disliked, humble love

"You are looking for death if you take him to see a doctor." Zhang Rong could distinguish the sound of deep abdominal breathing on the other end from the receiver of the mobile phone. "Xue Ye himself said that he has had narcolepsy for a while, and it started in August, after the college entrance examination."

"After the college entrance examination?" Zhu Jie asked.

There was a dimple on the passenger seat cushion, and there was still a faint smell of cigarette smoke in the car.

"Yes. This disease is troublesome." Zhang Rong's heart felt sore. The first meeting with Xue Ye was too shocking. Others would have parted ways with Xiaojie long ago, but this child is stubborn. "The doctor can rule out most of the causes at present. He The mental state is not that the brain is damaged and I have not taken antihistamines. If the brain inflammation is now bedridden. There is no family history, and the thyroid examination is normal, the most likely is narcolepsy, this disease... .”

"Will you not wake up?" Zhu Jie interrupted.

"Yes." Zhang Rong said, "At the beginning, it's just drowsiness. If you don't control it, you will have cataplexy, sleep hallucinations, and the most serious apnea."

"Go on." Zhu Jie lightly stepped on the accelerator.

"Temporary amnesia after waking up. Symptoms appeared in August to the end of October, more than two months."

"Can the Sixth Court cure it?"

"Xiaojie!" Zhang Rong's voice was harsh again.

"Zhu Jie." Zhu Jie interrupted again, "How to treat it?"

"You are looking for death when you go to the Sixth Hospital." Zhang Rong said, "There are many treatment methods, not difficult, but very troublesome. The doctor will sort out a treatment plan and I will send it to you. It's just that you have to be mentally prepared. Narcolepsy is difficult to cure completely. Eradication, once it occurs, is likely to be with you for life, and can only be alleviated."

"Extremely likely? When did you say something so uncertain." Zhu Jie asked, "Just tell me how to cure it."

"Zhu Jie." Zhang Rong reminded him, "You don't have a long memory in one summer vacation!"

Zhu Jie rested his head on the steering wheel to breathe calmly. "I'm not gay, what kind of memory do I have?"

Zhang Rong's voice sounded like we couldn't laugh or cry. "Did I say you were gay?"

The muscles extending from Zhu Jie's ears to the shoulders and neck began to tense, and the stalemate tension spread along the shoulder line, pulling the side deltoid muscles hard.

"Then let's put it another way, the relationship between you and Xue Ye is an ordinary classmate relationship that is super friendly." Zhang Rong paused for more than ten seconds, "Xiaojie, you two have been getting too close since the first year of high school, and your family already knew that this single-minded love Your boy, why don't you have a long memory?"

Zhu Jie remained silent.

"Learn to keep your distance."

"I know." Zhu Jie hung up the phone, and there was an emptiness and silence around him, only the smell of cigarettes and perfume left in the passenger seat.He glanced in the direction of the East School Gate, and stepped on the accelerator without hesitation.

Xue Ye came home early on Sunday morning, and the room was a bit damp.The most precious thing in the whole house is the few boxes of training equipment, half of which are brand new, not even worn.

Sports are very expensive, and sports students have the awareness of hoarding consumables.

He looked for long clothes and trousers from the few casual clothes left, and in another box, he stocked up a dozen tubes of CK sports models.

Worry, there is no one of the same type as the one given by Jie Ge.

Recently, the backache has been slightly relieved, probably because of running hot water every day.In the afternoon, Xue Ye took the subway to go to the mall first. Brother Jie’s model cost more than 500 pieces.

Passing by a junior high school on the way back to school, the one who ran out of the school gate was probably also a sports student, carrying a bulging sports bag on his shoulders, calling each other idiots at each other, wearing a sunset, full of vigor and ambition.Xue Ye took a few more glances by the window of the bus, thinking of himself when he was 14 years old.

There are father and mother, high-spirited.If it weren't for the idiots in the training camp...

It's okay, Xue Ye comforted himself, as long as he is alive, he will still be an athlete, and this is a pride that no one can take away from him.Shed blood but not tears, accept fate but not defeat.

Back in the dormitory, only myself, Xue Ye broadcast live on time.

The red V was once again inaccurate, and Xue Ye didn't plan to eat it. He explained that there were too many things in the past few days, and he had to go home on the weekend, so it was only broadcast from Monday to Friday.

He is not someone who likes to explain, but after all, Sky has given money, and he has returned a lot.He can't chat by himself, eats averagely, is passive and sabotages work every day, I really don't know what this person is trying to do.

Sky didn't intend to chat any more, and exited the studio directly after agreeing.Xue Ye took his mobile phone and prepared to go to the East Canteen for dinner.

Fuck, no, I haven't made a meal card for a while.

He walked around the cafeteria a few times before finding the service center. The logistics was a chubby aunt who called the balance while recharging the students in line. It was much better than the logistics uncle in the West Campus who was indifferent to answering people.

"Excuse me, charge 100." Xue Ye handed in the card and scanned the QR code.

