Ravenclaw's Sapphire

"Stop pretending, Granger has already left."

Barbara said indifferently to the girl on the recliner with her eyes closed, without looking at her embarrassing expression or turning over to sit up: "Is there anything you want to ask me? You should remember everything that happened before, right? Siegel."

Zooey nodded silently: "Well, this time... I remember everything. Whether it's about Hermione or..." She opened her mouth, looking confused and tired, "Professor Barbara, what do you think? What kind of 'thing' am I?"

"I don't think you're a 'thing', Siegel," Barbara said. "Why do you people all have to question your own meaning? I'm not saying it's bad, but...there are so many People are looking at you, caring about you, and loving you, can it be that just because of a slight difference in identity, such unreasonable and uncontrollable things can erase everything you have experienced?"

"'You'... Sure enough, the professor knows me, knows my mother, and Professor Margaret too. She never calls me by my last name like other professors, and always calls me by my first name."

"It's just a bad relationship from the past. The three of us used to have a good relationship... As for Meg, that idiot just hopes to use this name to distinguish you, because she is an idiot, and she can only use this straightforward method to express importance. Because she doesn't want any of you to mistakenly think that she doesn't have you in her eyes...Ahhh, just thinking about this idiot makes me angry, God knows how..." Barbara used three words in one sentence. She used this word to attack Margaret, but Zooey felt that her anger was not serious, but more like a verbal habit.

"Do you have a bad relationship with Professor Margaret?" She tentatively asked, but it seemed that she had poked Barbara's "complaint" switch, and her face suddenly became annoyed.

"Can you imagine when I was a student, being pranked by boring fools every day? It's not a fun thing. I hate people touching me, and I like quiet, but Meg likes it." Bullying me, although she didn't do anything particularly excessive, it caused me a lot of trouble, if it wasn't for Max being there..." She stopped talking abruptly, pressed her forehead and said helplessly, " Just pretend I didn't say anything."

"...A lot of things have happened between us. I know how much she likes to stalk. She acts righteous and awe-inspiring in front of you, but in fact she is just narcissistic. She always puts everything around her Messing around, doing it at her own pace, just because she thinks she should... of course, I don't hate her, at least now I've given up."

"But you really have always known about the abnormality in my body. When did this happen?" Hearing the abnormality from Barbara's words, Zooey said gloomily, "Even Professor Margaret knew about it." , then Dumbledore must know too... How many people know that my mother lives in me?! Am I the only one kept in the dark?"

Barbara sighed: "Calm down, I guess Professor Dumbledore should be the one who knew, but Meg was the one who said it was leaking, I told her about it, and when I...knew At that point, we met for the first time, that is, during the summer vacation.”

"Didn't you know it all the time?" Zooey blinked. She thought they had known it for a long time, but it seemed that was not the case.

"Max and I haven't seen each other for a long time, she's cut us off from me and Meg since our...well, 'argument', but she's a much better disguise than Meg, superficially Nothing seems to have changed, except that she never saw us alone again, and something happened to me at the time, and I was resting elsewhere for about a year or two, and when I came back, it was too late to say anything It's gone..." Barbara's voice was filled with melancholy and obvious annoyance.

"After that she joined the Dark Lord's side as soon as she graduated, couldn't wait. We never saw each other directly after that, if you don't take the occasional disappearance or death obituary in the Daily Prophet as an invitation ..."

"You, and, and my mother..." Zoe stammered, she just remembered that Max told her that she had been confessed by a girl, but she couldn't directly ask Barbara if it was her, Maybe she was just thinking too much, not only would it be impolite to ask directly, but it might also make Barbara suspicious.

"Then you know that she is such a person now, do you hate her?"

Barbara was stunned: "Why do you ask such a question?" Her gaze made Zooey fidget, but fortunately Barbara didn't intend to pursue it any further, "Hate...has never happened, even if it happened in the past So many things, I just feel very pitiful and helpless. I don’t know where we went wrong, but after all, everything has happened and there is no going back.”

"I don't even regret loving her - why are you so surprised, didn't you just notice it before? Your mother is a bastard, a conceited bastard, who doesn't know how to understand others Feelings, thinking that my cognition is absolutely correct... But even so, I loved her, but we can no longer be together and drift away, which makes me feel a little sad occasionally."

