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There are many small scars on the back of Li Bai's hand, the overall color is purple, some are new and some are old, some are broken and some are pure bruises. They are concentrated on the protruding joints at the root of the index finger and middle finger of his right hand. They are too close to the eyes, and they are rubbed together. , poor focus.Yang Jian looked at it for a while before realizing that it was a trace of picking and vomiting.

04: 30.

My roommate was also attending a wedding, so she went to bed early, and now she was snoring loudly, filling up the small kitchen next door.So the two of them became more quiet.

"What's wrong with your stomach." This question of concern was also considered for a long time, but once he said it, the result was still out of bounds.

Sure enough, Li Bai was a little surprised. He paused for a moment with his fingers pinching the eyebrow trimming knife, and put it coolly on Yang Jian's forehead, "Maybe he's sick," he said in a soft, coquettish tone, "If you can't eat, just swallow it." Nauseous, and I was always hungry, so I went to the hospital to prescribe some medicine."

Yang Jian closed his eyes, and the broken eyebrows fell over his eyelids, and grew at the base of the eyelashes, and were brushed away by Li Bai, "See if I have made progress. If I feel uncomfortable, I will see a doctor."

"Ah."

"Then why don't you tell me 'remember to take the medicine as prescribed by the doctor', I will be more obedient if you remind me," Li Bai said with a soft smile, "Be gentler."

Yang Jian didn't respond.

After a while, one eyebrow was trimmed, and Li Bai drank the glass of water next to the induction cooker.Yang Jian just poured him such a cup from a thermos bottle, it was still hot, he drank it in one gulp, and said: "By the way, Xiao Hui has been back, at least twice."

"The first time I found two mice on the air conditioner, I had a premonition that it would come back," he put down the empty cup and walked back to Yang Jian, "so I slept on the balcony every night, the last day of September , I really waited for it. A big shadow majesticly retracted its wings, stopped in front of our window, and left the third mouse behind."

"Its yellow eyes saw me too, and it didn't fly away. I opened every window, and I could touch its wingtips, but it didn't fly in again, and it stayed with me for a while, saying no." "The eyebrows on the left side have also been repaired, leaving some natural and real clutter like the one on the right. It is thick and energetic, which is Li Bai's favorite state," I thought it would not be able to survive after being fed by me for so many years. The place you released this time should be a good place."

"It's in the Old Summer Palace." Yang Jian opened his eyes.

"Oh." Li Bai whipped up the foam and applied it to Yang's chin with his fingers, "It's been there a few times before. Only this time it's really not going to come back. Why."

Yang Jian's breath fell on his hand, as if it could wrap his fingers, making him feel very warm.

He was speechless for a long time.

"I was also wondering why," he finally said again, "it can go, it can leave, maybe it can meet a few new friends, at least they can live alone. Why can't I? But I just Can not be done."

When flushing, Li Bai turned the water pipe to the fullest, and the water jet hit him, crackling and hitting the stainless steel vegetable sink, drowning out his voice: "It's not that I haven't thought about it, but there is nothing I can do. I can't. "

"It's not that you haven't lived by yourself." Yang Jian still heard it.

"You said before the age of 15?" Li Bai turned his head and smiled at him sweetly, without arguing with him, "Then let's live."

Putting on a brand new blade and starting to shave, Li Bai continued with a disposable paper cup, then suddenly said, "Brother, what month did we move into the new house?"

"January."

"Hey, don't move around, I almost cut your face."

"..." Yang Jian decided not to speak.

Li Bai bent down to stick very close to him, seeming to enjoy himself, "Well... there is another amazing thing, some time has obviously passed, and when I think about it after a while, I will think it is fake. For example, now, I Being able to think of Xiaohui and feeling that it never existed was a figment of my imagination, and only when I think of those mice can I believe it is real," he said, using his little finger to wipe off the white spot that Yang Jian accidentally rubbed on the tip of his nose, "Then It’s the same with the house. It’s only been eight months since I moved in. The details are so easy to remember. You can play a movie in your mind. The entrance, the dining table, the bed, where are you, a piece of sunlight shines on you, what shape is it, you say What, what did I say, so much so much. Is it too good to be fake, I ask myself these nonsensical questions every day. But did that time really exist?"

The vines wound up again, more tightly, from Yang Jian's shoulders to his throat.His face was refreshed, and he leaned over to wash it off by the pool. Li Bai took another soft towel and wiped it for him carefully.

"It existed before," Yang Jian calmed down, looked at Li Bai and said, "But it's all in the past. Think more about the present."

