quail

In fact, it can't be blamed on Luo Pingan's head. It should be said that if it wasn't for him, things wouldn't have turned out like this.

At that time Yang Jian was washing the dishes, Li Bai leaned against the kitchen door and watched his eyelids fight, and he already knew in his heart that he lost the room to press the cancel button.

Taking medicine and locking people up, isn't that too neurotic?How can it be blamed on others.However, it is not that Yang Jian has never used the same method on him... Then he woke up by himself, choked up, and when he was rushing to Shunfeng Hotel, he had the intention of killing someone!

Almost did the killing thing.

So now there is no need to ask for forgiveness in a high-sounding manner.

Li Bai threw away the cigarette butt, sat on the edge of the bed and rubbed the back of his neck, trying to get rid of the hangover headache, but he didn't drink.Putting on a thick shirt, he walked through the door and stood beside Yang Jian.

The sky was indeed very blue, and the wind was indeed very cold. A few children downstairs were playing diabolos with an old man, making a buzzing sound, as if a plane was passing by.

"Do you hate this?" Li Bai asked suddenly.

Yang Jian had already turned his face, lowered his eyes, and was looking at him.

"I mean stay here with me and do nothing." Li Bai explained with his face up to meet that gaze.

"You like it very much." Yang Jian said.

This answer is really... smart.It's your style, Li Bai thought silently, but I can't seem to figure out the subtext now.

"Do you want to go back to work?" he asked again. "You love that job, those students, that school, don't you?"

"I don't like it." This time Yang Jian was straightforward.

"But I must go back," he added.

Keeping a blackboard and repeating the questions of several years, small sliders, small balls, particles... I am familiar with Newton's first, second and third laws. For these, you stay in the office until after eight o'clock every day , order Pizza Hut for the students who are queuing up to ask you questions, that's what you have to go back to do.

why?

Li Bai almost asked the question, but there were three consecutive questions, and he needed to take a break.

"I have a guest at three o'clock in the afternoon." He poured out the last cigarette in the pack, bit it in his mouth, and lit it on the cigarette butt in Yang Jian's hand, "but I'm not going," he said long He breathed a sigh of relief, leaned lightly on the shoulder beside him, and stared at the walnut branches dangling outside the window, "I don't seem to have anything to do."

"Can we talk now?" Yang Jian interrupted his fugue.

"Ah, yes," Li Bai stood up straight, "Actually, we're already talking, and it's pretty serious. I thought you'd be so angry that you wouldn't talk to me, or just leave while I was sleeping...I'll lock you up." After more than a day, you must be very uncomfortable."

"Indeed." Yang Jian actually laughed, a diabolo was shaken up, it was bright red, it was still whirring away from the rope, and flew straight into the sky, almost rushing to their window.As a result, it slammed into a branch and fell in a mess.Yang Jian watched the process, most of the cigarettes in his hand were taken away by the cold wind.

"But you stayed and waited for me." Li Bai also stared at the falling red dot, and it finally fell to the ground with great fanfare, causing the child to shriek. "Is it because you want to know what I'm going to say?"

"Because I know you are more uncomfortable than me, your hands were shaking when you tied me up."

"...Don't say that." Li Bai also smiled.

"Are you going to cry?" Yang Jian wanted to lower his head to look at him, the half-smile was still hanging on the corner of his mouth, his forehead was pressed against the window glass, two sets of eyes fell and focused on his barely dry eyelashes .

"I've always wanted to know what you're thinking," Yang Jian wanted to say, sweet as a kind of coaxing, but his tone was unmistakably sincere, "I want to be with you, and I don't want you sad."

"I'm not sad." Li Bai said immediately.

"There's no need to be stubborn at a time like this."

"Tough mouth?" Li Bai swallowed slowly, trying to be calm, "You can kiss it and see if it's still soft."