Auntie operated very quickly, shouting loudly and resonantly. "Cardholder Zhu Jie, the balance is 20114 yuan, are you sure?"

"What?" Xue Ye suddenly petrified, and did not ask the balance last time when he recharged.

There were a few gasps of air behind him.

"Cardholder, Zhu Jie, balance, 20114 yuan, confirm?" Auntie repeated kindly, her voice louder.

The automatic recharge machine was broken, and there were a lot of students queuing up. Xue Ye hurriedly confirmed it, and walked to the dormitory empty-handed.The meal card was issued by Brother Jie with his student ID card, so the money in this card was also charged by Brother Jie that day?

It must be, Xue Licking, you fucking dare to hang out with the meal card, so hurry up and lock the card in the closet.

Back to the dormitory, all the staff are present, and the sports students return to school early.Tao Wenchang was reading with a stack of papers, and he gave Xue Ye a hug.

"See if you didn't make it to the first team and still compete." Tao Wenchang was referring to the match in November. "The high jump team has 11 places, and the white team said to let me go out to practice. The main reason is that Brother Chang's preliminaries reached the standard."

"Congratulations." Xue Ye flipped through the paper until he found the name Zhu Jie among the 28 places in the running event.Brother Jie was sorting things in front of the closet, and he went over to congratulate with the meal card.

"Congratulations, Brother Jie." Xue Ye first stuffed the meal card over, "This... I just found out that there is money in it today."

Zhu Jie didn't speak, didn't answer.

"And I went to buy it today. I don't have yours at home." Xue Ye took out the CK from his cabinet and handed it over, "Brother Jie, here it is."

Zhu Jie stopped cleaning up, his expression rarely calm. "Xue Ye, do you know that you have narcolepsy?"

Tao Wenchang, who was looking at the list, and Kong Yu, who was looking at his mobile phone, were completely dumbfounded.Xue Ye tilted his head and was mentally prepared. The psychiatrist had repeatedly asked about the details and would definitely tell Brother Jie.

Looking at Zhu Jie again, Xue Ye nodded slightly. "I know, I was thinking about going to the doctor during the winter vacation."

"Why don't you say it?" Zhu Jie pressed his hands against the cabinet door, and the veins rarely protruded from his upper arm, creating an indescribable sense of danger, "I don't watch it in August, I don't watch it in September, and I don't even know how to watch it in October." , Waiting for myself to sleep to death?"

The corner of Xue Ye's mouth twitched, he had nothing to say.Seeing that the atmosphere was not right, Kong Yu quickly moved away from Changzi and stood aside.

Jack is on fire.

Xue Ye forced himself to laugh. "I can't sleep to death, I try to control it as much as possible."

"Control?" Zhu Jie suddenly changed direction, turned his back to Xue Ye, "Do you know that this disease can't be cured?"

Can't be cured.Xue Ye's expression was half puzzled and half shocked.

It's been like this forever?Terrible news.

After a while, Xue Ye adjusted his expression and took a deep breath. "What did the doctor say?"

Zhu Jie didn't speak, and pulled his left hand over. The middle finger hooked the fragile silver chain forcefully and snapped it off.

"Brother Jie, this is also my mother's." Xue Ye's whole arm was shaking.

"Did I let you wear your mother's things?" Zhu Jie took out a metal bracelet from the cabinet, undoubtedly broke it and locked it on Xue Ye's ulna.

It's cool, Xue Ye doesn't know why it's used, it's about as wide as a basketball wristband, it's very conspicuous.

"This is for medical use." Zhu Jie originally wanted to tell him that it was for the Sixth Hospital, but his voice suddenly softened, "...don't take it."

This is purely redundant, there is no key, and it can only be removed with a cutting knife.

"Hmm." Xue Ye withdrew his hand to observe, the frosted silver surface was branded with indented characters.

If I fall asleep, please wake me up. If you can't wake me up, please call me immediately. Thank you very much.

At the bottom is a row of mobile phone numbers, which Xue Ye can recite by heart and even recite them backwards.He felt a little unreal. "Jack?"

"From tomorrow onwards, you have a timetable, so you can only sleep in the dormitory, somewhere I know." Zhu Jie also took out a stack of papers, and paused for a moment, "It can be relieved with proper treatment, and it's not a serious problem. Sick. I agree that you can only sleep when you sleep, and you must wake up when I call you, and send me a text message every hour to tell me your location, understand?"

If it can be relieved, Xue Ye will feel much better. "Understood, thank you Brother Jie."

Tao Wenchang crossed his arms and almost laughed angrily. It's still a fucking question, isn't it someday?

"The most important thing is...you must take medicine for your current condition. Have you had dinner yet?" Zhu Jie took out the white medicine bottle from his bag and clenched it tightly in his fist as if he wanted to crush it, "45 before meal Take it every minute, three times a day, if you haven’t eaten, take the medicine first.”

"Okay." Xue Ye nodded, then asked again, "What kind of medicine?"