"Now?" Li Bai held the wet towel and wiped his face, "It's even more strange now. I can empathize with some things that never happened. For example, I always feel that I have a tattoo. Your name, But I looked in the mirror and touched myself all night and couldn't find it. Do you think I'm sick?"

Without waiting for Yang Jian to reply, he immediately said: "Also, I just said that when I look in the mirror, I am transparent. In fact, I started to become transparent a long time ago. If it becomes faster, I will have no shape at all. Follow you It would be nice not to get caught. But I'm in this position of not being caught."

"You should always have your own shape," Yang Jian said as always, he didn't treat his babbling as crazy, nor did he show a weird expression, he was so sincere that he was hateful, "Strengthen it, don't dissolve it for anyone, no one deserves it You do it."

"including you?"

"I'm one of the most unworthy people." Yang Jian still stared, looking directly, without looking through the square mirror with no frame on the opposite wall, "Now that we have broken up, I still think so."

"The breakup, in the final analysis, is because of the breakup. Whether it's worth it or not is up to you," Li Bai shook off the apron and smiled slowly, "But you can't prove that I'm not transparent."

Yang Jian took a deep breath, and suddenly grabbed his right hand, with a "crack", Li Bai's joints were pulled out of the sound, and the unfastened apron fell to the ground. He blocked it in front of his eyes, "You can still see it." Are you there?"

"what?"

"Where am I looking?"

"You're looking at me. I can see your eyes even when I close my eyes. You're looking at me, no matter what time it is." Li Bai broke his five fingers, sighed and bent down, picked up the apron and tied it on him. , word by word, relaxed and tired, "I still don't understand why we broke up? But you said that being together is tiring and easy to separate, and I can't refute it. So Li Li made it easy for you. That kind of person? Actually, I also bought a ring. The diamond is very small and very cheap. I bought it earlier. I planned to give it to Heimeng for your birthday. In January, I think September. I don’t think you will Will refuse. But I later had the courage to give you the black dream in advance, but I didn't have the courage to take it out."

"It's like I climbed a mountain. Its name is Yang. I thought I had reached the top, but if I didn't pay attention, I fell and died. I forgot the ring on the top of the mountain. Brother, you are really good at catching people off guard. "

"..." Yang Jian was a little dazed.

He felt that it was meaningless to say these things now, but he couldn't interrupt Li Bai's words at all.

Li Bai stopped by himself, and suddenly squatted down beside him, bowed his head for a while, then suddenly raised his face, his eyes were bright and moist, and the natural dependence like a lamb was still stored in it, "If I now Give you the ring, will you accept it?"

"No." Yang Jian knew that a little hesitation would lead to his retreat.

"That's right, you'll have the authentic ones in a while," Li Bai stood up, and took out the barber comb and the old flat scissors from the kit. , The hands are white, only use the middle finger and thumb to exert force, and the rest of the fingers are willow leaves blown by the wind and flowers on the waves. His posture of holding the scissors is always so light and graceful, "Have you obtained the certificate?"

"I got it."

Actually no.The tradition of Li Li's family is to hold a banquet first, and then everything can continue.

"When?"

"last month."

Li Bai's eyes jumped, and he shut his mouth tightly.Yang Jian had obviously had his hair cut, and he knew when he combed it that it was just too messy after not taking care of it for too long.He also dyed it black, otherwise there would be no strands of his usual silver-white hair.It should have been not long ago, in preparation for the wedding, it is really wise to set aside a few days for it to grow naturally.

This made Li Bai unable to do anything.He has nothing to repair, it is the most terrifying thing, the degree is no less than Yang Jian is getting married in front of him, but he has no way to stop him, he can only calm down, hello, hello, exchange a lot of question marks Heartbreaking answer.He couldn't stop himself, so he put the scissors back into his bag in a daze, took out the essential oil mousse and sprayed it on the ends of his hair, and then held up the hair dryer and blew it.The hairstyle was blown out quickly, those black hairs were so smooth and docile, they were softly wrapped around his fingers, he couldn't bear to let go, his fingers were hot and hurt, so let it hurt, but Yang cut it His hair was also permed.

Does that hurt?

Li Bai unplugged the hair dryer, held it casually, put his arms around Yang Jian's body, put his neck on his shoulder, and hugged him from behind.Those strands of hair were attracted to his face by static electricity, warm, but Yang Jian remained motionless, as cold as his even breathing.It turns out that it is the cold that burns people.Li Bai couldn't bear it any longer, so he ran to the corner and squatted in front of the tool bag, roughly stuffed the hair dryer into it, and zipped it up in one breath. He saw that the two needles on his watch were not yet six o'clock.

