This bald world [Transmigration Book]

In fact, Xingxing Hanoi is also an extremely sensitive and insecure person in his heart. Xiang Fei vaguely feels that the root of his psychological problems lies in that "An An". Every time she is mentioned, Xingxing He always has a slight expression Changes, and he still remembered that he heard this name last time when he seemed to be in the nightmare of Satellite River.

"If you are sick, don't have so many distracting thoughts. Getting well is more important than anything else." Xiang Fei let go of Xinghe and sat down again. He was not good at comforting others, so he could only say clumsily and dryly: "If you have anything You can tell me what you want to say, although I may not be able to help, but maybe it will be better to say it."

Satellite River bowed its head and was silent for a long time.

"It's okay if you don't want to say it." Xiang Fei waved his hand, "I don't want to spy on your privacy, but I just look at you as if you have something on your mind every day, and your family members are also very worried about you, thinking that if you are willing to tell me, Maybe a little bit better."

Wei Xinghe looked up at Xiang Fei deeply, and after a long time said softly: "It's not that I don't want to say it, it's just that there are some things I don't know how to say."

"I'm afraid that if I say it, you will hate me."

"You don't kill|set|set|fire, why do I hate you?" Xiang Fei was puzzled, "What's more, even if you really did this, based on what I know about you, you must have a reason."

"It's okay, I'm a short-term protector."

Xingxinghe felt a rising feeling in his heart, he felt that his heart seemed to warm up, and his entire vision seemed to be alive. Before Xiang Fei appeared, he turned his head and looked out of the window. The scenery was black and white , but now he can perceive himself.

"If you want to hear it, I can tell you too."

"It's just a part." Xinghe Li smoothed out the folds on the quilt and said calmly, "There is still a part of the story, I want to tell you later, okay?"

"Of course." Xiang Fei nodded, "Even if it's part of it, if you're willing to tell me, I'd be happy too."

That was ten years ago.

It was a very warm afternoon, and it was also the beginning of spring, but he was not in China at that time, and Wei Xinghe had lived abroad for a long time since he was a child.In order to take care of him conveniently, the whole family settled in a foreign country and lived in a secluded single-family villa.

Xingxinghe was eight years old that year, and he was the most lively and lovely age. He was really as sunny as a little angel, and he was the softest part of the whole family's heart. bright.

"An'an is my little sister, I like her very much." Wei Xinghe caressed the smiling face of the little girl in the photo, with nostalgia in her eyes, "She is three years younger than me, and she still stumbles when she is five years old. But he likes to follow me and call him brother.”

"Brother was still in college at the time. He thought An An and I were too young and didn't want to play with us. He often went out to drink and play with his friends."

"That afternoon, he was with his friends as usual, and his parents also went out to the banquet. There were only An An and I at home. Although there were many servants and bodyguards, An An and I liked to hide from them and play in the garden by ourselves. .”

"I just happened to be in a bad mood that day. I was hiding in the rose garden alone, but An An ran out of the house to look for me. I scolded her because I didn't want to talk to her, and told her to go away and not bother her." I."

Tears slowly formed in Wei Xinghe's eyes, "If I knew what happened later, no matter what I was sad about that day, I wouldn't have treated her like that."

"There were no adults at home, and many masked robbers broke in. They all had guns. I heard gunshots outside the garden, but I didn't dare to go out because I was too scared. "

"The group of people found An An not long after they walked into the garden. They covered her mouth and dragged her to the car. I was not noticed by them because I was squatting behind the bushes."

The tears of Wei Xinghe finally fell down, "Xiaofei, you know what, I don't deserve everyone to treat me well. At that time, I was so scared that I didn't dare to move, and I couldn't even make a sound."

"I'm selfish, and I can only watch them drag An'an away."

"I didn't wake up until the car door was closed, but it was too late. No matter how I chased, no matter how I shouted, I was the only one left in the whole garden. There were corpses lying everywhere outside the garden. One of my Filipino maids was lying in a pool of blood, and that morning, she was still distressed because I refused to drink milk."

"I'm the only living person left in the whole family. I called my brother, my parents, and the police, but it was too late."

"They tied An'an for money, and my father agreed to everything, but they still killed her after changing hands, and then threw her in the garbage dump."

Xingxing He trembled all over, and his whole body became abnormal again, "You know what, I still remember the look of astonishment on her face when she died. She was wearing a beautiful white lace dress and her mother's new clothes on her feet. The red leather shoes she bought looked like a real princess. She was too young and innocent, thinking that all the people she met were good people, and maybe she never thought that someone would kill her."

"My mother fell ill after that and passed away within two years, and my father didn't recover from it, and he was decadent and refused to go out all day." Wei Xinghe's face was full of tears, "I often think, if I stood Just come out to protect her, or I was the one they wanted to kidnap, but they changed their mind temporarily after seeing An An."

"You said, am I being selfish?"

Xingxing He looked at Xiang Fei with trembling lips, "I have always dreamed about her these years, dreaming of her being dragged into that car, dreaming of her red leather shoes, dreaming of her asking me why I didn't stand up, why didn't I protect she."

"I'm sorry for her."

Xiang Fei listened quietly to what he said without interjecting a word. He just lowered his head and took out a handkerchief from his pocket, then sat on the bedside and wiped Wei Xinghe's tears. No more redness like before.

