quail

Li Bai was stunned.

ruthless.Vicious, vicious, ruthless.Does it mean that he hurt Yang Jian?

Yang Jian seemed to be injured.

He raised his hand, trying to touch Yang Jian's eye sockets, but was avoided.Yang Jian stood up, and there seemed to be a glass curtain standing up together, covered with broken light and flattened, between the two of them, Yang Jian just looked at him from a distance, "I thought psychological counseling It can be used as a starting point for counseling, so that you don’t feel so uncomfortable every day, and it doesn’t mean to force you. If you resist like this, it’s fine if you don’t come in the future.”

"I didn't mean that...I didn't!" Li Bai jumped up, and with a bang, he bumped into Yang Jian's shoulder. He didn't know if the glass was broken, "Scared, just scared."

"What are you afraid of?"

Li Bai opened his mouth, but forgot to take a breath, as if he choked abruptly.

"I'm afraid he will ask me so much."

"I'm afraid he will remember it."

"...I'm afraid you'll dislike me."

There was no surprise on Yang Jian's face, as if he had expected that Li Bai would say that sooner or later.In fact, this does not play any role in explaining. I am afraid that in the final analysis of this word, isn’t it still distrustful?However, it doesn't seem to matter whether the 300 yuan that Li Bai talked about just now was a misunderstanding or a fact.Anyway, red eyes can recover quickly, and the mind can quickly blow down the temperature when it is hot. Yang Jian's calmness comes so simply and completely.He took half a step back, just because he could see Li Bai more completely because he stood far away, and then quietly waited for Li Bai to continue talking.

Facing such silence, Li Bai's whole body was tense, suppressed and trembling. He knew that he could no longer find a place to hide, and waited for others to ask and guess. Yang Jian wanted to open his mouth. Too easy, as long as silence is enough.But Yang Jian was so far away from him, the distance was unbearable, Li Bai rushed forward, grabbed the collars on both sides and pressed him against the willow tree trunk, his jacket was rustling, "Do you understand this feeling? Brother! I am, right now, living a very comfortable life, I have... many, many things, you, many, many, love." The last word was bitten weakly, as if I didn't dare to say too much so that Yang Jian could hear it clearly , but they were still too close, too close.He was at a loss again and said: "So I think that once these are gone one day, you... despise me, find me annoying, and I will go back to the previous situation alone, I may, and I will never recover."

Yang Jian remained motionless, resting his pillow on a tumor on the tree, letting him press it to the bottom, a smile floated in his eyes, and he couldn't find it after a flash: "Forever, I must use this word."

"But you understand, right?" Li Bai's voice suddenly increased, almost eagerly, he tiptoed and moved forward again, almost touching Yang Jian's face.

The answer I got was: "I will not get myself to the point where I need to worry about being disgusted by others."

This is the truth, but it is also because it is so true that it is undoubtedly a bit cruel to Li Bai.Yang Jian suddenly grabbed him by the collar and pushed him against the tree trunk with his backhand, his eyes fell from a high place, and with the strength of his hands that he didn't usually use, a few leaves were shaken off.Yang Jian hated being suppressed and fixed, and Li Bai remembered it.His legs were weak, and he felt dizzy. He looked at the sharp Adam's apple and blue blood vessels in front of him.He would feel better if he was beaten hard next time, but Yang Jian didn't move, just kept silent.

The tree tumor ran to the top of his head, and there was another step standing in front of him. The real marble stretches continuously, covering the whole world. The big characters on the facade read "Welcome to climb", but this facade is bigger than his whole. People are taller.

Can't climb up.

His body clings to the willow obediently, without any intention of struggling, he lowers his head and smiles: "Yeah. I've always done stupid things, I'm fragile and sensitive, I cause trouble but I don't know how to solve it. Then you help me, You catch me, you clean up the mess. That's why I came to the point you said." After a pause, his voice became deeper and deeper, "Actually, I've been thinking, can you also become A person like me? You also cry in my arms, you are also disheartened, and tell me that you don’t want to see people anymore, and that you can find a hole in the ground for the two of us to live in. If you are tired, you can sleep and dig if you are not tired. Dirt, dug all the way to Turkey and never came back. Man, really, I wouldn't bother with that at all, I'd be happy, we're the same people."

"It's a pity that we can't do it." Yang Jian said, taking it for granted, he would never become that kind of person.

"You're not as miserable as you think," he added, "You're very sensible and have helped me a lot. If the status quo is maintained between the two of us, I can accept it."

"Acceptable?" Li Bai's shoulders shook suddenly.

"can you accept?"

