My brother became a love brain

I read the pink love letter, it was not signed, but I recognized the girl in that handwriting.

I chose to keep the love letter away, and put it at the bottom of the drawer, and had no intention of replying.

I don't have any emotion for her other than friendship, and I'm touched that she likes me, but between us, there is no other possibility.

She probably also knew that sending this unsigned letter was a confession and a farewell.

A few days after the end of the college entrance examination, the school issued the test answers. We went back to school to evaluate the scores, and prepared to fill in the volunteers after the assessment.

I had a hunch after the college entrance examination that I performed well this time, so when I received the answer, I was very calm. The final estimated total score was in the early 700s. Regardless of majors, this score can go to any school. up.

Volunteering is to report online, and I was planning to find an Internet cafe to fill in the report, and Song Dongyang proposed to report at his home.

I shook my head, actually I was hesitating, I didn't know whether I should have a showdown with Song Dongyang, or I should just hide it from him first, wait for the entrance of the college entrance examination application to stop, and then explain it to him slowly.

But soon, my opinion was not important anymore. My teacher called my parents directly, saying that the city TV station sent someone to make a documentary on the application and admission of us college entrance examination candidates.

All of our volunteers have to be recorded in the computer room, but my parents and my teachers never asked me which university I want to go to. They are basically sure that I will definitely choose the best one, and they all know it This has been my wish for a long time, and I don't think I will change it temporarily.

I finally mustered up the courage to make it clear to Song Dongyang, because escaping cannot change the problem.

I asked Song Dongyang to go out for a walk, and Song Dongyang drove me to the villa where we had our first relationship.

He opened a bottle of Coke, handed it to me, and said, "Dare you drink it?"

I reached out to take it, drank it down, and asked him, "Do you know what I want to say?"

We sat facing each other, he took out his cigarette, and wanted to light it, I stretched out my hand and pulled his cigarette out from between his fingers, and said lightly: "Don't smoke in the future."

"I won't smoke in the future, can you not break up with me?" He asked me jokingly, but his eyes were serious.

"We've never been together, so why talk about breaking up?"

What I said is very straightforward. In this situation, short-term pain is worse than long-term pain.

He took out another cigarette, lit it with a lighter, and took a deep breath.

"If there is no Ma Feifei, if I confess to you, will you agree to me?"

"No," I hardly need to hesitate, because my reasons for rejecting him have always been clear, "I don't want to upset my family and your family."

"If there is no Ma Feifei, we are still the same as before. Would you like it?"

I wanted to refuse, saying how can I like you as a straight man, but when the words came to my lips, it became: "I don't know either."

People's previous feelings are closely related to their experiences. I can't draw conclusions about what kind of feelings I will have and what I will choose to do until I reach that point.

Song Dongyang extinguished the cigarette, and said, "Chi Rui, I won't force you, and don't change your will just to hide from me."

"Your estimated score is hovering on the edge of the admission line." I couldn't help but refute him.

"Even if I can't go to the same school as you, I want to go to the school closest to you."

"No need." I thought for a while, and could only say these three dry words.

"Do you hate me?" He asked me suddenly.

"No." I replied subconsciously.

"Then let's go with the flow. It's just a school. If you have different majors, the time to meet them is limited."

What he said was deceiving me, and I knew it in my heart.

"But the problem is still there, and avoiding it won't solve it."

He reached out and held my hand, cold and trembling.

"If you have someone you like in the future, I will give up. If you don't have someone you like now, you don't have to think about anything, let me take care of you."

My mind was still clear and I said, "It's not fair to you, it's not fair to me, it's not fair to our future partners."

I looked at him indifferently, under my sight, he slowly let go of his hand, and covered his face with his hands again, so that I couldn't see his expression clearly.

"I won't change my choice." The room was very quiet, and my words seemed to echo, "Song Dongyang, give up on me, and you can still be a brother in the future."

Song Dongyang didn't speak for a long time, and I also stood up from the sofa, ready to leave here, but at this moment, Song Dongyang put down one hand, revealing half of his wet face.

He reached out and grabbed the hem of my shirt.

He said in a hoarse voice: "I have liked you for a long time, Chi Rui, no one can be a brother to the object of his first sexual dream."

"You have liked me for so long, and you can still hang out with Ma Feifei. Your liking is too cheap." It was not intentional accusation, but simply stating the facts.

"I don't want to delay you, you are not gay, I can't confess to you, I can only be your brother."

He put down his other hand, staring at me with burning eyes.

"Why did you change your mind now?" I was really curious.

"You're not against homosexuality, at least if you're bisexual, I still have a chance." He answered honestly.

"Even if I might like a man, I don't like you now."

"If you don't like it now, it doesn't mean you won't like it in the future."

"We don't need to take risks. Even if we like each other in the future and we are together, we will still choose to separate because of family and social reasons. At that time, we won't even have to be friends."

I said everything I could and couldn't say, but Song Dongyang still didn't let go, he raised his head and looked at me.

He said, "Chi Rui, give brother a chance."

I turned my head and didn't look at him. I was cruel and said, "No."

I walked forward, but his hand was pulling my shirt. He pulled it very tightly, but I insisted on walking forward. The fabric of my shirt was not thick, and after tearing it back and forth a few times, it split.

Without looking back, I walked towards the door, Song Dongyang didn't call me again.