Yang Jian ignored it, which made Li Bai feel that he was pretending to be an old newspaper with layers of brittleness. He heard Yang Jian say: "What will you do after I leave, Xiao Bai, you and I know very well."

"What would I do? Suicide and self-mutilation or go to your school to block you?" Li Bai wanted to sneer in the middle of the sentence, but suddenly, he couldn't hold back, "I won't! I have made progress in the past few years. It’s been a while since I’ve done something, it’s okay if Teacher Yang doesn’t know, just rest assured now.”

Yang Jian seemed a little surprised and looked at him strangely.

"Okay." He said again after a while.

The wind was too noisy, just as Li Bai closed the window, Yang Jian pressed out the cigarette butt on the window, turned around and was about to leave.

"If you stay just because you are afraid that I will do stupid things again and you will not be able to end it, then you can indeed go! I tricked you in and locked you up. It was my fault first." Li Bai also chased him and turned around, and took another step back. His blade hit the glass, "If it's not all, then just wait for me to finish."

The footsteps stopped, stuck on the short iron threshold, Yang Jian turned his head.

"I know it's a big burden to be with me, and you're the last person you want to be. You've been in relationships with those girls...they always have wrong expectations of you, hope You don't do anything every day, you only have her in your heart, I hope you will make a big change because of them, be their boyfriend, not yourself," Li Bai pressed hard on the tiles behind his waist, "This is a big mistake Ah. Why do you want to become what other people want and meet other people's expectations? I won't make such a mistake."

Without waiting for the man to reply, he went on to say: "Everyone needs their own space and needs to keep a distance from others. ...So I have to keep paying attention, am I not doing enough? You are still very wary of me. "

"beware?"

Li Bai saw Yang Jian's eyebrows twitch, and he didn't know what was in those eyes, whether they were too dense or empty, as if the mist had filled his entire vision from his left eye—seeing it sent chills down his spine, and he just wanted to Close your eyelids.

"If you want to see my sister, you can tell me. I won't insist on following her. If you don't want to, I won't bother her." Li Bai insisted on keeping his eyes open, "but you can tell me."

Yang Jian completely turned his body back, and he even walked back, putting people in front of him and saying word by word: "This is not to be on guard. I simply think that you will be sad if you go, so there is no need."

"I should be sad, shouldn't I?" Li Bai panted violently, turning his head away, "You don't have to think about me so much."

"Can you talk properly?" Yang Jian stared down, pinching his chin to force him to look back.

"...Then can you admit that this is not a matter of forgetting and forgetting? Isn't it just turning over the film?" The corners of Li Bai's eyes were sore, and he was about to shrink into a bug under Yang Jian's hands, " My sister is gone, you are in pain, you really feel that you want to be with me, but sometimes you are annoyed when you see me, so you have to go out to relax, I asked, but I stopped asking, why now I start asking again, and let me You feel bored, don't you?"

"You think I'm going out to relax." Yang Jian's eyes were fixed, his pupils seemed to reflect two balls of fire, and Yan Xin was imprisoned inside, burning dimly.

"I forced you out." Li Bai looked at the flame.

"You must also keep mentioning Yang Yuqiu."

"Because you miss her so much!"

"I do not want."

The flames cooled in Yang Jian's eyes, but he breathed silently, and suddenly laughed out loud.

"You can always go to places I didn't expect. Don't think about it, okay? I won't go out to 'relax' in the future. I have done everything I need to do, and I don't want to see her again."

I've already talked about this, but I'm not going to leave in the future, so don't cry, don't think about locking me up all day long, so please be normal and let's be peaceful.Li Bai could understand.And he saw the extinction as if the fire had never been there, but he alone saw it.

At that moment, he was heartbroken.

"Then you are not going to relax, what are you going to do?" Cautiously, he tried his best to calm down, "May I ask?"

"Whatever I'm going to do, I've already done it completely, and it won't affect our life in the future." Yang Jian's hand slipped from the window frame beside his ear, and he turned around and walked into the house, "I will regret it if I say it."

regret.It's that feeling again.Yang Jian rejected him again.Said regret on his behalf again, just like Yang Jian covering his eyes.