Of course I can, Li Bai stared at the grass sprouts on the ground and thought, what I didn't know was that you would use the word "accept".

His hands were tucked inside his cuffs and he clenched the fabric tightly. He finally raised his face and insisted on facing Yang Jian: "But there are many problems that have not been solved, and they may become more serious!"

Yang Jian loosened his collar, walked around to stand downwind, and lit a cigarette.The smoke was wrapped in tiny sparks, and together with his gaze, he drifted to a place farther away from Li Bai, "Say."

"You're too tired." Li Bai still stared straight at him, now at the corner of his mouth, "Your pressure keeps adding up, so you're always tired."

Yang Jian laughed again. He looked at Li Bai and asked sincerely: "Is this a problem between the two of us?"

"But I think it's very unfair." Li Bai didn't look away, "You really don't have to be so anxious, brother, that Gao Jie, I don't think my sister wants to run away from him at all, she herself is not in a hurry— "

"She is anxious," Yang Jian interrupted, "There is no need to discuss."

"Okay," Li Bai sniffed, "Then we can work hard together. I have saved more than 8 yuan in the past few years. Two days ago, a crew invited me to go abroad. I will go abroad with them for more than half a year. I haven't agreed yet, but if I go, I can earn another 100 to [-] yuan. The introducer has guaranteed me a ticket. Does my sister have a beauty salon? I haven't asked, but she doesn't make money, right? The [-] million you mentioned is not just for yourself, it’s too unfair for you to bear all of it.”

Yang Jian was quiet for a while, the cigarette was exhausted quickly, more than half was sucked by the wind, he snuffed out the cigarette butt, put it in his pocket, and then said: "You know what I think is the most unfair thing? Human Live itself."

"What?" Li Bai asked blankly.

"Whether a person is born or not is chosen for him by others, and the combination of two chromosomes to form life is itself an accidental event." Yang Jian puts his pockets and looks at the sky: "It was wrong from the beginning, and the influence of the mistake will last until the end. , so people think about whether it is fair or not, it is pure self-torture."

"That's not the case," Li Bai subconsciously said, "You can't choose life, but you can die. Everyone must die, and death is fair!"

Yang Jian felt complacent when he heard this: "I don't want to die yet."

"No, no, I don't want to, we digressed, I just want to say, don't you feel tired, don't you worry that you can't take it?" Li Bai said anxiously, the more calm Yang Jian was, the more his heart burned. Wang, "You push yourself too hard!"

"So it made you feel the pressure too?"

Li Bai's chest rose and fell: "...I worry about you just like you worry about me."

This kind of sunny and cold early spring is still too dry, and Yang Jian's voice is a little hoarse. He looked at Li Bai helplessly and quite seriously: "I know. A friend said before that my way of living is 'unsustainable development'. Looking for death, when you get older, you may run out of energy and lose your passion for life, and find a civil servant, teacher, or other iron rice bowl, and spend half your life in the office. I thought this is fucking good? You can swim leisurely I can't wait to make tea and read newspapers. As for the passion of life, it is the level of his kind of people who have the time to think about it. Dad is the boss of a state-owned enterprise with the prefix Chinese prefix, and he himself is like Lin Daiyu. .”

"Now?" Li Bai calmed down a little, took a deep breath, took out a small bottle of Wahaha from the inner pocket of his padded jacket, unscrewed it, and handed it to Yang Jian. The bottle was returned to him, "How is your friend now?"

Yang Jian showed a little surprise. He drank most of the bottle of mineral water made out of the treasure chest, "I was missing for a while, but he was found by his partner again. He must be helping his father recently."

"What about you now? Do you think it's good to have an iron rice bowl that's easy and safe?"

"No," Yang Jian squeezed the small red and white plastic bottle and Wang Leehom's face was distorted. "After going too fast, slowing down will feel like a waste of life. Even if there is no pressure, it is the best thing for me. Terrible or stop."

Li Bai squinted his eyes. He never thought that he would ask such a question, nor would he get such an answer.He just wanted to talk about feelings, he thought that all he cared about was feelings, how could he talk about life?What a miserable life.

The cumulus clouds were blown away, and the sun hung high there, as bright as if there was no atmospheric barrier. He saw Yang Jian's shining eyes and his wings.Yang Jian can still fly, no matter how embarrassing and painstaking he is, he can still fly, and even the dust pile can make a phoenix feather.Those nasty things that seem big to me are never the focus. They may have been the initial drive, but they cannot become barriers that block the way.

Li Bai's feet seemed to have collapsed, and he finally realized that if Gao Jie quit one day and respectfully offered a toast to Yang Jian and apologized at the table, even if Gao Jie died, Yang Jian would still not be able to be a quail watching nests in the sand , the noisy penguin on the Antarctic ice, he can still fly, and fly farther.

