disliked, humble love

Pulled to the runway and kissed?Xue Ye quickly stopped his fantasies for a second, the degenerated tailbone and lumbar spine shook together.

"No, I didn't think about it." Xue Ye shook his head to shake off his fantasy, "Brother Jie, I...can I ask you a few words?"

There was a boy running in slippers in the corridor, and the noisy movement behind him was a group of brothers chasing him, laughing and cursing.A door separates the outside and the inside, lively and quiet, brotherhood and love.

"Ask." Zhu Jie said.

"Oh." Xue Ye tried hard to adapt to the new relationship, wanting to hear a confession, "Brother Jie, you kissed me...why?"

Zhu Jie frowned. "What do you say?"

"I said... I can't say it, Brother Jie, you don't say it." Xue Ye looked up slightly, "This question is a bit too much, then I will change it..."

Zhu Jie touched back and forth along the beautiful arc of the waistband. "Change."

"Well, change to another one." Xue Ye cheered himself up. He kissed his husband and called him before, so he didn't ask too much, "Brother Jie, you...you said in high school that you thought I was disgusting, do you still hate me now?"

Zhu Jie thought for a while, then shook his head.

"You don't mind it, right? Then let me ask one more question." Xue Ye licked his lips numbly, "Brother Jie, do I want to hug you in the future?"

want to hug myself.Zhu Jie lowered his face and looked to the left again. "Did I say I won't let you hug me?"

Fuck, you can really hug, right?Xue Ye hugged quickly and then let go. "No, I'm done asking. You used to think gays were disgusting. I never dared to touch you blatantly. Now let me hug you. I don't regret it, but I really don't dare."

"Don't dare?" Zhu Jie put Xue Ye's hand back on his waist, "Hug, it's a sustainable verb, and the shortest time is 5 seconds."

"Sustainable verbs?" Xue Ye suppressed the desire to smoke, "Brother Jie, your Chinese is not good. Chinese sustainable verbs are not used in this way."

Zhu Jie helplessly glanced around in the darkness. "Why don't you be a representative of the Chinese class if you are so awesome? Go on."

Xue Ye was silent first, and pulled himself out of the memory after a while. "Brother Jie, whether you are gay or not, I dare not. University is different from high school. High school classmates will only laugh at me and will not harm me. There are all kinds of idiots in college. I can't let them exclude you. Or you wait Me, when I stand on the field again to win the gold medal in the triple jump, I will come back with honor and fists.”

"How long should I wait?" Zhu Jie brushed aside the bangs in front of his eyes.

"Six months at the fastest, one year at the slowest." Xue Ye lowered his head, and the corners of his brows were rubbed by Brother Jie's side face, "Brother Jie, I am an athlete, and I want to go back to the track and field instead of being a useless person. I quit smoking and started to resume training. I have never stood on the podium with you for three years in high school, only a photo of graduation photos. When I get back the triple jump gold medal and take a group photo of the champion, you will be closer to me."

half a year?enough.Zhu Jie's tired body pressed against him, temporarily avoiding the noise and crisis, like sharing a moment of peace in the trenches. "Xue Ye, I also have something to ask you."

"Yeah." Xue Ye said, "I won't lie to you even if I lie to myself."

"You..." Zhu Jie habitually turned his face away, facing Xue Ye with the bar on the round inch.

Xue Ye was particularly fascinated by that bar. "Brother Jie, tell me."

"do you love me?"

"I like it." Xue Ye couldn't hide his addictive admiration, "I've liked it since military training."

"Who do you like?" Zhu Jie asked, but instead of looking directly at him, he used his body to press Xue Ye until he couldn't retreat.

Xue Ye's chest was squeezed. "like you."

like myself.Zhu Jie's side face showed a move that Xue Ye had never seen before, and it disappeared in a flash.His arm resting on the door began to loop inward, and he hugged Xue Ye's shoulder at a very unskilled angle.

"Talk every day." Zhu Jie put his arms around Xue Ye's waist for the first time. Xue Ye was very tall, almost as tall as himself.

"Well, Brother Jie, I'll listen to you." Xue Ye was also stiff, and his hands that were clasped back had nowhere to root, and finally placed awkwardly on Brother Jie's waist.

Zhu Jie recalled how Tao Wenchang hugged his girlfriend. He changed the angle to familiarize himself with the position of his arm, and repeatedly rubbed his profile face against Xue Ye's right ear.Xue Ye's auricle is very beautiful, the earlobe is very soft but the ear cartilage is particularly erect.

There is a mole behind the right ear, which can only be found by turning the ear all over.Zhu Jie felt the body temperature in his arms with his chin, and his arms went from weak to firm and then tight, regretting why he didn't hug him before the college entrance examination.This was the first decent hug between himself and Xue Ye. The unfamiliarity, confusion, and lack of intimacy gave him the confidence to confront the world.