Didn't he even take two hours?

There is too little that can be done, but he finished it too quickly, is Yang Jian going to leave.He covered his face and couldn't stand up.

His froze only lasted for a few minutes, and there was a rustling sound behind him, it was the cloth being removed, and Yang Jian was about to leave.

"Xiaobai." Yang Jian put the folded apron on his bag.

"I'll take you home." It was this sentence again.

"I'm not going home," Li Bai shouted, clutching his head. "I said I won't go home. That's not my home anymore. I don't have anything. You snatched it from me!"

Yang Jian's hand stopped on top of his shoulder, and then hung down again.

"Don't drive me away, brother, you don't have to drive me away at all." Li Bai's eyes lit up again suddenly, and as if he had an idea, he wrapped his hands around Yang Jian's arms from the side of his ears, "Actually, you don't need me anymore." Will you be sad? A little bit, uncomfortable, right? You called Luo Pingan, right? It’s been a few days, and you’re afraid that something will happen to me! You obviously don’t care about me! Then don’t force it! It's okay, marriage is not a problem!"

Yang Jian frowned, unexpectedly, for the first time, he couldn't fully understand what Li Bai was talking about.

"She betrayed you, Luo Ping'an also saw it, Luo Ping'an told you!" Li Bai's facial features came alive, it was extremely pure excitement, a person who had been stranded on a deserted island for several years suddenly saw the ship , should be his expression, "So you don't love her. Don't be sad, just use those hundreds of invitations as practice calligraphy. That kind of woman who lied to you... I hope she dies! But You don't want it, right? That's okay, anyway, you can betray her! We will still be together in the future... I will come to you when she is not around, I don't care!"

After hearing what he said, Yang Jian stared at him intently, and remained silent for a while, breathing in and out, hanging on Li Bai's string.Did you say something extremely hurtful?Li Bai couldn't help being suspicious.Then his thread was cut, Yang Jian took off those two warm hands from his shoulders: "I care."

Li Bai grasped nothing, swayed his body, and sat down on the ground.

But Yang Jian stood up, "You must put yourself so low, don't you?"

"You... want to call me cheap?" Li Bai's eyes were full of misty confusion.

Yang Jian lowered his eyelashes, still staring at him like that.The light from behind, the freshly done haircut, the pretty and sullen face.

Li Bai was still numb, met the stare, raised his hand to grab his belt, and said: "I don't care! By the way, brother, I remembered, don't you like Dou Wei, but you know, Faye Wong just talked with him When he was on the mend, Dou Wei's girlfriend at the time went to the hotel to knock on the door to arrest them, Dou Wei was taken away by her girlfriend, guess what happened to Faye Wong? She yelled in the corridor, Dou Wei, I love you!"

"So you think you are Faye Wong?" Yang Jian laughed.

"You really like her very much." There was no warmth in this smile.

"...I just want to say, cheap is cheap, you can say what you like, you can accompany her, and you can spend time with me, I don't want so many, I will definitely squeeze in...Scars, tears, You give it to me, I can accept it all, they are traces, they belong to me," Li Bai said firmly, but his confidence was weakening a little bit, "Is she better than me? Is it okay to have me work? Lip ring you Haven’t tried it yet, I’m the only one who knows how to make you happy, I just want to make you happy! It’s you who said you love me, I’d like anything else, I’m really willing, really casual!”

"It's your love, I wish." Yang Jian took his hand from his crotch and squeezed it tightly.

What's the meaning?Li Bai was dumbfounded.

His hands were also pinched so painfully.

"What happens between me and Li Li is our business, but no matter who I'm with," Yang Jian paused, without reducing his strength at all, like a kind of punishment, and seemed to be suppressing something, "No matter who it is, There is no possibility of letting you "squeeze". What do you regard yourself as? A toy? A lackey? My own bitch? Are these all compliments to you? Do you have to live like this?"

"Is it okay to have a little self-esteem? Tell me, is it okay!" He picked up Li Bai who was crouching in the corner and cowering.

The turtleneck of the sweater was very soft, he couldn't lift it steadily, and Li Bai couldn't stand still either, with the back of his hands scratching against the wall, trembling constantly.When he made a mistake, Yang Jian would always teach him a lesson and scare him, but never hit him.Is Yang Jian scolding him now?Cursing is like writing an article.Still say whore?Is this the dirtiest word Yang Jian could use against him?