How could there be such a terrible motivation in a person?Can't be blinded, can't be extinguished!It will only grow calmly and steadily.The fragility that was revealed on that person just now because of himself was like an illusion.At one thought, Li Bai almost hated this motivation.He wanted to make a warm and soft nest for Yang Jian, he wanted to keep warm next to the glacier next to his stomach, he even thought about laying eggs on some nights like the sea, but he didn't dare to think about breaking his wings... It's all the fault of the store There are too many animal worlds on TV, and he feels that it is not good to be a human being.

But Yang Jian is still talking, smiling, he has a lot of fears and worries about others, you have to be happy, just pay attention to the thing you are most afraid of.

Li Bai listened to each word, but Yang Jian spoke slowly and gently, but he could hear them vaguely. The sun shining on the new branches was very beautiful, but he found it dazzling.Probably because he looks depressed and confused now, Yang Jian feels very pitiful.

During the few seconds when he wanted to cry, there was music coming from somewhere far away, probably a popular song, or it seemed to come from the crosswalk on the opposite side, or it seemed to come from the hospital. It sounds good, sad and beautiful, and the rustling among the pines and willows is like singing harmony.

Li Bai looked at Yang Jian sourly, but saw that the man also listened attentively, sighed suddenly, raised his hand, and put his fingertips on Li Bai's forehead, and picked off a piece of withered grass.

Yes, you ask me, what are you most afraid of?Li Bai sniffed the smell of tobacco between his fingers. It was a little strange. It was the kind of cigarette that Yang Jian bought recently. It had a hard red shell with the word "Nanjing" printed on it.Nanjing.The most frightening thing for me, he kept thinking... just now, the relationship problem that was tossing and turning in his heart, which exhausted the two of them, seems to have an answer at the same time, the most frightening thing is behind you... Gradually become transparent me.

You will never grow wings, and you will never be qualified to drag you down together.

He hugged Yang Jian violently, buried his face on his shoulder and closed his eyelids tightly, but the tears still seemed to seep out.He was not pushed away, Yang Jian seemed to forgive him, and it seemed that he was simply tired. Li Bai didn't dare to think deeply, and he didn't dare to let Yang Jian notice. A small patch of fresh green mottled turf was wetted on the ground, and Li Bai was speechless. He should be happy that a wordless reconciliation was reached because of a song.When the singing approached and disappeared in the distance, and only the annoying wind remained in their ears, they still hugged each other.

What happened that day, Yang Jian seemed to have forgotten the next day.As the days went by, he got up and went to work before dawn as usual, buttoned up his shirt and stuck it in Li Bai's ear and said "bye", bought breakfast downstairs, and climbed up to put a portion on the dining table. Soy milk was always added. A lot of sugar; at noon, he replied to Li Bai as usual, "I ate a box lunch", and then picked out another small piece of chicken from the scallion and dried peppers of Kung Pao Chicken, and swallowed it with a large piece of rice; Falling asleep, he pulled out the key as usual, and saw Li Bai coming out of the kitchen with freshly fried dishes. When he took off his coat and changed his shoes, Li Bai put his apron on the back of his chair; On the bed, he was still asleep as usual, so he burrowed into Li Bai's arms, dreaming, stretching his arms and legs, and hitting Li Bai's face.

Li Bai is often still suffering from insomnia, and should be more awake after being touched, but he will hug Yang Jian even tighter, with one leg on his waist as if hugging, and then quickly fall asleep.

This is also the normal state in the past. Except that the heating stops and no need to change the rag at night, everything seems to have not changed.

So Li Bai let himself forget what happened that day.

On a Wednesday at the end of March, Li Bai took a day off after working continuously for ten days in Long's head. He took the bus to find the furniture market he had been optimistic about before, and bought the big sofa he had been longing for.Red, cotton and linen fabric with a comfortable touch, moderate elasticity is hardly second-hand, and the three small ones can perfectly fit the dead corners of the wall, forming an L shape.

On the return journey, I hired a small bread, and the disassembled sofas were piled up together. The driver next to him insisted that no one could fit in the seat, but Li Bai took off his coat and curled up his limbs, and he really stuffed himself in. His body is indeed soft. , no discomfort other than shortness of breath.I hurried back to Haidian from Fengtai before the evening rush hour. There were only two people working up and down the stairs. It was already painful to move the sofa up and down. Li Bai paid the driver the fare and the coolie fee, and lay on the new cushion. , and then giggled for a while.