Xue Ye tried to rest his chin on the opponent's shoulder.Jie Ge's shoulders have always been the key line of his peeping. They are flat, wide and strong, but they are professional runners after all. It is almost meaningless to compare them with confrontational or throwing athletes.

I finally got my fucking hug on Brother Jie!

When the door was kicked with a bang, Zhu Jie and Xue Ye resonated at the same time, and the shock penetrated from Xue Ye's back to Zhu Jie's chest.

Zhu Jie opened the door: "Who the fuck?"

"Me, who are you hiding in the dormitory and not turning on the lights to scare anyone, killing people?" Tao Wenchang bit his pear, and Kong Yu was behind him, and he saw another person in the room when the light was turned on, "Oh, no wonder. But I wish you Can you let go of love for a while, and conclude after the game that you will not participate and find Sun Kang to fix you? Xue Ye, you too, be careful, if a man really loves you, he is willing to spend money, and it is useless to say it."

"It's awesome." Zhu Jie pulled Xue Ye over, "Go take a bath first, and apply the medicine after washing."

"Oh." Xue Ye went to get the bath towel, a little disappointed, and wanted to wash it with Brother Jie.

Kong Yu stopped when he crossed paths with him. "Congratulations, the dream has come true, gratifying to congratulate, it's not easy to bend a straight man of steel."

How does he feel about Xue Ye?Probably from the initial hostility to envy, envy leads to jealousy and then mixed with a little unwillingness.But after getting in touch with Zhu Jie more, Kong Yu felt relieved that this boy couldn't get close at all.

Getting close to Zhu Jie is like pouring water into a sandpit, no matter how much water is poured, it will soak up at once, and whoever gets close to him will suffer.

Xue Ye didn't respond, Kong Yu simply stopped him: "Don't go, Team Bai said you can dance, is it true or not?"

He only won the bronze medal in this defeat, and the powerful opponent seemed to have come out of nowhere. He had never heard of it before. The Bai team sighed that if Xue Ye came up, he would win the championship.

Kong Yu's question pulled Xue Ye back to the turbulent 14-year-old in an instant, and he had to climb back on the 40-meter runway. "Really, I practice triple jump. You tell Bai Yang that I will find him in two days."

Mom.The pears in Tao Wenchang's mouth were startled, although Xue Ye had known about it for a long time, but hearing Xue Ye admit it...it felt too unreal.

"Hey, you and Xue Ye..." He looked at Zhu Jie, who was beside him without any ups and downs, "What's the relationship between you two now?"

"It has nothing to do with you." Zhu Jie said, throwing the red plum stored in the closet into the trash can.Xue Ye is a character who enjoys self-conquerment. He likes blood and pain. He said that if he quits smoking, he will never touch it again.

Tao Wenchang couldn't bear to see his pretentious face. "Don't tell me, I'll rush in and give Xue Ye a bath."

"You two don't fucking know each other well." Zhu Jie turned around and packed his luggage.Tao Wenchang, a man, kissed Xue Ye, if it wasn't for the straight man, he would have already kissed him.

"I'm curious." Tao Wenchang asked, was he curious personally, was Xue Ye's purposeless liking for three years that influenced Zhu Jie, or did the two fall in love at first sight?

He asked gossipingly: "You are already someone else's husband, how did you confess?"

"What?" Zhu Jie froze for a moment, then continued to tidy up quietly.The phone rang, and Zhu Jie picked it up with a hello and walked outside.

Tao Wenchang threw the pear core into the trash can and died laughing.Zhu Jie is a person who has nothing to do with kindness and integrity. He is terribly selfish to Xue Ye and is too selfish to extricate himself.But judging from the current situation, this person doesn't know how to fall in love at all, and his reflection is that he is not enlightened at all.These two people want to live in the future... some running-in.

When he looked at Kong Yu again, he didn't seem happy either. "Are you okay? Zhu Jie is really not a good person, and only Xue Ye is too stupid to leave. I congratulate you."

"It's okay, I gave up a long time ago." Kong Yu's gaze was no longer on Zhu Jie, "Sister Ya is right, this person's character is not good at all. Changzi, let me ask you, did you really see Xue Ye's long jump in high school?"

Tao Wenchang breathed a sigh of relief. "I haven't seen it, but my brother has seen it. It's amazing to break the record for the farthest school in the first year of high school."

"Really? Then I'm looking forward to it even more." Kong Yu swept away the gloom, "My master will come to teach in the Physical Education Institute in a while, remember to remind me to reserve a place for Xue Ye."

"Don't forget to leave two tickets for me, I'll make an appointment with Miss Sister." Tao Wenchang's heart hung up again, and Xue Ye could skip Kong Yudan and say that this master is a famous bull.Kong Yu comes from a famous family and has the backing of his master. Xue Ye has an offending temper, so joining the team will be very hard.

Zhu Jie walked to the bottom of the corridor and lightly pressed the back of the thigh with broken muscle fibers. "I'm at school."