But why do my eyes turn red when I scold someone?

Still can't bear it, still can't bear it, right?Yang Jian is really a self-contradictory guy, he always has high morals in strange places.

Li Bai laughed loudly, his face was red, his wrist was numb, he liked this kind of pain.

However, Yang Jian's next sentence made him lose his mind, as if he was really disappointed, Yang Jian let go of him, wiped his eyes, and said slowly: "Don't meet again in the future."

Li Bai's smile froze at the corner of his mouth.

"What did you say?"

"I'll walk you home."

The third time.

"No, no, what I just said is wrong," Li Bai shook his head, his side shoulders were pressed against the white wall, Yang Jian took a step forward, and he took a step back. He actually wanted to yawn, which made him extremely desperate "I was not sober just now. In fact, I also know that I often think about the wrong things in the wrong way. I went to the hospital two days ago. I asked the doctor you introduced. I will prescribe medicine and treat me. Mental illness! Just pretend that I didn’t say anything just now, brother, you feel sick and annoying, just forget about them, I’m sick, please forgive me!”

"It's you who are in too much pain." His eyes fell to the floor, Yang Jian covered his eyes, "I caused you too much pain."

"Don't forgive me, you forget me." He took a deep breath.

What are you talking about?Isn't it you who is suffering now?Aren't you crying?If I don't forgive you, how can I forget you.You can't forget it no matter what.Li Bai was confused again.He has already retreated to the corner, and there is no further place to go. He stared at the slight tremor of the shoulders in front of him.

Bride, blessings, fine clothes and food, all these good things will be available at dawn, after six o'clock, the sky should already be dawn, but Yang Jian looks like he has lost everything.

What made Li Bai even more bewildered was that he was staring so hard, but he couldn't restrain his heavy eyelids and closed them more and more frequently.He had no strength, as if he was stepping on a cloud, his five senses were blurred and became intermittent, he panicked, his soul was being drained by an indescribable force, and he still had so many words to say.

He didn't dare to hug Yang Jian, Yang Jian didn't want him to be a boneless bitch, so he could only lean against the wall desperately, the only thing he could try was to grab Yang Jian's hand and stab it several times before putting it in his trouser pocket. Wu Nuan's ring was on his ring finger, and he touched it several times.He does have a diamond ring.Then he didn't dare to withdraw his hand back greedily, with tears streaming down his face, saying I am in pain, I can't forget you I hate you, have you ever regretted it; said Ewedihalehu, let me tell you what it means, I love you very much Love you, my darling; say you're horrible I want to run; say don't let me go...

Probably said a lot of things that cannot be logically consistent, but they are all true thoughts. What's going on, Li Bai doesn't know.

He fell asleep.

Seeing Li Bai lying in his arms, Yang Jian began to feel the pain.He thought he had long since become numb to pain.He lost control just a little bit, he hid his face in front of Li Bai, he thought it was just because he was at a loss.Now he admits that this is pain, all internal organs, flesh and bones, all hurt.

He cushioned Li Bai with his shoulders, sat on the floor against the refrigerator, put his arms around him with one hand, and took the glass from the table with the other hand, and looked at it carefully.It was the one that Li Bai emptied. When pouring water, he turned his back to that person and crushed three pills of the medicine he took every day at the mouth of the cup.

Enough for Li Bai to sleep until the sky turns dark.

I guessed it at the time, if a soft heart brings people up, it will inevitably lead to failure.Li Bai is a child, is he still?So it was his fault.It's really impossible to end now, but fortunately his backup measures took effect in time, he should be lucky.

Yang Jian abruptly crushed the cup too.

It is the right hand that is not often used, and the left hand has a small shining light spot on it, which is used to hug Li Bai.The strength was quite strong, the shattering of the cup was no worse than a pill, it got blood on his hands.The roommate finally made some movement, maybe he woke up a long time ago, but he didn't dare to look too much, he just poked his head in from the edge of the door, and carefully reminded: "It's almost seven o'clock. I can go there before twelve o'clock, right?"

Yang Jian shook off a few pieces of broken glass stuck in his hands, and nodded to him.

The roommate hesitated to speak, and left the edge of the door.