After he recovered his breath, he jumped up again and began to remove the back cushion and seat cushion cover. He had to clean each one carefully to ensure that there was no dirty smell from home. He and Yang Jian lay on it to watch DVDs and drink on it. , or there is no clothes to roll on it... He won't feel uncomfortable.After drying, it was already dark, and Li Bai sat back on his bare sponge cushion and bounced happily. He almost wanted to clap his hands and applaud. This should be the feeling of playing on a trampoline. The soreness in his arms and waist seems to have disappeared.Li Bai took out his mobile phone from the sofa, and wanted to tell Yang Jian that today I was treating you to a restaurant, but he received a text message from him saying that he would not be coming back tonight.

It's okay, Li Bai threw off the cotton mop and squatted on the cushion, thinking, anyway, now that the outer cover is not dry, my sofa is not complete.

Yang Jian still couldn't come back the next day, and it was still the same on the third day.On the fourth day, Li Bai got off work very early, and the covers were completely dry, without any moisture. Li Bai dusted off the cotton dust, put them on one by one, smoothed every crease, and smelled the scent of Li Bai, reluctant to go up. sit.This is a brand new sofa, it is the first time it is being sat on, and he cannot be the only one.

He went into the kitchen to choose dishes.

Yang Jian said that he was going home tonight, and when the three dishes were on the table, and the main dish, the braised octopus was already cooked, Yang Jian knocked on the door.The key chain was still in his hand, so he wanted Li Bai to open the door and poke his head out to look at him. He told Li Bai that he came back directly from the agency, and the invention patent that had been reviewed for more than three years was finally authorized. Two, covered with the red seal of the State Patent Office, was invented by him and belongs to their 3T studio.

Want to get rich?Li Bai asked.

Yang Jian laughed and said, superficial!Then I explained a lot to him, and even forgot to close the door, the whole person was radiant, with a look that made people unconsciously hold their breath.He held the two documents in the palm of his hand and showed them to Li Bai, one with a thick copy of the attachment, and then solemnly put it back in the file bag.What was the preliminary design when he was in college, what was the decoupling, what was the uplink and downlink, and what was the shabby product that he learned from them in the Zhongfa electronic market, all of which have become shameful pirated copies. Li Bai listened carefully and tried to He heard every noun clearly and memorized it. He put his arms around Yang Jian's shoulders that were throbbing with excitement, and led him to lie down on the baby sofa that had become a supporting role, face to face, watching Yang Jian's bright smile.

Although he basically couldn't understand what Yang Jian was saying, he was sure that Yang Jian was a genius.

For Li Bai, the concept of invention patent is too far away after all. He figured out some new hairstyles and cutting methods by himself, and his colleagues have no reason to ask others to settle accounts if they want to imitate him.But from his superficial perspective, things like patents do seem to make fortunes.Liu Haichuan called again, but this time it was him himself. He no longer hid behind his mother, and called Yang Jian brothers and sisters with a smile, recalling the glorious past.The rimless glasses of another partner also don't want to go home to take the civil service exam to support his parents' retirement. Sometimes Li Bai takes food and fruit to the studio to watch Yang Jian, and he can also see that he is full of energy crackling in front of the computer.

At the same time, there are opportunities to distribute brochures at trade fairs with patent certificates, and what you get is no longer full of blank eyes and rejections. It is framed and hung on the wall of the studio, and the word 3T does not seem so shabby.The entrepreneur father of Ms. Li Li will come to Beijing for a meeting, and by the way, look at some entrepreneurial projects of college students.Last time in Shenzhen, he obviously had a good impression of Yang Jian. There was a dinner in the industry, and he asked Li Li to invite Yang Jian.

The dinner is scheduled for a Friday in early April, starting at 07:30 in the evening. The Shunfeng Cantonese Restaurant next to Peking University specializes in small private seafood, which is in line with Mr. Li's taste.That day, Li Bai only felt that he was the one who went to the battlefield. He plucked some white hairs for Yang, combed his hairstyle, supervised him to put on the Armani tie that was unpacked for the first time, put on brand new high-end leather shoes, Freshly printed business cards.Everything was ready, Li Bai didn't say a word, he wanted to find a camera, he wanted to take pictures, because now Yang Jian really looks like a movie star.

Then the movie star dragged the frustrated kid in the white T-shirt and blue denim downstairs together. Li Bai was going to the shop to teach two apprentices how to cut a new bob hairstyle, and Yang Jian rode a motorcycle, and dropped him off at the bus stop.

However, Beijing was cloudy and rainy in those few days, and the sunshine and warmth of early spring were not seen. What was once expensive as oil was reduced to waste water, mixed with mud and blocked in front of the apartment buildings, and the traces of bicycle tires were everywhere.The rain has stopped, and the air is soft and damp, as if in the mountains.