Barbara came back to her senses, cleared her throat, and her cheeks were slightly red: "Hey, just pretend that I haven't said anything, it's all old things. Adults are very ruthless, Zoe, Because we will choose to forget, even the despair and pain will scab over one day... However, some things will never disappear even if they are forgotten, because they are already a part of us... Although I think if The person standing here is Max, and I will definitely choose to slap her first." She chuckled lightly, it was indeed a smile that came out of the haze completely.

"Could it be that the person you saw when you connected was..." Zooey suddenly remembered the scars all over her body at that time, and then protested, "What are you thinking! That's my body!"

"Who told her to use that matter to provoke me at that time? There are some words that must never be said." Barbara patted her head gently for the first time, instead of her usual expression. A kind of silence, "Sorry, I was really a little dizzy at that time, I apologize to you."

"Can I really stay here, Professor? Even if I am like this?" Zoe looked at her.

"Don't be silly, boy. Of course you can stay here, it's not for anyone to decide, let alone - isn't there someone who would risk everything to help you? Who are you, never It has nothing to do with your origin."

*****

Holding a large cup of hot medicine in her hand, Zooey walked on the way to Barbara's office with a bitter face.You must know that she only showed her weak side in front of an unfamiliar professor two days ago, even though that person may have been her mother's lover.But running over at this time would only embarrass Zooey.

But Snape was completely unaware of her mood, and just lightly said, "From this time on, you will deliver Barbara's potion. It just so happens that this time the potion hasn't been delivered yet, so you go first." For this reason, Zoe was sent out casually.

He cursed Snape inwardly that it would be better if he turned into a real bat immediately, or fell headfirst and broke his big hooked nose.Zooey resisted being close to Barbara's office, but she was also curious about everything that happened in the past, and she couldn't make a choice.

But I don't know if Barbara will be in the office today, and she doesn't know Barbara's class schedule, even if she doesn't have to attend class, maybe she will have private arrangements... But Zooey immediately gave up this guess.Almost half of the second semester was over, and she and Barbara spent a lot of time together, but she knew exactly how lonely Barbara was.

It seemed as if she was going to bury herself in the book, Zoe had never seen her have any unnecessary greetings or communication with other professors, even Margaret, who was said to have had a lot of bad luck with her Never came to her.

"Ah, the professor doesn't think she doesn't have any friends." After blurting out, Zooey looked around guiltily, afraid that Barbara would pop out from some corner and overhear her bad words.But fortunately, these were just imaginations, and she walked all the way to Barbara's office without any abnormalities.

She first stopped in front of the door, took a deep breath, and planned to just pass the cup to Barbara, and then said the greetings that she had repeated in her mind many times, so that she could be in 1 without having to look at Barbara. Evacuate quickly within minutes to get rid of that embarrassing state.

"Professor, this is Professor Snape..." She murmured, and just as she opened the door a crack, she heard Barbara's suppressed voice coming from inside.

"Let go of me, you..."

"No, I've endured it for so long, I finally have free time today..."

Zoe faintly heard the sound of cloth rubbing against each other, and just as she felt that something was wrong, there was a low moan in the room, followed by a small snort and a series of broken sighs squeezed out of her throat, and something The sound of being hit and dropped to the ground was accompanied by "My information..." But before he could finish speaking, something blocked him again.

what happened?Zooey was restless, she vaguely understood, but she felt that she shouldn't understand, it was just curiosity that prompted her to push the door open a little more, but shame screamed for her to run away from here.

Just like this hesitating, the sound inside became more chaotic, until there was another restrained moan obviously coming from Barbara's throat, because it was too sudden, Zoe in the confusion was frightened With a shake of his hand, the cup in his hand knocked against the door, making a muffled sound.

All sounds suddenly stopped, and the atmosphere fell into a particularly terrifying silence. Run away quickly, this is the last chance.But Zooey found that her legs seemed to have been cast by molten iron, and she was motionless. She could only hear the sound of approaching footsteps coming from the room.

The door was opened with a creak, and the helpless Margaret was also stunned when she saw her.Zooey was frightened, but she could still notice that Margaret's robe looked messy and wrinkled. She rolled up the sleeves at both wrists to the elbow joints, and the neck part was also a little loose. Her hair was not too thick. Neat, completely different from her prestige in the past.

"I, I'm here to deliver Professor Barbara's medicine..." Squeezing out a smile that looked more like crying, Zooey blushed, trying to pretend that she didn't know anything.