Yang Jian cuddled for the last minute, got up and washed his hands, wrapped it briefly with toilet paper, then found out the roll of sponge sleeping mat that was borrowed and left here, spread it out in the old place, and carried the person on it.He didn't really want Li Bai to sleep on that smelly broken mattress.The contraction of his right hand was excruciatingly painful. He held his breath and twirled the ring on his ring finger, and finally took it off and placed it next to Li Bai's ear, with the diamond facing his ear.Afterwards, he simply became much more agile. He took off his messy body, put on that beautiful suit, and finally adjusted his hair in front of the mirror, and took the crowded morning elevator downstairs.

The Bentley team from the wedding company was already waiting. They were stunned by Yang Jian's image, shouting "I really don't need makeup", and they also made a fuss about the right hand that destroyed the harmony of the whole body.The blood seeped through the thick tissue, and they hurriedly called the medical team at the end of the line to press the groom on the back seat for professional bandaging.

Yang Jian cooperated very well, sprinkled alcohol on it, and picked the debris out of the wound with tweezers. He didn't make a sound, only a small assistant tapped his forehead with a handkerchief, wiping the cold sweat, for fear of messing up this amazing hairstyle.

"What did you do? Is the glass broken? Suisui is safe, Suisui is safe! Fortunately, it is not left-handed, so it will not delay wearing the ring!" They said this, still beaming, as if saying this would win a good fortune.

Facts have proved that there is indeed no delay.

The whole morning hurried past step by step, the bustling meeting of relatives, the Shunfeng Hotel hidden in the garden of the busy city, the welcome and delivery at the entrance of the hotel...they were enough to fill up these few hours.Outside the banquet hall filled with dozens of tables, before the newcomers entered the venue, Li Li whispered in Yang Jian's ear, "It's really right to find you, you are such a good actor."

Yang Jian smiled at her, thinking that it was indeed the case, and there was no need to mention the hundreds of invitations he had copied by hand. This seemed to have nothing to do with his acting skills. He just talked about the effect he had achieved this morning, his realistic fake smiles, and the intimacy that came easily , not just "father-in-law and mother-in-law", everyone in the hall believed it, including his few old friends, they all believed that he was happily married, and finally accepted a girl and got rid of all kinds of bad habits , married the only person he wanted to marry.

Oh, except for Yang Yuqiu.She actually believed it a little bit, right?She always believed what she wanted to believe.Apart from his roommate, he had seen a lot before, and now he took off his rimless glasses and was nervously eating melon seeds among a group of strangers.

Of course he will keep it secret, he also wants to get investment.

It is not good?

Only you can see the disgust.

The wedding went on smoothly, the master of ceremonies invited a famous host, and the whole venue had a warm atmosphere of a festive party.Yang Jian's calm has also continued steadily.After all, the feeling of nausea is really common, and it has long been difficult for him.Standing at the end of the flower road, waiting for the boss of "Knowledge of Encounter" to lead his precious daughter into his hands, he suddenly lost his mind.

Maybe it’s because the shortening of a section of road, no matter how long or short it is, will put tension on people. For no reason, Yang Jian remembered that before Li Bai fell asleep, he desperately opened his eyes that were swollen from crying, and asked him if he had any regrets.

The answer is not no.

But there is no way.Two roads have been considered long ago, and there are only two remaining.It's just that if this one works, he won't try the more extreme one.In the wedding car, I also received a text message from Gao Jie, a yin and yang blessing, meaning that I understand what you are doing, Yang Jian replied: Thank you.Force yourself to keep thinking: You're not worth my stupid brain.

So let's go, it should work.Yang Jian showed a happy smile, looking indifferently at the bride who floated like a white cloud holding her loving father's arm, and looked at her lamb-like eyes. Standing in this position, wouldn't anyone be able to imagine the future?He just wanted this to end soon.

Yang Jian once thought that his energy was unlimited, maybe this is a common problem that all young boys have, he firmly believed that even if God wanted to push him into the mud to suffocate, he could still crawl out to catch his breath.Now he clearly sees the edge that belongs to him, it is a cliff, and there is a deep moat in front of him. He has thrown everything away and calculated the limit. All he wants is to rush to the opposite ground and get rid of the coveted wild dogs behind him. He wanted to keep running.But he has to be careful not to fall apart at all times, especially when he is in the air.

It now appears to be a safe landing.

Yang Jian had passed his limit, he didn't show any abnormality, he hugged Li Li, the piano music was playing to the climax, they were about to put on rings for each other.

The ground is right in front of you, if it hurts, then it hurts.

But he heard a shout protruding like a spike amidst the music and cheers.

"Wait a moment!"

One foot in the air.This is Li Bai's voice.