The voice-activated light went off, and Li Bai suddenly grabbed Yang Jian at the door, and squatted halfway in front of him, "Come on."

Yang Jian leaned against his ear and touched his forehead.

"I don't have a fever," Li Bai patted him backhanded, "I won't do it if I carry you to the carport. The main reason is that the new shoes are dirty."

Yang Jian sighed, people seem to be more precious than shoes, he was joking with Li Bai, but he still honestly made people recite it.There was only a section of less than 200 meters away. Li Bai walked fast, afraid that if his anger relaxed, someone would turn his back on his back. The more nervous he was, the more restless his mouth would be, "Hey, why are you so heavy?" Panting roughly, he whispered, "It looks tall and thin, much heavier than when it was pressing me on the bed."

"Can you use all your strength when pressing you?" Yang Jian smiled, put his hands on his chest, and clasped them, "You don't know how to back someone up."

Li Bai changed his mind at the station and refused to get off the bus. Anyway, it was still early, so he asked Yang Jian to go to the entrance of the high-end hotel to have a look, and then change to another bus line to go to Cuiwei.Yang Jian had no objection to this, but just started the motorcycle again, drove through the stagnant water on the side of the road and continued to move forward, as if he was not afraid of splashing mud on the hem of his long windbreaker.

When we arrived at Shunfeng, we really wanted to say goodbye. There was a huge plaque with four big characters of "Shunfeng Restaurant" written in Han Li. Inside was a small garden like a palace, and further inside was a flat hotel building. There was only one Level, does not accept public customers.Yang Jian was invited here to run errands to stop the drink. He also knew that it was right to go in more than an hour in advance to arrange chores and wait for guests. The only free space he had was that he could lead Li Bai for a simple stroll in the small garden It was so dark that I couldn't see anything clearly, I could only hear the flowing water on the small bridge.At the end of a section of cobblestone road, Li Bai was about to go back the same way, but Yang Jian suddenly grabbed him and took out a small cardboard box from the inner pocket of the windbreaker.

There was liquid swaying, it was heavy and still warm, it was put into Li Bai's cold hands.Li Bai felt the straw was plugged in, carefully took two sips, it was milk, the same temperature as Yang Jian.He said to Yang Jian, "I drank you."

"Be careful on the road." Yang Jian shook his hand.

"I...can't finish it," Li Bai said with a mysterious tone, laughing, "If you drink it up, you'll be gone."

Yang Jian looked away from the brightly lit hotel door, pulled him into his arms, touched his cold hair with the tip of his nose, "Aren't you talking, why are you starting to write poetry?"

Maybe he was just talking casually, just like Li Bai teased him, he always liked to tease Li Bai's unusual name, as if those two words were so cute and worthy of attention.But he didn't know how Li Bai would give up and leave after saying this.How charming is the temperature in the windbreaker.There's nothing wrong with being a milk carton.Li Bai moved slowly along the stone road, but he didn't leave the garden. He hid behind a rockery nearby and watched Yang Jian stop in front of the door for a while before walking into the light. Several groups of guests passed by him, among them There was Li Li's voice in one dial.The air is still moist and soft, and with the smell of plants, it is more like being in the mountains.

When they also passed by, Li Bai followed quietly. He hid behind the big blue and white porcelain vase at the door and saw a petite figure with a knee-length skirt and a small fur coat. Li Li straightened her hair and cut it short. Some, just covering the length of the blade, sweep like a waterfall.

Representatives sent by the two apprentices sent text messages, and Bai Ge called Bai Ge.Li Bai squatted in the shadow behind the porcelain vase, and replied five words: I will study by myself tonight.

The group of people didn't enter the corner of the corridor when he lowered his head, and disappeared when he raised his head. In the splendor and splendor, Li Bai couldn't tell which room Yang Jian was in.He couldn't even see the doors, couldn't get in, and had no reason to go in.If he immediately turned into a puppy, supported by the smell, he might be less confused.What are you looking at?He often does this, outside a building that has swallowed Yang Jian, through many brick walls, watching, watching, and watching.An ordinary layer, but now it seems to be looking up.

Li Bai only knew that his time was always meaningless, and he was willing to spend such a meaningless night like this.

However, he hadn't finished half of the grinding, a few minutes before nine o'clock, he received a text message from Yang Yuqiu.

noob.noob.noob.Ding ding ding sent three messages in a row.

Article [-] She said: Where do you live now?Is there a place to keep me for a few days?

Article [-] She said: Help me.