"Have you just arrived at school?" Zhu Zhenhai asked, the driver was sitting in front of him.

"Yeah." Zhu Jie subconsciously touched his trouser pocket, and there was a bulge, "The team was criticized in a meeting, and I just returned to the dormitory."

"Are you criticized at the meeting?" Zhu Zhenhai rolled up the string of sky eyes on his wrist, twisting them one by one, "Which leader approved it, I will call and knock."

Zhu Jie fumbled in his pocket, and it turned out to be a piece of black art, which Xue Ye secretly stuffed in.Think your mouth is bitter?

"No one, didn't you say you don't want to specialize?" Zhu Jie tore open the package, bitter but not sweet.In his first year of high school, Xue Ye was caught sneaking chocolates into his bag, and he tried his best to explain that eating this is especially good for running.

Shit, it's Valentine's Day, his birthday.

"Mu Shan said that your old injury has recurred." Zhu Zhenhai mentioned this matter lightly, "Don't hide it from your family."

"Have you contacted the school?" Zhu Jie asked.If his father could contact Mu Shan, he had contacted other people.

Zhu Zhenhai looked at Zhao Xue, who was killing rabbits and cooking in the kitchen. She was a nurse, and the rabbits died without pain.A very small girl helped throw the rabbit fur. "Your mother cared about you and asked Mu Shan about your injury. She gave Mu Shan a three-week leave note for you, and you should rest first."

"No need." Zhu Jie gritted his teeth word by word.

"Need." Zhu Zhenhai said, "If you have free time, go home and stay, and don't talk to your sister."

"I have nothing to say." Zhu Jie looked at his feet. The 4-year-old sister was the same as Wu Wu. It made no difference to him whether he was dead or alive. "It's okay, I'll die."

"It's something. I've already called the school." Zhu Zhenhai leaned back in his chair, "You go home directly this Friday afternoon, and fly to the United States to visit the school on Saturday."

"Saturday?" The sweetness in Zhu Jie's mouth disappeared.

"Let's take a look first. If the conditions are suitable, we will settle there. The formalities and school relations will be handled slowly. Your grandma and grandpa have also agreed, and I will send someone to accompany you." Zhu Zhenhai looked at the Buddha statue, "The team has already done it You asked for leave, don't worry about it. Is there a problem?"

There was another noise in the corridor, and Zhu Jie glanced back and forth at the excitement of his peers, not wanting to bear it any longer.He thought that the arrival of this day was destined to come from an eruption, but he didn't expect that the real eruption could be silent, and he started to tear this deformed home bloody from his body.

"No problem." Zhu Jie said.tear it up.

After the roommates finished washing one after another, Xue Ye climbed into bed for a long time before seeing Brother Jie come in.He entered the bathroom without saying a word, and took a long hot shower.

When Brother Jie started to climb the ladder, the two beds next to each other trembled together.

"What are you looking at?" Zhu Jie pulled the bed curtain with his hands, leaving only the opposite side.

"I'll just take a look." Xue Ye's inflated confidence suddenly faltered, "Brother Jie, I want to ask one more question."

Zhu Jie lay down and stretched out his arms to touch his hair, feeling surprisingly calm. "Just ask."

"Thank you, Brother Jie." Xue Ye rubbed his hands quickly, "Brother Jie, do you like me?"

Without moving his hands, Zhu Jie turned over and stared at each other with Xue Ye on his stomach. "Xue Ye, are you an idiot?"

"I am, I'll just ask." Xue Ye adjusted his breathing, "I'll just ask you don't scold me. Brother Jie, can I always follow you in the future? I retired at the age of 30, and I can still practice with you for 12 years."

"Don't you just ask a question?" Zhu Jie asked back.

"Oh, then I won't ask." Xue Ye was honest.

When the lights were turned off at 23 o'clock, Xue Ye's eyes adjusted to the darkness for a few seconds and he saw the opposite side clearly. Brother Jie leaned over half of his body and took his undried bangs with his mouth.

Zhu Jie looked down at him, and Xue Ye looked up at himself with the same expression for three years, looking up very happily and almost selflessly.This selflessness feeds one's own selfishness and feeds the ever-expanding selfishness.

He is not Xue Ye, he is not great, he lives by the feelings Xue Ye gave him.He humbled and lived in this three-year open love in a humble way, deriving happiness from Xue Ye.

It took him three years to accept his sexuality, from deep-rooted hatred to acknowledgment, trying to correct it again and again.No one can take it away now.Even Xue Ye himself can't do it.

"Yes." Zhu Jie touched his forehead, "You can go back to the team, but stay away from Bai Yang. I'm fucking jealous."

The author has something to say:

Zhu Jie didn't leave, and there was no plot about forcibly sending him out of the country for separation. He was already wild and couldn't be sent out.

Tao Wenchang: Report to the teacher, I will report that Zhu Jie and Xue Ye whispered after turning off the lights, that I want to change the dormitory.