Even if he argues that he doesn't know how to do it, Yang Jian can still say it, but I will.

Is this good for him?Is this caring, worrying about him?Of course it is.Li Bai realizes that he seems to be a person who is easily hurt... and the result of his injury is often out of control, followed by some weird and hurtful developments.Like those excessive words just now, like those cut threads, that crumpled rope.He was tired of watching himself.And Yang Jian would no longer push him away, let him roll to the corner or even the ground, he would only bear the pressure by himself, and bury him with reason and gentleness.

Make him see and hear.

Then Yang Jian turned and left, alone, with a cold eye, facing life.

The feeling of suffocation blocked Li Bai's throat, reminding him of those days, there would always be a few days when Yang Jian would disappear out of thin air as if he didn't know him, and he didn't even want to contact him, he would squat on the sofa and read the calendar and map , guess a time and place.It was difficult to even breathe in those few days, and it seemed unjust, he was really a useless guy who should be excluded, as it should be, equal to the rest of the thousands of strangers who have nothing to do with each other.

Except for those few days, Yang Jian is an excellent friend and a perfect lover.

There are also pretty coastal towns.sunrise.aquatic products.Rough Long Beach. A youth hostel for 80 yuan a night.These danced back and forth in front of Li Bai's eyes.A place where Yang Jian didn't want to go again.So restrained and exhausted, it was always the person who licked his wounds and opened a net for him. Those sharp reefs, turbulent waves, and stormy waves no longer had to be afraid, but after that, the person covered his wounds by himself. I covered myself tightly, and when I didn't want to talk to him, I didn't say a word, so the net was tightened.

Doesn't Yang Jian need to be licked?Won't be afraid, and don't need to be covered when you are afraid?Or, it's not just Li Bai who can achieve the effect.

The back is very close, and it is really lonely.

"Forget about those things," Yang Jian said again, "Don't think about it anymore, okay?"

"Why?" Li Bai followed him into the living room, and suddenly raised his voice, "You don't have to worry about being stimulated after listening to it, brother, I can accept whatever you do, I don't want to force you, or hinder you Things... I'll ask this for the last time and I won't ask you again. Really, I'm serious, do you love me, or don't you love me? Is it sympathy or a sense of responsibility that has been with me for so many years... I have already I am very satisfied, I just see you unhappy every day... I want to know why."

Yang Jian turned half of his body back and looked at Li Bai silently.Just now, Li Bai stopped in the middle of his speech.

"If it's because of me, I can get out..."

Before he finished speaking, Li Bai saw that Yang Jian's nose was a little red, and then it spread into a piece, which should only be on the left half of the nose, but suddenly the flow was too strong, and it stained his lips immediately, and the man remained motionless, Still looking at him like that.

Yang Jian never seemed to avoid looking at each other.

Li Bai panicked, grabbed a lot of paper and ran over to pass it to him, but Yang Jian didn't take it, just grabbed his wrist and wiped it vigorously with his sleeve.Li Bai's wrists were numb, he was watched intently, his eyes were black and wet, as if they were about to drip ink, his mind was almost blank, he just subconsciously wanted to touch Yang Jian's face, Yang Jian let him touch it, and he immediately wiped the hot and sticky scarlet on his hands.

When Yang Jian finally let him go, the nosebleed seemed to stop.

The sleeves have long been a mess.

Yang Jian walked to the kitchen, stopped talking, and stood in front of the sink, washing the spots on his face.

"I just want to say... I just want to say! I often feel that you are perfect," Li Bai chased after the door, "so you don't need to polish at all, let alone be patient and accommodating. You should be very happy and smooth... What kind of box If it can't hold you, then it should change its shape!"

Yang Jian took out the noodles from the cupboard, but still didn't respond.

