doctor.

It was at this time that she realized that she was the only one in the entire ward. According to the furnishings and decoration style of the room, it was obvious that this was a VIP ward.

Accepting the prince's love again, the more I don't want to owe him, the more I owe him.

The young doctor asked some questions as usual, and performed some ordinary examinations. His voice was a little careless and lazy, not at all like the doctors she had seen before.

Perhaps out of curiosity, she looked up, but carefully noticed the young doctor's slightly frowning brows, with a little repulsion in his eyes.

She froze for a moment, pretending not to see and lowered her head.

That year, the year she handed herself over to James, she leaned against the wall of the corridor and accidentally overheard the conversation between the 20-year-old James and the angel mother.

At the age of 20, he is enough for her to entrust everything to him.

Because, that's what he said: Most people who know Li Xiaoxing will think that she is an out-and-out funny girl, cheerful and eccentric.Of course, so is she.But what's more, she doesn't want to be alone, doesn't want to break away from the group, so she has been using an alternative way to show her existence.She is lively and quiet; she is carefree and sensitive.She was insecure, and I wanted to be her security, to protect her.

No one knows her better than James.Sensitive, she has always read other people's emotions very thoroughly, and she is careful, for fear that others will hate her.However, that was before.

Three or four years later, his care and wisdom are slowly changing her.

As James said, she already has a sense of security that belongs to her alone.With him, I will no longer be afraid or humble in my heart.Now she has gained:

Not everyone in this world will like her, and she doesn't need to worry about it and get to the bottom of it.

Because everyone has a story.If you're not the person, you'll never know: The truth is sometimes the cruelest thing in the world.

After thinking about it, she raised her head and glanced at the nameplate "Cheng Zheng" hung on the top of the young doctor's white coat.

"It's nothing serious, and I'll be discharged from the hospital in a while." The male doctor named Cheng Zheng wrote a few words on the medical record, closed the medical record, and handed it to her with a cold tone.Then, as if thinking of something, she called the nurse again, "Contact her to come to the hospital for a detailed examination on Wednesday, and I have already made an appointment with Director Qin of the obstetrics department."

After Cheng Zheng left, the little nurse patted her chest with lingering fear, "Doctor Cheng is a little strange today, he looks so fierce."

"Really?" She just responded casually, thinking about another question - Cheng Zheng, Cheng Zheng, such a familiar name, where have you heard it?

"That's right, Doctor Cheng has always...has a personality, yes, has a personality, hehe...Forget it, let's not talk about him, my name is Qin Ziyue, and I am a nurse practicing behind Doctor Cheng through the back door."

"Huh?" She couldn't keep up with the train of thought of this girl named Qin Ziyue, she seemed to be unfamiliar with her.

"It's okay. You heard what Dr. Cheng said just now. Go back today and have a good rest. Come for an obstetric examination at nine o'clock on Wednesday morning. I will call you."

"OK, all right."

She was still a little foggy until she got out of the hospital gate.Looking back at Qin Ziyue, who was talking to himself and smiling all over his face, he felt a little strange, this Qin Ziyue was so enthusiastic that he insisted on sending her to the gate of the hospital.

Of course she didn't know that Qin Ziyue skipped the meeting at the risk of Cheng Zheng's eyes, just to know what kind of girl the young master likes.

If James was present, she would be able to read Qin Ziyue's lips, she was saying: "Prince, so you like this type of girl, she is cute and cute. Sister, now you are chasing after me!" Make you cold and gorgeous, make you arrogant!"

Love, always inadvertently, blooms a flower.

-

Back at her and James De's house, just after closing the door, I saw everyone gathered at the door because of the sound of opening the door, saw the anxiety and worry on everyone's faces, warm currents flowed through my heart, and my nose was sore.

Since James's accident, everyone chose to stay with her in the guest room at home.After a long time, after they found out that she was doing well, she took the opportunity to persuade them to go back to their respective homes.

She can't disturb everyone's life just because she is alone.

In the end, Amu and Teacher Cherry were sent as representatives to stay, take care of her, enlighten her, and make her not so lonely.

Then, as long as she had something to do, they—her relatives, friends, and family members—would always rush to the house as soon as possible.

Just like it is now.

"What are you doing? You scared me." She pretended to be angry, but she still couldn't help throwing herself into the arms of the grandmother who was closest to her, and raised her head to look at her closest family and partners in this life, "Aunt, Mom, dad, brother, Teacher Cherry, 187,747, I love you all!"

Later, when Fuhao Qian talked about this past event to James Dee.He said: "I don't want to hear Omen Star cry anymore, like a child, no matter what, it's earth-shattering, it makes people feel so fucking guilty." There is also a sense of pity.

Yes, she cried later, crying out the boredom and pain in her heart.

The heart knot was untied, the sunlight outside the window seemed to become warmer, and the stars at night became brighter.

"007, everyone has a star that represents him. There are so many stars in the sky, which one will be you?"

The balcony outside the bedroom is her little world.

The floor was covered with Stitch foam floor mats.

On the left is a simple combination of desks and bookcases, on which various books are placed messily - mostly horror novels, romance novels, suspense novels, comic books and the like.Occasionally, there are two or three books on esoteric human studies and criminal psychology. Basically, 007 stayed with her to watch the stars on the balcony.

On the desk is a laptop for coding.

On the right is a set of fabric sofas and coffee tables, and against the wall is a foosball game console - I watched other people play it on TV before, but after I bought it, I found that I was a handicapped game scum, so I just left it there.Except for 007 who would occasionally play a few times, as time goes by, it will soon fall to dust.

There are still paintings by her on the wall.

The small space is full of indescribable warmth.

"007, it must be the brightest star." She leaned on the lazy sofa, touching her belly repeatedly.

Now, her mood is clearer than ever before.

But, how to go to the United States without telling my mother?Running with the ball is too high-grade, too IQ-intensive, too difficult!

The finger stopped on the page of the phone's address book, and kept sliding, and it was a call record with "Aunt Fiona", and the entire page was full of missed calls.

Fiona's cell phone has been turned off since James's accident.In the first week, for seven days, she made countless phone calls, but none of them got through.

Putting down the phone, he put his sweaty hands together, crossed them tightly, as if giving himself strength, made up his mind, picked up the phone next to him again, tapped it with his fingertips, and dialed.

"Beep, beep, beep..."

The beep went on for a long time, and just as she was about to give up, the call connected.

"Hello, Fionaspeaking." A bright voice came from the other end of the phone.

"..." She couldn't believe it was really connected, she was so excited that she couldn't speak for a long time.

Yu Shu on the other end of the phone could hear the increasingly heavy breathing from the microphone, and raised the corners of her drooping mouth. Maybe she made the right decision, and said again: "Hello, hello?"

"Fiona, I'm Li Xiaoxing."

"I know, I've been waiting for your call."

"007, he..."

"You can rest assured that Aaron's life is not in danger." However, he is not good.

Yu Shu didn't say the rest, but stuck in his throat, not knowing what to say, or unwilling to admit it.Sensing the joy on the other end of the phone, Yu Shu rushed ahead of her and said, "I'll send you the address, it's up to you whether you come or not. But I still hope you can come and see him."

Thumb down, the phone hangs up.

"I hope you can come and see him so that he won't be alone anymore."

Yu Shu leaned against the wall, covering his face with his hands, surrounded by suffocating white.And the boy she had watched growing up was living in an even more torturous void than that.

He seemed to be back to the old James, the James who didn't know Li Xiaoxing, no, it's even worse!Cold and indifferent, alone, it seems that he will leave this world at any time.