"Open your mouth." Zhu Jie unscrewed the medicine bottle and another bottle of mineral spring, and gave it all to Xue Ye.Xue Ye took it without thinking, took the pill with his mouth and swallowed it all into his stomach.

"Brother Jie, why don't you give me the medicine, I'll take it on time every day." Xue Ye didn't want to make trouble for him.

Zhu Jie's expression was obviously hesitating, thinking, the dormitory seemed to be full of strange doubts, only the sound of heavy breathing remained.

In the end, he gave the medicine bottle to Xue Ye. Xue Ye first said thank you Brother Jie, and the hand holding the medicine shook violently in the next second, as if a needle had penetrated his fingertips.The medicine bottle fell to the ground through free fall, and Xue Ye turned around and ran to the bathroom without hesitation.

Zhu Jie slammed his fist hard at the door of the cabinet, raised his leg and chased after him.

The bathroom door crashed.

Xue Ye clasped his throat on the water platform, trembling with anger rather than fear.

"Don't spit." Zhu Jie picked up his shoulder and pulled it back, hitting his eyes with a windy fist, his posture was fierce and beautiful.

This is Xue Ye, this is Xue Ye, and only when he is convinced can his memory grow.Zhu Jie escaped the punch and was hit hard on the chest. Xue Ye seemed to be chasing and killing his enemy with hatred, sharp and precise, and the speed was so fast that people couldn't see clearly.

Only the effective damage is not heavy enough. No matter how fast the movement is, no matter how poisonous the angle is, in Zhu Jie's eyes, it is full of loopholes. Every move can be resolved with distance, and it can be killed at any time.As long as you hit him hard enough, you can beat him to death.

He caught Xue Ye's fist and wrapped his hand tightly.Xue Ye punched the glass in a brainless manner, and the shards splashed away, leaving spider web-like radioactive cracks.

Zhu Jie immediately pushed the man to the corner, grabbed his psoas muscles and dragged him closer. "Xue Ye!"

Xue Ye's eyes were closed tightly, and his cheekbones were tightly pressed against Zhu Jie's shoulders so much that he bit his lower lip in hatred. He was so stubborn that he tried to break free again, and put one knee on his lower abdomen.

It didn't hurt but it was sore, Xue Ye immediately knelt down.

Tao Wenchang's shouts and knocking on the door were all around his ears.

"You're paralyzed! Zhu Jie, you're paralyzed! Are you a fucking person!" Tao Wenchang kicked the door continuously, "You idiot, if you have the means, don't come out! You're paralyzed! Zhu Jie, open the door!"

Kong Yu's face turned pale. Changzi went crazy after looking at the medicine bottle. He also picked it up and looked at it, his limbs were cold.

Methylphenidate Hydrochloride Tablets.

"Xue Ye is a fucking athlete, you lied to him to take doping! Are you still human!" Tao Wenchang kicked the door, but the door remained motionless.Tricking an athlete into eating this is worse than tricking him into drinking concentrated sulfuric acid.

"Brother Jie...Brother Jie?" Xue Ye opened his mouth slightly, staring at Zhu Jie in astonishment, unable to swear anything.

If you can't get better for a lifetime, it means that you have to take doping for the rest of your life, which means you can't go to the track and field again for the rest of your life.

"Listen to me." Zhu Jie fixed the back of his head with his hands and whispered on the tip of Xue Ye's nose, "Don't vomit, you have to take medicine."

"Is it okay if you don't eat?" Xue Ye held his breath when the tip of their noses rubbed against each other, "Brother Jie, you can ask me to do anything, is it okay if you don't eat?"

"No." Zhu Jie directly covered his mouth with his hands in case he would spit something out.Xue Ye began to shake his head, staring at him fiercely for a while, and looking at him pitifully for a while.

Strong, decadent, not resigned to fate.

The sound of kicking the door stopped, and Tao Wenchang went to the housekeeper to ask for a spare key.Zhu Jie held Xue Ye's face and exchanged breath with him, feeling his unwillingness in the palm of his hand.In the end, he hesitated for a moment, and for the first time purposely touched Xue Ye's face when he was awake.

"Half a year." Zhu Jie's hand moved slowly and carefully, with the tip of his middle finger tracing the outline of his nose through the air, and a few centimeters long wound was drawn on the back of his hand, "After half a year, I will take you to play games."

Xue Ye's closed eyes opened, and his almost suffocated ribs succumbed to the soft tension of his own skin.He rubbed his face against Brother Jie's hand, his muscular shoulders, and exhaled gently into his palm.

"Really? Take me with you?"

"Ah."

"Every game?"

"Hmm." Zhu Jie pressed Shan Gen to his right shoulder, and his undulating and strong abdominal breathing resonated with the two vertebrae, "Xiaoye."

"I won't sleep anymore." Xue Ye nodded firmly, "Brother Jie, I will listen to you, and I will take the medicine."

Tao Wenchang took back the ring key of the whole dormitory building and opened the door. Broken glass and blood were all over the floor. After another look, his mother's nightmare came true, and the double-headed snake wrapped himself around himself.