"You used to live a crazy life, brother, I think my life is so bad and crazy, I think about you, I think you are not afraid of anything, nothing can trap you, you suddenly go to the end It’s not surprising to live in seclusion in Nanshan, or to go to Syria to fight suddenly, just do what you want, I may not be able to catch up with you, but I want to applaud you!” Li Bai could hardly continue, he tried to express what he wanted to say Make it clear, "Before...you were free. Free."

"What am I like now?" Yang cut the pot of water and turned on the fire.

"You are doing very ordinary things, the previous patent, the current cram school...you always abandon it when you are very close to success," Li Bai said in a daze, "and then you are not happy."

"Is it because of me?" He added in a low voice.

"When you accept that people's lives are not for happiness, you may be happier," Yang Jian tore open the bag of dried noodles, as if he had completely returned to normal, but his voice was a little hoarse, "On the contrary, now is the most relaxed life I have ever lived since I was born." Now, there's no need to worry about me."

"Are you lying to me?" Li Bai was at a loss for words.

"Did you put your expectations on me too?" Yang Jian asked back, using the same tone as him, and absent-mindedly placed his hand above the water to test the temperature, "The me who 'live crazy', You love him like crazy and lock me up and tell me 'freedom'."

Li Bai felt the heat of tears streaming down his neckline, he finally couldn't speak, there were countless "no" in his mouth but he couldn't make a sound at all, his neck was strangled by tears, and he was caught by a pair of eyes that no longer looked at him. The eyes are strangled, it hurts too much.

"I have to go back to the meeting after dinner. If you insist on not letting me go," Yang Jian said again, putting the noodles into the hot water, and they immediately fell to the bottom of the pot, "Leave me alone for a while."

He turned his head and finally looked at it. His skin was red, and he didn't know if it was a remnant of blood, or it was frozen like this by the tap water.But Li Bai left his sight, quietly like a ghost, just walked to the door, took two mobile phones and a bunch of keys, and stepped on his hard boots.He never made a sound, took a breath and pushed the door out without looking back.

Putting the key back into the lock, Li Bai locked the door.

go to the store.There are guests waiting.Li Bai was trembling all the way.He lowered his head and walked fast, biting the corner of his mouth, his head was still what Yang Jian said just now, every sentence was covered with a thick layer of frost, almost frostbite him, but he knew that Yang Jian didn't think so.At least that sentence is not.Can't be.Yang Jian said that what he loves is only a certain state.It's ridiculous.Yang Jian couldn't think like this.

He just wants Yang Jian to stop being so tired and be happier, he is always welcome and even eager to be talked to, that's all.

It's such an incomprehensible thing.

However, the word "difficult to understand" seems to be the norm when it comes to Li Bai. When he got off the bus and walked into his store covered in cold air, several employees guarding the door to welcome customers only wore a bloody sweater for him. My denim shirt and a pair of plaid pajama bottoms stare at the feat of wandering the streets in sub-zero temperatures.This match is really not very eye-catching, Li Bai sniffed the blood between his fingers, glanced at himself in the glasses, went upstairs to wash up, changed into a normal one, tied his tool belt around his waist, and waited for the guests to come at three o'clock, smiling Welcome.

It has to be dyed, trimmed, and blown out in good shape, so that the rich lady who lives in the CBD can have a perfect date at night. This is a long process.When the ointment was applied, the screens of the whole store were synchronized with one channel. POPLAR was on TV again. Zhu Yantang won the first prize in the charity and money saving competition, and his mini-film of dressing up was also released.

It's already a replay.

"Hey?" Qianjin narrowed her eyes, "Is that you, Teacher Li?"

Li Bai didn't want to look at that listless face, and didn't raise his eyes, just nodded his head and said "hmm".