Since that day, Song Dongyang and I have started a cold war.

He didn't contact me, and I didn't contact him. When I filled out my volunteers, I chose the best university and filled in my favorite major.

After I finished my major and went out, I went down the stairs and saw Song Dongyang standing at the corner, not holding a cigarette in his hand, but licking a lollipop.

He saw me, put down the candy in his hand, and said, "I'm quitting smoking."

I had nothing to say, so I replied to him: "It's pretty good."

He took a step in my direction and said, "Make up."

This is unclear, I don't know what he wants to reconcile at all, maybe I know it subconsciously, but I don't want to think about it.

But I sighed softly and replied to him: "Make up."

He laughed all of a sudden, put his arms around my shoulders, and said, "Let's go, let's discuss where to travel."

I wanted to warn him not to push forward, but I realized that I didn't change my will, and I didn't forcefully reject his "reconciliation", which was already a kind of concession.

Even though I have experienced so many bad things, even though I have experienced many disappointments, Song Dongyang is still a very important existence to me.

My rationality still reminded me that I made a wrong choice, but I lowered my head, looked at the overlapping shadows of me and Song Dongyang, and said softly to myself: "Let's go with fate."

Both Song Dongyang and I played super long, went to the university we wanted to go to, and realized the dream of "going to the same university" when we were young. The rate of re-entry and undergraduate rate in Linshui No. [-] Middle School exceeded previous years.

The days after that were uneventful.

We went to college. When I was a freshman and sophomore, I was obsessed with studying. I didn’t even participate in extracurricular activities. After studying abroad, I went abroad as an exchange student for two years. I was addicted to academics and couldn't extricate myself.

Song Dongyang graduated from university and no longer pursues further studies. He has a broader space that belongs to him. I can often learn about his latest assets and titles from other people, from newspapers, and from TV.

But that doesn't mean we're estranged, in fact, we're back together.

When I was about to graduate in my senior year, I often stayed up late to do experiments in the laboratory. Song Dongyang was always busy with his affairs outside at that time, but every night, he would always appear under my laboratory building and take me Return to the dormitory from the laboratory building.

He never came to me directly in my lab, he was very polite, he didn't want to disturb me.

One day, I did the experiment very late, and by the time I realized it, it was already two o'clock in the morning, and there were several missed calls on my phone, all of which were from Song Dongyang.

I glanced at the time and planned to send him a text message later and call him tomorrow.

I turned off the lights in the laboratory, locked the door, got off the elevator, swiped my card to open the side door, and suddenly saw Song Dongyang's figure.

Like countless nights in the past, he stood under the brightest streetlight opposite the laboratory building, with his back to me, like a perfect statue.

I walked lightly, walked behind him, and hugged him tightly from behind.

Later, I thought that the movement of me coming out of the building was not small, he must have known that I had come out, and at that time his back was facing me, he was posing under the street lamp, and he was very suspicious of seduction.

But at that time I didn't think so much, I just wanted to hug him, and naturally, I hugged him.

Everything that happened after that fell into place, we got the room and the sheets.

Afterwards, Song Dongyang kissed my chest and asked me if there was another time. I stared at the chandelier on the roof for a while and replied, "Let's date."

As I got older, my parents began to urge me to marry. My parents and I declared that we were unmarried. They didn't understand at first, but then slowly, they followed me.

After I finished my studies, I went to a high-tech enterprise, and more than half of the money I earned was given to my parents, who sent them to travel and bought them a bigger house.I feel guilty towards them, but I just don't want to repent.

As for Song Dongyang, when I was discussing this issue with him, I found out that he came out after the college entrance examination. The night he said he could not call me, he was beaten and ran away from home in an Internet cafe. Send me a message here.

I couldn't imagine what he was like in the Internet cafe, so he replied to me: "Don't think about it."

He added: "I hope that in your eyes, I will always be handsome."

After talking, he took me home several times. His family didn't reject me, but they weren't very close to me. On the contrary, Song Dongyang's younger brother treated us fairly close.

Song Dongyang originally didn't have a younger brother, but in the second year after he came out, Song's mother gave birth to another one. His younger brother is very cute, but the Song family's parents were very cold.

They said to Song Dongyang: "I can't rely on you anymore, I can only rely on your brother."

Song Dongyang bit his candied haws and said to me: "They think I've been raised crookedly, so they have to raise a small one again, so that they will be happy. Whether I'm happy or not is not important."

I hugged him, and I said, "If you have me in the future, I will be your family."

We seldom talked sweetly, but we were always together. Even during the years when I was abroad, Song Dongyang often came to see me.

In the tiny apartment, we kissed, hugged, made love, and then walked hand in hand in a foreign country. I introduced to my classmates: "Heismyboyfriend."

Song Dongyang smiled very naughtily at this time, always wanting to kiss my earlobe, kiss my cheek, or simply kiss me.

When we were almost 40 years old, my parents had already seen something. When the Chinese New Year was approaching, it was no longer me going home alone. My parents asked me to take Song Dongyang back.

Song Dongyang was very cramped, and I was also very cramped. We anticipated many possible scenarios, but when we returned home with all our bags and bags, my mother opened the door and said naturally: "We are all back .”

At that moment, I almost cried holding her.

Familiar cherries, familiar braised pork, familiar dining table, at that moment, I firmly believe that we will be happy forever.

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