"Speak up." Wei Xinghe looked at Xiang Fei, grabbed his hand eagerly, as if he wanted to get something from him, "Am I particularly selfish and disgusting?"

"Why do you have to be so mean to yourself?" Xiang Fei finally spoke after wiping his tears, "You were only eight years old at the time, and you were a child yourself, so it was right to do anything in such a terrible scene of."

"No one will criticize an eight-year-old child." Xiang Fei held Wei Xinghe's hand, "Even if you are not eight years old, yes, you can't do better."

"So what if you stood up at that time? Your bodyguards can't handle those gangsters with guns. You, a child, can do it with your bare hands? It's just that there is an extra corpse in the garbage dump, and your parents and brothers are more painful. "

Xingxinghe shook his head: "But I still couldn't help her, I didn't even dare to move!"

"Do you know that if you protect yourself well, you have fulfilled your duty." Xiang Fei raised Wei Xinghe's face and met his own eyes, "Many people will appreciate you protecting yourself and surviving. you."

"Your parents, your brother, your sister-in-law, your nephew, your grandparents, and... me."

"An An's death is not your fault. If you insist on finding someone responsible, your whole family is responsible." Xiang Fei said gently, "Your parents shouldn't have gone out to the banquet that day, and neither should your brother. My friends were playing together, and because none of them were at home, I couldn't fix everything in the first place in time."

"I think all of them have already blamed themselves, but they must be very glad that you are still alive."

"An'an is dead, but you are still alive, so they can endure the pain and continue to live. At least there is one of you, isn't it?"

Wei Xinghe stared blankly at Xiang Fei, as if he had never heard such words.

"I don't know how to be obedient, but I never lie." Xiang Fei said seriously, "My father once told me that when an ordinary person faces danger, the first reaction is to protect himself. Because they are not professionals, it is already remarkable that they can keep themselves, and no one should blame them, including myself."

"You did the right thing."

Xinghe asked softly: "Really?"

"Really." Xiang Fei nodded, "Maybe An An doesn't want you to live in such pain for so many years. Didn't you say that she is a very kind child? She must have never blamed you in her heart."

"Those things in the dream are all fake, An An will not come to you to question, that is your heart|demon."

"But I... I really watched her..." Wei Xinghe clutched the quilt tightly with both hands, "If I didn't drive her away, I would just play with her in the undergrowth." , so that the group of people who broke into the garden will not find her."

"There is no if." Xiang Fei sighed, "If you hid behind the flowers together at that time, do you think those crazy people would return empty-handed? You two will still be arrested at that time."

Xiang Fei imagined what it would be like for an eight-year-old child to witness his sister being kidnapped and forcibly taken away, and then ran out in despair and helpless, and then saw the horrible scene of dead bodies all over the ground and blood everywhere, what would it be like? Consider him mentally strong.

Let alone an eight-year-old child, even an adult will leave behind many years of shadows. It's no wonder that a child from Xinghe River was tortured like this.

"I think you can't stay here all the time. Your brother and sister-in-law don't know how worried you are, so you should take a look at them." Xiang Fei said, "Your brother just told me to help you. what can be done."

"An'an is gone, and he doesn't want to lose you. You should always think about the living."

Wei Xinghe raised his hand and wiped his eyes, "I love my brother too, but I really don't deserve it."

"I'm not good enough for them."

Xiang Fei frowned, "What nonsense are you talking about? Did your brother and sister-in-law say that you are unworthy? Did your family ever say such a thing? Is there any benefit for you to blame yourself here besides torturing everyone?"

"I think even your unreliable little Qingmei cherishes you, can't you look in the mirror?"

"For such a beautiful and well-behaved person like you, if anyone in this world doesn't like you, they are blind!"

Xingxing He couldn't hold back his tears and laughed. He cried and laughed, "Are you too defensive? I'm not a great person, how can everyone like it?"

"There are not many people who can make me like it. I said you are worth it." Xiang Fei wiped his tears again, "I don't know what secrets you have, but no matter what it is, it's not worth your sadness." Low self-esteem, you are a good boy to me, no one is more likable than you."

"Then will you love me forever?" Xinghe asked cautiously.

Xiang Fei thought for a while, "Forever is a bit empty, but it is true that I want to play with you."

"You say it's just you. If I don't pay close attention, who knows what's going on in your heart? Your brother doesn't care about anything. He hasn't found out that your psychological shackles are so heavy for so many years. Did you say it soon? "

"No." Weixing He held Xiang Fei's hand and said softly: "It's not that my brother didn't notice, they all know what I'm thinking, but they can't take a step forward, because I don't want to go out at all."

"But you are different." Wei Xinghe forced himself to laugh, "You are from outside. I think you descended from the sky like a fairy. You are the patron saint sent to protect me in the dark. You belong to me alone."

Xiang Fei got goosebumps from what he said, "I have only known you for more than three months, and you are exaggerating."

"You don't understand." The haze in Wei Xinghe's eyes dissipated a little, "Some people remember it in their hearts when they first saw it."

"Luckily you're here."

Xiang Fei was suddenly under great pressure. At first he just wanted to accept a younger brother, but he didn't expect that he would become a sticky candy that couldn't be shaken off.

Oh, forget it, the younger brother has such a tragic past, and lives so hard psychologically, he, the big brother, has to be tolerant.

This may be the legendary, sweet burden.