"Next time, help me find Zhu Yantang for an autograph? Give him my business card, maybe we can cooperate with my father's company in the future? They are all engaged in film and television, and the boss of Xie's Media is also very familiar with us." " Qianjin finished with a smile, then picked up her mobile phone and continued to play WeChat.Li Bai returned the silicone brush to the assistant, picked up a strand of black hair, put his left hand under it, and through the film of the glove, the dye cream was heavy and felt damp and cool to the touch.He heard Zhu Yantang chatting with the host, Qianjin chatting with friends, and his employees chatting with each other, and in this scalp-numbing conversation, he could vaguely discern a few lines of singing.

I don't know what disc is on now.

"If you want spring..."

"If you want summer."

Not very nice.

Li Bai said, "What song is this?"

The assistant winked at the front desk: "The new Xiao Chang, he likes SNH48, he should be the one who played it."

Li Bai said, "Speak louder."

The sound of the music was immediately amplified, and Xiao Chang, who was waiting for work at the front desk, also ran over happily: "Hey! What do you think, boss? The sentence just now is my home..."

Li Bai smiled at him: "The lyrics are good."

"But the seasons change in a blink of an eye"

"The saddest thing is that I change for you, you say I am fickle"

The lyrics are like this, these few lines can be heard very clearly.

Seeing him smiling, Xiao Chang really got excited: "That's right! I said that—"

Li Bai's face turned cold again, and in just a second, he focused on Qianjin's hair, and the movements of his hands were patient and meticulous, as if it was him who just smiled.Xiao Chang was rushed to work in fear, and Jin's assistant who knew silence was watching. The eldest lady put down her mobile phone and looked at the screen with no new news from time to time. Li Bai could listen to music quietly again.I have never heard this type before, the brisk and simple melody, the voice of a girl who is not familiar with the world, the festive atmosphere of queuing up in the supermarket during the New Year, and it is like being in an outdated disco.The words sung are inexplicable, but they are so sad.

"If you want autumn, go to the Red Leaf Poppy"

"If you want winter, please fish alone in the cold river and snow"

……

Li Bai seemed to have been hit by something, and was hit on the forehead sullenly. For a moment, he lowered his eyes and cursed: "...Damn."

It turned out that he himself was sad.

Now he can cry when he hears Beijing welcomes you.

Qian Jin blinked her big innocent eyes and looked at him in the mirror: "Teacher, are you okay?"

"Ah, I'm fine." Li Bai laughed immediately, and finished applying the ointment with a smile in his eyes, "Wait for about four or 10 minutes." Taking off his gloves, he carefully scraped off the small spot on the tip of Qianjin's nose with his little finger. At one o'clock, the girl slapped her eyelashes in front of him, and the assistant's newly added scented tea was served, and he left.

Then he hid in the warehouse, huddled next to boxes of hair conditioner, and squatted for a long time looking at the dial.

Spring, summer, autumn and winter, which season does Yang Jian like?Will Yang Jian say that he is fickle.The most fearful thing is that Yang Jian doesn't like anyone, and doesn't care about his changes.Has he really changed again?He is still the cowardly but angry self, the mushroom that can't live for a few days in the cracks of the wall after the rain, the bacterium that is about to die at the mouth of the disinfectant bottle.Every time it was the breath Yang Jian gave him.Then they lived so desperately to this day, they are not living well, he saw that there was a big hole in Yang Jian's heart, and he couldn't fill it in by pinching himself into any shape, asking so many questions, and couldn't touch the place Still can't touch it.

There is only one kind of poisonous tarsal on the bone, glued in the relationship between the two people, first cunning and lurking, then crazy spread, in short, it keeps breaking out, making the hug unable to keep warm, and also staining the hands that hold each other, as if it will one day Moth him into an empty shell, nothing left.

People don't live to be happy.

Indeed, Li Bai knew that the easiest stage to be happy should be childhood, and the purpose at that time was always very simple, just to be happy.But for him and Yang Jian, this is something that has long been missed.

So you can live without being happy, right?

Just like Yang Jian, who has not pursued happiness for a long time, has accompanied him until now?

Who believes that he only understands now.

All the employees were off work that day, and Li Bai stayed in the store alone, cleaning the upper and lower floors when he was bored, and he didn't go home until very late.Probably because the concert at Gongti had just ended, there were many fans wandering on the empty road with support sticks, and the last train disappeared. When Li Bai rode that Yamaha back to the quiet old community, climbed up the In a square building, Yang Jian had already turned off the lights and gone to sleep.

On the dining table was a thick pile of corrected test papers, "2016-2017 academic year Beijing No. [-] High School Physics Examination Paper in March", "Examiner: Wei Hua, Examiner: Yang Jian".Li Bai touched the red ticks one by one, caressing the words.He gently took off his coat again and walked into the bedroom.Yang Jian was lying on the left half of the bed, breathing evenly, like a black shadow.

Looking closely at the shadow, it is uneven. When Yang Jian sleeps alone, he always lies on his side, curling himself up like a shrimp.

Li Bai pulled the quilt to cover the white waist between the sweater and trouser waist, he felt that he was about to kneel down, and he would not be able to stand up, he wanted to kiss, he wanted to put his soft bones on, and he wanted to lie with this person on the bed.

Want to hug him from behind.

But Li Bai just sat down by the bed, leaning his back against the side of the mattress, looking at the thin shadow cast by the street lamp on the gauze curtain, he remembered that it was already 12:30 when he got home, the first day of [-]. A day was spent like this by them.

The eyes are swollen and there is nothing to shed.

He sat on the edge of the bed until dawn.

Day three.

Li Bai didn't expect that he could keep Yang Jian in prison for so long.That person was too cooperative from the beginning to the end, and there was no physical conflict at all. At most, he wiped the blood with his hands, as if pressing himself desperately before the limit to avoid hurting him.I don't know when the limit will come.Li Bai saw that the sky was getting brighter, the sun was a blur of gray, hanging coldly over the treetops, and at that time, he found Yang Jian was awake.I don't know when this sobriety started, I only know that Yang Jian probably stared at him silently for a long time, and that gaze was like morning fog.

They looked at each other speechlessly, they seemed to be too lenient, so they couldn't do anything about each other, but they still had to eat breakfast, the refrigerator was empty, so Li Bai had to go downstairs to buy it.

The breakfast was served near the gate of the community, and it took about half an hour to go back and forth and wait for the meal. He was still worried, so he took Yang Jian's mobile phone, and tied Yang Jian's wrist before leaving.

If the man resisted, even if only for a moment, he would not be able to do it.

But there was no resistance.

Yang Jian just looked at him, deeply, with pure and focused sadness, very sincere, as if he felt sorry for him.

Li Bai bought twenty steamed stuffed buns, two dishes of side dishes, and two bowls of porridge. Yang Jian added three spoonfuls of sugar to Yang Jian's bowl, which has always been his habit.The first time he stepped out of the shop, he heard the shop owner tell others that the fried liver was not ready yet, and he needed to wait for a quarter of an hour, and then returned with the last step.

"I'll make a bowl too, don't put garlic." He sat back in the steaming steam.

Is this intuition?A certain thread was connected between them, tied around his neck and Yang Jian's hand.Li Bai had a faint feeling that something was happening, he should jump up with a white face in a rage, and immediately start running wildly, but he was sitting on this rusty old round stool, leaning against the greasy wall, with a kind of sudden and at ease , I don't want to stand up anymore.

He began to fantasize about being a student again—knowing that he would definitely fail, he just stared at the paper in a daze for 5 minutes before handing in the paper, which should be the feeling.

So when he walked home carrying plastic bags of all sizes and then into the bedroom, he thought he shouldn't be surprised by what he saw.However, he guessed wrong again, and the steamed stuffed bun and heat preservation box fell to the ground with a loud crash, and Li Bai ran to the open window.

It should not have been turned on for a long time, and the heating in the room has not run out yet.

And there were a few loops of bloody rope hanging on the pillar at the head of the bed. Li Bai stroked it several times, but he didn't find any breaks.

The rope was broken loose abruptly.

Although his technique was unprofessional, he tied it tightly, and there were dark red dot marks on the inside of the hemp rope, which was too dense and became a thread.

Li Bai grabbed the end of the rope and walked towards the window, but he was too far away and had to let go, so he looked around the window and then ran back immediately, holding the rope tightly back into his palm.He walked back and forth, not knowing what to look at.But there was only one result from what he looked at - Yang Jian had already left, from the window on the third floor.

His footprints were on the dusty air conditioners on the second and first floors.

There should be no other injuries. The window-climbing experience gained during the curfew in the dormitory is still effective today. However, Li Bai leaned half of his body out of the window and stared at the clean concrete floor downstairs, feeling that all this is still tragic.

It's not like he didn't know that Yang Jian would leave.

Can he see the shadow coming out of the window, a piece of red, with his back to the blue sky, Yang Jian carrying a bag?Are you carrying that stack of test papers?Have you got the key, and are you ready to come back.

From the moment he set off to Wenling, he started to make mistakes.

He should have opened the door for Yang.

The No. [-] Middle School was very close, and Li Bai was within a few steps.The security guard at the school gate also knew him well, and when he was free, he would come to deliver meals, fruits, and cigarettes to the security room. Everyone knew that he was the roommate of Mr. Yang, who was rich and free in the physics group of the third year of senior high school.

So I said that Mr. Yang forgot to bring something and I will give it to him, and this time the campus is also unimpeded.

On the last day of the holiday, only the third graders came back to class. The playground and the school building were soaked in the orange-red morning light. The corridors were very quiet. The lights were turned on in every classroom, and the doors were closed tightly. Squeeze it out and rub it together, it sounds a bit distorted.In Class [-], Grade [-], Li Bai walked to this door, and stood close to the narrow glass on one side of the wooden door. Yang Jian was inside, standing in the aisle between the two rows in the middle of the classroom, about the second row.

The window was bright and clean, and he was too bright.

The paper was rolled into a tube and tapped on the table. He probably said something, and those who were sleepy sat up straight. The whole class burst into laughter, and Yang Jian also laughed. He returned to the podium to write on the blackboard, raised his arm, half of his wrist Just protruding from the cuffs, with red marks hanging.

The skin was indeed broken, and it was very conspicuous, even if his left hand was far away from the door, Li Bai could still see it clearly.

Yang Jian didn't seem to take it seriously.

The students fell silent quickly, everyone scratching their necks, copying notes.But Li Bai could still hear those tumbling titters, which were mocking him. He saw it with his swollen eyes, and finally saw it, something that always existed in Yang Jian's body, something that could not be faded no matter how hard he tried. .pride.This is not what everyone wants.But to hold it, other people just need to get up and hold something to stand up straight, but Yang Jian needs to bleed.

From long ago... perhaps from the village on the other side of the tracks, to here, to now.

Bleeding all the time.

When he asked Yang Jian why he was not free, was it like asking someone who lives under a bridge hole, why don't you travel around the world when you are so boring?What's more, the one who kept asking questions and locked the door was himself.

"Do you have something to do with Teacher Yang?" Li Bai was tapped on the shoulder while he was in a daze. He was a student in the class, and he probably just came back from the bathroom.Yang Jian had been with these children for several months, and most of them had heard of the teacher's roommates, and Li Bai was almost familiar with them.

He even remembered the person's name, and knew that he was a jerk in class, but his grades were very good. He often said that he didn't know anything, and basically went to Pizza Hut every week.

"He forgot to bring this." Li Bai took out a mobile phone from his coat pocket and handed it to the boy. "Give it to him after class."

"Okay." The boy seemed a little nervous as he shouldered a heavy responsibility.

"Thank you." Li Bai smiled, walked past him, and returned the same way.He heard a "goodbye" behind him, followed by the sound of the doorknob being pushed down, and the chalk tip knocking on the blackboard, with a moderate voice, they came out together, followed behind Li Bai like a storm, and came together again. Caught by the crack of the door.

Li Bai didn't dare to turn his head, stared at the ground and walked away.

There is a benefit to getting up early. No matter how long you wander the streets, cross the central axis of the Forbidden City, walk from the west city to the east city, and then look at your watch, you can still make a fuss and say "how come this point".At least when Li Bai walked to the intersection one street away from Sanlitun, it was only five minutes past 10:30, and lunch was still far away. , An old man sat on the horse, holding a bamboo pole in his hand, and a bastard was tied to the top of the bamboo pole.

Stepping on a piece of A4 paper, he wrote crookedly: 20-year wife, price [-].

The green light turned on, but Li Bai didn't move, he was still staring at the bastard.

"Is this a turtle?" he asked.

"It's a tortoise!" The uncle's eyes were cloudy behind the sunglasses, and when he opened his mouth, every word seemed to come out of his nostrils.

"Does it eat grass?" Li Bai approached and squatted down in front of the turtle.

"Eat fish, eat snails!" The uncle was still not in a good mood.

"It's winter, it should be hibernating." Li Bai raised his chin, tilted his head to look at the tortoise shell, his belly was yellow with a few black spots, bigger than his face, and his four legs stretched dryly. Outside the shell, he was stiff as if he didn't know what to do, and he didn't move, "You can't wait for someone to wake up before selling."

"My daughter is married, so I can't take care of her anymore!" The uncle scratched the ground with both feet, as if he was about to stand up and push her away.

But Li Bai stood up first, and lowered his head to meet the big eyes of the tortoise. He opened his mouth when he put his fingers close to it. It turned out to be alive. "Sell it to me," he said. ?"

With the bamboo pole upright in his hand, the tortoise was hanging at the same height as his head, and Li Bai was attracting attention all the way.It's a pity that he got out of the relationship before he went far. He just felt that this thing was as out of date as he was. Seeing that it was too cold, and his limbs were fixed and couldn't be retracted into the shell, Li Bai found a convenience store. I bought scissors and a plastic bag, untied it and put it in to carry it. I also bought a towel to cover the turtle’s back. There are big strawberries printed in pink. The turtle has completely retracted into the shell. It looks funny together .

In this way, he walked through the Taikoo Li business district, walked along the main road of Embassy Street, and came to a river, which seemed to be called Liangma River. Li Bai could finally breathe a sigh of relief.He never thought about raising the old tortoise, he just wanted to let it go, and when he walked through the gray willows, he saw thick ice in the river.The plastic bag in his hand shrank back again, he was afraid that it would freeze to death and starve to death.

The sky started to get dark, Li Bai himself was hungry, and he had nowhere to catch fish, so he found a flower, bird, fish and insect market along the navigation, walked in the one closest to the door, opened the bag and put it on the table, everyone He thought he wanted to order a big tank for this big tortoise, but he said, I'll give it to you, you can keep it if you want, and sell it if you want, it's free, and I can also make up for your food expenses.

As he said that, he began to cry, tears streaming down his face, and his face was swept away.Everyone thought that he had a deep relationship with the old tortoise, so they had no choice but to give it away, promising to take good care of it, but not confiscating his money. They also wanted to lure the tortoise out of its shell and bid farewell to the former owner.

Li Bai walked away as if fleeing.

Flying towards the bus stop, he covered his face with the sleeve of his coat and kept thinking: It has nothing to do with me, I'm crying because I'm an idiot.

But no matter how stupid you are, you can't wash your face with tears all day long, right?After getting off the bus, he bought a pancake to eat. From a distance, when he saw the signboard of his store, his tears stopped.

The oldest master in the store brought two apprentices who wash their hair, and two children of their own family, gathered outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, and with the lights in the store, they played with two